Disguised by Surroundings
Making Everything Right
Erin’s P.O.V
I was upstairs on the balcony right outside my bedroom and I just needed some air and to get away from everything and I felt a hand on my back and then Matt appeared beside me.
“I know that they can be a bit overwhelming to be around sometimes… but don’t worry everyone is leaving now” Matt said and I smiled a little at him and then side leaning on the cool metal that
surrounded the top of my balcony railing.
“Please don’t shut me out as well E” Matt said and I just turned to him.
“There really isn’t much to say Matt” I replied and he just grabbed the sides of my arms.
“Erin it is killing both her and Brian that you have so boldly distanced yourself from them… you can’t expect for things to go back to the way they were” Matt said and I pulled away… it was an open wound and I was still sore about everything.
“ERIN STOP” Matt said and I turned around and put my hands to his chest pushing him back away from me.
“MATT IM JUST NOT OKAY!! I DON’T KNOW HOW TO ACT OR WHAT TO DO!” I yelled at him regardless of how loudly it boomed through my household.
“It gets better Erin but only if you OPEN UP!” He yelled back at me and tried hugging me and I pushed him again.
“Everyone wants me to open up and fucking talk about this but it only brings it back up! I WANT TO MOVE ON!” I shouted back and he just sat there silently realizing that I wasn’t being distant because I was pissed at everyone for it… I was grieving my own way.
“Erin… you have to let Brian grieve to.. he needs to grieve and hold you and love you to move on… you don’t think he hates this as well… he fucking loves you with everything he has and is” Matt said and I started to cry realizing my own stupidity. Matt came close to me and grabbed my hands.
“He can’t move on without you Erin… and I know that Hannah doesn’t want to bring baby Sanders into the world without you” He said and just like that I broke down some of my wall and hugged him tightly and he kissed the top of my head holding me. After a few moments I walked downstairs with him and saw Hannah and Brian outside.
“Do you think that you can spare Hannah tomorrow so that she and I can talk?” I asked him and he nodded and walked out to get Hannah and I just stood there for a moment tearing up still and I saw her smile at him and she looked at me from down the backyard and I walked into the kitchen. I heard them go through the house to go home and then Brian come into the kitchen. He grabbed some of the leftovers wrapping them and putting them in the fridge.
“I love you” I said softly from across the other side of the counter in the kitchen and he just stopped what he was doing and then looked up and I could literally see the pain that of this generating through him and I quickly bolted over to him wrapping my arms around him tightly and he was frozen for a moment but then one of his hands tangled in my hair and the other tightly squeezed my back and yeah it was a painful hug… but it was needed.
“You have no idea how much I miss holding you sometimes” He said with his face in my hair and I just hugged him with everything I had in me.
“I am sorry I have been distant Bri” I said to him and he quieted me.
“It’s alright Erin I understand, I just need you so that I find some form of comfort… you are everything to me” He said pulling away and putting his hands on my cheeks and then kissed the top of my head.
“But I feel horrible… I was talking to Matt and through doing everything that I have the past few days.. I have hurt everyone I loved… and I didn’t even realize that I was being so selfish and that you were trying to process this too. I am just mortified” I said starting to really cry and he just pulled me into him again.
“It’s alright we are going to get through this, I promise everything will be fine” He said and I pulled away and sat down on the couch rubbing my legs. Brian followed behind me and sat down and was silent for a few minutes.
Brian’s P.O.V
To say the least this was a crazy day… but just to hold Erin was amazing just to see her let me in and actually be her husband for the first time in days meant a lot to me. She and I sat there in silence and I could tell that everything was running through her mind.
“Are you gonna talk to Hannah?” I asked her and she nodded, I was sure that Matt made it clear that Hannah literally loved and missed her greatly.. I knew that Hannah didn’t want to do this without Erin.
“I am gonna go out with her tomorrow and I am hoping that she forgives me for being such a bitch to her over this” Erin said and then she leaned in and put her head on my shoulder.
“Do you want to try again?” I asked and she froze… she said nothing and just stared at the fireplace across the room.
“Baby?” I asked her rubbing her hair and she looked up at me and smiled.
