Not a bad thing

Izzie’s POV
Out on the beach we walked for a little and after a while we sat down in the sand, looking at the sea, beautifully lit by the moon. Matt had his arm around me and I was leaning into his body. We didn’t say anything, but the silence between us was so comfortable. This night had just been perfect.

Suddenly I heard movement behind us and I looked around, there was this group of girls, there were 8 of them, 10 maybe. The one wearing even less than the other. Camera’s ready. Some of them already taking pictures. “Girls, please respect my date’s privacy” Matt said smiling. “Who is she Shadows? She looks so normal? Wouldn’t you rather be with one of us? We would do anything you want?” I stiffened, these girls already had an opinion about me? I would like to say it didn’t bother me, but that would really be more Lynn’s thing. Matt looked at me, he must have felt my change, his face clouded as he got up. “Let me give you girls some autographs and maybe you could leave us alone then?”. The girls got a hold of him as soon as he got close to them, plucking his shirt, stroking his arm, I even saw one of them pinching his butt. Who were these girls? How did they even know we were here? “Izzie, let’s go”, Matt stood in front of me, holding his hand out to me, getting me up out of the sand. The girls were still there, watching us. We started to walk for the car. The girls followed us. First from a distance, but they came closer and closer, shooting questions at Matt. We saw the car in the distance “Ready for a little sprint?” Matt whispered to me. I nodded. “1, 2, 3!” We started to run, Matt holding my hand. When we arrived at the car we seemed to have lost the girls. I jumped in the car, Matt started and drove off.

“Don’t you ever say, these girls only like you because you are a singer. They wanted something very different from you!” I started laughing “Ow my god, is this what dating a rockstar is like?” Matt smiled at me cautiously “Maybe we should stay in the next time” he said quietly. I laughed even harder “Don’t look so guilty! You can’t help you are this hot” He glanced at me, I winked and stuck out my tongue at him, laughing harder and harder. I just couldn’t stop, I totally got the giggles. We were almost at my house now and Matt drove up my driveway. He walked me to the door, I was still laughing.

“Izzie, can you please stop? I didn’t want our date to end like this” I calmed down a little, but I couldn’t fully stop yet. I was looking for my keys, when I felt him push me against the door. He just stared into my eyes “Just stop laughing, Izzie” he whispered, just before he kissed me softly. That did the trick. He licked my lips and I happily returned the favour. I put my arms around his waist and he had his around mine. He deepened the kiss, I felt his tongue battle with mine and I was happy to let him win. As long as he just kept kissing me like this. We stood there, our bodies entwined, kissing, for what must have been at least half an hour. I was completely out of breath when we both got up for air “Matt, do you want to come in?”. He looked at me anguished. “I really want to, but I promised you, and myself, that we would take it slow. And if I come in, we won’t take it slow” he whispered against my mouth. He kissed me one more time, before he let me go “Can I see you again this weekend?” I nodded. He started walking for his car. He held on to my hand as long as his arm could reach. “Sleep well Izzie, dream of me, I will most certainly dream of you” He was almost back at his car, when he came back with big steps, he pulled my body against his and kissed me like there was no tomorrow. I moaned “Matt”, he looked me deep in my eyes. “ I really have to go, this is a marathon not a sprint” I stomped his arm “You are too damn cheesy!” He chuckled and kissed me one last time “Bye Izzie”. I sighed “Bye Matt”. He walked off to his car, actually getting in this time. I watched him drive away, wrapping my arms around my body. I felt cold without him.

Matt POV
I needed everything I had to drive away from her. I saw her standing in front of her door, her arms around herself and I just wish it were my arms. She was so tiny when I hold her in my arms, but she fitted perfectly. I told her, myself and not to forget Lynn that we would take it slow, that I would give her time, but she wanted this just as much as I was. It made it fucking hard to be sensible and say stupid things as “This is a marathon, not a sprint”. I was grossed out by myself. Why the hell did I say stuff like that? And you know what? It wasn’t even about sex, of course, that would probably be amazing too, but I just wanted to go to sleep with her and wake up with her in my arms. She had looked adorable tonight and although she looked a little scared with those groupies, she made something positive of it and just laughed her ass off. I love the sound of her laugh. Damn, I needed to get a hold of myself. I made so much fun of Brian, being so hung up on Lynn and now it was happening to me.

