Please Tell Me This Is Just A Bad Dream
Cramps
We got to the supermarket, and I began to look for what I needed. I found the pads and tampons section, debating between the two, but taking the pads. Zacky was behind me, not interested at all. I began walking, and he followed. I stopped in front of the medicine, once I found that section. Would they let me buy some Midol or was I supposed to suffer from cramps the whole week? I looked at zacky, and he raised an eyebrow.
“What?” he asked after a few seconds.
“Uh, can I buy some pain killers for my cramps?”
“Uh…yeah, I guess.” He said, and I took a box from the shelf.
“Okay, I guess that’s it.” I told him.
“Alright, let’s go then.” He took the supplies, examining them. “I thought you used tampons.” He told me. Oh god, he just did NOT say that! Seriously?! I made all my effort not to laugh, since he was mad and if I laughed he could just decide to cut my throat open right here.
“Um, I prefer pads. They’re more comfy.” I told him. He shrugged, and hid the stuff in his jacket, walking towards the entrance. “But, aren’t we supposed to pay?” I asked, and he turned around.
“I’m not fucking spending money on freaking Midol and pads. Let’s go.” He said irritated. He got mad since they decided he had to come ‘buy’ this stuff instead of Brian. Truth to be told, he looked really cute when he got mad. I followed him, and surprisingly, nobody noticed we had stolen the pills and the pads. Nothing beeped when we crossed the doors, nothing happened. I felt kind of guilty, but let it go when we got in the car and began to head back home. Did I just call that place home?! What the fuck is going on with me?!?! Chills went down my spine after that thought, but I forgot about it when I felt something fell in my lap. I looked down and found what we had stolen. I looked at zacky; he was focused on the road.
“Um, thanks…for coming with me…Or whatever.” I said. He looked at me and then back at the road again.
“No problem.” He answered simply. I was beginning to think that zacky wasn’t really that bad. I know I said it before, but I began to doubt about it when he cut me open last night. But after what happened today, he really showed me he’s not that bad. I mean, he fucking said he thought I used tampons. I couldn’t stop the giggle that left my mouth when I remembered, and he looked at me. I kept chuckling.
“Why are you laughing?” he asked.
“It’s nothing.” I said, but kept snickering.
“Why are you fucking laughing?!” he kept asking.
“I’ll tell you if you promise not to get mad, or hit me or whatever.”
“Alright.” He rolled his eyes.
“I just remembered your comment from before.”
“Which comment?”
“When you told me you thought I used tampons.” I said laughing. Ok, it was actually really stupid, but I couldn’t stop laughing.
“Oh…” he said and…blushed? Yep, zacky vengeance was blushing. And fuck, that made me laugh harder. He sighed and rolled his eyes.
“What now?” he asked.
“You’re blushing! That’s really cute!” I told him chuckling.
“Okay, stop it already!” he said annoyed, and I closed my mouth doing my best not to laugh. Unfortunately, my body kept shaking. Why was I in such a stupid mood today? But I seriously had to stop cause he was giving me a look that meant no good. I finally stopped, and cleared my throat.
“I’m sorry. Don’t know why I’m acting so stupid today.” I told him looking at my stomach. When I did, I remembered about my wounds. Talking about them, I haven’t thought about it the whole day, and surprisingly it wasn’t hurting. I wanted to raise my shirt up and look at my belly, but decided not to since zacky was right next to me. I then looked at him, not being able to believe that he was the one who did it. It looked really impossible, but it was true. He looked like a psychopath when he took the knife and began cutting my skin. Like if it wasn’t himself. I know I sound like his best friend, like I know him since he was little, but he just looked so different. And that scared me.
We finally got back to the house. I was gonna open my door, but zacky stopped me.
“Don’t get down before I’m there.” He said getting down of the truck, and walking to my door. I opened it, he helped me go down, and took my arm dragging me to the barn, and leaving me there.
I sighed and rolled my eyes, turning around and finding Amanda sitting down against one of the walls. She smiled at me when I sat next to her.
“Hey. Haven’t seen you in a while.” I told her.
“Since last night, actually.” She said and I chuckled.
“Right. You where here since last night?”
“No. Brian decided he wanted to spend the night with me again. I got here like 30 minutes ago.”
“Oh yeah, I remember now. Was he…gentle?” stupid question.
“Actually, he kind of was. I mean, we didn’t make love, but it wasn’t rape either.” She confessed.
