No More Tears, No More Pain, and No More Fears
Living With Rex
It's been several weeks since I left the hospital with Rex and my babies. Rex surprised me a with a room fixed up for me and my kids. There was 2 cribs that could convert into a regular bed when they were old enough, tons of baby clothes, toys, and blankets and boxes upon boxes of diapers. She really went overboard but Rex loves to shop more than I do and taking 2 6 weeks babies to the mall is something I don't think both of us could handle. Raphael watches little Owen and Devon while Rex takes me to the rehabilitation center to strengthen my leg so I won't have to walk on crutches as much. Each day I get better and better but Rex still doesn't want me to overwork it but hell I ain't going to milk it either. I have 2 little ones to take care of. I grabbed both of my babies into my arms and carried them into the living room and sat them down into their swing so I could make their formula.
I went into the kitchen and took out the formula from the fridge and mixing it up into their bottles before heating it up. I checked to see if it was warm enough before going back to the living room to feed them. I sat down on the couch and picked up Devon to feed first. She grabbed at the bottle with her little hands like she wanted to hold it but I kept a good grip. When she finished, I threw a towel over my shoulder and patted her back so she could burp. The little burp she made brought a smile to my face. I placed her back into the swing and started feeding Owen. When he finished, I burped him as well and then placed him beside his sister where he went right back to sleep. I love them so much even though they are the seed of a monster. My little ones will be brought up by my mother's way. Treat people with respect and Owen will never hit a woman. My children will not be like their father.
I got up from the couch and went into the kitchen to start breakfast so Rex wouldn't have too. I got everything I need out and began cooking. I put everything onto the table when it was finished and I heard footsteps coming from upstairs and Rex along with Raphael appeared into the kitchen.
"That sure does smell delicious."
"Thanks Raphael. I thought I would fix breakfast since my kids woke me up early." I said giving everyone plates.
"You fed them already?"
"About 30 minutes ago." I said sitting down and fixing myself a plate.
"You're on the ball today!"
"Yeah. I feel re-freshed too because the twins actually slept all night." I said and I started eating as Rex and Raphael fixed their plates.
"Are you sure you're doing the right thing at the club?"
"What do you mean?" I asked putting more eggs onto my plate.
"I mean you're one hell of a cook."
"Thanks Raphael. Back in California, Val showed me a thing or 2." I said smiling.
"She must be a hell of a cook."
"She is...I miss her food." I said pouting. I finished my plate and put it into the sink to be cleaned.
"Before I forget, my lawyer is supposed to call sometime today to give you some details on what's going to happen in court."
"Good. I'll have him draw up a restraining order too." I said leaning upon the counter.
"Rae, where are you crutches?"
"Rex I can't use them and hold 2 babies at the same time. Besides the cast doesn't give me any mobility." I said and I could hear Owen crying. I walked into the living room and picked up my crying son and held him in my arms. His crying quit instantly as I hummed softly to him. Devon was still sound asleep as I put her brother back down beside her. I sat down on the couch in front of them watching as they slept. They were so at peace and adorable when they slept and if I could stay up all night watching them sleep, I would.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~9 MONTHS LATER~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My babies have grown up a lot over these last 9 months. They are starting to crawl everywhere and get into everything. Just yesterday Devon got into the bottom cabinet and pulled out the pots and pans and started banging on them. It was so cute and I couldn't help but get a video of it. Owen crawls everywhere his sister goes and I've recently started taking them to the Faded Cross so they could hear me perform. I loved looking over at them as I sang and their attention be on me. It gave me pure joy to see their little faces enlighten with joy. On a more better note, my ex-boyfriend Xavier was charged with 3 counts of attempted murder and has been sentenced a lengthy prison time, thanks to my testimony. I'm so glad he won't be around to see my children and he'll never be seeing them. I don't want him influencing them to be like him.
"Rae are you performing tonight?"
"I guess so. Do you want me too?" I said while watching my angels play with some toys.
"I'd love for you too." My kids started babbling in gibberish and it was so cute.
"Must be code for something."
"Must be." I said laughing. They continued to babble with one another as they stacked blocks up and knocked them down. They would laugh each and every time which would send Rex and I into giggles.
"I'll give Owen a bath and you take Devon." I said getting off the couch.
"Come on little on. It's bath time and then you get to hear mommy sing." Rex took Devon into the kitchen while I went to the bathroom with Owen. I closed the door behind me and fixed a bath in the sink. I took off Owen's clothes and placed him into the sink. I took some no tears body wash and squirted some on a small rag before bathing my son. He splashed his little hands in the water laughing as he splashed himself multiple times.
"You silly boy." I said laughing. I put some no tears shampoo into my hand and lathered up his head. He had a headful of hair and I spiked it up with the shampoo and he looked at his reflection and started laughing.
