Only God Knows Why

Kaylie’s P.O.V.

I woke up to the noise of a sink running. Jimmy must be up. I groaned and rolled over to find that the clock said it was almost noon. I tried to smile but my cheek hurt so I brought my hand up to touch it. It didn’t feel like anything had happened that was too bad so I just got out of bed. I sat up and looked down to find myself dressed in Winnie The Pooh Pj’s which I know for sure I wasn’t dressed in last night. Oh well. I guess Jimmy dressed me or something.

I walked across my bedroom floor to my closet. I stood there looking at my clothes and finally decided upon a bright neon pink shirt and gray shorts. I found my black converse and put all my clothes on my bed. I followed my brother down the hallway to the kitchen. We shared a simple, “Hi,” and moved along. We were both really tired. I got an english muffin and some butter from the fridge and sat down to eat. I asked him if he knew if anything happened because I felt some pain in my cheek and he said that he didn’t know anything.

I finished eating and went back to my bedroom. I reached my bed and picked up my clothes. I walked into my bathroom and turned on the water. I heard Jimmy talking on the phone to someone from the living room.

I showered and shaved the necessary places then dried off and got out of the shower. I put on a flick of eyeliner and a little bit of mascara then called it good. I got dressed in my clothes, checked myself in the mirror, and I looked pretty fucking good today. I smiled and saw that it was 1:20 in the afternoon. I walked to the kitchen and looked out the window to find the guys on the patio and hanging out. Jimmy must’ve called them to come over because he was bored or something. I got myself a bottle of water and went outside to see them.

Zacky’s P.O.V.

“Hey! Look who it is!” I said with a big smile on my face. Kaylie started walking towards where Brian was sitting and then I said, “Sit next to me, Kaylie.” I pouted at her and then I knew she just had to sit next to me. She couldn’t resist me when I tried to look sad. I just couldn’t be sad around her.

Brian gave me a bad look and then smirked at Kaylie. She started giggling, brought her hand to her mouth and looked at the ground. Johnny spoke up singing, “Brian and Kaylie, sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G!,” Then Matt joined in, “First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes a baby in a baby carriage!” Kaylie instantly started blushing like she was on fire. Jimmy started laughing at her because she was blushing so much.

Soon enough, Kaylie buried her head in my shoulder. She was trying to hide from everyone and I knew she was getting uncomfortable. I knew Kaylie, and I knew that if she was embarrassed she was going to start crying.

I whispered into her ear, saying, “Kay, go inside, I’ll be in, in a minute or two.” She looked up at me and mouthed, 'Okay.'

She got up and went in the house like I told her to. Everyone started to contain themselves again except for Brian who just started laughing.

“I know she loves me, I just know I can get way prettier girls than her.” I cannot believe Brian just said that about Jimmy’s little sister. He went way low with that remark. I saw Jimmy get up and go into the pool. I don’t think he appreciated that remark either.

I didn’t want to get mad a Brian again but I did. I saw red but Brian thought I was blushing. Everyone started making fun of me because they all knew I loved Kaylie. This wasn’t a matter of love and hate anymore. It was personal now, because Brian just made fun of myself and more importantly, Kaylie. I will try to keep my anger to myself in front of her though because I knew she still liked Brian. I don’t want to damage her anymore than Brian already has.

I finally got up and left the table. I hope Kaylie’s okay. I got in the house and she was sitting in a lump on the floor. “Kay? What’re you doing there?” I asked her.

“Nothing...” I could hear in her voice that she was on the verge of tears.

“I know you’re not okay. Get up and sit on the couch. I’ll be there in a second and you can talk about it if you want to.” I tried to comfort her without slaving over her.

She didn’t say anything but I heard her get up and curl on the couch. I went to the fridge and got myself a Pepsi. I walked over to where she was sitting and placed my Pepsi on the floor next to the couch. I ran my hand along her back trying to soothe her. I sat down after a few seconds of that and she immediately started crying into my shoulder. I put my arm around her and held her, trying to do my best to calm her down.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

“Jason broke up with me and he was cheating on me. I don’t know what I did wrong.” Obviously she didn’t remember telling me when she was drunk.

“Why would someone do that to a girl like you?” I took her delicate hand in mine and played with her fingers. “You’re pretty, smart, funny. Anything a guy should want.”

I felt her smile against my arm. Her mascara was running but she was still so beautiful.
“Kay, I just wanna tell you a few things. May I?” I asked, not sure if she wanted to hear what I had to say.

“Sure. What is it?”

I got nervous and decided to not sugar coat it and just say it. “First of all, the guys didn’t mean any harm out there. Well at least not all of them...”

“Go on, Zack.” I felt her getting nervous.

“Why do you like Brian so much?” I asked, stalling because I didn’t want to tell her what he had said about her.

“I like him because he’s perfect. He’s smart, handsome, he has the best smile. He is a nice guy, and...”

I cut her off. “He really isn’t. This is what I needed to tell you.” I looked into her eyes and I felt her tense up. “Brian said you weren’t good enough for him. He said he could do better”
I felt her smile turn into tears and I held her until she stopped so she had enough time to formulate what to say. After a couple minutes I heard her voice say, “Did Brian have something to do with my cheek hurting?”

I did not want to tell her the truth but it was all for the best. “Yes..He..He..uhm.. He hit you. He hit you because you were trying to hug him.” I hugged her tight because I knew she was going to get really sad or very violent. To my surprise she didn’t do anything. Me not knowing what to do says, “I promise, I will never ever, never, let Brian hurt you again.”

