Lana's POV

It had been 1 month since the awkward moment I had with James.. I didn't see him anymore since but I feel I'll have to do it because Emily is dating Brian, I know i said she didn't believe in love but it seems like Brian is the one for her so, I'm happy for her ..I love Avenged, it's my fucking favorite band ever. But I feel like what happened with Jimmy was .. I don't know .. too much for me .. I just come here and now I met them but not on the way I wanted .. Anyway.. I got disturb from my thoughts when Emily entered in the house, that is by the way her new house too. But today she wasn't alone, she was with Brian, I never saw him after the night in the bar, and I was not really clear in my head. I was just laying on the couch with my pink flowered pajama. I took as fast as I could the blanket that was next to me and put it over my head.

"EMILY, why didn't you tell me Brian was coming! Do you see how I look!" I looked over the blanket and saw Brian laughing. Emily took the blanket from over my head and put it away.

"Come on.. He's not dating you, he's dating me" she said as she winked at me and gave me a very excited smile.

"But still! I need to look decent for the guest!"

"You say that only because he's from your fucking favorite band.. you wouldn't care otherwhise."

I looked at her, she was right, I was blushing i guess.. But I need to get used to see them if she's going to be officialy with him. I wanted to go upstairs to change myself but Brian said something before.

"James is talking about you all the time, I think he misses you."

I looked at him, he was really serious. Fuck. Oh my god, how can he miss me ? We only ate stupid pancake together. And fucking, but that's something else...I didn't know what to say about it. I looked at Brian and said.

"Ah good for him.."

Why did i say that , the fucking sexiest man in my eyes is missing me and the only thing I found to say is : Good for him. Serious Lana, why the fuck is wrong with you? Emily looked at me and said.

"Now go change yourself, we are going to Brian's house, he's doing a party, all the band will be there."

"Oh never, i won't come.." I said as i took the remote and opened the TV.

"Shut up, you don't have a fucking word to say, you are coming it had been at least 1 month you're staying home all the time, the only time you go out is when you need to work! I can't handle to see you like this anymore Lana! Come on get out! We'll go upstairs, I'll do your hair and you'll put some cute clothes on, OKAY?!" She said as she took the remote from my hand and closed the TV. I never saw her angry like this. I didn't say a word and i agreed. She said to Brian that he could go at his house to fix the things for the party and in the same time she would fix my hair and everything. He gave her a kiss on the cheek and went away.

Me and Emily were upstairs. She was curling my hair when she said something.

"You know you can tell me everything, why are you so afraid to go there? I mean to see James.. Did he do something wrong with you? I don't know just tell me, i'm getting worried Lana.." She was looking at me in the mirror while saying that. I hesitated before talking because in reality i didn't really know why i'm acting like this.. but I said what I was thinking.

"He didn't rape me or something, we just had a night together and no one remember anything about it, It's just, i don't know he's so different. I look like i'm not interested in him but it's not true.. he's driving me crazy.. just the way he looks at me .. I feel like he's putting a spell on me.." I turned myself toface her and continued. " I don't want to fall in love Emily.. this is too much for me, after everything i lived before.." I couldn't continue anymore, I started to cry in her arms. she hugged me and she said.

"I understand sweetie.. I'll talk about it with Brian if you don't mind?" she said while drying my tears off of my cheeks. I looked at her and said.

"Okay.."


------



James' POV

"Lana will be there tonight." Brian said as he held a 24 pack of beers for the party. I looked at him and smiled. He wasn't that happy as me.

"Be careful with her.. Emily told me that she doesn't want to get her heart broken again so don't try with her dude.." He said while putting the beers in the fridge. My smile totally went off. I like that girl.. I wish she would feel the same about me. Everyday, I can't stop thinking about her.. she's always in my mind ad now he tells me that.. I looked at him while helping him with the beers and chips, I said.

"But dude.. I think I love her.. What will I do if she doesn't want me?! For one fucking time i want to be serious in my life and I can't!"

