Love Notes

After I logged off I couldn't shake the thought of her in my mind. She was amazing in every way. Even across the internet. Definitely more than what I had expected, but, she was only 18. I was expecting someone a little older. My mind was flooded with just thoughts of her, and how much I wanted to talk to her again, as soon as possible. I sat there and stared at the closed laptop, before putting in on the table, then walking toward the front of the bus.

"It's about time you joined us." Brian said to me, as I entered.

I smiled, as I plopped down onto the couch that lined the wall of the bus.

"Yeah, What were you doing back there, Baker?" Jimmy asked, with a grin.

"Shut up, fucker!" I spat. Still smiling. We all laughed.

Larry, our manager, walked back where we were. "Ok, guys, Big show tonight, We're running late so we have to get in there, get sound check done, and move out." He said, in his manager tone. He sounded more like a fucking coach, than a manager.

I knew I had to do my job, but I also knew that I wasn't gonna be able to do it without thinking about Zayden. I remembered her name. That's odd. It usually takes me a while. I only talked to her once for a few minutes, but it stuck.

I walked off the bus, toward the arena, still thinking of her. I knew I had to talk to her again. I stopped at the entrance, just staring at the, white, tile that covered the corridor, thinking about her.

"Zack." I heard someone say my name, bringing me out of my trance. I looked up to see Jason standing there. "Come on, buddy, we gotta go." He pulled me toward the dressing room.

We sat there until Jason and the rest of the roadies got our equipment put together. I spent the entire time thinking about Zayden. I knew that I would have to shake the thought before I went out on stage. I couldn't let my infatuation ruin a perfectly good show. Especially one this big.

We went out and played through a few songs for sound check. It wouldn't be long now until the real show began. I had that long to get her out of my head. Maybe talking to her again would ease it up a bit.

I walked back onto the bus and logged onto MSN again, checking to see if she was on. She wasn't. I guess her dickhead, brother took the computer again. I chuckled at the statement made about her brother.

I knew that I was gonna take a lot of shit from the guys, if I didn't stop thinking about her. I knew that it would turn into something bigger than it was. So, I decided to close the computer and think more on what I was supposed to be doing, that what I would like to be. If I talked to her again, that's fine. If not then that's was fine too. I lied to myself. It wouldn't be fine, but I had a concert to play.

--♥--

I peeked through the curtain, and could see the kids piling in. This place would be packed before it was over with. Surprisingly I had gone a whole 2 hours without thinking about her. Fuck! I was thinking about her again. I shook my head, and thought about what I had to do. My job was to make those kids...

It hit me. Tomorrow was the night that we were playing Chain Reaction. She had said that her and a few of her friends were gonna be there. A nauseating feeling came over me. I quickly stopped thinking about it.

"Quite the crowd tonight." I heard a voice from behind me. I turned to see Matt standing there.

"Yeah." I said smiling.

"Ok, guys. Round it up." a stage hand yelled from behind. "Curtain falls in 5."

Matt and I looked at each other and laughed. Don't you just love being part of the circus?" he asked, gesturing to us having a boss.

I laughed. "Sure do."

We walked to where the others were standing, all ready to get their gear on. The next thing I knew Trevor was shoving a guitar across me. I still had a mild thought of her in my mind, but not enough to effect my, while I was out there.

I could hear the crowd going crazy as we walked out onto the stage. The lights went low, and the giant adrenaline rush sat in, and I was still thinking about Zayden.

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