Charlie's POV

"You got yourself one more fan of your logo, officially!"

I pulled up my shirt and showed the newly inked Deathbat tattoo on my belly in front of Johnny and he clapped excitedly.

"Nice! Where did you get this?"
"Santa Monica. Matt showed me the parlor. I loved how she made the shadings."
"She? Who made it?" Johnny bent down, checking out my tattoo intently. I quickly pulled down my tshirt when I saw Matt was entering backstage with a mineral water in his hand.
"Her name is Kat. Great tattoo artist."
"Cool. Matt always knows where to get the best ink."
"Yeah." I agreed, just look at those ink on his body. Unff.

I was about to walk towards him when Jimmy suddenly jumped to us happily with his fist in the air.

"This is the happiest day of my life!"
"Woah, woah crazy fucker! What the hell happened?"
He took both my shoulders and grinning widely that his smile could reach both of his ears.
"Hannah isn't pregnant!"
"Excuse me??!"
"Hannah's not pregnant! Well, not without my consent! I won't let her get pregnant unless it's mine!"
"Hold the fuck up...what are you talking about? Why didn't I know about this?"
Jimmy shrugged and knocked his drumsticks on top of my head.
"Ouch! You fucking prick!"
"You wouldn't know, would you Charl? You're....not exactly a girl."
I wasn't expecting myself to be stunned by those words. I'm used to it. But when it came from Jimmy, someone that I looked up to so much, it felt hurt.

But put that aside, I'm gonna have a talk with Hannah. How dare she keeps things like this from me. Or Little Red. Did Red even know? Sometimes I feel like Red and I are pretty distant with the twins. This can't go on. We're in a band for God's sake.

I was about to get off to find the twins when I saw Matt sat on the chair next to cartons of beers, smiling all by himself like an idiot. My mind gone completely away from the thought of Hannah and her pregnancy issue when I saw Matt's dimple was showing.

Gosh. Can I eat him?

I looked ahead at what he was staring at. Jimmy, Johnny and...oh there's Cheyenne, talking to them and probably trying to comprehend Jimmy's hyperactive behavior. Matt was staring at her.

Of course. Why didn't I think of that?

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Matt's POV

I don't know for how long I can keep this anymore. Everytime I looked at her, she was smiling, happily laughing and acted as if she never had a worry in her life. But the burden she bears is unbelievably heavy. No matter how big my muscles have grown, and how strong I get, I could never compare my strength to her.

She is the strongest girl I've known and I have fallen for her.

Damn it, why does it have to be so fucking complicated? I want to be with her, protect her with all I could but I'm at risk of losing her. Tell me what to do, guys!

"You fucking stare at her long enough dude!"

Oww!? I rubbed my head and quickly turned around when someone slapped me from behind.
Motherfuc-

"Charlie?"

Wait a minute. Wasn't she just standing in front of me, talking with Jimmy and Johnny earlier? I blinked rapidly at her then turned to the front again to look at who exactly was I staring at for the past couple of minutes.

It was their guitar tech, Cheyenne. Damn. Charlie sure can move in stealth mode!

"What? What? You've seen a ghost or something?"
"I- you were - I was.."
"The fuck is up with you? Ohhh I know...you have the hots for Chey...want me to tell her?"
I frowned at her in disbelief. I don't even know that chick! I've never even talk to her! I just heard Zacky mentioned something about her but that was it. Never really pay attention.

"She has a mighty fine ass..your taste is pretty demanding, I'd say." she stated, sitting down beside me and narrowed her eyes at Cheyenne's direction.
"What the hell are you talking about, Charlie?"
"I'm talking about you, wanting to screw that piece of ass and it's been going on your mind for a while, right?"

I can't believe this. Did she not see the way I look at her everytime we've spent times together? Is she blind? I never steer my gaze away from her everytime we're together. Just ask anyone. If they ever paid attention to us.

"Listen, Charlie. I don't even know that kid. I-"
"So you want me to introduce you to her? Not a biggie." She got up and ready to leave but that got me agitated. I grabbed her wrist and pulled her back to me until she landed on my lap and crushing on my chest.

The scent of her shampoo was intoxicating as her perfume showed that she's not like a boy at all. It aroused me, to be honest. Our faces were inches away as she buried her gaze deep beneath my stare.

"I don't want anyone."
I swallowed the lump in my throat as I said this. I'm taking this risk. Yes. I'm doing this. I wrapped my arms around her slowly and I can feel her trembling under me as I leaned forward, closing the gap between us. I tilted my head to the side and glanced at her parted lips, but then;

"You're joking, right?" she said while her brows furrowed to me. I stopped and froze in front of her lips.
"What?"
"You want her to see you like this with me? Do you think she will get jealous? Think again."
I was truly taken aback by that. I don't intend to make anyone jealous, at all.
"No, Charlie. I'm not trying to do anything! Fuck, why can't you see it?"
She pushed me away harshly and stood up. Shit, this is getting real complicated.
"See what? You're creeping me out, Matt."
I was rendered speechless and didn't know what to say. I'm creeping her out?
"You don't get to scare me like that, man. We're friends for fuck's sake! I'm not another one of your groupie!"
She turned her back away and ran. I made up my mind. I need to let this off my chest. So I got up and chased her from behind.