I rinsed out his hair and wrapped him up into a towel and taking him into my room where Rex already had Devon ready to go. I put Owen into a small tux and styled his hair to my liking and he looked so adorable. I think he liked it too. I took him into the living room where Rex and Devon were.
"Can you watch them while I take a shower?" I asked and she nodded. I sat Owen down on the floor and he crawled over to his sister. I went into my room and got me some clothes before heading back into the bathroom and locking the door behind me.
I turned on the water so it could warm up and I stripped off my clothes. I checked the water and got into the shower and began washing my entire body. I rinsed out my short hair and all the soap from my body before opening the shower curtain. I dried off the top half of my body and stepped out of the shower. I finished drying off and put my clothes on making sure to position the prosthetic right. I put on a pair of black skinny jeans and a Vengeance University t-shirt. I gathered the towels and put them into the hamper and took my dirty clothes back into my room with me.
I put my dirty clothes into the clothes basket and started on my hair. I spiked up my short hair into a Mohawk and sprayed myself with some perfume before filling up the diaper bag with toys and other necessary items. I put on my boots and left my room and went back into the living room. Rex had Devon's shoes on and she was now putting on Owen's.
"You ready?" I asked leaning up against the door frame.
"Yeah." she picked up Owen and I got Devon and we went out to the car and she helped me strap them into their car seats. I placed their sippy cups into their laps and got into the passengers side. Rex drove us over to the club and we got the kids out. Rex had Raphael construct a play area for my kids so I could perform and keep my eyes on them.
Jason, Mike, Donny, and Leo would also watch them in case I was getting into the music. People would come up to me at the bar gushing over my babies but everyone who came in knew not to speak of their father. I walked onto the stage and took the microphone in my hand.
"How y'all doing tonight?" I asked to the crowd and they cheered loudly.
"Alright this first song is called Just Like You." The music started playing and the crowd was getting really fired up by my performance tonight. I can't ever see myself giving this up. I sang a few more songs and walked off stage. I sat down at the bar and grabbed the diaper bag from beside me and I pulled out some food and handed Owen and Devon some of the cheerios and they sat down eating them while I ate the salad Rex had given me. The little ones kept holding their hands out for more until it was all gone. I walked back upon the stage and started performing the last of the songs.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZACKY'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
6 years have passed since I've seen or heard anything for Rae and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about her. I really miss her and since she left, I've been drinking more and not being able to focus on my work. I wonder what she's going through right now? What is she doing now? The guys have tried getting me out of the house on the days we aren't at the studio together but I won't budge. I sit alone in my house drinking until I pass out or stumble over to one of the guys houses so they can take me to the hospital for alcohol poisoning. I want Rae to come home. I need her here with me. I love her so much more than that Christine girl I was with those 2 months after she left. Christine was only after me for the money. I swear her and Gena were exactly the same in everything. Fucking gold digging bitches. I want Rae home...
I went into the kitchen and took out the formula from the fridge and mixing it up into their bottles before heating it up. I checked to see if it was warm enough before going back to the living room to feed them. I sat down on the couch and picked up Devon to feed first. She grabbed at the bottle with her little hands like she wanted to hold it but I kept a good grip. When she finished, I threw a towel over my shoulder and patted her back so she could burp. The little burp she made brought a smile to my face. I placed her back into the swing and started feeding Owen. When he finished, I burped him as well and then placed him beside his sister where he went right back to sleep. I love them so much even though they are the seed of a monster. My little ones will be brought up by my mother's way. Treat people with respect and Owen will never hit a woman. My children will not be like their father.
I got up from the couch and went into the kitchen to start breakfast so Rex wouldn't have too. I got everything I need out and began cooking. I put everything onto the table when it was finished and I heard footsteps coming from upstairs and Rex along with Raphael appeared into the kitchen.
"That sure does smell delicious."
"Thanks Raphael. I thought I would fix breakfast since my kids woke me up early." I said giving everyone plates.
"You fed them already?"
"About 30 minutes ago." I said sitting down and fixing myself a plate.
"You're on the ball today!"
"Yeah. I feel re-freshed too because the twins actually slept all night." I said and I started eating as Rex and Raphael fixed their plates.
"Are you sure you're doing the right thing at the club?"
"What do you mean?" I asked putting more eggs onto my plate.
"I mean you're one hell of a cook."
"Thanks Raphael. Back in California, Val showed me a thing or 2." I said smiling.
"She must be a hell of a cook."
"She is...I miss her food." I said pouting. I finished my plate and put it into the sink to be cleaned.
"Before I forget, my lawyer is supposed to call sometime today to give you some details on what's going to happen in court."
"Good. I'll have him draw up a restraining order too." I said leaning upon the counter.
"Rae, where are you crutches?"
