You know i make you wanna scream..

'Matt, what happened?' I sobbed at Matt, who was also sobbing. He rubbed his face with his hands.
'I - I'm, I'm sorry, El.' he sobbed, tears rolling down his face. I didn't even notice a nurse had come in until I turned to see her standing at the end of my bed.
'Are you okay?' She stared at the both of us sympathetically.

'Where's my baby?' I said, my voice breaking on the word 'baby', and I started to cry again, which my back every time I breathed in, but I wasn't paying attention to it.
The nurse's face softened. 'Do you want to stay here while I talk to Eleanor, Mr. Sanders?' she almost whispered to him.
He nodded in reply. The nurse sat down on the bed beside me, putting her hand on my lower thigh supportively.
'Eleanor, when you were attacked, a crowbar was used, which is a very strong piece of equipment, and you were attacked in the abdominal area mostly...where the womb is.' the nurse paused, and I felt Matt grab my hand. I held it tightly.

'I'm so sorry, Eleanor, but your baby was only able to hold on until you got to the hospital, it then passed away. We had no choice but to take it out.'
I stared at my stomach, holding it. I started shaking my head slowly, before curling up into a ball, letting go of Matt's hand, and crying. Crying hysterically. My whole body shook as I rocked myself back and forth, crying silently, crying loudly, crying breathlessly. My small bump was gone. And it was my fault.

I opened my eyes, and lifted my head. I was still curled up in a ball, and my eyes stung badly from crying. I looked up at the clock and saw it was 1pm. How long had I been crying? How long had I slept? My stomach dropped when I remembered that my small bump was gone. I felt the tears come. I sat up in the bed. I turned to my left to see Matt sitting in the same plastic chair, with his head in his hands.
'Matt?' I whispered.

His head snapped up. 'El, you're awake.' he stood up, and hugged me gently. I hugged him back numbly.
'I'm sorry.' he said, sounding weak. 'I promised I wouldn't let anyone lay a finger on you; I broke my promise, I'm so sorry, El. But she's going to pay. She will pay.' he sat back down, but held one of my hands.
I shook my head. 'It's not your fault, it's mine. I shouldn't have been out with Zacky. I should have protected myself better.' I rubbed my flat stomach.
Matt's face softened. 'It's not your fault, El. She had a crowbar, you were defenceless, babe. Please don't blame yourself.'
I looked at Matt, smiling through the tears. 'What was the sex?'
Matt closed his eyes and shook his head slowly, smiling. 'It was a little girl.' he caught a tear that was rolling down his cheek.
'Aimee Tegan Sanders.' I sighed shakily, rubbing my eyes to get rid of the tears.
'I didn't want them to take it...out.' Matt sighed also, 'But they said there was no heartbeat, that she was..gone.'

'It's not your fault,' I said, feeling anger rather than sadness, 'It's that fucking bitch's fault. Isabelle.'
Matt chuckled sadly. 'When Kaycee was in here, after she stopped crying, she promised me she would have her in a body bag by the time she was done with her.'
'I could hear that.' I chuckled slightly. 'Who else was in?'
Matt sighed deeply. 'There's been a lot of people in. Kaycee, Alana, your mom, my mom, my dad, Amy, Mitch, Zacky, Brian, Johnny, Arin, Michelle, Lacey and Kimberly. They all made me promise to call the second you woke up, but I thought it'd be best to wait a bit.'
'Do they know?' my eyes flickered down to my stomach.
He nodded. 'I didn't tell them, but they just knew by the way I was acting.'
As I went to speak, I heard the door open and close. It was Zacky. 'How is sh-' he started to say, but then looked at me, sitting up in the bed, and his face fell.

He walked towards the side of the bed, and hugged me tightly. 'El, I am so sorry.' he said as he hugged me. He pulled away, and sat down on the plastic chair on the other side of the bed.
'Zacky, it's not your fault.' I sighed. 'How were you to know she was stalking us, or that she would come to Matt's house? You're not to blame.'
He shook his head. 'No, it's my fault. I'm so sorry.'
A nurse then came in. 'Is it okay if I just take your stats, Eleanor?' she smiled.
I nodded. 'Do you gentlemen mind if I have a moment with just Eleanor?' she said politely. 'It won't take long.'
Matt and Zacky stood up. Zacky grabbed my hand and smiled weakly, and Matt kissed me quickly, before walking out. She closed the door behind them.
'I just didn't want to ask these questions in front of other people.' she smiled at me. 'So, how do you feel? Are you sore?'

I moved around slightly, before wincing. That was the first time I had moved, and everything was sore. 'Ow..yeah, very.'
She nodded. 'We'll get you on some painkillers. Where is the pain?' She took my chart and started writing things down.
'My back, my ribs, my shoulder, my abdomen..' I paused, and blushed slightly, 'My, um.. down there.' The nurse nodded, writing down what I was saying.
'Well your back, ribs, shoulder and abdomen are from the attack. Every single doctor and nurse that's seen you was astonished that you didn't have any broken bones. It's amazing, really. The pain in your groin is due to taking the...foetus out. But it'll subside in a few days.'
I sighed. 'Can I go to the bathroom?' I felt serious pressure in my bladder.
'Of course. I'll come with you, just in case. You haven't walked in about 4 days, and you're bruised pretty bad.' She helped me up, linking my arm as I got up. I winced as my whole body ached. I limped to the bathroom, where I released myself, which was relieving.

She then helped me back up, and as I washed my hands, I stared at myself. I was pale and gaunt. I gently pulled up the top of my pyjama and gasped as I saw most of the middle of my back was a light purple, bruised colour. I pulled up the top of my pyjama top, to see where small bump should have been. I felt my eyes welling up. I felt the nurse put her hand on my shoulder that wasn't aching.
'It will be okay, Eleanor. I promise.' I looked at her in the mirror, and she smiled at me promisingly. She helped me back into bed, took my stats, and let Zacky and Matt back in.
'Are you okay?' Matt said.

'I'm sore, but okay, thanks.' I smiled.
'Do you want anything? I can go to the store for you, since I know Matt probably doesn't want to leave you.' Zacky said.
'I'm really hungry.' I said, my stomach growling.
'Sorry to interrupt,' the nurse said, 'But Eleanor is on a strictly liquidized diet. Her body has gone through a lot, and eating solid food could upset her stomach.' Zacky nodded in reply.
'Will I pick you up some soup?' he asked.
'That sounds perfect.' My mouth watered at the thought of it.
'What type?' he asked.
'Chicken?' I smiled. Zacky smiled slightly back. 'Sure. I'll be back soon.' he walked out.
I looked at Matt, who was smiling at me. 'What?' I said.
'You're the strongest person I know.' he said, holding my hand.
'Why?' I chuckled, but stopped when I realised it really hurt.
'Because,' he paused, 'you get attacked with a crowbar, and brutally attacked, at that, you..lose someone who was extremely close to you..' he stopped to take a deep breath, 'then you're out cold for 3 days, and you just pick yourself up. You're amazing.' He smiled, before leaning down to kiss me. I put my arms around him, dragging an IV drip with me, but I didn't care. He kissed me passionately, but gently. 'I love you.' he whispered to me.
'I love you so much, Matt.' I whispered back.

Notes

awhhh :cc
what do you guys think is going to happen to isabelle? :l
thanks for reading lovelies <3