Complicated Love

Brian laughed and threw his hands up. "Hallelujah! She sees the light!"
He stood and picked me up, spinning me around. "It's about time, girl."
When he put me back down I was smiling so hard, my face hurt. I loved Jimmy Sullivan! It felt so good to actually realize it. How could I have been so blind? And when he had kissed me--
"Oh my god!" I gasped, putting my hand to my mouth.
"What?" Brian asked
"Jimmy!"
"No. I'm Brian. The better looking one."
"Oh shut up. I mean I haven't seen or spoken to him since Friday. This must have been terrible on him!"
Brian grabbed my hand and pulled me to the door. "Well then," he said. "Better go do some making up." He was wriggling his eyebrows at me.
I hit his chest then closed and locked my door. "Get your head out of the gutter and drive me to his house."
"My mind lives in the gutter, baby."
About fifteen minutes later, we were in front of Jimmy's house but I couldn't seem to get out of the car.
Brian sighed. "Brooke I've got somewhere I gotta be soon. If you don't get out I will personally push you out."
I flipped him off but got out. "You're such a sweetie," I said sarcastically.
"Yeah I know." He threw me a devilish smile and drove away.
I slowly walked up to Jimmy's door. Why was I so scared all of a sudden? I sighed and pushed the door bell.
No answer. I pushed it again and I could hear it chime through the house. I pushed it one more time and held it down. If there's one thing I know, it's how to get on somebody's nerves.
This time I heard Jimmy yell from somewhere inside, "Alright i'm fucking coming!"
I smiled. I knew I could get him to come to the door.
He swung open the door. "What?!" he yelled before he saw me, but when he did his look softened. "Brooke?"
I just nodded. I was scared again.
Jimmy moved to the side, "Well come in."
I walked past him and made my way into the living room, but I didn't sit. I saw a few beer bottles on the table and a pillow on the couch. When Jimmy came into the room, I could see now that his hair was ruffled and he only had on a pair of low-hanging shorts.
I looked down, embarassed, which so wasn't me. "I woke you," I said quietly.
He cleared his throat. "Um...yeah. But it's alright. I had to wake up anyway. Go ahead and, uh, sit."
I sat. This was awkward. Jimmy and I had never been awkward with each other. He was one of the only people I was completely comfortable with. And I had done this. I had ignored him because I had been scared of him. Scared of my Jimmy!
Now that I thought about it, I realized that wasn't right. I had been scared of myself. I had kissed him back. Hard. The fact that I had never felt that kind of feeling before scared me. Not Jimmy. Never Jimmy.
"Brooke? You ok?" He asked.
I looked at him. He was still standing in the doorway. I sighed. "Jimmy I'm so sorry about the last couple of days. I never meant to hurt you. I just didn't know what to do."
He moved into the room and stood by the couch. "Hey, don't worry about it. I freaked you out with the kiss. But I've been thinking." He ran his hand through his hair. "If you just want us to stay friends like before, I completely understand. Because my friendship with you is more important than anything else. And..."
I couldn't take it anymore. I stood up, pulled his head down and kissed him. He was shocked for a second but then he relaxed and kissed me back. I grabbed his hair and kissed him with everything I had.
Finally I pulled back but Jimmy kept his arms around me. He was flushed and breathing hard but he was smiling. We both were.
"Jimmy," I said. "I love you. Really and truely love you. Brian told me how you've felt about me all these years and I realized, I felt it too. I just never recognized it." I kissed him again.
Jimmy picked me up and laid me down on the couch and he laid on top of me but kept his weightt on his elbows. He looked down at me and smiled the biggest smile. "My God, Brooke. I have waited forever to hear you say that. I love you so fucking much."
I laughed and kissed him again. This felt so right. How could I have gone this long without knowing?
His tongue rubbed against my bottom lip asking for entrance and I gave it to him. Now we were in full make out mode and I wasn't stopping anytime soon. I ran my hands down his back and Jimmy had his hands in my hair. He would moan everytime I scratched his back and that egged me on.
But then his stupid phone rang. He groaned and stood up to answer it.
"Hello?" he answered, breathlessly. I smiled knowing I was the reason for it.
"Oh hey, Shadows. What's up?"
I laid back on the couch and stared up at the ceiling. I had never felt so fucking happy. I was starting a career and I was very possibly starting something with Jimmy. My new life was going great!
"Alright, well I'm kind of busy at the moment so can I call you back?" Jimmy was saying into the phone. I wonder what they were talking about. He looked over at me and smiled. "yeah she's here. And yes. I'll talk to you later." He hung up the phone and came back over to the couch.
"Where were we?" Jimmy asked as he kissed me.
I pulled back. "We were just at the part where you got me something to eat. I'm fucking starving!"
He jumped and ran for the stairs. "Then food we get!" he yelled as he took the stairs two at a time.
I laughed. He was such a goofball, but he was happy. We both were.
I could get used to this.