I closed my eyes, as I inhaled the smell of the salty ocean air. I brought my knees up to my chest as I wrapped my arms around my knees. I at least had to be defiantly closed off before I faced him, before I looked him in the eyes after four months.

I finally opened my eyes turned my head slightly until my eyes met with his. His hair was shorter now and spiked up in all different directions, he chocolate brown eyes were lined with kohl, his thin lips and bone structure still as stunning as ever. I allowed my eyes to scan over his chiseled chest, he wore a black v-neck with dark wash jeans, his colorful arms had more tone to them since the last time I saw him. My eyes lingered on his lips once more, before I looked back up to his warm eyes.

"What do you want Bri?" I questioned, trying to keep my voice even, the last thing I needed was it breaking.

Brian licked over his lips before he looked at me with such passion that my heart jumped for the first time in four months, "I don't even know where to start Ash," Brian closed his eyes as he took in a deep breath before continuing, "Letting you go was the biggest mistake of my life, tour was total hell for me, every time I closed me eyes I pictured your face, the way you looked at me with so much pain and anguish that it would give Edward and Bella a run for their money. I should of fought for you baby, I should've come clean and begged for your forgiveness."

"You shouldn't have done it at all!" I cried out, I felt the tears prick the corner of my eyes as my vision turned blurry, "You shouldn't of promised me the world only to leave me with emptiness."

Brian actually looked like he was going to cry, he swallowed before he opened his mouth but nothing came out, he opened and closed his mouth a few times before he could finally form words, "It meant nothing, I have no excuses for the pain I've caused you, and I can never take it back I know that, but Ashley please just understand that if I could take it back I would, I would take it all back just to be with you again."

"If you really cared about me Brian you wouldn't have slept with another woman. You would of come home to me that night rather than getting wasted and hooking up up. I felt like such a joke you know that, everyone knew but me, and there you were acting as if all was fine with the world." I was pretty sure that if looks could kill, Brian would be in a morgue right about now. I was done with this, I just needed to go home and get some sleep before I had my meeting with Mark Hoffer tomorrow. I got up quickly and pulled my keys out of my pocket as I began walking towards the board walk. I wasn't too worried about leaving Janey and Megan, Chase had a car and it wasn't like we lived far.

"Ashley please don't leave, I wanna work this out." Brian called out after me, I didn't turn around though I kept walking.

Brian was chasing after me, he was telling me how he loved me and he was finally begging for me to stay. I wanted to so badly turn around and cling to him forever, but I couldn't help but to wonder why he didn't come after me four months ago. I fumbled with my keys as I tried to open the driver side door, but my eyes were so watery it was hard to see.

"I'm not loosing you again," Brian said sternly before he grabbed a hold of me placing my back against my car, "I.love.you!" Brian's lips crashed down onto mine. His body was flush with mine.

My mind was screaming at me, scolding me as I invited him back, hissing as I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer to my body, yelling as I tangled my fingers in his hair, beside itself as I moaned into the kiss. However, my heart, was a whole other story, it was pleading for me to wrap my legs around his waist, begging for me to open my mouth and let his tongue explore. After a few long seconds, my mind and heart finally found a common ground and I pulled away from Brian. Both of our breathing was heavy and labored, our lips swollen and on fire. For the first time in four months there wasn't a hole in my heart.

Brian leaned his forehead against mine, as he wrapped his arms firmly around my waist, "I was serious Ashley, I'm not going to loose you again." He whispered as he kissed the corner of my mouth.

I wasn't sure if it was the fact that I was sexually deprived, or the alcohol, but I found myself fumbling to open up the front door to my house as Brian kissed and sucked on my neck. We hurriedly climbed the stairs to the second story, not even making it to my bedroom before Brian had me up against a wall as he feverishly kissed me once more, I wrapped my legs around his waist while he slammed my back against the wall. We couldn't get our clothes off quick enough, and by the time we did make it to my bed, we had left a trail of discarded clothing for Megan and Janey to find when they got home.

"You don't know how much I missed your body, the cute dimple in your cheek, the birthmark on your lower hip, the way you feel when I'm inside of you. God, Ash, I haven't been with anyone since the night I thought I lost you for good." Brian kissed down my jaw, as he left a trail of kisses down my abdomen before her spread my legs, I was so vulnerable to him, but the way he looked at me with such a hunger I wasn't shy, my core yearned for him to reach out and touch me.

"Please, Brian." I mewled as he kissed my inner thigh, I needed some kind of contact soon or I was going to explode.

I nearly came as soon as his tongue darted out, it had been so long since his skillful mouth had pleasured me. He circled around my clit, before his fingers spread my folds, as he slipped a digit in I couldn't help but to buck my hips in admiration. My lower abdomen was on fire, he continued to suck on my clit as his skilled finger rubbed my g-spot. My soft moans spilled out over each other.

