Soulmates
Stay away
Sierra's POV
The next morning I woke up hangover and utterly confused.He kissed me last night.He kissed me with such passion and emotion, and made my whole inner world explode.It felt like the time stopped running for hours,like there was noone else in the whole world except from us.a moment that could go on forever..
But the stupid voice in my head had to present itself in my head,shouting that the man I was kissing ''is Synyster Gates,Married and surely drunk as f**k,so stop believing that this means anything''.And the voice was right.
Because the kiss was a mistake.It had to be.Me and him..we could never be together.He has a wife he's known since they were both kids.Me? He's only known me for 3 days,nothing to special about that.As Zacky said,Syn gets bored easily,and he's looking for playthings,toys to keep him entertained.That was probably my use for him.
But it didn't feel like that to me.What I felt when his lips crushed on mine,when his fingers pressed on mine and laced them together upon his strong chest,it couldn't be just a pastime activity for him.I couldn't get my mind off his taste,his big,chocolate brown orbs,his wonderful,long fingers,his perfect tattoed arms.But I had to let go,of something that merely even started ,because getting lost in a world of fantasies,especially when their ''main character'' walks around you everyday, doesn't exactly sound like the most appealing situation.
With that one thought stuck in my head,I got off my bed,and went straight to the bathroom.We didn't have a show today,so we had the whole day to ourselves,basically relax,have fun with each other and stuff,because later we had a -surprise surprise-party to go to,organised by our music company.That was because many bands that were signed on the same company as us happened to be around the same area,and that seemed like an awefully good excuse for the managers to throw yet another party.
I fixed my hair a bit,and walked out of the bathroom,searching for something simple to wear for any morning activities.I picked a black top that was loose on my shoulders,denim shorts and my pair of Black UGGs,and walked to the living room area,only to spot all my bandmates sitting there watching tv.
''Aren't we going to do anything today?''I asked in disbelief.
''Like What?''Jason asked,not taking his eyes of the screen.
''I don't know,go out?Take a walk?C'mmon guys its a beautiful day out there..''I said.
''Why don't you ask Gates to come with you?''Jason replied,his eyes now glaring at me,a hint of anger hidden somewhere deep inside them.
''What do you mean?''I asked, the tone of my voice suddenly lowered,reaching the levels of a whisper.
Jason stood up and grabbed my arm,dragging me outside the bus.When we both got out,he left my arm and leaned against the door.
''I mean that I saw you two yesterday,Sierra..I saw you two kissing..''he said bluntly.
''....so? It didn't mean anything,Jason,it was only a kiss...''I started mumbling.
''No,Sierra,DON'T start saying bullshit,okay?We both now that it meant something ..for you at least..'',Jason said.
''What's that supposed to mean?''
''Sierra,I'm sure that in your pretty,little head , you already have the story written...He's madly in love with you,even though he only knows you for 3 days,he decides to break up with his wife to stay with you , you two get married and have 3 wonderful little kids running around a beautiful,huge house next to the beach,and live happily ever after,right?''
''Uhm..No,Jason, that's n-..''
''Yes,Sierra,we both know that you have those ideas on your mind since you f**king met the guy..But guess what,Sierra?He's not going to give up his everything for you...He's not going to change his life for you...He doesn't feel anything about you,and he never will...He's simply a womanizer,Sierra,and he loves it that girls all over the world believe that he's any diferrent.. '' Jason said.
''How the f**k do you know any of these,Jason? Huh? How are you so sure?Has it even crossed your mind that his image might not tell the whole truth?That he faces problems that the world would never know,simply because even he doesn't know them?And that maybe there is good in him?''I said,my voice starting to crack in the end.
''Sierra,I'm only saying what I see in him..And I see that he's going to hurt you,Sierra...Badly,and maybe you won't even be able to be yourself after it..''Jason said,calmly this time,moving closer to wipe off some tears that had already started falling on my cheeks.''I care about you so much,that's why I hate it when someone hurts you..and I can see him doing just that , Sierra , in the future..so please,stay away from him...''he muttered,and I lost it.
''What are you talking about?You get to tell me who I get to hang out with?You are not my dad,Jason,I know you care and sh*t,but that's too far..And Im not sleeping with him,JESUS!You think I'm what,a whore?F**king a married man?It was only a kiss,Jason,a kiss and nothing more...So be sure that whatever you had in your head isn't happening..''I kind of screamed,and started heading away from Jason,away from our bus,away from the Sevenfold's bus,away from everyone..I just needed to be alone.
I collapsed against a concrete wall,not knowing where I was,but it was quite,and from what I could tell noone was anywhere near,so It was exactly the place I felt the need to be in.I held my head in my hands and sighed,taking deep breaths in order to calm myself down,and thinking about everything over and over again..
''...Stay Away From Him...'' .That's exactly what any rational person in my place would do.Tha't what seemed logical.And it needed to be done,as soon as possible..I had no choice..
Brian's POV
I woke up,somehow feeling really excited about everything that happened yesterday.I could still feel her warm,soft lips on mine,I savoured the feeling I got when her hands landed on my chest,gently pressing it.My heart felt alive yesterday,for the first time in years.All I could think about since my eyes opened was feeling her around me again, touching her again,holding her,hugging her,kissing her...
