Love Notes

I put my laptop away and rolled back onto the bed. My eyes were so heavy, and I was exhausted, all I wanted to do was sleep. Yet all I could think about was tomorrow. I actually got butterflies when I thought about it. For some reason, she made me smile. Me being Zacky Vengeance, that was rare.

I couldn't sleep so I decided to sign back on thinking that I might get lucky and she would be on again. Not so much. She had logged off for good tonight. I closed the laptop for the final time, thinking that there wasn't much point in talking to someone else, since she was the only one I wanted to talk to.

I rolled over and grabbed my pack of Marlboros, from my bag and lit one up. I lied there staring at the ceiling, taking a drag and blowing it out hard. My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of my stomach growling. That's when I realized that I hadn't eaten anything since this morning.

I got up off the bed and walked down the hallway, past the bunks toward the hangout area, throwing my cigarette in the sink along the way. I brushed the ashed off the front of my shirt, that had fallen while I laid on the bed, then started digging through the cabinets for my Doritos.

Damnit! I couldn't stop thinking about her. I was nervous, and excited all at the same time. It made me sick. I figured I would be better off, if I didn't eat. I tossed the chips back into the cabinet and sat down on the couch.

I looked around for the TV remote, before seeing it on the other side of the bus. I grabbed it, and flipped through the channels to find something to watch. Nothing caught my eye. I ended up leaving it on some gay ass Barney the Dinosaur shit, then leaving the room.

I couldn't get her off of my mind. I really couldn't wait to meet her. It was my number one priority for tomorrow. Nothing else mattered. Now, I know I have it bad, Used to, nothing ever came before my career and music. Now i had centered my life around one girl, it seemed. It scared me a bit, but I liked it.

I walked back into the room locking the door behind me, so the guys wouldn't come running in at the crack of dawn, waking me up. I'm not much of a morning person. I think that I will be tomorrow, since that's when I get to see "her".

My eyes were heavier than before to the point where it hurt to hold them open. I laid back down on the bed, just thinking of her. Hoping that I didn't scare her by saying what I said about me usually being a fuck and dump. I really do hate that. I wanna change and something tells me she's the one to do it for me.

Will she like me? Will we hit it off? I couldn't stop thinking about the next day. It was a big thing for me. I knew she was only 18, and frail, and there was a high possibility that she was a virgin, or not. I didn't know. All I knew is that I was scared to death, for some reason. I couldn't figure out why though. She's just a girl. I meet those all the time. What's the worse that could happen?

An hour had passed and I still hadn't fallen asleep. Everything was flooding my mind all at once. I knew that I wanted to meet her but I didn't want her to think that I was going to do to her what I said I did to the others. Well I did.

I guess what i was scared of was the fact that she could be the one to turn my life around. that everything about me may change. There was a lot of shit I would have to leave behind.

My eyes got heavier. I couldn't control them. They soon fell together, and I drifted off to sleep.

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The next morning came sooner than I expected. i must have lost track of time last night. I don't really remember much about it.

I looked over at the laptop sitting on the bed beside me. I quickly opened it and logged on.
An IM came across my screen.

Z.No.Vaughn: Good Morning, Rock Star.

I smiled.

ZVengeance6661: Good Morning.

Z.No.Vaughn: You ready for the show tonight?

ZVengeance6661: Yeah.

I lied. I was still laying in bed with my fucking hair a mess. I looked like hell.

Z.No.Vaughn:Great. I cant wait to see you.

That reminded me. I wanted to try to hang out with her before the show. I didn't want to be too pushy though. Eh. What the hell...

ZVengeance6661: So do you wanna hang out before the show?

Notes

Since the last chapter was pretty much a repeat of the one before, you're getting another one to keep you guys reading. I hope you enjoy and keep those comments rolling in. We enjoy hearing from you.