The Final Decision
Chapter I
“Wow, this is beautiful!” I said amazed at the sight before me. Right now, Zack and I were walking through the streets of Venice.
“It really is, huh?” Zack smiled at me. We were currently on our honeymoon. Just a few days prior, we were wedded and I am now Lexi Anne Baker. The thought of that alone still gets me giddy inside.
“I’m missing our Avery, though.” I sighed.
“Yeah, but we’re in Venice!” He said excitedly. “I miss her too, but at least we know she’s safe.” He wrapped his arm around me as we were confronted by a few fans. ***************************************************************************************************************************
Our honeymoon went by like a flash. I was so ready to be home, though. I love Italy but I loved my baby girl so much more. The plane came to a stop as all of the passengers made their way off the plane. Zack and I’s moms were going to be meeting us here with Avery. Zack and I made our way to the baggage claim and then went to find our mothers.
“Mom!” I squealed and we walked over to them. I embraced them and happily took Avery. She has gotten so big since I last seen her. It tugged at my heart a little.
“How was your guys’ flight?” Maria asked.
“It was pretty good.” Zack replied.
“Here baby.” I said handing Avery over to Zack. His mom grabbed his bags and we all made our way out of the airport.
The drive home was full of mindless chatter about our honeymoon and what had happened while we were gone. Zack and I were dropped off at our house and were told that we had to go to Zack’s mom’s house for dinner tonight. We grabbed our bags and my mom grabbed Avery and we made our way inside. Zack unlocked the door and I was trampled by a very happy Zoe and Val.
“Whoa, what the hell?” I laughed.
“Surprise!” They squealed as they stepped away from me.
“What are you guys doing here?” I smiled at my two best friends.
“Well we threw you two a welcome back party.” Val said excitedly.
“Yeah, everyone is in there.” Zoe smiled.
“You guys are so fucking awesome.” I smiled back and made my way inside.
Boy, were they right about everyone being here. The band, our friends, and our family were there. They all were eager to see us and Avery again.
“So how was your trip?” Brian asked me. I smiled at him.
“It was wonderful. I missed my baby and all you guys so much, though.”
He nodded. “That’s understandable.”
I cocked my head. “Are you okay, Bri?”
He shrugged. “I suppose.”
“What’s the matter?”
“It’s the same shit, just a different day.”
“What do you mean?”
“You, Zoe, Zack, the band, everything.”
“Are you and Zoe not doing good?” I asked.
He sighed. “We’re fine. It’s just not what I pictured.”
I nodded. “I understand, Brian. This isn’t what I pictured either, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I’m married to a great man, have a beautiful child and the best friends and family a woman could ask for. Maybe you should rethink things. You may love Zoe, but maybe she isn’t the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Maybe she’s still out there.”
“She’s standing in front of me, Lex. It’s you. You’re the only one I vision myself with. You’re the only one that understands me. You have forever. I’m not here to beg for you. I’m over that shit, but I need help. I need help to get over you. I just can’t do it myself. Zoe is amazing and I’m happy for you and Zack. I love Avery and everything. I’m not even going to think about taking that from you, but please just help me get over this. Help me move on.”
“The only way you’ll be able to do that Brian is if you let yourself. You have it in your mind that I’m the only girl out there for you and I’m not. You know damn well I’m not. We would fight constantly. We are too much alike. I love you Bri. I always will. You and I have a history. It’s just I have a family now and it’s your turn. You need to find that woman that you want to settle down with. If it’s not Zoe, you need to end it with her now. You sitting here wishing you were with me isn’t going to get you anywhere. You need to go out and find that person. You can’t expect it to come walking through the front door.”
He nodded. “I know and I’ve tried to love Zoe the way I love you. I just can’t. Like I said she’s amazing and all, but she’s got her flaws… ones that irritate the hell out of me. I know I can’t spend the rest of my life with her. I love her, but not enough to have what you and Zee have.”
