I knew what we were doing was wrong, but I loved him, I couldn’t help it. I tried to stop this the first time it happened, but that smirk, those brown eyes, his tattoos, his smell of cologne and cigarettes and that body! I’m pretty sure you already know who I’m talking about if I also tell you he has jet black hair and plays guitar like a god. The point is I couldn’t resist him. But what hurts the most is, every time he tells me that he loves me, but can’t stay the night after making love to me.

We were laying in bed next to each other in silence. I couldn’t take it anymore, we had to talk about this, he was avoiding talking by seducing me every time and being the idiot that I am, I fell. But this time we were going to talk no matter what.

“Hey, Bri?” I asked, refusing to look at him.

“Yeah?” He said with his eyes closed.

“We have to talk.” I said, scared of his reaction.

“UGH! No! I don’t want to.” I knew this was coming.

“I don’t care. We can’t keep doing this. You have to decide, Brian. Either you stay with her or with me. If you marry her, we can never be together again.” By now he was frustrated, but what was I supposed to do, he had to decide.

“Why? You know how I feel about this, why do you have to make me decide? I love you, but it’s too late to cancel the wedding. Besides, is Michelle we’re talking about, she would go nuts if I left her and cancel the wedding.” He said while sitting on the bed now looking down at me.

“I love you and if you love me, if you really love me you‘d stop this.” What I really wanted to say was that if he really loved me he would leave her for me.

“Fine, I’m done. I’ll marry her and I’ll never try anything with you. We’ll both be unhappy for the rest our lives. There, is that what you wanted me to say!?” Now he was mad as hell, but there was nothing I could do. He got up and started putting his clothes on.

“Bri…i…” I was speechless; he had never talked to me like that.

“Forget it, Ellie. This is what you wanted, and you’re right, we can’t keep this up.”

“Fine.” I whispered. My face was covered in tears, I tried to hide them but I couldn’t.

“Ell, I know this is hard for you, believe me when I say I know. Ellie, what I’m going to ask you now may sound like I’m an asshole, but I need you there on Saturday. I can’t do it alone, not without Jim and you. So, can you be there?” He asked in a serious tone.

“I can try. But if I’m not there don’t be too surprise.”

“Okay. That’s enough for me.” He gave me a kiss on my forehead, whispered “I love you” and left.

Saturday rolled around and I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t watch him get married. It was way too hard to watch the love of your life get married to a lying cheating bitch that only cared for his money. I was dressed in a black and white dress with black peep toe heels. I was more than ready to go but I didn’t want to.

I finally decided to get in the car and go to the wedding after having a long fight with myself. When I got there the guys were freaking out. Matt came to me and told me that Brian was freaking out and didn’t want to come out of his changing room.

“…come on maybe you can convince to come out?” Matt said with a puppy dog face.
“I’m sorry there’s nothing I can do, Matt.”

“Oh, come on. You’re his best friend!” Poor Matt was desperate, but I couldn’t do anything.
“I’m sorry. I’ll be inside.” And with that, I went inside the church to wait for the wedding to start.

I took a seat on the last bench of the church and soon the ceremony started. Michelle entered and glared at me as if she knew something about me. I just ignored her and I didn’t listen to any of what the preacher said, until he asked,

“Is there anyone here today that doesn’t approve of this union?” Then there was a painful moment of silence where I contemplated speaking out and saying something, but I didn’t. As soon as I got up to storm out of the church and forget all about this, I heard a yell coming from the pulpit. I turned around, and there was Matt.

“You know what!? I can’t take this shit anymore! You don’t love her. You’re in love with Ellie, damn it! You’re making the biggest mistake of your life, and I can’t let you do that.” He yelled. You could see Michelle was about to explode and if looks could kill, Matt would be six feet under by now.

“Dude shut the fuck up! This is my life, my business, now back the fuck off you son of a bitch-” Brian yelled back but got cut off by a really pissed off Matt.

“Who are you calling son of a bitch, you asshole!” Matt punched him and a fight ensued. I took that as my que to just get up and get out of there.

That day I decided I couldn’t be there anymore, I had to go no matter how much it hurt me to leave the guys, they were my family, all I had, but if I stayed there it would just cause more problems than there already are. So I just said goodbye. I packed my stuff and headed off to my favorite place in the world, London.

It’s been two years since I left my life in California and started a new one here in London. I got a job at a record company as a photographer, made some awesome new friends and I’m basically living an awesome life.

Now I was on my way to my boss’ office who wanted to see me. When I got there he told me to take a seat.

“Well as you already know Avenged Sevenfold’s Welcome to the Family European tour is coming up” As soon as I heard the name the first thing that came to my mind was him.

