Danger Line (re-write)
Running Away From Happiness
I stood in front of the mirror admiring myself, the gorgeous dress that was maybe a little too much, my hair was pinned up in so many ways with a few loose curls framing my face, my makeup was elegant, my nails were perfectly manicured, I was ready to go.
“The wonders makeup can do, huh?” My father’s voice came from behind me, making me turn around to face him, where he was standing in the door way, a huge smile on his face.
“What do you really think?” I asked with a smirk, holding the skirt of my dress out, twirling from side to side a few times, listening to the rustling of the material.
“You’ve never looked more beautiful,” He dabbed at his eye and I gave him a surprised look “And I’m a proud father, but I’m not too proud to cry,”
“Let’s get this show on the road then,” I smiled, picking up my bouquet and leaving the room.
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We were standing inside of the church, my bridesmaids were walking down the aisle and I was impatiently waiting for the music to change, I desperately wanted my cue to come, run down the aisle and give myself to Sam for the rest of my life.
“Don’t be so nervous,” Dad whispered into my ear “He loves you, he’s in there, you love him, you’re about to be down there, you’re going to be his wife and nothing is going to go wrong, not today,”
“Am I doing the right thing?” I asked “I mean, I know what Sam and Dean do, but what we do is so much worse than that, dangerous, and I don’t want to be putting Sam in unnecessary danger,”
“He knows what you do,” He told me “And he’s been with you this long, and is willing to be with you for a lot longer, I doubt he’s worried about danger,”
“But am I doing the right thing?” I asked just as the music changed.
“I’d say that’s a judgement call, but just remember, I can get us two tickets to Vegas for fifty bucks,”
I just laughed a little and leaned my head on his shoulder. They re-opened the doors and we started to walk.
As I neared the end of the aisle, as I got closer and closer to Sam, I thought back to the night he proposed to me on my nineteenth birthday, we were already in college together, he wanted to be a lawyer and I wanted to be an actress. The whole thing was beautiful and everyone on campus, was there to see it, my dad, uncles, brother and Erin were all there to see it, too.
“Snap out of it,” Dad whispered in my ear, then I realised, we were at the bottom of the steps, I was at the end of the aisle.
I looked up and my eyes landed on Sam.
“Hi,” I whispered up to him.
“Hi,” He breathed, sounding somewhat relieved.
Dad helped me up the steps and I handed my bouquet to Erin, my best friend and maid of honour, and turned back to face Sam.
“Dearly beloved,” The registrar started “We are gathered here today, to celebrate the joining of Sam and Hannah, in holy matrimony,”
I glanced over Sam’s shoulder at his brother, Dean, who couldn’t look more proud of his little brother.
“Who gives this woman?” The registrar asked.
“I do,” Dad answered before kissing my temple and placing my hand in Sam’s.
“If anyone knows of any lawful reason why these two should not be married, please, speak now, or may he forever hold his peace,”
I smiled at Sam who was nervously glancing around the room, giving a silent warning to everyone here not to say anything, he wanted this more than anyone and I was aware of that, but did he really know how endangered his life would be if he married me?
“Good,” The registrar chuckled “It’s very rare we actually have someone say something,”
Everyone laughed.
I couldn’t stop my thoughts now. I love Sam more than anything in this world and I knew from the day that I met him that one day we would get married and have kids, but that was before I knew how dangerous I was. Everyone around me gets hurt and sometimes… worse. I don’t want that for him, I want him to be safe and happy, not have something horrible happen to him, or Dean for that matter, and then resent me for the rest of his life.
Was marrying him really what was best?
“Do you Sam Winchester, take Hannah Grace Hetfield to be your lawfully wedded wife?” I took a deep breath as I watched Sam smile at me, and attempted to smile back “In sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for as long as you both shall live?”
“I do,” He said, causing audible sighs of relief to escape some people on either sides of the church.
“Do you Hannah Grace Hetfield, take Sam Winchester to be your lawfully wedded husband?” I slowly let my breath out “In sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for as long as you both shall live?”
I could feel everyone’s eyes on me, everyone in my family; my father, my brother, my ‘uncles’ and ‘cousins’. My bridesmaids behind me and my friends sitting behind my family, all of the other gangs that my father had ever done business with, from Disturbed to Avenged Sevenfold all the way at the back.
