I'm Still Here
Bad things happen before the good right?
The news had devastated many around the world; Jimmy was gone. His close family and friends were keeping the public away from the investigation. Asking them to respect the family in their time of suffering; as the announcement came to and end all four of the remaining band members had unshed tears in their eyes. Behind closed doors things were a mess ever since Jimmy’s death, Matt had went into a depression but was playing it off so he could be the strong one for everyone. Zacky started drinking massive amounts of alcohol in order to pass the time. Brian and Johnny were the worst off though; they had not only lost a friend but a lover as well. Brian handled it differently than Johnny had. The younger man took to writing notes to Jimmy and burning them in hopes that the ashes would somehow get to him in his afterlife. He hoped that somehow Jimmy could magically piece the tiny specks back together and be able to understand, or at least read it over his shoulder as he wrote. Brian on the other hand had taken to going to bars.
Johnny let him have his space for a little while. Wanting comfort from Brian but it hadn’t come, especially when Brian flat out told Johnny things were over between them. The younger man had just lost both of his lovers. He had an empty feeling running through his body, he felt like he had not only lost Jimmy but Brian too. Both of his lovers were now out of his grasp, but he couldn’t reach out and bring Jimmy back like he could Brian. Jimmy was gone forever. One of his lover’s, and soul mates was buried in the old town’s cemetery resting near the willow tree.
Brian and Johnny had been in the house that night. They were cozy in bed, curled around one another when it happened. In the morning Johnny was the first to wake. After heading down stairs he let out a loud shriek at the sight. Their Jimmy was gone. Brian had immediately woken to the sound and rushed down stairs to see what was wrong. He came in to see Johnny on the ground cradling a lifeless Jimmy; tears streaming down his face as he sobbed into his boyfriends chest.
The pain didn’t go away or ease any, Jimmy was gone, and everyone missed him and wanted nothing more than to have their best friend back. On top of loosing his lover to death Johnny had lost the other to alcohol and whores. Many times Johnny had walked into their hotel room after their tour started to find Brian in bed with all sorts of men and women. It hurt him to know that his ex lover, boyfriend and friend had turned on him when he needed him the most. But he didn’t blame Brian; he had to be just grieving right?
Johnny let him have his space for a little while. Wanting comfort from Brian but it hadn’t come, especially when Brian flat out told Johnny things were over between them. The younger man had just lost both of his lovers. He had an empty feeling running through his body, he felt like he had not only lost Jimmy but Brian too. Both of his lovers were now out of his grasp, but he couldn’t reach out and bring Jimmy back like he could Brian. Jimmy was gone forever. One of his lover’s, and soul mates was buried in the old town’s cemetery resting near the willow tree.
Brian and Johnny had been in the house that night. They were cozy in bed, curled around one another when it happened. In the morning Johnny was the first to wake. After heading down stairs he let out a loud shriek at the sight. Their Jimmy was gone. Brian had immediately woken to the sound and rushed down stairs to see what was wrong. He came in to see Johnny on the ground cradling a lifeless Jimmy; tears streaming down his face as he sobbed into his boyfriends chest.
The pain didn’t go away or ease any, Jimmy was gone, and everyone missed him and wanted nothing more than to have their best friend back. On top of loosing his lover to death Johnny had lost the other to alcohol and whores. Many times Johnny had walked into their hotel room after their tour started to find Brian in bed with all sorts of men and women. It hurt him to know that his ex lover, boyfriend and friend had turned on him when he needed him the most. But he didn’t blame Brian; he had to be just grieving right?
12/11/12