“Well then you need to take action. You have to end it with her and you need to put yourself out there. Next time you’re on tour don’t be afraid to say hello to the hot brunette you see. You have to put in effort in order to see results.”
“Yeah, I know. I’ll try my best. I’m going to go find Zoe and explain to her what is going on.”
I shook my head. “Wait ‘til after you leave here. Let her have a good time at the party. She’s happy right now. I don’t want it to be ruined.”
He nodded. “Okay. Thank you so much Lex. I really appreciate this.” He opened his arms and I gave him a hug.
“You’re welcome, Bri, but stop worrying about this. Go have fun. That’s what parties are for.” I laughed. He smiled and walked away towards the guys. I made my way over to Val.
“Everything okay?” She asked.
I sighed. “I suppose. Brian’s ending it with Zoe.”
Her eyes widened. “What? Why? She’s such a great girl.”
“He just doesn’t love her the way that he should. He’s wanting to find the girl of his dreams. He wants to find the girl that’s just like me.” I told her honestly.
“Ah, well I guess that makes sense. Zoe is nothing like you. When is he going to do it?”
I shrugged. “I told him to wait until after the party that way this night isn’t ruined for anyone.”
“Good call. I hope she takes it okay. She loves him, a lot.”
“Yeah, I know, but you can’t fight the way you feel. You either feel it or you don’t.”
“I’m glad I didn’t have any of these problems with Matt.” She laughed. “The hell that has happened between you, Brian, Zack and Zoe is enough drama to fill the next high school.” I laughed.
“Yeah, I know. It’s ridiculous. I did everything in my power to stop it, but I didn’t get much results. I think it’s finally under control though now that Zee and I are married. Brian has come to peace with that. He understands.”
“Have you made peace with it?” She asked.
I sighed. “I’ve tried. I haven’t fully decided. A part of me feels like I used Zack as a rebound, but the love I have for him isn’t transparent. I obviously love him. I love him more than I have loved Brian. I know that. I just don’t know if I’m ready to let go of that part of my life. You know? I may be married now and have a child, but it doesn’t take away all of the memories I have. And it definitely doesn’t take away all the feelings I’ve had.”
She nodded. “I figured so. You went on that whole rampage about being over Brian, but honestly you were just saying that to hide the truth. I can read you like a book. Now I have to agree with you on you loving Zack more than Brian. You guys have that love that you see in the fairytales. I just hope Brian doesn’t come in between that.”
“I honestly don’t feel like he will. I mean I’ve made it this far, haven’t I?”
“Yeah, but that could easily be changed.”
I nodded. “Yeah, all it could take is me getting pissed off.” I sighed. “I think I’m not the only one that needs help Val.”
“Don’t worry, Lex. You’ll figure it out. You’re not going to throw your family away. You won’t ruin this, but the thought still exist. You need to figure out what to do. You need to get rid of these feelings. You love Brian. You can’t deny it, but do you want to love him as a risk of losing Avery and Zack; the happy little family you’ve always dreamed of. Make a pros and cons.”
“I’m not terrified of losing my baby or Zack. I won’t let it come to that, but I feel guilty for still loving Brian while I’m married to Zack. I feel like I don’t deserve this. I feel like I’m betraying him.”
“Oh, honey, you’re not betraying him. You’re human. Zack knew when he got himself into this that you had a past with Brian and that it wasn’t going to go away. He knew you still love him no matter how much you denied it. That didn’t change anything. He still loves you for you. It’s just one of those things you have to accept. It’s one of those that you ask yourself if it’s really worth it.”
“Well Zack is worth the world. I would give him the world if I could.”
“Exactly, you never felt like that with Brian. Yes you guys loved each other and had sex and all that mumbo jumbo, but neither of you would take a bullet for one another.”
I wiped a tear from my face. “You see, I would take a bullet for Brian.” That was when I felt those familiar arms wrap around me. I sucked up my tears and put on my fake smile and kissed my husband.
