When we were back in the hotel room, I stared at the bag Brayden had given me.
“Open it.” Brian said sitting down on his bed.
I took a deep breath and unzipped it, it was full of Notebooks and folders and there was a note on top of them all

Jimmy,
I know you’ve always wanted to know what my life was before I ran away and before you became my life. I know I never explain it well or tell you what you want to know so this is some Poems and Drawings that will explain it for me
I love you, Brayden <3

I stared at the note wondering to myself if I really wanted to look through these, after hard thought I decided I would do it on the plane in the morning because I was exhausted. I laid down and fell into a comfortable sleep.
“Jimmy wake up.” I heard Brian say
“No.” I said
“We have a flight to Texas to catch. Get up.” He said
I groaned and sat up.
“Someone’s a zombie.” I heard
I grabbed my glasses and looked over to see Jason Berry laughed.
“Can it our I’ll shove my drum stick so far up your ass it will come out of you mouth.” I said
“That would involve you fisting my ass.” He said
“Fine I’ll shove a broom stick up there. Is that better?” I asked
“Someone’s hostile this morning.” Zacky said appearing in the door
I smiled and stood up, I pulled pants and a shirt on and shoved my feet into my Vans.
“Let’s go! Let’s go! Let’s go!” Larry announced
We all followed him with our stuff onto the plane. I shoved my headphones in my ears letting Slayer drown out my band mates. I grabbed a note book out of the bag from Brayden and opened it. The first Poem was entitled Broken.

Broken
My heart is broken, dreams are too.
My love is lost and forever gone from you
You’ve broken me down and found my weaknesses
What else can I do besides say ‘I hate you’

I kept flipping through the notebook reading these depressing Poems my wife wrote when she lived with her father.

Tired
I’m tired
Tired of hiding
Tired of crying
Tired of dying
This is all your fault
You make me cry
You’re killing me
I wish you’d stay away From me.

Some of these made me so angry, some of them made me want to cry. I knew what all of them were about, some were about pain and there were some lost love ones in here, I know they are about Alex.

Alone
Entering an empty wasteland of nothing but ash and stone, I walk in silence for I have no one to talk to. I’m walking these million broken miles with poison in my veins. My heart is icy as I continue to walk, my hands are numb. I close my eyes and see black and white pictures of when we were together; I feel a tear slide down my cheek. I snap my eyes open and look up at the big black night sky and sigh, I see my breath and look down at the ground. I continue to walk holding back my tears, I miss you and now I am alone.

Enough
I’ve had enough
Enough of your lying
Enough of the bullshit
Enough of the pain
I’ve had enough
Enough of the tears
Enough of the yelling
I’m done

This Road
All these broken promises lead me down a hard road to live on. This road is dark and bumpy and goes on forever. A never ending road to my unhappiness, my dreams have been broken and crying in the night doesn’t help to heal, but it just masks the pain.

Remember
Remember the days. The days we laughed
The days I cried. The days you held me
Remember the memories. The memories of you
The memories of me. The memories of us together
Remember me. My smile
My eyes. My laugh
Remember you. Your eyes
Your laugh. Your smile
Remember us

Afterlife
Have you ever stopped and took the time to think?
To think about life or to think about death?
Ever surmised what happens in the Afterlife?
As the lighting strikes, affliction is caused and another one falls.
Some slide through life like a newly sharpened knife
Others like a dull jagged knife
Is the Afterlife better than life itself?
Or is it just as Hollow?

Night Skies
The night skies are empty like my heart. You didn’t deserve to go like you did, you were my one and only everything and I don’t want to be apart. They did this to you and they are going to pay a grave consequence to which I will give to them. After that I’ll hold this gun to my head and pull the trigger, I loved you and now you’re gone. I would do anything to be with you again, my love was strong. My love was so strong that I didn’t even have to pull the trigger, my heart just gave in. I died of a broken heart.

There was a little note under Night Skies just telling Alex about how much she misses him.

Pain
I feel my veins rip though my skin. I try not to scream in pain, it goes away and I continue with my day. It comes back near the end of the day, this time I scream out in pain; people stare at me. I pull my sleeve over my arm and run home, when I get home I turn off the lights and I’m alone. It’s happened it won’t go away until you tell me goodnight. Even though I know it’s not possible.

That was the end of the notebook, there was another one with big bold letters on it. saying These are new, for us. You and I, Jimmy. I smiled and opened it, there were only two in it so far.

Separated Lovers
This day is lost
To separated lovers
For they have already
Found each other
But for you and I
A chance we see
A dream worth fighting for

On the bottom of the page in bold lettering was. Jimmy you are my dream and my life <3. I smiled and flipped the page.

The Forgotten Light
I am the forgotten light, the light that brings happiness to the outcasts. The light that brings beauty to the forgotten, the light that shines on the alone, the light that makes them smile.

I smiled and closed the notebook and put the notebooks back into the bag, I would wait to look at the drawings. I loved this girl with all of my heart and it pained me to read the sad poems so looking at the drawings probably wouldn’t be a good idea right now. Brian was tapping my shoulder, I pulled out a headphone.
“Yeah?” I asked
“You okay? You’ve been pretty quiet.” He said
“Just thinking.” I said
“I’ll leave you to it my friend.” He said
I put the headphone back in and laid my head against the window and fell into unconsciousness

Notes

I did use my own poems :/ blahh