“So you liked it?!” I asked with surprise.
“Well…” she scratched the back of her neck embarrassed.
“Oh my god, you did!” I smirked.
“It wasn’t that bad!”
“Oh god, I can’t believe you’re saying he was sweet with you.” I said.
“Didn’t you hear me when I said we didn’t make love?” she replied.
“I just can’t believe he wasn’t the sick little bastard he always is.”
“Yeah, well…” I raised an eyebrow.
“Huh?”
“He still hit me.” Amanda said looking down.
“What?! He did?! That son of a bitch!”
“It’s nothing he hasn’t done before.”
“But then that means you didn’t like it at all.” I said and she just looked at me with a blank expression.
“You never listen to what I say, do you?” she asked.
“Okay, you’re confusing me. Explain please?” she sighed.
“Okay. After what happened at Maryanne’s house, we came back and Brian decided to go upstairs, and you stayed with the other four guys in the living room or whatever. When he decided that, he put me over his shoulder carrying me upstairs and into his room where he of course put me in the floor in a not so gentle way. When I landed on the floor I gave him a nasty look and he smirked. He told me he was really turned on, but I was so mad I told him ‘good for you, I don’t give a fuck’ so he got pretty mad and began kicking me, and calling me names. I didn’t care at the beginning, but it began to hurt really bad, until I got pretty desperate and turned around, taking his boot in my hands telling him to please stop.” Amanda paused, hugging her legs to her chest.
“I began to cry cause my ribs were aching really fucking bad, not letting go of his leg. When he saw I wasn’t letting go, he crouched in front of me making me look at him. When I did he said: ‘I’m gonna stop because I really wanna have sex with you right now.’” She scrunched her face in a bitter gesture, “then he picked me up bridal style, and put me over his bed, more gently this time, and began to take my clothes off, then his, and well, you know what happened next. But I’m saying it wasn’t rape because he wasn’t that rough, and I kind of enjoyed it. Yet, we didn’t make love cause, well, it just wasn’t.” she ended her story, hiding her face between her knees.
“Oh.” I really didn’t know what else to say.
“Oh god I feel so dirty right now. How could I have enjoyed having sex with that psycho?! What is wrong with me?”
“Nothing’s wrong with you, sweetie. This is gonna sound stupid, but it’s normal to enjoy sex.” I said reassuringly.
“I just can’t believe I’ve come so low in my life.” She sighed.
“It’s fine. I kind of know how you’re feeling.” I told her looking at my feet.
“Huh?”
“Well, I think you already know it but I kind of may have a little tiny crush on vengeance.” “WHAT?!” Amanda asked opening her eyes as much as she could.
“You didn’t know? I swore I told you already!”
“Well you didn’t since I had absolutely no idea!” she replied, and I sighed heavily.
“Well, I do. And I really don’t know how to feel. I mean, I kind of feel stupid for liking him, but then I say ‘fuck it, I don’t care, I like him!’…I don’t know.” I told her.
“It’s okay. I really think he’s hot.” Amanda said and we both chuckled.
We stayed in silence for a couple of seconds, but then my belly began to hurt. Wait, it wasn’t my stomach, I was getting a cramp. Oh fuck no, not now please. I groaned and Amanda looked at me.
“What happened?” she asked.
“I’m getting a fucking cramp.”
“Like a menstrual cramp?”
“Yeah. Fuck, why me?!” I then remembered my little trip to the grocery store with vengeance, realizing I had stolen some pain killers. “Vengeance has my pain killers.” I said. “Huh?”
“This morning I went to the grocery store with zacky to get me some tampons and stuff, and I took some Midol as well. The thing is that I don’t know where he is.”
“You went to buy tampons with vengeance this morning?” Amanda asked me raising her eyebrows.
“I told him I was getting my period soon, so shadows told him to go and buy some. He actually told motherfucker, but he just wouldn’t do it, so zacky had to.” I explained.
“Oh… well, I think we should tell them you’re gonna need those pretty soon.”
“The thing is that we’re locked in here.”
“Don’t worry; we just gotta wait for your cramps to get a little bit worse.” Amanda said. I raised an eyebrow.
“What the fuck?”
“You gotta scream so they can hear you from the house. Then they’ll come to see what’s wrong, and taadaa!” she sang the last part.
“I don’t like the idea, but I guess it’s the only way?” I said unsure.