“It really is, huh?” Zack smiled at me. We were currently on our honeymoon. Just a few days prior, we were wedded and I am now Lexi Anne Baker. The thought of that alone still gets me giddy inside.
“I’m missing our Avery, though.” I sighed.
“Yeah, but we’re in Venice!” He said excitedly. “I miss her too, but at least we know she’s safe.” He wrapped his arm around me as we were confronted by a few fans. ***************************************************************************************************************************
Our honeymoon went by like a flash. I was so ready to be home, though. I love Italy but I loved my baby girl so much more. The plane came to a stop as all of the passengers made their way off the plane. Zack and I’s moms were going to be meeting us here with Avery. Zack and I made our way to the baggage claim and then went to find our mothers.
“Mom!” I squealed and we walked over to them. I embraced them and happily took Avery. She has gotten so big since I last seen her. It tugged at my heart a little.
“How was your guys’ flight?” Maria asked.
“It was pretty good.” Zack replied.
“Here baby.” I said handing Avery over to Zack. His mom grabbed his bags and we all made our way out of the airport.
The drive home was full of mindless chatter about our honeymoon and what had happened while we were gone. Zack and I were dropped off at our house and were told that we had to go to Zack’s mom’s house for dinner tonight. We grabbed our bags and my mom grabbed Avery and we made our way inside. Zack unlocked the door and I was trampled by a very happy Zoe and Val.
“Whoa, what the hell?” I laughed.
“Surprise!” They squealed as they stepped away from me.
“What are you guys doing here?” I smiled at my two best friends.
“Well we threw you two a welcome back party.” Val said excitedly.
“Yeah, everyone is in there.” Zoe smiled.
“You guys are so fucking awesome.” I smiled back and made my way inside.
Boy, were they right about everyone being here. The band, our friends, and our family were there. They all were eager to see us and Avery again.
“So how was your trip?” Brian asked me. I smiled at him.
“It was wonderful. I missed my baby and all you guys so much, though.”
He nodded. “That’s understandable.”
I cocked my head. “Are you okay, Bri?”
He shrugged. “I suppose.”
“What’s the matter?”
“It’s the same shit, just a different day.”
“What do you mean?”
“You, Zoe, Zack, the band, everything.”
“Are you and Zoe not doing good?” I asked.
He sighed. “We’re fine. It’s just not what I pictured.”
I nodded. “I understand, Brian. This isn’t what I pictured either, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I’m married to a great man, have a beautiful child and the best friends and family a woman could ask for. Maybe you should rethink things. You may love Zoe, but maybe she isn’t the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Maybe she’s still out there.”
“She’s standing in front of me, Lex. It’s you. You’re the only one I vision myself with. You’re the only one that understands me. You have forever. I’m not here to beg for you. I’m over that shit, but I need help. I need help to get over you. I just can’t do it myself. Zoe is amazing and I’m happy for you and Zack. I love Avery and everything. I’m not even going to think about taking that from you, but please just help me get over this. Help me move on.”
“The only way you’ll be able to do that Brian is if you let yourself. You have it in your mind that I’m the only girl out there for you and I’m not. You know damn well I’m not. We would fight constantly. We are too much alike. I love you Bri. I always will. You and I have a history. It’s just I have a family now and it’s your turn. You need to find that woman that you want to settle down with. If it’s not Zoe, you need to end it with her now. You sitting here wishing you were with me isn’t going to get you anywhere. You need to go out and find that person. You can’t expect it to come walking through the front door.”
He nodded. “I know and I’ve tried to love Zoe the way I love you. I just can’t. Like I said she’s amazing and all, but she’s got her flaws… ones that irritate the hell out of me. I know I can’t spend the rest of my life with her. I love her, but not enough to have what you and Zee have.”