“Yes…I do...” I couldn’t help the awkwardness, I got so nervous as soon as I heard the name.

“Okay well, they need a photographer for the tour and they started looking for one and they contacted us for help and so we told them that we had an amazing one and well here we are, can you do this for me?-” I was in shocked I couldn’t believe my ears, was he serious?

“-I already told them yes since you always say yes and they’re desperate. So, will you do this for me?” He asked with a worried look on his face. I didn’t know what to do. What was I supposed to do? I came here to forget about them, about him. If I took this job it would destroy everything I worked so hard for. If I do this, the walls I’ve worked so hard to keep up will come crumbling down on me. I couldn’t do it, but seeing my boss so desperate almost begging because he already said yes and didn’t want to disappoint as always, I gave in and said,

“Fine, I’ll do this, for you.” Why do I have to be such a sucker when it comes to helping someone, why can’t I just say no?

“Thank you, so much Ellie, you’re a lifesaver, really. Well, now that you said yes, let’s get down to business. You’ll be meeting them at the local café at 4:00 pm, they will give the schedule and dates and stuff, I suggest you start packing because you’ll be touring all over the country and Europe. Good luck.” He said in a hurry.

“Wait, you already planned this, without consulting me?” Let just say I was a bit mad.

“Well, you always say yes, so yeah I did. By the way the tour lasts one whole year. Anyway good luck I got to run. I am already a bit late for a meeting.” And so he left. I was so shocked I was meeting them tomorrow, what were they going to say when they saw me? This is way too much to process.

I left for home and when I got there I found my roommate Alexa on the laptop writing something and she had Bring Me the Horizon blasting in the house at full volume.
“Hey, I’m home.” I tried to say but she didn’t hear me because of Oli Sykes beautiful screams.

“Hey, I’m home!” I tried louder and she finally looked up and saw me.

“Oh, hey, you’re home!” She yelled in her British accent. “Let me turn it down!”

“Yeah you do that.” She went over to the stereo and turned down the volume.

“Okay, how was your day? Did you get any new awesome job with any bands?” She asked. She knew that if I got any jobs she would probably get free tickets.

“Yeah, I got a job. I wouldn’t exactly call it awesome.”

“Why not? Is it some poppy spoiled celebrity bitch?”

“No.” She already knew my history with Avenged and what happened with him.

“Then what’s wrong with the job?” She asked in her innocent voice.

“It’s Avenged Sevenfold I’m working for.” Her eyes almost popped out of her face.

“Wait, you can’t be serious!!!” She yelled so loud, I thought my ears would explode.

“Well, I am, I didn’t have a choice. So, now I’m meeting with them tomorrow at 4:00pm because they think they’re meeting me for the first time.”

“Wow. You think you can handle it? You know, seeing him again?” She asked with a worried look on her small face.

“I don’t know. It doesn’t matter anyway, this is just business. Anyway I have to go pack-"

“What do you mean go pack?” She asked a bit paranoid. She always got worked up over nothing.

“Right, forgot to tell you. I’m going on tour with them for a whole year!” I with my voice filled with sarcasm.

“What!? A whole year?”She asked getting really paranoid.

“Yeah. I got to go pack.” I felt like crap. I can’t believe this was happening.

I packed everything I thought I would need, chose an outfit for tomorrow, took a shower and after I didn’t even bother to eat with all the stress I felt so overwhelmed I just went to sleep.
It was 3:15 pm and I was freaking out, I tried to stay cool and calm but after a few hours I just couldn’t stay calm anymore I was about to have a breakdown I was a train wreck. I was finishing getting ready and now was about to get in the car. I was actually a bit late because they always were, so I wasn’t worrying about that. After the forty minute drive I finally got there and of course they weren’t there but I was five minutes late after all.

After fifteen minutes of waiting and worrying, they got here. At first they looked like they didn’t know what they were looking for but then Matt looked in my direction and saw me. He shook Brian on the shoulder and he looked this way and when he saw me he went pale. I think I was just as shocked and maybe worst. They started coming my way and I got up.

“Ellie? What are you doing here?” Matt asked. Was that it? No, hey how you’ve been?

“Surprise...? I’m your new photographer for the tour.” I said in a awkward tone. I didn’t mean to sound so awkward but I did. I couldn’t help it.

“You’re the photographer that we’re supposed to be meeting for the tour?” Zacky asked really surprised.

“Yeah, I guess I am.” This was so weird. My boys, my family, they were in front of me and they didn’t even say hello. I guess I deserved that after leaving them without saying goodbye.

“Well, should we seat down?” I asked and they all nodded. We took a seat and for a moment there was an awkward silence until Johnny broke it.

“So, how have you been?”He asked me casually.

