My Blood Lines Are With You
Everything Changes
It's been hell in the studio since Roxy's heart stopped beating. I can't focus on anything except how she's doing. I just wish she would wake up and come back to me...and now I'm starting to think she never will. I wish I could have been the one behind the gun that killed Roe. He deserves to be hurting right now not Roxy or Lee.
"Brian? Earth to Brian? Have you come back down to our planet or are you still in space?"
"Did you say somethig?" I asked shaking the thoughts from my head.
"Dude Roxy is going to be just fine. She needs time to heal man."
"I know Matt...but there's always that what if moment that hangs around. What if she never recovers or wakes up Matt? She has no other family besides us anad Lee and I know I wouldn't be able to pull the plug on her." I said honestly as I fiddled with the strings on my guitar.
"Brian you can't think like that. Roxy is strong. She may be stronger than all of us combined. Look at it this way; she pulled through living alone when her mother died, when her father t-boned her she survived, and whatever happened in Arizona with that Roe guy...she survived that. She will pull through Brian."
"Listen to Short Shit, Brian! The man is speaking something sensible for once! If Roxy can pull through all that...she can pull through anything." Jimmy said as he sat down beside me.
"Then why do I doubt that she will?"
"Everyone has doubts about the ones they love, especially at times like this. Why don't you get out of here and go see her. We'll be there after we're done." Larry said coming over to me and taking the guitar from me. I nodded and left the room without another word to anyone.
I lit up a cigarette as I got into my car and started driving to the hospital. In a way the guys speak the truth but what if after everything that's happened, she decides to give up? I've never felt this way about anyone before and I don't think I could function if I was to lose her. I flicked my cigarette out the window as I pulled into a space at the hospital. I got out of my car pressing the lock on my key ring as I walked the long walk up to Roxy and Lee's room in the ICU. I pulled open the door and Lee was up and in fresh clothes instead of a hospital gown.
"What's going on?" I asked as I shut the door.
"The hospital is releasing me and I was thinking of going by Roxy's house and checking on things."
"Take my car. I'll hitch a ride to her house when the guys come over." I said digging into my pockets and throwing her the keys.
"I'll be careful with it." I nodded and sat down beside Roxy instantly grabbing up her hand.
"Nothing has happened but the doctor who you told off won't be seeing her any longer. I think we scared him."
"I wouldn't doubt it. So how is she?" I asked looking over at Lee as she slipped on her shoes.
"The new doctor came in and took out the breathing tube since she's able to breathe on her own. How was recording today?"
"I couldn't focus so Larry let me come and see her." I said looking back at Roxy.
"Don't give up hope...because I'm not. I'll see you later Brian." I nodded and seconds later I heard the door close gently. I looked down at Roxy's hand as I held it and it fit best with mine.
She's literally the best thing that's ever come into my life. I looked up at Roxy's arm and then to her face where a bandage covered the stitches she recieved for her torn cheek. The cuts on her head were now free from a bandage and they were starting to turn into scabs. I let go of her hand and placed it on her forehead and ran my fingers gently through her hair.
"Roxy...please wake up. I hate seeing you lay here not looking up at me with those beautiful eyes and I hate not hearing your sweet voice. Roxy I...I love you so much. I've never been this in love with anyone before in my life. I can't lose you and I don't want you giving up because of what Roe did to you. I won't let you give up on a life you have so much more to live in...Just please come back to me. I don't want to lose you." I said tenderly and I laid my head down on her chest. For the first time in a very long time of my life, I shed a tear but who could blame me? I'm watching someone I love an cherish so deeply be in a coma from what some idiot did to her. I will not let her give up on life! I won't let her give up on anything...
"You're not going to lose me Brian." I lifted up my head quickly and looked into those beautiful eyes I've missed for so long.
"Brian? Earth to Brian? Have you come back down to our planet or are you still in space?"
"Did you say somethig?" I asked shaking the thoughts from my head.
"Dude Roxy is going to be just fine. She needs time to heal man."
"I know Matt...but there's always that what if moment that hangs around. What if she never recovers or wakes up Matt? She has no other family besides us anad Lee and I know I wouldn't be able to pull the plug on her." I said honestly as I fiddled with the strings on my guitar.
"Brian you can't think like that. Roxy is strong. She may be stronger than all of us combined. Look at it this way; she pulled through living alone when her mother died, when her father t-boned her she survived, and whatever happened in Arizona with that Roe guy...she survived that. She will pull through Brian."
"Listen to Short Shit, Brian! The man is speaking something sensible for once! If Roxy can pull through all that...she can pull through anything." Jimmy said as he sat down beside me.
"Then why do I doubt that she will?"
"Everyone has doubts about the ones they love, especially at times like this. Why don't you get out of here and go see her. We'll be there after we're done." Larry said coming over to me and taking the guitar from me. I nodded and left the room without another word to anyone.
I lit up a cigarette as I got into my car and started driving to the hospital. In a way the guys speak the truth but what if after everything that's happened, she decides to give up? I've never felt this way about anyone before and I don't think I could function if I was to lose her. I flicked my cigarette out the window as I pulled into a space at the hospital. I got out of my car pressing the lock on my key ring as I walked the long walk up to Roxy and Lee's room in the ICU. I pulled open the door and Lee was up and in fresh clothes instead of a hospital gown.
"What's going on?" I asked as I shut the door.
"The hospital is releasing me and I was thinking of going by Roxy's house and checking on things."
"Take my car. I'll hitch a ride to her house when the guys come over." I said digging into my pockets and throwing her the keys.
"I'll be careful with it." I nodded and sat down beside Roxy instantly grabbing up her hand.
"Nothing has happened but the doctor who you told off won't be seeing her any longer. I think we scared him."
"I wouldn't doubt it. So how is she?" I asked looking over at Lee as she slipped on her shoes.
"The new doctor came in and took out the breathing tube since she's able to breathe on her own. How was recording today?"
"I couldn't focus so Larry let me come and see her." I said looking back at Roxy.
"Don't give up hope...because I'm not. I'll see you later Brian." I nodded and seconds later I heard the door close gently. I looked down at Roxy's hand as I held it and it fit best with mine.
She's literally the best thing that's ever come into my life. I looked up at Roxy's arm and then to her face where a bandage covered the stitches she recieved for her torn cheek. The cuts on her head were now free from a bandage and they were starting to turn into scabs. I let go of her hand and placed it on her forehead and ran my fingers gently through her hair.
"Roxy...please wake up. I hate seeing you lay here not looking up at me with those beautiful eyes and I hate not hearing your sweet voice. Roxy I...I love you so much. I've never been this in love with anyone before in my life. I can't lose you and I don't want you giving up because of what Roe did to you. I won't let you give up on a life you have so much more to live in...Just please come back to me. I don't want to lose you." I said tenderly and I laid my head down on her chest. For the first time in a very long time of my life, I shed a tear but who could blame me? I'm watching someone I love an cherish so deeply be in a coma from what some idiot did to her. I will not let her give up on life! I won't let her give up on anything...
"You're not going to lose me Brian." I lifted up my head quickly and looked into those beautiful eyes I've missed for so long.
This was also an amazing story. Great job.
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