I went to sit on the couch. Brian joined me after he was done with all the food and stuff. He gave me a beer and said.

"Why do you love her so much? I mean you saw her once, and not for long.. I .." I didn't let him finished that I said.

"I told you a million time dude! I don't know why but I'm sure she's the one for me!" Brian took a sip of his beer and didn't say anything else.

Lana's POV

Me and Emily were in front of Brian's house door, I was getting really nervous, not only to see James but also to meet the rest of the band. Emily opened the door. Everyone were already there. I saw Matt, Val ,her girlfriend, Zacky and Johnny. Damn I can't believe I'm there. The first one that came was Brian. He said hi to me and kissed Emily. He continued to presented me everyone. I gave kisses to them all, except James, I couldn't see him anywhere. Matt saw that I looked disturb by something. He said.

"If you're looking for James, he's to the bathroom.."

Damn I guess everyone here know what happened with me and him.. anyway, I'm so nervous to see him again. Brian showed me all the rest of his house, except the bathroom that James was in. We went in the kitchen, they offered me a beer. They are really nice people. Why is James so long in the bathroom? Val, Matt's girlfriend noticed this too I guess because she said.

"JAMES WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! YOU'RE WORST THAN A FUCKING GIRL!" As she was yelling this we heard a door opening, We couldn't see him yet, he was still on the corridor as he said.

"I was putting myself ready for Lan.." He totally stop when he saw me. I saw him blushing. I was too I guess because everyone was looking at me too.

"Lana.." He looked at me and smiled. He came to give me kisses on the cheeks. He whispered in my ear in a way that no one else except me could hear. "I missed you.." My heart skipped a beat, i could smell his fresh after shave that he probably put when he was in the bathroom. I was getting crazy. I wasn't shy anymore i was just freaking out, I desired him so much. His voice drove me nuts. The warmth from his soft lips against my cheek was perfect. I have to admit it. I'm in love.. Fuck.

We were all sitting around the table talking about stupid stuff, there was a chair missing. Emily was sitting next to me so she decided to let the chair for James and she went to sitt on Brian's lap. James sat next to me, I could feel the way he was looking at me that he wanted more than just be friends with me. What am I going to do.. I'm not ready for that yet..

The evening passed great, we drank, we talked, we had fun. It wasn't that bad as I thought. because James didn't really talk to me, he didn't have the occasion. I was always talking with Val all the time, she's really an awesome girl. It was now something like 3 o' clock and they decided to put a movie on. We watched The Crow. In reality I didn't really watch it because James was sitting really close to me. Finally I loved to be close to him.. He made me feel great. Even if I don't really know him I know he's a great guy.. I was getting really tired while watching the movie so I put my head on James' shoulder and fell asleep.

James' POV

I was the only one still awake, Lana just passed out on my shoulder, I was not really comfortable to fall asleep like they all did. She was so beautiful.. I tried not to wake her up as i took her in my arms. I came to Brian's guest room. I put her gently on the bed. Should i wake her up or not ? Oh fuck she's awake already. She opened her tired eyes calmly and she looked at me, she gave me a smile. Shit man .. Without thinking, I took her face and I kissed her softly on her lips. I was waiting her reaction as I felt her kissing me back but more passionate, I want her and I know she wants me too.. I crawled under blanket to join her, without leaving her lips. she was laying under me. I left her lips to go on her neck, I could feel her breathing harder. I want her now.. As I was going to put my hands on her breast she pushed me away softly. She looked at me and smirked. she put herself on the side. I understood I was going to fast. I didn't care, maybe I was fucking turned on and wanted her so much at the moment. The most important for me is that she answered my kiss.. I hope she does love me too.. I removed my pants to be more comfortable and kept my boxers offcourse and went take her spooning. I fell asleep like that. It's perfect, I couldn't have something more perfect than that..

Notes

Again a little part, i hope someone's reading me :( I'll try to put the other chapter today but i know this one's short but i need to go in the shower and after i need to pass some time with my boyfriend soo ..