I could almost hear Dean standing behind his brother, chanting over and over in his head for me to say those two words and allow his little brother’s happiness to continue for the rest of his life, his father was watching me as I started to suffocate silently as I refused to take another breath.
Everyone in the room was waiting for me to say those two words, but those two words would lead to Sam’s death… and I couldn’t do that.
“Hannah?” William asked over and over, snapping me out of my little trance.
“I… I… I don’t,” I choked.
Everyone in the room gasped before they started to talk amongst themselves. The look on Sam’s face broke my heart. He was already crying.
“What?” He whispered
“Sam,” I whispered, tears filling my eyes “I can’t do this to you,”
“Do what?” He scoffed with a small laugh “Make me the happiest man alive? Become my wife and give me everything I’ve ever wanted since I was fifteen years old?”
“If I marry you, here, today, wherever, whenever… it’s going to bring the end of your life a Hell of a lot quicker, and I love you, I love you more than I ever thought possible and today was supposed to be the happiest day of my life, but, I couldn’t live with myself if I was the reason your amazing life ended so soon,” I looked around and then back to him “One day, you’ll find someone who you love as much as you love me, and who loves you as much as I love you, but she won’t be as dangerous as me, okay?”
“Hannah, no-“
“I love you,” I whispered as I slipped the engagement ring off of my finger, placed it in his up-turned palm and closed his fist over the diamond “Give it to someone who deserves it more than I ever did,”
I picked up the skirt of my dress and ran; down the steps and up the aisle.
“Where are you going?!” He shouted after me.
“I don’t know!” I called over my shoulder “But I’ll let someone know when I get there!”
I swung the doors open and ran out of the church and as my foot hit the concrete, the heavens opened and rained down on me, washing off my makeup, ruining my hair and soaking my dress right through to my skin.
The sound of my heels on the concrete alongside the sound of my pounding heart was all I could hear.
By the time I should have been leaving the church as Mrs Hannah Grace Winchester, I was sitting on the pier by the lake where I spent the entire summer, thirteen years old, with Sam; my tears pouring between my ring-less fingers.
“The wonders makeup can do, huh?” My father’s voice came from behind me, making me turn around to face him, where he was standing in the door way, a huge smile on his face.
“What do you really think?” I asked with a smirk, holding the skirt of my dress out, twirling from side to side a few times, listening to the rustling of the material.
“You’ve never looked more beautiful,” He dabbed at his eye and I gave him a surprised look “And I’m a proud father, but I’m not too proud to cry,”
“Let’s get this show on the road then,” I smiled, picking up my bouquet and leaving the room.
~~~~
We were standing inside of the church, my bridesmaids were walking down the aisle and I was impatiently waiting for the music to change, I desperately wanted my cue to come, run down the aisle and give myself to Sam for the rest of my life.
“Don’t be so nervous,” Dad whispered into my ear “He loves you, he’s in there, you love him, you’re about to be down there, you’re going to be his wife and nothing is going to go wrong, not today,”
“Am I doing the right thing?” I asked “I mean, I know what Sam and Dean do, but what we do is so much worse than that, dangerous, and I don’t want to be putting Sam in unnecessary danger,”
“He knows what you do,” He told me “And he’s been with you this long, and is willing to be with you for a lot longer, I doubt he’s worried about danger,”
“But am I doing the right thing?” I asked just as the music changed.
“I’d say that’s a judgement call, but just remember, I can get us two tickets to Vegas for fifty bucks,”
I just laughed a little and leaned my head on his shoulder. They re-opened the doors and we started to walk.
As I neared the end of the aisle, as I got closer and closer to Sam, I thought back to the night he proposed to me on my nineteenth birthday, we were already in college together, he wanted to be a lawyer and I wanted to be an actress. The whole thing was beautiful and everyone on campus, was there to see it, my dad, uncles, brother and Erin were all there to see it, too.
“Snap out of it,” Dad whispered in my ear, then I realised, we were at the bottom of the steps, I was at the end of the aisle.
I looked up and my eyes landed on Sam.
“Hi,” I whispered up to him.
“Hi,” He breathed, sounding somewhat relieved.
Dad helped me up the steps and I handed my bouquet to Erin, my best friend and maid of honour, and turned back to face Sam.