“It’s the only idea I have in mind right now.” She told me.
“It’s fine. I guess it’ll work.” And I really didn’t like it, since my cramps went far than worse if I didn’t do something before they began to really suck dick.
“What?” he asked after a few seconds.
“Uh, can I buy some pain killers for my cramps?”
“Uh…yeah, I guess.” He said, and I took a box from the shelf.
“Okay, I guess that’s it.” I told him.
“Alright, let’s go then.” He took the supplies, examining them. “I thought you used tampons.” He told me. Oh god, he just did NOT say that! Seriously?! I made all my effort not to laugh, since he was mad and if I laughed he could just decide to cut my throat open right here.
“Um, I prefer pads. They’re more comfy.” I told him. He shrugged, and hid the stuff in his jacket, walking towards the entrance. “But, aren’t we supposed to pay?” I asked, and he turned around.
“I’m not fucking spending money on freaking Midol and pads. Let’s go.” He said irritated. He got mad since they decided he had to come ‘buy’ this stuff instead of Brian. Truth to be told, he looked really cute when he got mad. I followed him, and surprisingly, nobody noticed we had stolen the pills and the pads. Nothing beeped when we crossed the doors, nothing happened. I felt kind of guilty, but let it go when we got in the car and began to head back home. Did I just call that place home?! What the fuck is going on with me?!?! Chills went down my spine after that thought, but I forgot about it when I felt something fell in my lap. I looked down and found what we had stolen. I looked at zacky; he was focused on the road.
“Um, thanks…for coming with me…Or whatever.” I said. He looked at me and then back at the road again.
“No problem.” He answered simply. I was beginning to think that zacky wasn’t really that bad. I know I said it before, but I began to doubt about it when he cut me open last night. But after what happened today, he really showed me he’s not that bad. I mean, he fucking said he thought I used tampons. I couldn’t stop the giggle that left my mouth when I remembered, and he looked at me. I kept chuckling.
“Why are you laughing?” he asked.
“It’s nothing.” I said, but kept snickering.
“Why are you fucking laughing?!” he kept asking.
“I’ll tell you if you promise not to get mad, or hit me or whatever.”
“Alright.” He rolled his eyes.
“I just remembered your comment from before.”
“Which comment?”
“When you told me you thought I used tampons.” I said laughing. Ok, it was actually really stupid, but I couldn’t stop laughing.
“Oh…” he said and…blushed? Yep, zacky vengeance was blushing. And fuck, that made me laugh harder. He sighed and rolled his eyes.
“What now?” he asked.
“You’re blushing! That’s really cute!” I told him chuckling.
“Okay, stop it already!” he said annoyed, and I closed my mouth doing my best not to laugh. Unfortunately, my body kept shaking. Why was I in such a stupid mood today? But I seriously had to stop cause he was giving me a look that meant no good. I finally stopped, and cleared my throat.
“I’m sorry. Don’t know why I’m acting so stupid today.” I told him looking at my stomach. When I did, I remembered about my wounds. Talking about them, I haven’t thought about it the whole day, and surprisingly it wasn’t hurting. I wanted to raise my shirt up and look at my belly, but decided not to since zacky was right next to me. I then looked at him, not being able to believe that he was the one who did it. It looked really impossible, but it was true. He looked like a psychopath when he took the knife and began cutting my skin. Like if it wasn’t himself. I know I sound like his best friend, like I know him since he was little, but he just looked so different. And that scared me.
We finally got back to the house. I was gonna open my door, but zacky stopped me.
“Don’t get down before I’m there.” He said getting down of the truck, and walking to my door. I opened it, he helped me go down, and took my arm dragging me to the barn, and leaving me there.
I sighed and rolled my eyes, turning around and finding Amanda sitting down against one of the walls. She smiled at me when I sat next to her.
“Hey. Haven’t seen you in a while.” I told her.
“Since last night, actually.” She said and I chuckled.
“Right. You where here since last night?”
“No. Brian decided he wanted to spend the night with me again. I got here like 30 minutes ago.”
“Oh yeah, I remember now. Was he…gentle?” stupid question.
“Actually, he kind of was. I mean, we didn’t make love, but it wasn’t rape either.” She confessed.
“So you liked it?!” I asked with surprise.
“Well…” she scratched the back of her neck embarrassed.
“Oh my god, you did!” I smirked.
“It wasn’t that bad!”
