A Gift or A Curse

Luckily Blake remembered the name of the hotel they were staying at so she can just take a cab and went there alone without Zacky. She was still in a shock state, couldn’t believe that Zacky just kissed her out of nowhere and claimed that she reminded him of Jimmy. Her tears fell like heavy rain, as she shoved a key to her room that she didn’t share with anybody.

Without even bothered to switch on the light, Blake threw herself on to the bed and cried hard.

“Jimmy, where are you? I’m lost without you. Please come back. I missed you so much.”

She mumbled into the pillow without realizing that a presence had appeared in the dark, watching her with a heavy heart.

Jimmy couldn’t stand seeing her cry. He would stay if he could. Along the days when he slipped away, he met his reaper, he watched as other souls being taken away at the sound of newborns crying and some souls asked to stay behind – just like him but they have to fulfill their deeds in return. He asked for a chance to say goodbye and in return he appeared in Blake’s life, and was set to reunite her with her family.

Jimmy didn’t know anything else besides making music, partying with his friends, drinking beer and pulling pranks once in a while. He carelessly used his time away and now he hadn’t much left. Watching Blake crying because she fell in love with him, made him feel guilty – and relieved at the same time – because he too, felt the same way.

“I love you, Jimmy. I wish I could tell you that.”

She mumbled again, but Jimmy can hear her crystal loud.

“I’m right here, Blake. And I love you too.”

Blake bolted upright, jerked her head up when she heard that familiar and unruly voice behind her. Her fingers reached for the light switch on the bedside table and she switched it on. The small source of light filled the room and poured its glow on half of Jimmy’s face as he emerged from the dark, getting closer to her.

“Jimmy?!”

Jimmy smiled at her wearily. As usual he held out one arm and Blake came running towards him. She wrapped her legs around his lanky torso and crashed her lips onto his without even caring that Jimmy had to crouch down a little, meeting her height. She kissed him hard and heavy, telling him how much she missed him and his lips trailed kisses on her cheek, nose, eyelids, forehead and her chin afterwards.

“Jimmy where have you been?”

Jimmy ran his hand through her hair, their blue eyes locked and refused to turn away.

“I was around. I’m sorry Blake. I didn’t mean to slip away. It’s the one thing that I can’t control.”

“That’s okay. As long as you’re back here with me.”

“Ah, but there’s one more thing that I can’t control.”

“What?”

“Falling for you. I can’t stop myself.”

Blake’s smile grew into a shy grin and Jimmy quickly captured her lips again, while landing her on the bed. As she settled herself on the bed, Jimmy leaned over, forcing her to lie on her back while their lips still didn’t part. Jimmy was surprised how he can easily get turned on when he didn’t even have blood running through his veins right now. He forgot about Zacky’s feeling towards her for a while, and wanted to have Blake all to himself tonight.

Slowly he reached for the hem of her dress and pulled it upwards with her arms already wide open, making it easy for him to yank it away from her. He drank again her beautiful pale skin clashed with the black lacy bra with matching panties and her burgundy hair on fire tonight.

“You’re so fucking beautiful, Blake.”

He whispered and strangely Blake didn’t feel offended by the cursing word that came out of his mouth.

“Thank you. Now let’s see how beautiful you are.”

She took the hem of his black tshirt and he helped by tugging it on the collar and out of his body. A red tattoo of FICTION spelled across his chest and Blake immediately traced her finger on it.

“So, am I beautiful?”

Blake let out a soft chuckle and rose up to kiss him. Her small palms rested on his cheek while she was kneeling, meeting her tall body.

“You’re so fucking gorgeous.”

Jimmy laughed and wrapped his arms around her waist. “I’m so proud of you Blake. I taught you well.”

They entwined in a hungry kiss again when Jimmy reached for the back of her bra and unclasped them silently. Then his palm sneaked into her panties and squeezed her ass softly. She moaned and giggled a little.

“What a naughty hand you have there.”

Jimmy bit her collarbone and continued to slide her panties down to her knee as she pulled herself away from her bra. Now she was naked and he was still in his pants. She glared at the bulge that was showing and he followed her gaze.

“Oh, right. Pants.” He fumbled with his own belt and unbuttoned his black skinny jeans – those clothes he had been wearing ever since the day he died.