"Rex I can't use them and hold 2 babies at the same time. Besides the cast doesn't give me any mobility." I said and I could hear Owen crying. I walked into the living room and picked up my crying son and held him in my arms. His crying quit instantly as I hummed softly to him. Devon was still sound asleep as I put her brother back down beside her. I sat down on the couch in front of them watching as they slept. They were so at peace and adorable when they slept and if I could stay up all night watching them sleep, I would.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~9 MONTHS LATER~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My babies have grown up a lot over these last 9 months. They are starting to crawl everywhere and get into everything. Just yesterday Devon got into the bottom cabinet and pulled out the pots and pans and started banging on them. It was so cute and I couldn't help but get a video of it. Owen crawls everywhere his sister goes and I've recently started taking them to the Faded Cross so they could hear me perform. I loved looking over at them as I sang and their attention be on me. It gave me pure joy to see their little faces enlighten with joy. On a more better note, my ex-boyfriend Xavier was charged with 3 counts of attempted murder and has been sentenced a lengthy prison time, thanks to my testimony. I'm so glad he won't be around to see my children and he'll never be seeing them. I don't want him influencing them to be like him.
"Rae are you performing tonight?"
"I guess so. Do you want me too?" I said while watching my angels play with some toys.
"I'd love for you too." My kids started babbling in gibberish and it was so cute.
"Must be code for something."
"Must be." I said laughing. They continued to babble with one another as they stacked blocks up and knocked them down. They would laugh each and every time which would send Rex and I into giggles.
"I'll give Owen a bath and you take Devon." I said getting off the couch.
"Come on little on. It's bath time and then you get to hear mommy sing." Rex took Devon into the kitchen while I went to the bathroom with Owen. I closed the door behind me and fixed a bath in the sink. I took off Owen's clothes and placed him into the sink. I took some no tears body wash and squirted some on a small rag before bathing my son. He splashed his little hands in the water laughing as he splashed himself multiple times.
"You silly boy." I said laughing. I put some no tears shampoo into my hand and lathered up his head. He had a headful of hair and I spiked it up with the shampoo and he looked at his reflection and started laughing.
I rinsed out his hair and wrapped him up into a towel and taking him into my room where Rex already had Devon ready to go. I put Owen into a small tux and styled his hair to my liking and he looked so adorable. I think he liked it too. I took him into the living room where Rex and Devon were.
"Can you watch them while I take a shower?" I asked and she nodded. I sat Owen down on the floor and he crawled over to his sister. I went into my room and got me some clothes before heading back into the bathroom and locking the door behind me.
I turned on the water so it could warm up and I stripped off my clothes. I checked the water and got into the shower and began washing my entire body. I rinsed out my short hair and all the soap from my body before opening the shower curtain. I dried off the top half of my body and stepped out of the shower. I finished drying off and put my clothes on making sure to position the prosthetic right. I put on a pair of black skinny jeans and a Vengeance University t-shirt. I gathered the towels and put them into the hamper and took my dirty clothes back into my room with me.
I put my dirty clothes into the clothes basket and started on my hair. I spiked up my short hair into a Mohawk and sprayed myself with some perfume before filling up the diaper bag with toys and other necessary items. I put on my boots and left my room and went back into the living room. Rex had Devon's shoes on and she was now putting on Owen's.
"You ready?" I asked leaning up against the door frame.
"Yeah." she picked up Owen and I got Devon and we went out to the car and she helped me strap them into their car seats. I placed their sippy cups into their laps and got into the passengers side. Rex drove us over to the club and we got the kids out. Rex had Raphael construct a play area for my kids so I could perform and keep my eyes on them.
Jason, Mike, Donny, and Leo would also watch them in case I was getting into the music. People would come up to me at the bar gushing over my babies but everyone who came in knew not to speak of their father. I walked onto the stage and took the microphone in my hand.
"How y'all doing tonight?" I asked to the crowd and they cheered loudly.
"Alright this first song is called Just Like You." The music started playing and the crowd was getting really fired up by my performance tonight. I can't ever see myself giving this up. I sang a few more songs and walked off stage. I sat down at the bar and grabbed the diaper bag from beside me and I pulled out some food and handed Owen and Devon some of the cheerios and they sat down eating them while I ate the salad Rex had given me. The little ones kept holding their hands out for more until it was all gone. I walked back upon the stage and started performing the last of the songs.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ZACKY'S POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
6 years have passed since I've seen or heard anything for Rae and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about her. I really miss her and since she left, I've been drinking more and not being able to focus on my work. I wonder what she's going through right now? What is she doing now? The guys have tried getting me out of the house on the days we aren't at the studio together but I won't budge. I sit alone in my house drinking until I pass out or stumble over to one of the guys houses so they can take me to the hospital for alcohol poisoning. I want Rae to come home. I need her here with me. I love her so much more than that Christine girl I was with those 2 months after she left. Christine was only after me for the money. I swear her and Gena were exactly the same in everything. Fucking gold digging bitches. I want Rae home...
I loved it! Great job!
9/29/14