“Oh god, I can’t believe you’re saying he was sweet with you.” I said.
“Didn’t you hear me when I said we didn’t make love?” she replied.
“I just can’t believe he wasn’t the sick little bastard he always is.”
“Yeah, well…” I raised an eyebrow.
“Huh?”
“He still hit me.” Amanda said looking down.
“What?! He did?! That son of a bitch!”
“It’s nothing he hasn’t done before.”
“But then that means you didn’t like it at all.” I said and she just looked at me with a blank expression.
“You never listen to what I say, do you?” she asked.
“Okay, you’re confusing me. Explain please?” she sighed.
“Okay. After what happened at Maryanne’s house, we came back and Brian decided to go upstairs, and you stayed with the other four guys in the living room or whatever. When he decided that, he put me over his shoulder carrying me upstairs and into his room where he of course put me in the floor in a not so gentle way. When I landed on the floor I gave him a nasty look and he smirked. He told me he was really turned on, but I was so mad I told him ‘good for you, I don’t give a fuck’ so he got pretty mad and began kicking me, and calling me names. I didn’t care at the beginning, but it began to hurt really bad, until I got pretty desperate and turned around, taking his boot in my hands telling him to please stop.” Amanda paused, hugging her legs to her chest.
“I began to cry cause my ribs were aching really fucking bad, not letting go of his leg. When he saw I wasn’t letting go, he crouched in front of me making me look at him. When I did he said: ‘I’m gonna stop because I really wanna have sex with you right now.’” She scrunched her face in a bitter gesture, “then he picked me up bridal style, and put me over his bed, more gently this time, and began to take my clothes off, then his, and well, you know what happened next. But I’m saying it wasn’t rape because he wasn’t that rough, and I kind of enjoyed it. Yet, we didn’t make love cause, well, it just wasn’t.” she ended her story, hiding her face between her knees.
“Oh.” I really didn’t know what else to say.
“Oh god I feel so dirty right now. How could I have enjoyed having sex with that psycho?! What is wrong with me?”
“Nothing’s wrong with you, sweetie. This is gonna sound stupid, but it’s normal to enjoy sex.” I said reassuringly.
“I just can’t believe I’ve come so low in my life.” She sighed.
“It’s fine. I kind of know how you’re feeling.” I told her looking at my feet.
“Huh?”
“Well, I think you already know it but I kind of may have a little tiny crush on vengeance.” “WHAT?!” Amanda asked opening her eyes as much as she could.
“You didn’t know? I swore I told you already!”
“Well you didn’t since I had absolutely no idea!” she replied, and I sighed heavily.
“Well, I do. And I really don’t know how to feel. I mean, I kind of feel stupid for liking him, but then I say ‘fuck it, I don’t care, I like him!’…I don’t know.” I told her.
“It’s okay. I really think he’s hot.” Amanda said and we both chuckled.
We stayed in silence for a couple of seconds, but then my belly began to hurt. Wait, it wasn’t my stomach, I was getting a cramp. Oh fuck no, not now please. I groaned and Amanda looked at me.
“What happened?” she asked.
“I’m getting a fucking cramp.”
“Like a menstrual cramp?”
“Yeah. Fuck, why me?!” I then remembered my little trip to the grocery store with vengeance, realizing I had stolen some pain killers. “Vengeance has my pain killers.” I said. “Huh?”
“This morning I went to the grocery store with zacky to get me some tampons and stuff, and I took some Midol as well. The thing is that I don’t know where he is.”
“You went to buy tampons with vengeance this morning?” Amanda asked me raising her eyebrows.
“I told him I was getting my period soon, so shadows told him to go and buy some. He actually told motherfucker, but he just wouldn’t do it, so zacky had to.” I explained.
“Oh… well, I think we should tell them you’re gonna need those pretty soon.”
“The thing is that we’re locked in here.”
“Don’t worry; we just gotta wait for your cramps to get a little bit worse.” Amanda said. I raised an eyebrow.
“What the fuck?”
“You gotta scream so they can hear you from the house. Then they’ll come to see what’s wrong, and taadaa!” she sang the last part.
“I don’t like the idea, but I guess it’s the only way?” I said unsure.
“It’s the only idea I have in mind right now.” She told me.
“It’s fine. I guess it’ll work.” And I really didn’t like it, since my cramps went far than worse if I didn’t do something before they began to really suck dick.
You can't leave it like this! I need an update o.o
12/4/14