When they were both naked, they gazed at each other. Jimmy’s tall body towered over her while she can’t help staring at his hard on that needed attention.

“This is my first time, Jimmy. What do I do?”

Jimmy flashed a smirk, took her hand and gently landed it on his length. “Don’t worry. I’m here to guide you.”

She gasped when her fingers touched the hot and velvety skin and Jimmy kissed her hard, giving her permission to do whatever she wanted to. Her fingers automatically wrapped around his member and without knowing she stroked him up and down. He grunted while his own hands rubbing her puckered nipples and slowly he pushed her onto the bed again, lying on top of her. Her hand still fondling with his hard-on while his mouth already sucked and licked her breasts to his heart’s content.

She didn’t know why her own hips moved meeting his rhythm eventhough he hadn’t entered her yet. She felt wet down there and when she was about to touch herself, Jimmy was faster. He rubbed her sweet spot in a slow circle, making her moaned aloud beside his ears as he slipped two fingers inside her.

“You’re ready, baby.”

He gleamed and licked his fingers containing the traces of her fluid. He didn’t taste anything, but Blake thought that it was hot when he did that.

“Will it hurt?” she asked, her breath panting and gasping for air.

“At first, for a short moment. But I swear it will be amazing later.”

She chuckled. “Are you saying that you’re good in bed?”

He smiled and reached for her lips. “You’re gonna have to feel it to believe it.”

With that he eased himself slowly into her and she screamed in pain. His length hadn’t even touched the end of her tunnel yet but she can already feel her muscles clenched.

“You’re okay, Blake?”

Blake nodded, but her expression scrunched in agony. Jimmy kissed her softly to calm her down and pulled out, making her body relaxed instantly. He positioned himself properly and inserted again. Blake bit her lower lip, preventing herself from screaming again but she couldn’t help it. Then Jimmy slowly moved his hips in a steady rhythm, gently kissing her face, telling her to bear with the pain for just a little bit. Just a little bit.

She wanted to push Jimmy away so badly because the pain was unbearable due to his size but seconds later her hips started to move accordingly and following the speed that Jimmy was leading. Her pain was now gone and turned into something pleasurable, building her high up to the sky where she would fly together with Jimmy.

He increased his speed when he saw Blake was already moaning instead of screaming and he pushed one of her leg up and let it rested on his shoulder. He can go deeper that way. While he thrust into her wildly, he pushed her burgundy hair out of her face and looking for her eyes. Their blue irises met and he glinted softly at her, his eyes sparkled with love.

“Jimmy, I’m – I’m-”

“I know you’re close baby. Just let it go. Just come for me.”

She wrapped her arms around his back as his thrusts gone insanely fast, as fast as his hands smashing his drums and his feet kicking the bass pedal.

“Oh Jimmy, Jimmy, Jimmy! Oh!”

“Yes baby, yess…just fucking let – agh!”

With a loud grunt, Jimmy slammed into her once more and her walls tightened around him as they were both came almost at the same time. Both trying to catch their breaths but then suddenly Jimmy felt like he was being pulled, like he was about to slip away. But this time he held on to Blake’s waist, refusing to let her go.


The ground filled with grass, but it was white in color. Both Jimmy and Blake stood under a tree, the leaves were all weary and started to autumn away. Blake glanced at Jimmy as they both couldn’t understand how the hell they ended up here. Just seconds ago they were making love and both had found their release and suddenly they were transferred here, into the land of nowhere.

“Jimmy, why-”

“I have no idea. Why are you so far? Come here.” He pulled Blake’s arms closer to him and she immediately wrapped them around his waist.

They were both fully dressed in black and from afar they could see a group of people circling around something – their attire was also black.

When they drew nearer they saw that it was a funeral going on and it was early winter. Jimmy instantly knew whose funeral was this when he recognized one face in the crowd and his mouth automatically called the name.

“Lea..”

Blake looked up to him. “Your…girlfriend?”

Jimmy quickly glanced at her. “She’s not anymore. I saw her happy being with another guy. And don’t hate her, Blake.”

“I don’t hate her. It’s just that I feel like I’m taking you away from her.”