"Charlie! Wait! Wait wait!"
We were 30 minutes away from our shows and now pretty much far from the stage. I chased her out of the backstage and exposed ourselves to the fans that were waiting for the show to begin.

"What are you saying? One of my groupies?"
I caught her wrist again and turned her body around. My God, she was crying??
"If you need to let off your steam, don't fucking use me Matt! I know I'm not like the others, I'm not attractive, I'm not as pretty as Chey but just because we're close that doesn't mean you get to use me!"
I was literally and utterly left in blank. My mouth hung at her speech and my eyebrows scrunched in disbelief. Why did she assume I was trying to let off my steam?

Well, yeah but the steam has always meant for her! Not for anyone else!

"Now get your hands off me, your fans are watching."
Still frowning, I glanced at the crowd behind the barrier who shouted our names and taking our pictures. Fine, if she wanted to do this the glorious way, I will grant her fucking wish.

I gripped tighter on her wrist and pulled her into me roughly. As soon as she landed on my chest I cupped her cheeks and brought her lips to mine. She froze under my touch. I kissed her lips softly but hungrily and I wanted to do this for so long. I sucked her upper lip and ran my tongue gently until she opened her mouth and her body felt relaxed in my arms.

It felt as if all the burden on my shoulders had been lifted off when our tongues met and she buried her fingers in my hair. I ran my hands down to the small of her back and restrained myself from going any further. I don't want her to get hurt by my manly desire.

I didn't realize how long have we made out in front of the crowd, the only thing that snapped me was a shout from one of them that said;

"Holy fuck M.Shadows is making out with a fucking lesbo!"

I knew Charlie's reputation on the internet says that she's a lesbian because she acts like a guy and she never really get into any rumors with any man. Her photographs are all manly - her showing off biceps on those skinny arms, her gaming wearing basketball shorts and her not wearing anything girly.

I glared at the crowd sharply and wanted to say something back but then I heard her laughing.

"Do I look girly to you, Matt?"
I shifted my focus to her then I shook my head.
"Then? Why did you kiss me?"
I can't help but smile and ran my hands through her hair. I pulled her face closer and pecked her lips lightly.
"Because I don't need a girl. I need a woman. And you're woman enough for me."

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Charlie's POV

Oh my God. Is this a dream? Or is it just one of my fantasy? Will I get up in the bus feeling horny later or what? Oh fuck, fuck, fuck. I've never been in this kind of situation before, what should I do? Do I put my hand on his body? Do I grab him?

I opened my access to the kiss and his tongue instantly barged in, massaging mine gently and licked the top of my gum once in a while. His body heat was so comforting that I just can't resist myself from grabbing his soft hair.

"Holy fuck M.Shadows is making out with a fucking lesbo!"

Matt parted from the kiss and turned his head quickly to his left. His eyes bore angry emotion but I just laughed looking at him. This is funny. We are funny. How can we be together? He's manly as hell, and so do I. We can't fight fire with fire. I wonder what drove him this way? Do I dress like a whore?

"Do I look girly to you, Matt?"
He shook his head. Yeah, I figured. Of course I don't. Jimmy didn't even recognize me as a girl.
"Then? Why did you kiss me?"
My eyes were wet with tears that are too stubborn to fall. I tried to hide any feelings I have for him and thought positively. Maybe he just wanted to try something with me. Maybe he is letting out his steam. Or maybe he was just making sure that I am of female species.

Damn those are all negative thoughts!

Suddenly he pulled my face closer and kissed me lightly. I wasn't really expecting a second kiss.

"Because I don't need a girl. I need a woman. And you're woman enough for me."

What? I blinked hard at him. Then I looked down to my own body and attire. You call this - woman? You gotta be kidding me, Matt.

"Hey, look at me." he pulled my face up and smiled. Oh God, those dimples!
"Ignore what people said. They don't know us."
I can only stare at his honey eyes and listened. My eyes were getting teary and he wiped them before they could waterfall down my cheeks.
"You're the most beautiful woman to me. I don't give a fuck what other people say. I want to date you."
Wait, what?
"Huh?"
"Yes, you heard me, Charlie. I want to date you. Can I?"

Woah. This isn't happening. Is it really happening right now? M.Shadows wants to date me? For real??

"I-I..." I tried putting on some right words to say yes, but I fucking stuttered. My mind was completely blank.
"Okay, if you're not sure, just one date. One date with me and then we'll decide from there."
I was still frozen under his touch and didn't know what to respond. I've gone autopilot.

"Charlie...nod your head if you agree, and..um..shake if you agree too."
I snapped. "Well, I don't have any choice, do I?"
He chuckled and kissed me again. This time he planted soft feathery kisses on my mouth and trailed them all over my face.
"Our third kiss. I never thought that you actually like me enough to do it."
He laughed and kissed my eyelid.
"It's actually our fourth kiss on the lips. And I've always liked you. More than I should."
"Fourth?"
"Yeah, I stole one when you were asleep."
I pushed his chest aback. "What?! When?!"
He pulled me back into his arms and crushed me tight into his safe embrace.
"You'll never know because I'll never tell."