“I’ve been okay, actually I love it here.” I said and then another awkward silence.

“Why did you leave? And, have you been here all along?” Matt asked a bit mad. I could still read them so well. You could see the disappointment in his eyes, which made me feel really guilty for not saying goodbye

“Um…yeah I’ve been here all along” I answer trying to avoid the first question but Matt wasn’t having it.

“You didn’t answer my first question. Why did you leave, and without saying goodbye!?” I felt my eyes get all wet and said, “Do I really have to answer that?”I looked down when I felt those brown eyes that I longed to see so much looking at me.

“Ellie, why did you do it? You couldn’t even say goodbye!?” By now my face was covered in tears and I couldn’t take it anymore, apparently Brian noticed because when Matt was about to ask something else Brian cut him off by saying,

“Matt stop, you’re making her feel uncomfortable, just stop okay where are you even trying to get with this?”Brian said frustrated, Matt looked so surprised with what he’d said and so did I. He was the last person here I thought would defend me. I looked at him and whispered a thank you.

“I want to know why she left without saying anything. No note, no nothing she just left us.” Matt said mad.

“Matty…I…I didn’t mean to just leave without saying anything, but I knew that if I went to you, you wouldn’t let me.”

“Yeah, that’s true. We wouldn’t have.”Johnny said.

“We missed you, Ellie.” Zacky said.

“I missed you too. I mean that. I guess, I got tired of all the drama in my life, so I decided to come to my favorite country. I got an apartment and my roommate helped me find a job with a record company doing what I loved the most, as photographer for bands, so here I am. You needed someone and now I’m here as your photographer, just like the old times. And I’m sorry Matty, and Bri, Zack and Short Shit, please forgive me?” It was easier than I thought but I had my puppy dog face just in case.

“Oh, you know we can’t resist the puppy dog face!” Matt said and I knew I had them again.

“Yei! I love you guys so much.” I said excited and hugged each one of them as they laughed. Maybe this wasn’t going to be so bad after all.

“So, you’re going to be touring with us for the rest of the tour right?” Matt asked me.

“Yeah, I’m all packed already.” I said to him. I was so happy now that we worked everything out, well maybe not everything I still needed to have a talk with Brian, who hadn’t talked at all since he told Matt to shut up earlier. I was about to go on tour with them just like the old times!

“Wow. Cool, we’ll go get your things a bit later and head off tomorrow after meeting with your boss.” He said.

“Okay then.”

We talked about the tour for another hour and they informed me about everything I needed to know. They gave me the schedule and after we talked about the two years apart. We talk about the new album that had come out two months ago and all the process they went through and how hard it was to do it without Jimmy there.

Now we were at my apartment they were in the living room doing God knows what and I was packing all the last minute things and making sure I had everything when Brian suddenly came into the room.

“Hey.”Was the first thing he said a bit unsure standing in the doorway.

“Hey…what’s up?” I asked feeling a bit uncomfortable.

“Can we talk?” He suddenly asked, which took me a bit by surprise since he’s been so distant.

“Yeah, sure come on in and seat wherever you want.” He took a seat on the bed which reminded me of our last conversation in my bed, which was actually the last time we talked before I left.

“I need you to be honest, did you leave because of me?” He asked looking at me and going straight to the point.

“Maybe.” I’ve been trying to avoid him so much, forget about him, about everything we had, but here I was in front of him, and I realized that none of the things that I did to forget about him were worth it, I couldn’t forget about him, he was the love of my life.

“I’ll take that as a yes. You know…I didn’t marry her.” He said to me as if that changed anything.

“I know. It was big news all over the internet”

“Then why did you leave?” He had the saddest look ever and it broke my heart seeing him like this.

“I told you, I couldn’t take the drama anymore, it was driving me insane.”

“Okay. I just don’t understand why you had to leave because of that.” He got up and came closer and took my hand and said, “Can we start over, I mean, as friends? I don’t want to lose you again, it hurt too much the first time. So, can we?” He asked almost begging.

“Bri…I…yes, yes we can, but just friends, nothing more.” I said to him.

“That’s all I ask for. Now come over here and give me a hug.” I walked into the tattooed arms I knew so well and he gave me a tight hug just like in the old times. I buried my head in his chest and smelled the oh so familiar scent of cologne and cigarettes. It felt so good to be back in his arms, it felt right as if they were made just for me- control yourself, just friends.

UGH! This was going to be hard and it was going to take some time to get use to.

Notes

I might post a second final chapter that i wrote but im still not sure. Please comment!! Good or Bad constructive criticism is accepted. This is my first ever story so forgive me if there's any mistakes but please comment, thank you :3 
also this is from mibba.