I tapped my steering wheel to a Pantera song. She didn’t even like the kind of music I like, or actually the music that earned me all my money. She was so different than all the women I dated, or better said, fucked, the past time. Truth be said, if she had been like all the other woman, I would be fucking her right now. Hell, I wouldn’t even have taken her out. I would probably have convinced her to stay in and we would have had fun at home. She was so different than me. She was so serious most of the time, so insecure sometimes. I wasn’t taken life that seriously. How could this possibly work?

But she has gotten under my skin the minute I met her. I don’t want to fuck her. When we end up in bed, I want to make love to her. Before I knew it, I had already reached my house. I was banging my head to the steering wheel. What the hell was I doing? I hadn’t been in a relationship since Tess. After her I just gave up the thought of ever having a chance at love. She just couldn’t be there for me after Jimmy died and broke my heart, to top the heartache for Jimmy. Would I let Izzie get into my heart, giving her the opportunity to break it into a thousand pieces? I let out a growl in frustration. When did I become such a wuzz! I banged my head against the steering wheel again. I needed a drink! I got out of the car, and started walking for the door. It was only then I noticed someone sitting on the steps to my door.

“Z? What are you doing here?” Zacky looked at me, he looked a little sad “I needed to talk to someone and you are the only one I could think of, but you weren’t here. So I waited.” I didn’t know what was wrong with him, but he seemed to sit here for a while “You should have used the key, stupid ass! Let’s get inside and get us something to drink. It appears we could both use one or two” I opened the door, turned on my lights and walked to the kitchen. I heard Zacky plump down on my couch. I walked back into my living room. “You want to play a game of COD?” I asked him, he shrugged. I turned on the Xbox and we played for a little. We both sucked, he a little more than me ofcourse, I’m the COD king, come on.

“So, where were you tonight, you look fancy?” Zacky asked me. “Where were you? You look like shit” I replied, throwing my xbox controller on the table. Z looked at me, ashamed “I have been in front of Lizzy’s apartment building all night, thinking about if I should go in or not” I looked at him “YOU DID WHAT?!” Zacky had his head in his hands. I stared at him “Why would you stay outside Lizzy’s house?” Zacky stared at his hands and started talking softly “I like her. A lot. I kissed her. The night Brian found Izzie after the hometown concert, I kissed her and I walked out. The day of the radio interview I kissed her and walked away again. She told me then that if I walked away she would move on. So she kinda did at Brian’s party, but I was so jealous. I talked to her, but she didn’t want anything to do with me. And now I don’t know what to do, I hate that we ended up like this. I can’t even hang out with her anymore”. He blurred all the information like it was nothing. I didn’t fucking understand a little bit of this story. I tried to regain “You like her? And you kissed her? She kissed you back?” All nodds from Z. “So, maybe I’m really stupid, but why did you walk away then?” Z shrugged “I don’t want to hurt her. I will only hurt her”. It was too late for this, I couldn’t get why he was this upset. Apparently Zacky thought this was enough on the subject too for now “You never answered my question. Where were you tonight? You look like you had a date?” Now it was my time to be vague “I did” Zacky looked at me, not believing his ears “Really? With who?” I know I promised Izzie not to tell anyone, but oviously she had told her friends, why can’t I at least tell one of mine?

“Okay, I will tell you, but you can’t tell anybody.”
“Okay”
“I was on a date with Izzie, she doesn’t want Brian to know yet, so we are keeping it to ourselves now, until we know for sure”
“To know what for sure? How was it?”
“It was okay, and we just want to know if this is something, before we get Brian all worked up and mad for nothing.”
“Just okay?”
I remained silent and sighed
“No, not just okay, it was amazing. She is amazing. I don’t know. I haven’t felt this way for a long time. Not since Tess.”
“Ow man, you got it bad”
“I’m just wondering. We are so damn different, how could this ever work? I don’t know, I want to be with her all the time, I couldn’t wait to see her again tonight and wanted to stay with her so badly, but I need to let her know that I’m serious about her, that I don’t want a one night stand with her. I’m saying all these stupid things to her, using one cliché after another.”
“I don’t understand why you have any doubts, you like her a lot, I can read it from your face. You deserve something nice Matt. Don’t let these thoughts stop you, just try to find out. You might be on to something really good”
“But so are you Z, what is wrong? What are you afraid of?”

Zacky looked at me, hesitant. “I really need to tell something, but you can’t tell anyone, you need to promise me” I glanced over to him. He looked serious. Then he started telling and did that for the next 3 hours. Oh boy, I know Zack, if he is in one of these heavy kind of moods nothing could get him out of it. How was I going to solve this one?

Notes

Oh god! It's way too early!!! But I do this, especially for you...
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