She smiled and that made me smile.

We fell asleep together on the couch. We were woken up about an hour later because Matt and Jimmy came in to get some food.

“Brian and Johnny have left and now only you,” Jimmy pointed to me, “and Matt are left.”
“Okay, man.” I turned to Kaylie and hugged her. I whispered in her ear, “Do you want to go outside with me and relax?” She nodded yes and we left to sit by the pool.

Matt’s P.O.V.

I was hanging out with Jimmy until he fell asleep. Zacky and Kaylie have been outside for about 2 hours or so. I didn’t want to go home so I decided to go outside with them.

“Hey, Matt.” Kaylie stuck her tongue out and greeted me when she noticed I came outside.

“Yo, What’ve you two been up to?” I asked them. I didn’t really care I just wanted to get rid of my boredom.

“Errm.. nothing much.” Zacky said. “Why’d you come out?”

“Jimmy fell the fuck asleep.” I told him.

“Well then.” Zack responded.

I sat down next to Zacky in a lawn chair. We didn’t talk so I just sat there being bored. After a while I thought I might want to go for a quick swim so I tapped Zacky’s arm and asked him, “You wanna go in the pool?”

“I don’t wanna right now. Why can’t you go by yourself, you’re a man.” He said and let out a small chuckle.

“I just wanted a buddy. Is that a bad thing?” I asked Zacky. He just laughed.

Kaylie’s P.O.V.

I got up from my seat while Matt and Zacky were talking about getting in the pool. I thought it was a nice day for a little soak so I just walked over to the pool and dangled my legs in the water. I stared into the water and just thought about things. I thought about my life, the guys, my brother, but I only felt emotional when I thought about Brian. I still can’t imagine that he would say that I wasn’t pretty enough for him, nor, that he hit me. I don’t have any reason to think he would hurt me. All of the guys love each other and me...right?

I didn’t want to start crying in front of Matt so I spoke up and asked them, “Do you think you could call Brian and tell him to come over?”

Everything went silent and then I heard Zacky get up fast from his chair. He always did that when he got mad. “What the fuck for?!” He was clearly mad at me or Brian. I wasn’t sure yet. “That bastard hurt you! Why do want to see him?!” He stopped yelling for a second and I sat there just continuing to stare at the water. Matt told him to calm down while he grabbed his arm and yanked him down, back into his chair. I thought about why I wanted to see Brian but honestly, I didn’t know what to say. I wanted to tell Zacky that I wanted Brian to tell me what he did, but I couldn’t tell him that.

“Of course I can get Brian to come over... If that’s what you need. I think he should apologize anyways.” Matt said while looking me dead in the eyes.

‘So he did do something to me?’ I thought to myself, feeling the tears building up in my eyes. I didn’t want to let Matt know I was about to cry so I told him, “I think I wanna go take a nap. Clear my mind up a little bit.” He nodded and I went inside my house. I walked up the hallway to my room, intent being to take a nap, but before I got there I started bawling. I sped up my walking to running. It felt like Brian was looking at me but I knew he wasn’t there. I thought I heard his voice call me a bitch as I was running but I guess I’m hearing things.

I finally reached my room and crashed onto my bed making a large ‘THUD’ sound. I grabbed one of my pillows and put it flush to my body, burying my face into it. I started to cry loud sobs of all my emotions onto the pillow. All the embarrassment, anger, sadness, and everything else flowed from my tears onto the pillow like poets use words or like painters use bright colors and vivid images. This made me feel so at peace with everything that I fell into a deep sleep.

~6 Hours Later~

I awoke balled up in my comforter and my pillows were all laying on the ground. I must've kicked them off the bed in my sleep. I was still dressed in my clothes that I was wearing previously. I went to the bathroom and then walked to the kitchen. I saw Brian sitting at the table talking to Jimmy. Well, Brian was actually begging it looked like, sounded like it too. ‘I think he really is upset...’ I thought to myself as I saw Brian look over to find me looking at him.

As soon as he saw me he got up and started walking over to me. I didn’t really have any emotions left so I stood there in awe. Just before Brian reached me, I started walking out of his way and asked Jimmy where the other guys were.

“They all left,” Brian said. He paused a moment before going on to say, “but I’ve been here waiting for you to get up since Matt called me a few hours ago.” I heard Brian’s voice go a little shaky on the last part of his sentence.

I had no idea what to say, so I just asked him, “Why?”

“Because I need to apologize..” His voice trailed off as I saw Jimmy leave the room. I guess so that me and Brian could have our own little moment in private.

Brian fell to his knees in front of me, hands clasped together on his lap. He looked down and then back up at me. I saw a tear slowly roll down his cheek. I was still in shock but then he grabbed my hand and brought me down to his level, so we were eye to eye.

“I promise I’ll never hurt you again. I’ll never disappoint you or make you cry. I will always treat you as you are, a beautiful woman, worthy of any man. I have made and ass of myself today and I never want you to think anything less of yourself because of what I said about you earlier.” He started stammering before going on. “Kaylie, please accept this apology.” I didn’t know what to say. It felt like he was staring into my soul with his eyes.

“I accept, just promise me that we’re still friends?” I asked him with a smile.

“Yes.” He smiled back. I hope he was being serious, I don’t know how much more of this I can take.

Notes

Do you think Brian really means his apology? Tell me what you think in the comments.

~I apologize myself for not updating soon enough. I've had writers block and have been having a lot going on in school lately. Drama sucks a hobo's ballsack.

I hope you are all enjoying this story so far :) And as always, I LOVE feedback :D