Not a bad thing

Zacky’s POV
Standing in front of her, made me completely lost for words. She looked so angry, but her eyes showed only hurt. I had been going out of my ways not to hurt her and by doing that I actually hurt her bad. She looked at me through her eyelashes, oh man, how I missed her. She started to get restless and looked around her, as if she was looking for an exit. I needed to say something or she would walk away.

“I’m really sorry Lizzy. I didn’t want to hurt you. I’m so sorry I did”. She looked up to me. I needed something better than this. Apologizing didn’t seem enough, if I only knew what to say. “I uh I really shouldn’t have done what I’ve done. You know, you are beautiful and I couldn’t control myself. You have been with us for such a long time now and I like having you around. It was a spur of the moment thing, kissing you. But I know I shouldn’t have, even though it felt really good. You know me. I have way too many girls around, I’m an ass like that. You know how I am. You deserve so much better.” She opened her mouth to say something, but closed again before anything came out. “I know I’m no good for you love life wise, but I really want to be your friend again. I missed you.”

Lizzy sighed “I missed you too, Z, but this will need work. I don’t think we can go back to how we were just like that. You hurt me.” She looked like she only had started. I heard her voice pick up a little, making it sound more angry than sad now. “You have been the one who was always there for me, next to Brian, and you just stomped on my heart like it didn’t mean a thing to you. I know being the only girl around a bunch of guys like you, could result in some awkward situations, but we did so well all these years. What the hell changed?!”

I finally got the nerve to kiss her, that was what changed. But I couldn’t tell her that. I was trying to be friends with her again and I shouldn’t be telling her lovey things. If I wanted to make this right I should just be her friend, nothing else. “I was a stupid ass, that changed. I was only thinking about me and completely forgot the fact that I could hurt you. I plan on being a better friend from now on. A much better friend.” I was emphasizing the word “friend”, hoping it was clear to her what I tried to do.

“I hate how you hurt me Zack” I heard her say quietly. That just broke my heart. I wanted to tell her how much I wanted to be with her, not only as her friend, but as her everything. I wanted her to be the one for me. I want so much, but I knew I couldn’t. I would only end up cheating on her, breaking her heart. I couldn’t stand the thought of hurting her even worse than I did now. I looked at her, she was standing in front of me, this tough girl, she looked so hurt and insecure, I couldn’t just let her stand there. I stepped forward and put my arms around her. At first I felt her tighten up, but soon she gave into the hug and I felt her relaxed her head against my chest. I put my head against hers, my nose in her hair. What was I doing? I couldn’t keep this up, I wanted her too much. But I had too, I had no other choice. I would be the best friend she ever had.

I felt her move away from me a little. “Okay” she said. “Okay?” I asked. “Yes Okay, we will try to be friends again. We have to try, if we don’t fix this, we can’t hang out ever again with the whole group and that would just be a shame now we finally got some female addition to this group of men” She smiled. I got a hold of her hand “Friends?” I asked. “Friends” she confirmed.

We sat down on the couch, catching up, it was a little weird, but I was sure we would get there. After a few hours, Brian came home again. He found me watching Lizzy, while she fell asleep with her head on my chest. “You made up?” Brian whispered. I nodded, still looking at her in awe. She looked so cute. I saw Brian looking at me “Don’t fuck this up, Z. Be friends, not anything else. It would definitely end bad” I sighed. I knew he was right, but I also knew he could see in my eyes that this was going to be hard for me. I might be falling in love with Lizzy.

Matt’s POV
It was Thursday evening and I was on Izzie’s couch. She had just cooked me the most amazing dinner and she was making coffee right now. So far it had all been very courteous. I kissed her, of course, how could I ever not kiss her, but due to the table between us, things had stayed with kissing. So far so good for taking it slow. But I couldn’t deny the sexual tension between us and I just knew she felt it too. Every time we accidently touched legs or arms, I felt electricity going through my body and she blushed heavily.