Jimmy turned her around to face him. “No, I’m the one who’s taking you away.”

“What do you mean?”

Jimmy let out a deep sigh. “I’ve been wasting my time away. I should have told you this earlier. I guess now is the time.”

“What? What is it Jimmy?” Her stomach churned, like something bad was about to happen.

“Your brother, Jude, is dead. We are at his funeral now. This is probably a memory, or a dream. I can’t fucking tell anymore.”

Blake stood motionless, trying to digest word by word that escaped from Jimmy’s mouth. She threw a glance at the surrounding crowd and finally saw a casket being placed into a grave. She closed her eyes, refusing to look at the scene.

“And Leana, is your sister in law. She gave birth to a beautiful daughter, Zoey. She’s your niece.”

Blake didn’t realize when did her tears fell down her cheeks. Her pipe was broken, flowing down like a waterfall not waiting for anything.

“No.” That was all she could afford to say.

“When we made out at Johnny’s, I sort of went through your memory. I saw Jude inside your head. And when I slipped away I saw him again. He looked well-”

“No. No. No!”

“Blake, listen to me. You have to reunite with Lea and Zoey. And your parents. Jude needed that.”

“Jimmy, why are you lying? Where are we right now? Why are we here? Take me back! I wanna make love to you again! Please, Jimmy. Don’t do this to me!”

Jimmy pulled her into a tight embrace and she burst out crying on his chest.

“I’m sorry baby. He can’t stay. And so can’t I.”

Blake pulled away from the embrace and stared at him.

“What? What do you mean you can’t stay?”

“I’m fading away, can’t you see? I want to say goodbye once again to the others but I’m wasting my time too much when the one that I need to really look out for, is you.”

“Jimmy, what are you saying? I don’t understand.”

Jimmy ran his hand through her hair. “You’re my purpose of coming back, Blake. To bring a life to you. Lea and Zoey are your life now. When I’m gone, don’t mourn me. Give a chance to yourself, to others. Get out more. Please, Blake. I’m begging you. Or I won’t be resting in peace.”

“No Jimmy, don’t leave me now!”

Jimmy smiled and looked down to his tattoo-less arms. Almost every tattoo had gone. He looked around to that funeral scene again. The crowd had dispersed, leaving only a fresh tombstone behind.

Jude Wyatt Quinn
1979 – 2004
Beloved husband, father and honorable S.W.A.T Officer.
Laid his life for the country and the people.

Blake dropped and knelt in front of it, her tears still flowing unstoppably. She couldn’t find the right emotion to feel right now. Sad? Panic? Angry? Bewildered? All of her unstable emotion now combined into one bowl of mixture that she couldn’t pinpoint which was the main.

“Hey, Blaky.”

Both Jimmy and Blake turned around at the sound of a stranger’s voice. Jude appeared from behind the tree, wearing his reaper suit and smiled at them warmly. Blake automatically got up and ran into his arms, crying loud.

“Judy!! I missed you, missed you – soo much! Why didn’t you come back and visit me??”

“I can’t, darling. I can only meet you with James’ help.” Jude looked up to Jimmy. “Thank you, James.”

Jimmy nodded once. His heart felt heavy watching them, and realize that his time was about to come to an end.

“Are you taking me away now?”

Blake parted from the hug and glared at Jimmy and Jude. “No. No. Both of you, STAY!!”

“Blake, I-”

“NO! NO! I won’t allow it! Jimmy, STAY!!”

Jimmy quickly pulled her into an embrace and kissed the top of her head. After a while of listening to her sobs, Jimmy turned to Jude, his blue eyes begging.

“Can’t I stay? Please let me stay. I love her. I want to be with her.”

Jude sighed heavily. “No, you can’t James.”

“NOO!!” Blake wailed and tightened the embrace even harder.

“Please Jude. At least a little more time?”

Jude was torn between his reaper obligation and his sister’s heartbreaking blue eyes that arched into him like a cold dagger.

“One day. A day for you to really say goodbye to everyone.”

Jimmy looked down to Blake who was rendered speechless upon their afterlife bargaining.

“Deal.”

Notes

A/N: well, @MeRi and Leyla.lp i hope i make it up to you guys for that life/afterlife action! muahaha XD