“Dearly beloved,” The registrar started “We are gathered here today, to celebrate the joining of Sam and Hannah, in holy matrimony,”
I glanced over Sam’s shoulder at his brother, Dean, who couldn’t look more proud of his little brother.
“Who gives this woman?” The registrar asked.
“I do,” Dad answered before kissing my temple and placing my hand in Sam’s.
“If anyone knows of any lawful reason why these two should not be married, please, speak now, or may he forever hold his peace,”
I smiled at Sam who was nervously glancing around the room, giving a silent warning to everyone here not to say anything, he wanted this more than anyone and I was aware of that, but did he really know how endangered his life would be if he married me?
“Good,” The registrar chuckled “It’s very rare we actually have someone say something,”
Everyone laughed.
I couldn’t stop my thoughts now. I love Sam more than anything in this world and I knew from the day that I met him that one day we would get married and have kids, but that was before I knew how dangerous I was. Everyone around me gets hurt and sometimes… worse. I don’t want that for him, I want him to be safe and happy, not have something horrible happen to him, or Dean for that matter, and then resent me for the rest of his life.
Was marrying him really what was best?
“Do you Sam Winchester, take Hannah Grace Hetfield to be your lawfully wedded wife?” I took a deep breath as I watched Sam smile at me, and attempted to smile back “In sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for as long as you both shall live?”
“I do,” He said, causing audible sighs of relief to escape some people on either sides of the church.
“Do you Hannah Grace Hetfield, take Sam Winchester to be your lawfully wedded husband?” I slowly let my breath out “In sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for as long as you both shall live?”
I could feel everyone’s eyes on me, everyone in my family; my father, my brother, my ‘uncles’ and ‘cousins’. My bridesmaids behind me and my friends sitting behind my family, all of the other gangs that my father had ever done business with, from Disturbed to Avenged Sevenfold all the way at the back.
I could almost hear Dean standing behind his brother, chanting over and over in his head for me to say those two words and allow his little brother’s happiness to continue for the rest of his life, his father was watching me as I started to suffocate silently as I refused to take another breath.
Everyone in the room was waiting for me to say those two words, but those two words would lead to Sam’s death… and I couldn’t do that.
“Hannah?” William asked over and over, snapping me out of my little trance.
“I… I… I don’t,” I choked.
Everyone in the room gasped before they started to talk amongst themselves. The look on Sam’s face broke my heart. He was already crying.
“What?” He whispered
“Sam,” I whispered, tears filling my eyes “I can’t do this to you,”
“Do what?” He scoffed with a small laugh “Make me the happiest man alive? Become my wife and give me everything I’ve ever wanted since I was fifteen years old?”
“If I marry you, here, today, wherever, whenever… it’s going to bring the end of your life a Hell of a lot quicker, and I love you, I love you more than I ever thought possible and today was supposed to be the happiest day of my life, but, I couldn’t live with myself if I was the reason your amazing life ended so soon,” I looked around and then back to him “One day, you’ll find someone who you love as much as you love me, and who loves you as much as I love you, but she won’t be as dangerous as me, okay?”
“Hannah, no-“
“I love you,” I whispered as I slipped the engagement ring off of my finger, placed it in his up-turned palm and closed his fist over the diamond “Give it to someone who deserves it more than I ever did,”
I picked up the skirt of my dress and ran; down the steps and up the aisle.
“Where are you going?!” He shouted after me.
“I don’t know!” I called over my shoulder “But I’ll let someone know when I get there!”
I swung the doors open and ran out of the church and as my foot hit the concrete, the heavens opened and rained down on me, washing off my makeup, ruining my hair and soaking my dress right through to my skin.
The sound of my heels on the concrete alongside the sound of my pounding heart was all I could hear.
By the time I should have been leaving the church as Mrs Hannah Grace Winchester, I was sitting on the pier by the lake where I spent the entire summer, thirteen years old, with Sam; my tears pouring between my ring-less fingers.
Notes
Hi guys! So, I know that my story Danger Line was the most popular story I've written on my own, but, I thought that I could re-do it and make it a little better.Metallica will be in this story a lot more, the story line and how Hannah comes to marry Matt while be a bit different, but overall, it's the same, just a little revamped and this is also a SURPRISE for my best friend elovebakervengeance!! I hope you love this!
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1/16/15