I squirmed but he wrapped his arms tighter and I can feel that he flipped the crowd off by the swift sound of his arm suddenly rose to them.

"You flipped them off didn't you?"
"Fuck them all. You're mine now."

~*.*~

ADW played on stage with me daydreaming behind my drums. It was actually a good thing for me because I felt pumped. My adrenaline went beyond active so when our set was done I was running around my drums and smashed them with my foot until the cymbals fell over and I threw all my drumsticks to the crowd.

Little Red swung her arm over me. She can read me like a book.

"Something good happen?"
I bit my lip. "You could say that."

But then I saw the twins came into backstage after handing over their guitars to Cheyenne which still bummed me out because Cheyenne was way prettier than me and she can pull Matt's attention for sure.

"What's up with you? Why are you looking at Chey?" E slapped me softly and making me snap from my thoughts. Um, I dunno. Matt had said that he wanted to date me, right? So, I shouldn't feel insecure about it?

Anyways!

"BAND MEETING!!" I called upon and the girls came to me bearing a puzzled look.

"Okay, as the eldest member in this band," I started but got quickly cut off by Little Red.
"-but act as the youngest." she snorted.
"Shush! As I was saying, as the eldest member in this band, I want us to unite and no secrets with each other."
I can see from the corner of my eyes that Hannah was getting a little uncomfortable.
"Ugh do we have to? I have like a zillion secrets that I don't want you or anybody else to know." Little Red groaned.
"Spill them all. Tonight."
They looked at each other and finally agreed. We sat down on the couch in our dressing room and didn't go out front to see PTV nor A7X.

"So, who's gonna start?"
E rolled her eyes. "Okay let me start. I actually have a thing for Brian but I don't want him to be interested in me."
"No shit Sherlock. But that's not a secret! We all knew that already."
"What? I thought I came off as someone who's not interested in him at all?"
"We got you, sister." Little Red patted E's shoulder and she groaned, leaning her back on the leather couch.
"Next?"
They all went silent.
"Okay. If nobody wants to admit anything, I will." I began, taking a deep breath.

"Matt and I...kissed. Today."

"WHATTT??!!"
"GET THE FUCK OUT OF HEREE!!!"
"HOLY FUCKK!! HOLY SHITT CHARLIEE!!"

"Yep."

They widened their eyes at me, mouth dropped open in shock.

"I thought..you were..you know..gay." Hannah said, and I narrowed my eyes at her.
"Oh believe me, she's not." Little Red backed me up. "She's got a whole lot of Matt posters on her wall. And some of Chris Evans. All - shirtless."
"Holy shit, Charlie! Never knew you're actually that kind of girl!" E looked at me from top to bottom.
"Right. Now you know. Next!"
"So, what happens between you and Matt after this? You guys will go on a date?"
I frowned at E, who asked. And they all seemed interested to know.
"I dunno, yeah, maybe. What the hell. Next!"
"Oh My God! Hanny, Red. Charlie needs our help!"
"Help? What? I don't need any-"
"Yes, yes, oh my God. We have like, tons of dresses we can lend you and I think you'll look gorgeous in pumps, because you're so short!" Red was getting a little on my nerve this time.
"Excuse me??"
"And makeup! I'm dying to see how you look in makeup!"
What the hell just happened here? My plan to make Hannah spill her pregnancy secret just backfired on me?

"Charlie." Hannah called me in the midst of ruckus between E and Litte Red. All heads turned to her.
"I know why you're doing this."
Red seemeed confused but E looked pretty calm.
"You knew didn't you?" She smiled weakly at me.
"What? Knew what?" Red suddenly barged in.
Hannah looked at both me and Red intently before continuing.

"I thought I was pregnant..with Vic's child. Because we've been going on and off ever since Mayhem. I was feeling sick, I thought I'm having symptoms of pregnancy."
"Hanny...for real? Why didn't you tell us?" Little Red reached for Hannah's arm and squeezed her hand tightly.
"Don't worry guys. I'm not. Ugh I'm so fucking glad I'm not."

I got up and pulled Hannah's other arm and then we got lost in a tight hug. All of us. I missed this. We've been so busy touring with the guys that we didn't have much time for each other.

After somewhat 3 minutes of hugging, Little Red said out of nowhere;

"Next time, use protection girls."

We laughed and parted from the group hug, murmuring our trademark mock to Little Red;
"Yes, mother...!" and got a few slaps from her on our backs.

"And Charlie, you really need a dress for that date." Hannah said and I groaned, rolling my eyes.

Ugghh do I have to??

Notes

heyy!! i'm soo excited to update this as i am excited that our Hannah is going to be a mom!! yayy XD

congrats to her <3

so as for the chapter..there you go Matt took the risk! what do u think? :)

next up, E!! XD