“I’m Brian's wife,” the woman spoke quietly while holding up her left hand. Sure enough there was a wedding ring. Zack’s stomach clenched and his throat dried, tears threatening to form. “Brian!”

“What? What’s wrong?” Brian froze mid step when his eyes landed on Zack standing in the doorway.

“You have a visitor.” She spoke as she walked over to Brian, placing his hand on her little belly bump. “She’s kicking.” Zack could have sworn he felt his heart shatter when a bright smile lit up Brian's face. “You better deal with your co-worker, dear husband of mine.”

Brian’s eyes widened then snapped to Zack’s gaze once more. “No, no, no Zack she’s just. No she's just my, my, my.” Brian stammered trying to find the right word. His ‘wife’ had probably asked for Zack’s name and if so. Fuck! Brian had told her everything about Zack and what was between them. A light blush tinted Brian’s cheeks as he stepped forward.

“Your wife,” Zack mumbled taking a sudden interest in his shoe laces. “I know.”

“No Val is not my wife she's just my baby-” Brian cut himself off not knowing if he wanted to reveal that much right now. “She's my ex-wives sister.” Brian fiddled his fingers.

“You expect me to believe that Brian really? You even just slipped up so I don’t want to hear the excuses. The only reason I am here is because.” Zack paused and looked around, making sure they were alone before continuing. “Johnny called our ‘meeting’ has been bumped up to today and within the next half hour.”

“Zee I was going to say that she's my babysitter.” Brian spoke almost bashfully when he looked up into Zack’s eyes. He saw nothing but hurt.

“Call it what you will, I don’t care Brian just get your shit so we can leave.” Zack watched as Brian scurried up the stairs.

“Val can you watch Jared after he gets out of school?” Brian yelled down the stairs, the little blond head popped out of a doorway and yelled back a quick yes. She soon noticed that Zack was still standing at the door. Val walked over slowly.

“You know I was just messing around Zack. I am Brian’s ex-wives twin sister, her name is Michelle. I also happen to be married to Brian’s best friend Matt. Want to see a pic?” Before Zack could answer she already had her phone out, pegging a few buttons before turning it around to face him. He saw a picture of a rather handsome man with dimples holding the small woman around the waist from behind. They were both in wedding attire, happy smiles adjourning their faces. Before Zack could reply Brian bounded down the stairs and kissed Val’s cheek.

“Okay so you need to call Matt a half hour before school lets out or he will forget to pick Jared up.” Brian walked to what looked like a closet and grabbed a jacket out. They bid Val a quick goodbye and were on their way to the studio. Just before arriving Zack asked a question that had been bugging him since they left.

“If Jared is at school then why is Val at your house?” Zack couldn’t help but feel nosey after asking.

“Matt, her husband is repainting their house and the fumes are bad for the baby. Matt comes over every night and stays in my guestroom with her so she's not alone.” Brian mumbled as he opened his door.

“Why didn’t you tell me you had a kid?” Zack unbuckled his belt and followed Brian out to the front of his car both men taking a seat on the hood.

“I told you. I keep my work and home life separate.” Brian pulled a cigarette out of his pack, offering one to Zack; pulling it away when the other man quickly denied him.

“Oh yeah, I’m just your plaything. You fuck me then leave so you can go play the roll of a ‘secret whore by day daddy by night.’” Zack had no clue why he let those words slip past his lips but as soon as they vacated he slapped a hand over his mouth.

“Fuck you Zack. I try my damned hardest to be a good dad to my boy.” Brian seethed anger written clearly across his face.

“Good! Go be super dad but stop leading me on!” Zack threw his hands up in the air in a frustrated manor.

“What do you want from me Zack? We fuck and it’s amazing but in the end I have a boy to raise and go home to every night. I don’t want him knowing what I do to support him or even my sexuality.” Brian stubbed out his cigarette not daring to look up at Zack.

“So having me around is a dead give a way?” Zack pondered; did Brian think that Zack would do something to hurt his boy?

“No Zack but he thinks I like women. I don’t want him to be taunted for the rest of his life because of my sexual preference. How do you tell your six year old son that you like dick too?” Brian choked out, pushing back a dry sob.

“Explain to him that love comes in many shapes and forms Brian. Do you honestly think that at one point in time he won’t know what you do for a living?” Zack pulled Brian into a hug.

“I have no doubt he will and I am fucking ashamed of it Zee. I want both of us to be happy but I need to do what is best for him.” Brian spoke returning the embrace, resting his head on Zack’s shoulder.

“You can’t have both? What if you find a different job Brian? Why not leave the porn industry and do something that you are proud of?” Zack pulled back slightly seeing tears in Brian's eyes.

“I want to Zack believe me I do want another job but I am on a nine year contract with Dirty Visual.” A single tear slipped down his face.

“Why don’t you break contract then or take them to court over it?” Zack wondered, the whole situation reminding him of his own contract with the company.

“I court case would be messy and the only thing I can do to break contract is refuse to do the work, then they can take me to court.” Brian said miserably.

“Why not pay them off?” Zack began walking towards the building, Brian hot on his heels like a lost puppy.

“I don’t have the money for that.” Brian fell in stride with Zack, quickly lacing their fingers together so he could pull Zack back and stop his movement.

“Earlier when you asked if I can have both what were you insinuating, were you implying that there is something between me and you; if so I have no fucking clue what that is.” Brian’s pointer finger tenderly traced the line of Zack’s jaw.

“I meant that I want to be something significant to you Brian. Even if it has to be as just friends, I want to get to know you. The real you,” Zack grabbed Brian’s hand and pulled it away from his face, not missing the hurt look flash over the others face. He entwined their fingers and turned. “Let’s get in there before Johnny has both of our asses.”

“I think I can handle that.” Brian whispered to himself. A smile on his face, Zack wants to get to know the real Brian Haner then that’s what he’ll get.