“We can definitely try again, if it happens then it happens and we will bring a wonderful child into the world” She said smiling at me happily and all I could do was stare into her beautiful eyes. I leaned down and kissed her forehead and she pulled herself up and kissed me gently and then went upstairs and slept for the rest of the day/night since she was so exhausted still. I was woken up by Matt and Hannah coming in the house and I realized it was 11:45 in the morning. I walked downstairs and everyone just laughed at my grogginess.
“Someone is tired” Matt said and I just flipped him off grabbing some orange juice and then sat down at the dining room table while Erin grabbed her stuff.
“I am so glad that the girls are gonna go out and hangout and just maybe get this all figured out” I said to Matt and he seemed really relieved as well.
“I just want the crazy ride to be over and for all of us to get back to normal and just rock out and
be the amazing team we usually are” Matt said and I just nodded.
Erin’s P.O.V
I was grabbing my stuff and then ran over to Brian giving him a small kiss on the cheek and then grabbed his keys since apparently I had no car now and then Hannah and I made our way out to lunch. We were quiet at first but then she started humming to music and the car ride ended with me and her sitting in the car belting out music.
“I am really happy that you asked me to lunch love, it has been really crazy not having you around… especially yesterday with the swarm of people” She said making a comment about the families while we ordered our food.
“I have just been a really horrible place… and it really killed me inside and I really didn’t think or know how to react so I just went off in a manner that should have never happened… and I feel super terrible about it because you are my bestfriend, my girlfriend and my love and so I really am so sorry” I said making my plea to her.
“I know that you are sorry E… I mean honestly I probably would have been way worse in the situation but at the same time what kills me is exactly what you said to me… you can’t forget something like that” She said and my face dropped and I was just totally dying on the inside.
“I would never genuinely want baby Sanders to be dead Hannah, no matter what that child is everything right now and I want it healthy and alive and ready to meet it’s amazing parents, I love that child” I said to her.. I really wanted nothing but the best for her and just hoped that she saw that.
I was upstairs on the balcony right outside my bedroom and I just needed some air and to get away from everything and I felt a hand on my back and then Matt appeared beside me.
“I know that they can be a bit overwhelming to be around sometimes… but don’t worry everyone is leaving now” Matt said and I smiled a little at him and then side leaning on the cool metal that
surrounded the top of my balcony railing.
“Please don’t shut me out as well E” Matt said and I just turned to him.
“There really isn’t much to say Matt” I replied and he just grabbed the sides of my arms.
“Erin it is killing both her and Brian that you have so boldly distanced yourself from them… you can’t expect for things to go back to the way they were” Matt said and I pulled away… it was an open wound and I was still sore about everything.
“ERIN STOP” Matt said and I turned around and put my hands to his chest pushing him back away from me.
“MATT IM JUST NOT OKAY!! I DON’T KNOW HOW TO ACT OR WHAT TO DO!” I yelled at him regardless of how loudly it boomed through my household.
“It gets better Erin but only if you OPEN UP!” He yelled back at me and tried hugging me and I pushed him again.
“Everyone wants me to open up and fucking talk about this but it only brings it back up! I WANT TO MOVE ON!” I shouted back and he just sat there silently realizing that I wasn’t being distant because I was pissed at everyone for it… I was grieving my own way.
“Erin… you have to let Brian grieve to.. he needs to grieve and hold you and love you to move on… you don’t think he hates this as well… he fucking loves you with everything he has and is” Matt said and I started to cry realizing my own stupidity. Matt came close to me and grabbed my hands.
“He can’t move on without you Erin… and I know that Hannah doesn’t want to bring baby Sanders into the world without you” He said and just like that I broke down some of my wall and hugged him tightly and he kissed the top of my head holding me. After a few moments I walked downstairs with him and saw Hannah and Brian outside.
“Do you think that you can spare Hannah tomorrow so that she and I can talk?” I asked him and he nodded and walked out to get Hannah and I just stood there for a moment tearing up still and I saw her smile at him and she looked at me from down the backyard and I walked into the kitchen. I heard them go through the house to go home and then Brian come into the kitchen. He grabbed some of the leftovers wrapping them and putting them in the fridge.