“Well then you need to take action. You have to end it with her and you need to put yourself out there. Next time you’re on tour don’t be afraid to say hello to the hot brunette you see. You have to put in effort in order to see results.”
“Yeah, I know. I’ll try my best. I’m going to go find Zoe and explain to her what is going on.”
I shook my head. “Wait ‘til after you leave here. Let her have a good time at the party. She’s happy right now. I don’t want it to be ruined.”
He nodded. “Okay. Thank you so much Lex. I really appreciate this.” He opened his arms and I gave him a hug.
“You’re welcome, Bri, but stop worrying about this. Go have fun. That’s what parties are for.” I laughed. He smiled and walked away towards the guys. I made my way over to Val.
“Everything okay?” She asked.
I sighed. “I suppose. Brian’s ending it with Zoe.”
Her eyes widened. “What? Why? She’s such a great girl.”
“He just doesn’t love her the way that he should. He’s wanting to find the girl of his dreams. He wants to find the girl that’s just like me.” I told her honestly.
“Ah, well I guess that makes sense. Zoe is nothing like you. When is he going to do it?”
I shrugged. “I told him to wait until after the party that way this night isn’t ruined for anyone.”
“Good call. I hope she takes it okay. She loves him, a lot.”
“Yeah, I know, but you can’t fight the way you feel. You either feel it or you don’t.”
“I’m glad I didn’t have any of these problems with Matt.” She laughed. “The hell that has happened between you, Brian, Zack and Zoe is enough drama to fill the next high school.” I laughed.
“Yeah, I know. It’s ridiculous. I did everything in my power to stop it, but I didn’t get much results. I think it’s finally under control though now that Zee and I are married. Brian has come to peace with that. He understands.”
“Have you made peace with it?” She asked.
I sighed. “I’ve tried. I haven’t fully decided. A part of me feels like I used Zack as a rebound, but the love I have for him isn’t transparent. I obviously love him. I love him more than I have loved Brian. I know that. I just don’t know if I’m ready to let go of that part of my life. You know? I may be married now and have a child, but it doesn’t take away all of the memories I have. And it definitely doesn’t take away all the feelings I’ve had.”
She nodded. “I figured so. You went on that whole rampage about being over Brian, but honestly you were just saying that to hide the truth. I can read you like a book. Now I have to agree with you on you loving Zack more than Brian. You guys have that love that you see in the fairytales. I just hope Brian doesn’t come in between that.”
“I honestly don’t feel like he will. I mean I’ve made it this far, haven’t I?”
“Yeah, but that could easily be changed.”
I nodded. “Yeah, all it could take is me getting pissed off.” I sighed. “I think I’m not the only one that needs help Val.”
“Don’t worry, Lex. You’ll figure it out. You’re not going to throw your family away. You won’t ruin this, but the thought still exist. You need to figure out what to do. You need to get rid of these feelings. You love Brian. You can’t deny it, but do you want to love him as a risk of losing Avery and Zack; the happy little family you’ve always dreamed of. Make a pros and cons.”
“I’m not terrified of losing my baby or Zack. I won’t let it come to that, but I feel guilty for still loving Brian while I’m married to Zack. I feel like I don’t deserve this. I feel like I’m betraying him.”
“Oh, honey, you’re not betraying him. You’re human. Zack knew when he got himself into this that you had a past with Brian and that it wasn’t going to go away. He knew you still love him no matter how much you denied it. That didn’t change anything. He still loves you for you. It’s just one of those things you have to accept. It’s one of those that you ask yourself if it’s really worth it.”
“Well Zack is worth the world. I would give him the world if I could.”
“Exactly, you never felt like that with Brian. Yes you guys loved each other and had sex and all that mumbo jumbo, but neither of you would take a bullet for one another.”
I wiped a tear from my face. “You see, I would take a bullet for Brian.” That was when I felt those familiar arms wrap around me. I sucked up my tears and put on my fake smile and kissed my husband.
Update soon please. I love this story.
4/30/17