A Little Piece Of Heaven
Chapter 2
It had been 3 days since Jimmy had passed away.
He was gone.
We buried him today. I stood there at his grave, just staring. Everyone else had left.
It was true.
My best friend and my closest thing to a brother was gone.
I pair of arms wrapped themselves around my waist and I jumped.
“Woah, I’m sorry Taylor.. I didn’t mean too…”
It was Johnny.
“Its okay, calm down” I smiled.
“Can we go and talk somewhere” I asked, he eyes searching mine to try and find that glimmer of hope.
My heart began to beat faster, the thought of bringing up our past truly scared me. And I didn’t think I was ready for it. But there was something about this that felt right. I had to go with my gut.
“Sure.”
We got into Johnny’s car and he drove up to the park we used to go to as teenagers.
“Wow, I haven’t been here in a long time, it hasn’t changed.” I smiled.
He returned the smile, but his face suddenly became serious. We sat down at one of the old benches. He took my hand into his. My stomach felt sick, but my gut told me to stay.
“Listen, Taylor, I know I’ve hurt you, and I’m sorry, and I know sorry isn’t good enough either, but I have never forgot about you, I always knew you talked to Jimmy, hell his wallpaper on his phone was of you and him.” he sighed “I know the miscarriage was hard for you, but it was also hard for me. I know were only 19 at the time and they way I acted was out of line. I just want you to forgive me, I love you Taylor, I always have and I always will.”
“Johnny…I-I don’t know what to say, I mean I thought you had moved on, I thought Jimmy only said that to make me happy, You’re also right, your actions at that time were way out of line, but the fact you’ve admitted to that, I forgive you Johnny, I love you too, I always have, but I need to think about this. I’m afraid of getting hurt again.”
He looked hurt. I didn’t want to hurt him, that was the last thing I wanted to do.
He got up a sat down beside me, his arms wrapped around my waist.
“I’m never going to hurt you again. You leaving was the biggest reality check I went through, even Jimmy wanted me to suffer, and he was right in doing so, he thought me a valuable lesson by doing so.” Johnny said while his placed his finger under my check so I would look at him.
Tears were on the verge of escape. I needed to think.
“Johnny, can you take me to Zack’s, I need to talk to Gena.”
“Sure.”
The car ride to Zack’s house was silent, it was something I was glad for, it was all coming at me way to fast, I needed to talk to someone and Gena was the closest I was too in school. I’d knew she’d understand.
“Thanks Johnny” I said as we pulled up into the driveway.
“No problem, Taylor, I meant it, I love you.”
I just smiled and got out of the car, tears now freely flowing from my eyes.
I pounded on the door until Zack opened it. His face filled with utter shock.
“Is Gena there.” I asked
“Yeah, come in Taylor” he said wrapping his arms around my shoulders trying to comfort me.
“Za….Holy shit, what’s wrong Taylor?” Gena said while she sat on the couch beside me, removing me from Zack’s arms and into hers.
“It’s Johnny, he…he said that he still loves me.” I sob again.
Zack’s and Gena’s eyes popped out with surprise. And Zack knew it was his cue to leave. He said something about needing to talk to someone. I wasn't really paying attention until Gena made me look into her eyes.
“Okay, babe, you have to tell me everything.” She said, the look of deep compassion in her eyes. I hated when people felt sorry for me.
I told her everything that he had said, what I had said. She was blown away about how he came out with it so far.
“What am I going to do Gena?” I said as I wiped the last tear from my check
“You got to go with you heart babe. Do what feels right.” She smiled. “Now, lets eat ice cream and watch stupid films.”
“Ah, I knew there was a reason why I love you.” I said hugging her.
We settled into our much fest.
By my mind wasn't to far of the thought of going to talk to Johnny tomorrow.
Why couldn't Jimmy be here when I needed him the most?
He was gone.
We buried him today. I stood there at his grave, just staring. Everyone else had left.
It was true.
My best friend and my closest thing to a brother was gone.
I pair of arms wrapped themselves around my waist and I jumped.
“Woah, I’m sorry Taylor.. I didn’t mean too…”
It was Johnny.
“Its okay, calm down” I smiled.
“Can we go and talk somewhere” I asked, he eyes searching mine to try and find that glimmer of hope.
My heart began to beat faster, the thought of bringing up our past truly scared me. And I didn’t think I was ready for it. But there was something about this that felt right. I had to go with my gut.
“Sure.”
We got into Johnny’s car and he drove up to the park we used to go to as teenagers.
“Wow, I haven’t been here in a long time, it hasn’t changed.” I smiled.
He returned the smile, but his face suddenly became serious. We sat down at one of the old benches. He took my hand into his. My stomach felt sick, but my gut told me to stay.
“Listen, Taylor, I know I’ve hurt you, and I’m sorry, and I know sorry isn’t good enough either, but I have never forgot about you, I always knew you talked to Jimmy, hell his wallpaper on his phone was of you and him.” he sighed “I know the miscarriage was hard for you, but it was also hard for me. I know were only 19 at the time and they way I acted was out of line. I just want you to forgive me, I love you Taylor, I always have and I always will.”
“Johnny…I-I don’t know what to say, I mean I thought you had moved on, I thought Jimmy only said that to make me happy, You’re also right, your actions at that time were way out of line, but the fact you’ve admitted to that, I forgive you Johnny, I love you too, I always have, but I need to think about this. I’m afraid of getting hurt again.”
He looked hurt. I didn’t want to hurt him, that was the last thing I wanted to do.
He got up a sat down beside me, his arms wrapped around my waist.
“I’m never going to hurt you again. You leaving was the biggest reality check I went through, even Jimmy wanted me to suffer, and he was right in doing so, he thought me a valuable lesson by doing so.” Johnny said while his placed his finger under my check so I would look at him.
Tears were on the verge of escape. I needed to think.
“Johnny, can you take me to Zack’s, I need to talk to Gena.”
“Sure.”
The car ride to Zack’s house was silent, it was something I was glad for, it was all coming at me way to fast, I needed to talk to someone and Gena was the closest I was too in school. I’d knew she’d understand.
“Thanks Johnny” I said as we pulled up into the driveway.
“No problem, Taylor, I meant it, I love you.”
I just smiled and got out of the car, tears now freely flowing from my eyes.
I pounded on the door until Zack opened it. His face filled with utter shock.
“Is Gena there.” I asked
“Yeah, come in Taylor” he said wrapping his arms around my shoulders trying to comfort me.
“Za….Holy shit, what’s wrong Taylor?” Gena said while she sat on the couch beside me, removing me from Zack’s arms and into hers.
“It’s Johnny, he…he said that he still loves me.” I sob again.
Zack’s and Gena’s eyes popped out with surprise. And Zack knew it was his cue to leave. He said something about needing to talk to someone. I wasn't really paying attention until Gena made me look into her eyes.
“Okay, babe, you have to tell me everything.” She said, the look of deep compassion in her eyes. I hated when people felt sorry for me.
I told her everything that he had said, what I had said. She was blown away about how he came out with it so far.
“What am I going to do Gena?” I said as I wiped the last tear from my check
“You got to go with you heart babe. Do what feels right.” She smiled. “Now, lets eat ice cream and watch stupid films.”
“Ah, I knew there was a reason why I love you.” I said hugging her.
We settled into our much fest.
By my mind wasn't to far of the thought of going to talk to Johnny tomorrow.
Why couldn't Jimmy be here when I needed him the most?
Notes
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4/8/13