The way he handled me so gently, so carefully as if I was a piece of glass that could be easily broken, made my insides melted. My heart dropped seeing his tears and after all that battle within him, he said those three words that really made my heart pounded hard like a thunder. I couldn’t answer him right away.

Seeing that nothing escaped from my mouth, he leaned over and kissed me, until he hovered his body delicately above me, his palms rested on my pillow. As much as he was really careful towards me, I just wanted him to take me over like he always did.

“Addie, I want to be inside you so much. But I’m afraid that I will hurt you.” he pulled away from the kiss and whispered on my lips. I wrapped my arms around his back and brought him closer slowly, until his hard body pressed on mine, suppressing my wound. I can’t help but hissed a little.

He looked startled and quickly moved away, a worried look etched on his face.

“Hey, baby, don’t rush. I can wait.”

Then he gently placed a hand on my cheek and kissed me again and again until we were there just to cuddle and make out. God I wish this wound could heal faster so he doesn’t have to restrain himself from touching me.

“Still stalking me, I see?”

“Huh?”

He raised his head a little bit and looked over to my – oh shit! I forgot to turn off my laptop! I quickly ran over to my desk and instantly winced in pain.

“Oh my God! Are you okay?? Just, relax. I’m not angry or anything.”

He quickly pulled me back up again and I settled myself on the edge of my bed.

“I’m sorry, Brian. I couldn’t resist myself from checking up on you. I swear I will remove all the cameras as soon as possible.”

He smiled and planted a kiss on my forehead.

“Hey, it’s okay. It’s good to feel like I have a guardian angel watching over me.”
I chuckled and felt relieved at once.

“But, it’s only you right? That has access to all the views?”

I nodded. “Yeah. Why?”

He grinned widely and took my lips again. What is he planning in that musical genius mind of his? But suddenly I remembered everything that we left in the kitchen. I parted from the kiss, reached for my tshirt and put it back on. He shot me a puzzled glare as I got up from the bed and dragged his hand in mine.

“Where are you going?”

“Kitchen. You’re starving remember?”

He smirked and pulled me back closer until my buckled knees were right in between his legs as his head tilted up, eyeing me sharply.

“I can just eat you.”

Oh God, I’m feeling wet already.

---

He ruffled his hair in a mess. His feet had been pacing back and forth since 3 hours ago. He couldn’t pinpoint whether he should be mad at himself, or at this arrogant rock star that he had to babysit.

“Shit. This fucker. Can’t he just stay in one fucking place for just a minute?”

Yes, he actually even madder at himself because he carelessly let Brian out of his sight just to meet Addie and warned her about the shooter. He knew Andy for years and when Addie came in he could see that Andy became even more lively than before. He wanted to thank her for that but then when he really met her at the Headquarter, he was mesmerized.

Addie was just a lab agent at the time. And he would secretly watch her from afar, as she talked with her lab friends, and even with Andy – his old partner. He didn’t have much courage to tell Addie that he’d been interested in her, and taking this task for her, he’s more than happy to do it. But he’d never thought that guarding a celebrity would be this tedious than guarding a president.

He sighed heavily and looked up. The studio still brightly lit with those Avenged boys working in it. They searched for Brian too but all results went in vain.

“This part right here, I think it should go high, like ‘waar…’ then when you repeat it again you tone it down.”

“You mean like ‘this means war…this means wa~aar…’ oh and I could press the last part like that kind of in your face feel, you know?”

“You mean three times?”

“Yeah. Third time’s a charmer.”

Zacky laughed and nodded in agreement.

“What do you think? Arin? Johnny?”

Arin and Johnny looked at each other.

“Cool man. Go with it. I like the part before chorus. It kind of adds the groove to it, you know?” Arin commented.

“Yeah and the back riff could go like this when it happens,” Zacky strummed a few chords on his 6661, but stopped abruptly.

“Why? Not feeling it?”

He looked up to Matt. “I dunno. Brian’s not around, I feel incomplete.”

Matthew inhaled deeply and let out a heavy sigh. “Damn it, where is that asshole?”

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“Brian,”

“Mhhm?”

“Don’t you have to go to the studio or something?”

Brian took a deep breath and wrapped his arms around her shoulders tighter. The television noise gone blurry as they both cuddled on the couch, half naked. Well, at least Brian had his boxers on and he only let Addie put on her panties. He buried his nose in her hair, sniffing deeply as if it was the last time he had the chance to do that. His hand roamed around her breasts, gently rubbing on her nipples as he let her question gone by like the wind.

