I wanted to cry, really I did, but I was trying not to, even though one rogue tears ran its course down my cheek I wiped it away and sniffed. I went into the office to try and do some band related work stuff but I couldnt concentrate long enough to type out the email I was trying to send, so I saved it and gave up, instead just deciding on going to
bed.

But the problem with having things on your mind is that it prevents you from sleeping a lot of the time, and so I just lay there for a long time, thinking about everything thatd happened today. I didnt hear Riley come into my room, but I felt her weight on the bed as she crawled under the covers with me. She wrapped her arm around me and I debated internally for a moment whether or not to turn round and kiss her, I decided no and just to go with holding her hand.

Zacky Im so sorry

Riley Im sorry too

I didnt mean to get so pissed at you

I deserved it

No you didnt, you were just trying to keep me from getting hurt again

I cant protect you from everything though

I know but thats never stopped you before We were silent for a little while before I spoke again Im sorry about Gena

Its not your fault, I know I said that it was, but its not Riley, she was just jealous because my best friend meant more to me when it came down to it, like I told you the other day, it had been like that for a while

I dont want to be the reason your relationships dont work out

Youre not, like I said, she was jealous of a lot of things

Im sorry for hitting you

Im a big boy Ill be okay I could almost see the small smile playing on his lips. He rolled over so that he was facing me.

I really am sorry though, I take back everything that I said

Me too, love you Riles

Love you too Zacky She hugged me sideways and then started to get up but I kept ahold of her hand, not letting her go.

Stay in here tonight? I didnt want her to leave.

Okay She climbed back under the covers.

X-X-X

I woke up with my chest pressed against Rileys back, our legs tangled together and my nose pressed against the back of her neck. It felt amazing, and perfect, and I couldnt help myself. I kissed the back of her neck ever so gently, moving my face I kissed her again, but then she moved and I laid bac to avoid having my cover blown.

Zacky get off me I need to pee I yawned

Mmm sure I rolled onto my back and she got out of bed, going off to the bathroom.
Did she feel that or was she asleep the entire time, fucking hell Zack get a fucking grip.

I rolled over onto the pillow shed been sleeping on the night before, it smelled like her, it smelled amazing.

I think I dozed off again but I woke up to the sound of the shower going and realised I should probably get up because we had a band meeting today.

Are those my waffles? Riley said from the kitchen doorway.

Yeah I mumbled sleepily. Sorry

Just make me some She said You sleep okay?

No, I kept waking up It was true, I did.

Why dont you go back to bed then?

Cant, we have a band meeting in a bit Riley stepped forward and hugged my waist, I sighed and rested my chin on her head, hugging her back.

I really am sorry for everything that I said yknow

I know, so am I

Please dont hate me

Riley I could never hate you

Just making sure

I sighed and squeezed I tighter, kissing the top of her head.

Mason called Riley again. To be truthful I was insanely jealous, I really just wanted to snatch the phone away from her and tell him to fuck off and leave her alone. But he wanted to take her out on a date and she was stupidly excited, her eyes getting all bright and shiny like a kid again.

Right now she was running around like a maniac trying to find her other silver shoe, the truth was it was under her bed, and she hadnt realised yet. I was just standing there laughing at her.

Youre not helping She whined, she was looking under herbed and she missed it completely.

Looking for this one I said holding it up.

Thank you She grinned at me and put her shoe on.

Have fun I said to her, I smiled but I felt so sad inside, I hated that she was going out with someone else.

Ive got no idea where were going but Im hoping its somewhere that serves those little potato things with the cheese in them

Hick

Oh shut up, Ill bring you some back

Deal

The doorbell went and she squealed, running off to get the door. Just hearing his voice pissed me off. I really wanted to just punch him. Seeing him kissing her, I probably looked like the incredible hulk right now I was so jealous.

Ill have her home by one Mason said to me

When they were gone I sighed and went into the office, I put some really loud music on and tried to concentrate on some work, after a while I managed to concentrate and I got all the emails sent that I needed to and then I just surfed the internet for a while until I heard the front door open.

When I went out into the hall Riley was slumped against the door, she looked tired and I could smell the alcohol on her, I sighed and went to her.

Cmere I said helping her up Youre not gonna yell at me tonight are you? I asked as we walked through to her bedroom.

Nah, Im too tired She said

Want me to take you to bed?

I need some water first

Come on then I took her to the kitchen and got her a drink before she decided she wanted to go to bed. Yeah come on bedtime I said.

I like your bed better, its bigger

Yeah well its my bed, not yours I laughed This is your bed I said helping her into her Jammies, I tucked her into bed and put the glass down on the bedside table. Just get some sleep and Ill see you in the morning

Can we do something tomorrow?

Well see

Mkay Zacky, goodniiiight

Night babe I said shutting the door behind me.

Notes

Title credit: Bottoms up - Trey Songz