Show Me Your Rock Star Life!

Lana's POV.


I wish I could have tell you that everything was fine between me and James, but would have been a total lie. Val gave birth to her baby lately, a tiny little girl but very healthy one. James and I were trying as hard as we could for having a baby, for at least a year. Didn't work. I blamed it on me and he was losing his mind about it. The tension between us was awful to live. I guess the pressure he was putting on my shoulders wasn't helping at all. We couldn't keep on like this. He was getting more than aggressive with me. Drinking more often. I wish I could have tell you that this love story ended like in a fairy tales. They lived happily ever after and had a lot of little kids.. For the moment, it wasn't ready for that. It was even more killing us cause Matt and Val, made us Godfather and Godmother from their little girl, We loved her, of course, but this was killing us.


“Alright, I'll be there.” I heard James saying from the living room, he had the phone in one of his hand and he was making roll his drumstick in his other.


He had dark circles under his eyes, his face was extremely pale, all of this, because of the night before, he went out and came back drunk like usual.


I heard him hung up the phone, he sighed and said.


“Have to go, I'll be with Brian.”


I was sitting in the kitchen, at the table, looking outside.


“Next time, you better find an other excuse.” I said not looking at him. He went closer. He didn't say anything just went to grab a bottle of water from the fridge. He just sighed, I could see his jaw clenching.



“I'm not stupid. Emily's out with him. Where do you go?”


He took a big sip of his water and put it roughly on the counter.


“That's my business!”


I looked back at him, I knew he was lying, since the beginning. Ifelt my eyes getting watery.


“You're such a liar! YOU TAKE ME FOR A FOOL OR WHAT?!” I said yelling standing up and
going up the stairs, crying.


“What?! I don't have the right to have some time alone?!” He said following me, angry.


I was at the end of the stairs when I turned myself to face him.


“ALONE?! I KNOW YOU'RE DECEIVING ME!” I said pushing him. I went into our room and open my drawers, starting to take my clothes out.


“WHAT?! I would never do that baby I swear!” He said entering in the room. I just kept doing what I was doing.


“Stop this! What are you doing?!” He said trying to stop me.


“I'M LEAVING!” I yelled.


“No please no! I never deceived you! I'm lying, yes, but I was just going to the bar, SEE?! I'm honest now, please don't go!” He said almost begging me on his knees.


I tried to calm myself, even tho it was hard, I did a bit, I turned myself to look at him. He was crying. Seeing him like this made me cry even more, I still loved him so much.


“We don't have anything anymore, you're always gone and drunk! All of what we had before is gone away! I love you but this can't work still like this!” I said taking my back pack and going quickly out of the room. Leaving fast was going to hurt less, I knew it. I heard James footsteps behind me.


“DON'T! Please don't! We'll be like before, I SWEAR! I won't go anymore, we'll make sweet love like we used to do before, make a beautiful child..”


“DON'T YOU SEE! It doesn't work.. We can't have a child, but you still keep this idea of having it. It ruined us!” I said almost opening the door.


“Yes, we can, we had one already! Believe in us sweetie!” He said trying to keep hope.


“There's no us anymore.. I'm sorry, I said kissing him for the last time on the cheek.


I felt his cheek wet, like mine, it was the hardest thing I've ever done in my whole life. I didn't want to, but I knew I had to. This just couldn't be like this anymore. I loved him with all my heart. He was everything for me. I didn't want this to end but it took a wrong way..

Notes

Like you maybe noticed it. This story is almost making to an "end" I said end like this cause I don't know if there will an other sequel yet. All I can say is that on the moment I'm writing an other story, with Brian(Syn) as the principal character. I hope you'll enjoy it! xxx