It wasn't long before that white hot ball had me seeing stars, my walls clenched around Brian's finger. He licked up all of my juices before he kissed his way back up to my mouth, allowing me to taste myself on his lips.

I let my hand wander down to his rock hard erection, I began pumping his shaft as he took my nipple into his mouth. "I missed these, all of this, you're the only women in the world that fits me perfectly."

I grinned as I flipped us over so I was hovering on top of Brian, I allowed my nails to slowly run down his chest as I grinded my hips into his causing the sweetest friction. I lowered my lips to his neck kissing on the soft flesh before I darted my tongue out to lick his soft spot, once I got a growl of approval I bit down on the flesh, making sure to leave a mark.

I leaned into his ear nibbling on his earlobe before I spoke, "Mine." I hissed before I crawled down to his thighs. Taking his member into my mouth I swirled my tongue around the tip licking up the pre cum before I took him all the way into the hilt. Which always proved to be difficult, he was rather large, luckily I was never much of a gagger. I began a quick pace as I bobbed my head up and down his member. As my hands massaged his balls. I could tell Brian wasn't going to last very long, which was my intentions, I wanted to make him cum so hard he'd forget his own damn name. He needed to know I was the only one who knew how to fully satisfy him. I swallowed every drop he had to offer. I pulled away successfully grinning to myself as I watched the man I loved breath in deeply.

"Come here." He crooked his finger at me as he pulled my up his body, kissing me before turning us so I was face down on the bed.

Brian caressed my back as he placed my head down onto the pillow, I yelped in surprise as he slapped my ass, the sting causing the sweetest pain and pleasure combination. He continued to spank my bottom until it was cherry red, I loved every second of it. "What a good little girl." Brian kissed my back as I felt him angle himself, with one thrust he was balls deep in my pussy. My walls constricted around him trying to take him in comfortably.

"You're so tight," Brian groaned as he slowly pulled out and then thrust back in, "I love the way you squeeze my dick baby." Brian to move at a steady pace allowing me to adjust to his size. Once I was moaning out his name he quickened his pace.

The smell of sex began to fill the room, as the sound of our skin slapping echoed, my moans only fueled Brian as he grabbed my wrist and restrained them on my back, he was hitting my g-spot every single time he thrust into me and I wasn't sure how much longer I was going to hold back.

"I'm so close!" I yelled out as he slapped my ass again.

Brian pulled out and flipped me over, as he wrapped my legs around his waist, he didn't go back in though, and I couldn't help but to whimper at the sudden loss of contact. "Not yet baby. I'm going to take it slow now okay, I want you to feel my love for you." He leaned down and connected our lips in a passionate kiss, surprising me as he slowly reentered me.

Brian held me closely, as our chests touched, I buried my face in the crook of his neck as I clung to him for dear life. I never felt more alive than when he and I were one. I had missed his touch so much these past four months.

"I'm close baby," Brian murmured as he kissed my forehead, "Come with me." He whispered.

I couldn't even voice what I was feeling, I could only nod my head, as a spew of noise left my mouth, the moment I felt his hot seed spill into me my orgasm took me onto cloud nine. All me sense meshed into one. Brian collapsed on top of me breathing heavily.

He finally had enough energy to pull out and lay beside me, he placed an arm around my stomach as he laid he head on my shoulder. Our legs were tangled, and our bodies still had the after glow. That was the most amazing sex I had ever experienced, it was so raw and powerful.

Brian looked up at me, his soft brown orbs holding so much sorrow in them, "I'm so sorry Ashley, I took away the one sacred thing we shared together, but I promise you, I will never hurt you again." Brian kissed my collar bone as he gazed up at me.

"I know baby, I love you." I smiled down at him.

I fell into the most peaceful sleep I'd had in a long time. My body melted into Brian's as he held me in his arms all night long.

The sound of my phone going off woke me up rather abruptly. I sat up and groggily looked for my phone before spotting it on my desk, I crawled out of the warmth of my bed and walked over to my phone. The screen showed a text message from my photography teacher.

"Good luck with the presentation today Ashley. You've come such a long way, I know you'll not just be a contender, but you'll be the next big thing!"

"Shit!" I cursed as I looked at the time, it was 10:30, I had to be in Anaheim to meet with Mark Hoffer in 45 minutes.

"Morning love." I heard Brian yawn as he sat up in bed and stretched.

I didn't have time to think about last night. Although the memory came flooding back like a tidal wave I pushed it aside. I had been working toward this day for far too long to let one night ruin everything.

"Where's my bra?" I snapped as I ran about my room trying to find my bra, I gave up however and ran to my underwear drawer as I pulled out a fresh pair, "I'll just go without a damn bra if I must." I ran over to my closest and pulled on a dress, and then put on my wedges.

"Got a hot date or something?" Brian quirked an eyebrow as he watched me run around my room, as I made myself look semi decent.

"Look Brian I have to go. Will talk later okay." I grabbed my portfolio and my keys and ran out the door.