“Brian,” she caught his hand and clasped it tight. “I’m serious. They’re looking for you now, aren’t they?”

He tried to sneak his other hand onto her breasts again but she was faster. Now both of his hands being held tight before her. She looked up, glaring into his eyes. He leaned down to kiss her - his last attempt of avoiding the ‘real world’ question. He wanted to stay in this bubble and never go out again. Probably in need of a few musical instruments around but yeah, he pretty much didn’t want to face the real world. But Addie drawn back, denying his kiss. He dropped his head in disappointment.

“Fine. You want me to go so bad? I’ll go.”

“No, I don’t mean that. It’s just, you can’t sneak out on them. At least tell them where you are.”

He let out a deep sigh.

“Why, are you afraid that Michelle will know about us, again?”

He quickly glanced at her. “No. Addie, believe me. I have nothing to do with her. It’s her who clings on to me. And we don’t live together, whoever gave you that idea?”

“Michelle.”

“Well, she lied. I would rather move in here with you. In this small apartment. With nothing around but the two of us…and a few furniture.”

She laughed, feeling relieved ever since Brian had convinced her that he and Michelle aren’t together anymore.

“What’ll happen to her now? Poor girl. I feel guilty for taking you away from her.”

He kissed the side of her temple softly. “No you didn’t take me away from her or from anybody else. I voluntarily came to you.”

“But she must be so depressed.”

Brian sighed and turned his gaze away to the television for a bit.

“She used to be my best friend, Addie. Her and Jimmy. The three of us thought we could rule the world. But I never had feelings for her. I only saw her as a friend. It was a one night mistake and then I felt like I owe my whole life to her. If I could turn back time, I’d rather let Jimmy be with her.”

“Jimmy? Why?”

“He was secretly in love with her.”

“Oh God.”

“Yeah. Few weeks before he passed he told me to take care of her. I don’t know how to keep that promise. I don’t love her, the way I love you.”

Addie looked down to her lap. There it was again. Those three heart melting words that she couldn’t reply fast enough.

“But she left me a note.”

“A note?”

“Yeah, from under my door. She said goodbye and she already gone far.”

“You mean this morning?”

“Yeah. How did you – oh. Stalking expert.” He brushed his lips on her ear and nibbled it there.

“Brian, don’t! It tickles!”

“Your one and only weak spot. From here,” he kissed her earlobe, making her giggled again. “To here.” He continued to trail down kisses to her jaw line and neck.

“Oh you know me like the back of your hand, don’t you?”

“What can I say? I’m an explorer.”

Addie slapped his thigh softly and pushed him away. “But seriously I think you should tell them where you are.”

He groaned in defeat and parted from the embrace to reach for his phone on the kitchen counter. He ignored the dishes on the dinner table which they had lunch earlier and turned his phone on.

His eyes bulged at the amount of messages and missed calls from his band mates and Joe. When he was about to delete them all, an incoming call appeared on his screen.

It was Michelle.

He looked at Addie who already reached for her tshirt to put on. He hesitated, whether he should ignore her again or not. He took a deep breath, and decided he needed to answer this once and for all. Clearly telling Michelle that he’s in love with somebody else. And they need to break clean.

“Hello, Michelle?” he answered quietly. Didn’t want Addie to be offended.

“Hello, I’m sorry sir. I’m calling from Santa Ana General Hospital. A woman goes by the name of…Michelle DiBenedetto has been rushed to the ICU and she listed your number on the number 1 speed dial.”

“What? ICU? What do you mean ICU? What’s wrong with her?”

“Are you her relative? If yes, you have to come here and talk to the doctor. I can’t give out that information on the phone.”

“Shit. Okay. Thanks. I’m on my way.”

He pushed the end button and glanced at Addie. She was flipping through the channel and finally stopped at a police car-chase reality show.

“Addie, I have to go.”

She turned her head to him. “Okay, do you need to go to the studio?”

He hesitated. “Um, yeah. They’re really looking for me, so.”

She got up from the couch and smiled as he dressed himself properly again. When they both stood face to face, she reached up for his lips. He kissed her back, inhaling her scent deeply with a set of guilty conscience worn on his face.

“Bye. I love you.” he said last, trying not to think too much of the lie he told earlier. Without waiting for her to reply, he went out of the door and she watched as his glimpse disappeared behind the walls.

Notes

A/N: reaaaally out of chaps. might update again on MONDAYY. XD comments!!