She looked amazing tonight. She didn’t make any effort to dress up and she was totally comfortable in her yogapants and Hulk t-shirt. It made me smile, but it made my pants tight too. She didn’t even realize how sexy she looked. I saw her coming back into the room, bare feet, holding two coffee mugs. She sat down next to me and we drank our coffee silently. The silence was comfortable, we didn’t really need words. But the tension became unbearable. I got the mug from her hands and put both of them on the coffee table. I pushed her back into the pillows and started kissing her. My hands were roaming her body while I softly bit her bottom lip. She moaned, fuck, how I loved the little noises she made. I deepened our kiss and slid my tongue into her mouth. Our tongues were performing a very slow and sensual dance and it turned me on even more. Her hands were on my back, moving up and down. I felt her hands moving beneath my shirt. She pulled the hem and I broke our kiss for just a second so she could take off my shirt. I felt her hands on my now naked upper body and needed to feel more of her. I looked at her “This isn’t really fair is it?” I smiled, my hands tugging the hem of her shirt. She chuckled “You might be right.”

She moved her body, so I could take of her shirt. She might have been in comfortable clothes, but she sure put some attention to her underwear. She was wearing a teal bra that fitted her breasts perfectly. “Matt?” “Hmm” “Maybe you should close your mouth, they’re only boobs” she laughed. I looked at her with, what I assumed, was a stupid look. These breasts looked amazing to me. They were hers. I dreamt about these breasts and this time I could actually touch them. I moved my hands up her body and stroke her breasts trough her bra. I wanted to remove the bra badly, but I knew that if I would do that the rest of her clothes would follow quickly and I was still trying to at least not rush in to having sex with her. I groaned “Fuck Izzie, you are so damn beautiful” She blushed “You’re not so bad yourself Sanders” I kissed her again, quickly sliding my tongue in her mouth, while I was pushing my body onto hers. I needed to feel all of her body against mine.

After a long make out session we both needed to get up for air. “Damn Izzie, do you even realize what you are doing to me?” We were still at the couch, she lied on top of me now and was tracing my tattoos with that little finger of hers. She looked a little absent. “Earth to Izzie, you still here?” She looked at me “I probably shouldn’t say this now, but I’m falling for you Matt, fast and hard. And that scares me. My past relationships haven’t ended very well.” I already heard most of the stories from Brian, but Izzie herself hadn’t told me much. It’s not really first few dates material to talk about exes. “Did Brian tell you about my fiancé?” I hesitated. I didn’t know if she could appreciate Brian telling us the story, but I was sure that lying wasn’t the way either. I nodded “Yes, he did. But just because he was upset that you got hurt by that asshole again. He didn’t mean anything by telling us... I mean...” She shut me up by kissing me “It’s okay Matt, I’m glad he told you. Now I don’t have to tell you anymore and you can still understand why I’m hesitant to start anything new. But with you... I just... I can’t help myself” She blushed. I kissed her “I know, Iz, I feel the same way. We are so different, I don’t understand how this could work, but it seems to do. I don’t ever want to hurt you like that. I can’t promise you forever, but I’m sure going to try to make you happy” I looked into her eyes deeply.

The look she gave me was enough for me to get me hard. I was just cooled down, but that look on her face most certainly did the trick. She kissed me like it was the last thing she could ever do. Her hands were suddenly everywhere and her mouth was attacking mine like there was no tomorrow. I put my arms around her, holding her against my body. I felt her hand move between our bodies, slowly but definitely going for my pants. “Izzie, I don’t know if I can control myself when you do that” “Then don’t” she whispered against my mouth. I felt her hands unbuttoning my pants and she moved down on my body, kissing my chest, stomach and the brim of my boxers. She pulled them down, releasing my cock which was already getting ready for some action. I heard her gasp a little, but I soon felt her tongue move around the tip, going up and down the lenght. Her lips got around my cock and she was slowly bobbing her head up and down. I moaned, god, I couldn’t keep this up very long, she had me so damn turned on. Big chance I was coming within no time. “Fuck Izzie, you feel so good, please don’t stop” I felt her teeth softly grace my cock as she was giving me one of the best blow jobs I ever had. “Fuck, I don’t know how long I can keep myself from coming. This is fucking amazing” I was close to releasing myself “Izzie, I’m going to come, you should stop if you don’t want me to come right there in your mouth” It only made her suck on my cock harder. When I felt her hands on my balls it was too much and I spilled my hot load in her mouth. “Oh fucking god Izzie” I let out a groan as I pulled her up to my body. “That was amazing”. She smiled “I know”.

I pulled her against me, catching my breath. I wasn’t done with her yet.

Notes

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