I went to the bathroom and made my self look good..I wanted to look good for her,I wanted her to want me,the same way as I wanted her.It really felt scary,terrifying to be exact,but I couldn't help it.I was falling for Sierra,and faster than I thought was possible.
After I finished getting ready,I started heading out of our bus,intending to find Sierra,and talk to her...I needed her smile,her laugh,her everything to make me believe that something good would come out of the day.
I started moving towards her bus,but I bumped into someone : Matt.I gave him a weird look,seeing that he was basically glaring daggers at me.
''What's going on man?''I asked in disbelief.
''I don't know,you tell me..''Matt said,still not moving an inch from his spot.
''Look,I'm not in the mood for any of you f**ked-up mind games or whatever,Matt..Just tell me what is it that you want, or let me the f**k go..'',I said,anger building up inside of me.
''Go where? To Sierra, maybe? Find her and make out with her,like last night?''he said,and I froze.
''You thought noone saw that,right?Well I did,Brian.I've been watching the way you've been acting ever since the day you met the girl.Don't do this man..''
''Do WHAT, Matt?'' I shouted.
''Fall for HER! Fall in LOVE with a woman 8 YEARS younger than you!!! You are married,Brian,to my wife's SISTER! DON'T f**k it up!! Michelle doesn't deserve this..''
''And I do,Matt? I DO? You don't even know half of our real story ! I haven't told anyone..how I know that she's cheating on me on an almost daily-basis,how I feel she's only using me for money and how I cannot believe that I have any shot at happiness anymore..You don't know,Matt, you just DON'T..You insist on thinking,on believing that things between me and Michelle will somehow work out..that..'', I nearly screamed at him...
''They will,Brian!Me and Val,we have our fights man,we both make mistakes...But we forgive each other..and we move on..that's what you and Michelle have to do,man..''Matt started again..
''You just don't get it, Matt..do you? I'm not HAPPY with her...When I'm next to her,I feel like I'm dead, okay ? And after a long-ass f**king time,I finally found someone that makes me feel things, puts a smile on my face whenever she's around...and you tell me that I should just give all this up? Just so that I don't let any of you down..? ''I said,anger now evident in my voice.
''Listen to me,man...Stay away from her...''Matt finished and walked away,leaving me there thinking to myself.
''Leave her alone and keep on living a life barely breathing,and keep everyone else around you satisfied,or go for her and break all the rules..''
Somehow,the second option seemed more appealing than the first one.I was definately willing to take that risk for her.Even if it signaled my own death...
The next morning I woke up hangover and utterly confused.He kissed me last night.He kissed me with such passion and emotion, and made my whole inner world explode.It felt like the time stopped running for hours,like there was noone else in the whole world except from us.a moment that could go on forever..
But the stupid voice in my head had to present itself in my head,shouting that the man I was kissing ''is Synyster Gates,Married and surely drunk as f**k,so stop believing that this means anything''.And the voice was right.
Because the kiss was a mistake.It had to be.Me and him..we could never be together.He has a wife he's known since they were both kids.Me? He's only known me for 3 days,nothing to special about that.As Zacky said,Syn gets bored easily,and he's looking for playthings,toys to keep him entertained.That was probably my use for him.
But it didn't feel like that to me.What I felt when his lips crushed on mine,when his fingers pressed on mine and laced them together upon his strong chest,it couldn't be just a pastime activity for him.I couldn't get my mind off his taste,his big,chocolate brown orbs,his wonderful,long fingers,his perfect tattoed arms.But I had to let go,of something that merely even started ,because getting lost in a world of fantasies,especially when their ''main character'' walks around you everyday, doesn't exactly sound like the most appealing situation.
With that one thought stuck in my head,I got off my bed,and went straight to the bathroom.We didn't have a show today,so we had the whole day to ourselves,basically relax,have fun with each other and stuff,because later we had a -surprise surprise-party to go to,organised by our music company.That was because many bands that were signed on the same company as us happened to be around the same area,and that seemed like an awefully good excuse for the managers to throw yet another party.
I fixed my hair a bit,and walked out of the bathroom,searching for something simple to wear for any morning activities.I picked a black top that was loose on my shoulders,denim shorts and my pair of Black UGGs,and walked to the living room area,only to spot all my bandmates sitting there watching tv.
''Aren't we going to do anything today?''I asked in disbelief.
''Like What?''Jason asked,not taking his eyes of the screen.
''I don't know,go out?Take a walk?C'mmon guys its a beautiful day out there..''I said.
''Why don't you ask Gates to come with you?''Jason replied,his eyes now glaring at me,a hint of anger hidden somewhere deep inside them.
''What do you mean?''I asked, the tone of my voice suddenly lowered,reaching the levels of a whisper.
Jason stood up and grabbed my arm,dragging me outside the bus.When we both got out,he left my arm and leaned against the door.
''I mean that I saw you two yesterday,Sierra..I saw you two kissing..''he said bluntly.
''....so? It didn't mean anything,Jason,it was only a kiss...''I started mumbling.