I bit my nail as I watched the door open and close, to the Mr.Hoffer's office. So many hopeful people went in, and they all came out looking as though they had just witnessed a death.

"Miss. Clark?" The receptionist called out, "Mr. Hoffer is ready for you." She nodded towards the office. I smiled nervously before I grabbed my portfolio and made my way into the office.

Photos lined both walls, many of them famous ones I'd seen in magazine and books, I took in a deep breath as I cast my eyes over to the desk in the center of the room. A man wearing all black sat at the desk his head lowered into his hands as he let our an audible sigh. Before I knew it my feel had carried me to the empty seat. I cleared my throat waiting for him to look up to me.

He had sandy blonde hair, and blue eyes. He was a very handsome man, and when he spoke, he had a British accent, after all this time I was finally in the presence of my idol. "Is it really so difficult to find a decent photographer theses days? Please don't be another person to let me down, I've simply had enough of the mediocre talent today." He huffed as he stood up and extended his hand out to the seat I had yet to occupy. "Please take a seat..?"

"Ashley, Ashley Clark." I smiled politely as I sat down in the seat.

"Well Ashley, I'm sorry if I'm not in the best mood. I've has quite some trouble with finding a talented person whom I'd like to work with. I'm just going to get straight to the point. I'm looking for a certain style of photography so it wont be necessary of me to ask you silly questions, all I want to do is have a look at your portfolio, so hand it over." Mark extended his had once more and took the portfolio from my not so steady hand.

An awkward silence fell over the room as he rather quickly flipped through my photos. His facial expressions never once changed, his lips never curved into a smile, however they never turned to a frown either so I wasn't sure what to expect.

"Well," He set down the portfolio and clasped his hands together as he looked up at me, "You are by far the best photographer I've had all day. In fact you're exactly what I'm looking for, so I'm not going to beat around the bush. Would you like to join me on my South American tour?"

I'm pretty sure my mouth hung slightly open, I blinked rapidly at the man before me. Sure I was nursing a monster hangover, with a never ending slide show of hot sex I had just had, but this had my mind in a frenzy. I was positive Mark thought I was a tool, it had been a good three seconds with me spent gawking at him, it was like his offer was floating in the air in front of me and I couldn't take my eyes off of it.

"Are you okay?" He asked raising an eyebrow, as he waved his hand in front of me.

I cleared my throat and shook my head, "I'm-erm oh my god! Sorry, I just, yes." I nodded my head quickly as a smile formed on my lips.

"Good, well leave your information at the front desk and I'll be in touch with the details." Mark smiled politely as he could muster, however you could tell he was questioning my bizarre behavior.

My mind was in a whole other world the entire way home. In fact I couldn't even remember my commute home if I wanted to. It wasn't until I was in the living room that I snapped out of my daze.

"She's alive!" Janey yelled as she walked in from the kitchen and plopped down on the couch with a cup of coffee in her hands.

"Jane, shut up!" Megan hissed as she looked up from the love seat, she looked like she'd been to hell and back.

"So, you leave without telling us, then you decide to have crazy loud sex with your scum bag ex all night, and then you just leave him here to walk around in a towel upstairs with water droplets and wet disheveled hair. Not cool." Megan groaned as she sat up and grabbed the aspirin bottle off the coffee table.

"Yeah about that, I'm sorry guys. I had a lot to drink last night, and then Brian showed up and-"

"And he seduced you into having sex with him. We know." Janey mumbled into her coffee cup.

"What happened to, if I ever see him again I'm gonna cut his dick off and feed it to the dogs. I though that was a great plan!" Megan looked over at me.

"Guy's he's the love of my life. Cutting his dick off is kind of the total opposite thing you wanna do when your drunk and sexually deprived." I fell back into the rocking chair as I looked between my two friends.

"So was it worth it? Letting him back in?" Janey questioned, clearly serious.

I knew that as my friends they were worried about me. They had seen me become a total mess and unravel after Brian and I had broken up, when he went on tour and didn't even give me an explanation I became a love sick zombie. For weeks I was hidden behind the lens of my camera only living in through the pictures I captured. I could tell they were hesitant now that Brian was back in town. Honestly, so was I.

"Look, last night wasn't planned. You don't think I haven't spent countless nights imaging what I would say to him if I ever saw him again. It definitely didn't play out how I had planned. It was a heat of the moment kind of thing, and just because we slept together doesn't mean I forgave him, it doesn't even mean were together. I just, I have a lot to think about." I ran my hand down my face.

"Well the subject on hand asked me to let you know he would like to speak with you when you got back. He said he'd most likely be at the studio. Just, don't get hurt Ash." Megan layed back down on the couch.

They had both spoken their mind, and now it was up to me. I decided to take a shower before I did anything. I couldn't stop my mind from racing. My hard work had finally paid off, my dream was coming true, I had the chance to travel the world and do what I loved most. I also had a chance to rekindle the love I had lost.

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