“I love you” I said softly from across the other side of the counter in the kitchen and he just stopped what he was doing and then looked up and I could literally see the pain that of this generating through him and I quickly bolted over to him wrapping my arms around him tightly and he was frozen for a moment but then one of his hands tangled in my hair and the other tightly squeezed my back and yeah it was a painful hug… but it was needed.
“You have no idea how much I miss holding you sometimes” He said with his face in my hair and I just hugged him with everything I had in me.
“I am sorry I have been distant Bri” I said to him and he quieted me.
“It’s alright Erin I understand, I just need you so that I find some form of comfort… you are everything to me” He said pulling away and putting his hands on my cheeks and then kissed the top of my head.
“But I feel horrible… I was talking to Matt and through doing everything that I have the past few days.. I have hurt everyone I loved… and I didn’t even realize that I was being so selfish and that you were trying to process this too. I am just mortified” I said starting to really cry and he just pulled me into him again.
“It’s alright we are going to get through this, I promise everything will be fine” He said and I pulled away and sat down on the couch rubbing my legs. Brian followed behind me and sat down and was silent for a few minutes.
Brian’s P.O.V
To say the least this was a crazy day… but just to hold Erin was amazing just to see her let me in and actually be her husband for the first time in days meant a lot to me. She and I sat there in silence and I could tell that everything was running through her mind.
“Are you gonna talk to Hannah?” I asked her and she nodded, I was sure that Matt made it clear that Hannah literally loved and missed her greatly.. I knew that Hannah didn’t want to do this without Erin.
“I am gonna go out with her tomorrow and I am hoping that she forgives me for being such a bitch to her over this” Erin said and then she leaned in and put her head on my shoulder.
“Do you want to try again?” I asked and she froze… she said nothing and just stared at the fireplace across the room.
“Baby?” I asked her rubbing her hair and she looked up at me and smiled.
“We can definitely try again, if it happens then it happens and we will bring a wonderful child into the world” She said smiling at me happily and all I could do was stare into her beautiful eyes. I leaned down and kissed her forehead and she pulled herself up and kissed me gently and then went upstairs and slept for the rest of the day/night since she was so exhausted still. I was woken up by Matt and Hannah coming in the house and I realized it was 11:45 in the morning. I walked downstairs and everyone just laughed at my grogginess.
“Someone is tired” Matt said and I just flipped him off grabbing some orange juice and then sat down at the dining room table while Erin grabbed her stuff.
“I am so glad that the girls are gonna go out and hangout and just maybe get this all figured out” I said to Matt and he seemed really relieved as well.
“I just want the crazy ride to be over and for all of us to get back to normal and just rock out and
be the amazing team we usually are” Matt said and I just nodded.
Erin’s P.O.V
I was grabbing my stuff and then ran over to Brian giving him a small kiss on the cheek and then grabbed his keys since apparently I had no car now and then Hannah and I made our way out to lunch. We were quiet at first but then she started humming to music and the car ride ended with me and her sitting in the car belting out music.
“I am really happy that you asked me to lunch love, it has been really crazy not having you around… especially yesterday with the swarm of people” She said making a comment about the families while we ordered our food.
“I have just been a really horrible place… and it really killed me inside and I really didn’t think or know how to react so I just went off in a manner that should have never happened… and I feel super terrible about it because you are my bestfriend, my girlfriend and my love and so I really am so sorry” I said making my plea to her.
“I know that you are sorry E… I mean honestly I probably would have been way worse in the situation but at the same time what kills me is exactly what you said to me… you can’t forget something like that” She said and my face dropped and I was just totally dying on the inside.
“I would never genuinely want baby Sanders to be dead Hannah, no matter what that child is everything right now and I want it healthy and alive and ready to meet it’s amazing parents, I love that child” I said to her.. I really wanted nothing but the best for her and just hoped that she saw that.
Notes
Looks like E really wants to make things right!
Will Hannah be able to forgive her for what she said at the hospital?
And will everything be alright for tour????
Stay Tuned for LMV :)
Love you all!!
--elovebakervengeance<3
Ugh.. I'm paitent so i can wait.. i also wonder what you have up your sleeves
11/12/14