''No,Sierra,DON'T start saying bullshit,okay?We both now that it meant something ..for you at least..'',Jason said.
''What's that supposed to mean?''
''Sierra,I'm sure that in your pretty,little head , you already have the story written...He's madly in love with you,even though he only knows you for 3 days,he decides to break up with his wife to stay with you , you two get married and have 3 wonderful little kids running around a beautiful,huge house next to the beach,and live happily ever after,right?''
''Uhm..No,Jason, that's n-..''
''Yes,Sierra,we both know that you have those ideas on your mind since you f**king met the guy..But guess what,Sierra?He's not going to give up his everything for you...He's not going to change his life for you...He doesn't feel anything about you,and he never will...He's simply a womanizer,Sierra,and he loves it that girls all over the world believe that he's any diferrent.. '' Jason said.
''How the f**k do you know any of these,Jason? Huh? How are you so sure?Has it even crossed your mind that his image might not tell the whole truth?That he faces problems that the world would never know,simply because even he doesn't know them?And that maybe there is good in him?''I said,my voice starting to crack in the end.
''Sierra,I'm only saying what I see in him..And I see that he's going to hurt you,Sierra...Badly,and maybe you won't even be able to be yourself after it..''Jason said,calmly this time,moving closer to wipe off some tears that had already started falling on my cheeks.''I care about you so much,that's why I hate it when someone hurts you..and I can see him doing just that , Sierra , in the future..so please,stay away from him...''he muttered,and I lost it.
''What are you talking about?You get to tell me who I get to hang out with?You are not my dad,Jason,I know you care and sh*t,but that's too far..And Im not sleeping with him,JESUS!You think I'm what,a whore?F**king a married man?It was only a kiss,Jason,a kiss and nothing more...So be sure that whatever you had in your head isn't happening..''I kind of screamed,and started heading away from Jason,away from our bus,away from the Sevenfold's bus,away from everyone..I just needed to be alone.
I collapsed against a concrete wall,not knowing where I was,but it was quite,and from what I could tell noone was anywhere near,so It was exactly the place I felt the need to be in.I held my head in my hands and sighed,taking deep breaths in order to calm myself down,and thinking about everything over and over again..
''...Stay Away From Him...'' .That's exactly what any rational person in my place would do.Tha't what seemed logical.And it needed to be done,as soon as possible..I had no choice..
Brian's POV
I woke up,somehow feeling really excited about everything that happened yesterday.I could still feel her warm,soft lips on mine,I savoured the feeling I got when her hands landed on my chest,gently pressing it.My heart felt alive yesterday,for the first time in years.All I could think about since my eyes opened was feeling her around me again, touching her again,holding her,hugging her,kissing her...
I went to the bathroom and made my self look good..I wanted to look good for her,I wanted her to want me,the same way as I wanted her.It really felt scary,terrifying to be exact,but I couldn't help it.I was falling for Sierra,and faster than I thought was possible.
After I finished getting ready,I started heading out of our bus,intending to find Sierra,and talk to her...I needed her smile,her laugh,her everything to make me believe that something good would come out of the day.
I started moving towards her bus,but I bumped into someone : Matt.I gave him a weird look,seeing that he was basically glaring daggers at me.
''What's going on man?''I asked in disbelief.
''I don't know,you tell me..''Matt said,still not moving an inch from his spot.
''Look,I'm not in the mood for any of you f**ked-up mind games or whatever,Matt..Just tell me what is it that you want, or let me the f**k go..'',I said,anger building up inside of me.
''Go where? To Sierra, maybe? Find her and make out with her,like last night?''he said,and I froze.
''You thought noone saw that,right?Well I did,Brian.I've been watching the way you've been acting ever since the day you met the girl.Don't do this man..''
''Do WHAT, Matt?'' I shouted.
''Fall for HER! Fall in LOVE with a woman 8 YEARS younger than you!!! You are married,Brian,to my wife's SISTER! DON'T f**k it up!! Michelle doesn't deserve this..''
''And I do,Matt? I DO? You don't even know half of our real story ! I haven't told anyone..how I know that she's cheating on me on an almost daily-basis,how I feel she's only using me for money and how I cannot believe that I have any shot at happiness anymore..You don't know,Matt, you just DON'T..You insist on thinking,on believing that things between me and Michelle will somehow work out..that..'', I nearly screamed at him...
''They will,Brian!Me and Val,we have our fights man,we both make mistakes...But we forgive each other..and we move on..that's what you and Michelle have to do,man..''Matt started again..
''You just don't get it, Matt..do you? I'm not HAPPY with her...When I'm next to her,I feel like I'm dead, okay ? And after a long-ass f**king time,I finally found someone that makes me feel things, puts a smile on my face whenever she's around...and you tell me that I should just give all this up? Just so that I don't let any of you down..? ''I said,anger now evident in my voice.
''Listen to me,man...Stay away from her...''Matt finished and walked away,leaving me there thinking to myself.
''Leave her alone and keep on living a life barely breathing,and keep everyone else around you satisfied,or go for her and break all the rules..''
Somehow,the second option seemed more appealing than the first one.I was definately willing to take that risk for her.Even if it signaled my own death...
10/29/13