Young Lust.

Lana's POV

That day was important for me, I mean for both of us, we could finally talk and explain stuff. I was fixing my bag as James entered in my room.

"Are you almost ready ?"

I sighed and zipped my bag.

"Yeah."

He came close to me and took my bag over his shoulder.

"Damn girl! What's in your bag? That's heavy!"

I laughed and went out of the room. I said.

"Girl's stuff!"

I heard him laugh as we went downstairs, I was putting my flip flops when he said.

"Girls.. I'll never fucking understand them, I should've been gay, it's fucking less complicated!"

He was putting his shoes on as I said.

"Trust me boys can be complicated too!"

I opened the door and stepped outside, James followed me, I closed the door behind me and locked it. It was a beautiful weather outside, sunny and hot.

"Can we just go at my house first?"

I nodded as we went into my car. James showed me the way to go at his house, it was really not far. I said I would wait him in the car. He nodded, went inside, after five minutes, he was back, he was wearing swimming pants and a black tank top, he changed his shoes to flip flops. He opened the door from my car but instead of sitting in, he said.

"We can walk, it's not far from here."

I shruggred my shoulders and nodded. I stepped out of my car, locked it and followed James that was already in the street. We walked for maybe 10 minutes and we arrived. There were not much people only few couples and girls. James signed some autographs to some tanned girls, you know that kind.. bitches kind. I could see in their eyes that they would kill someone to just have a naughty night with Jimmy The Rev Sullivan. After he was done with signing for these girls, he took my hand and we just walked to a good spot and sat on the sand. I looked behind me, I could see that the same girls were looking at us, the look in their eyes, the devil himself. I laughed and tapped on James' shoulder. I pointed them with my chin, he looked at them and laughed. He returned his look on mine and gently took my face in his hand and laid a small kiss on my lips. I didn't know if this was going to fast or not.. but I had to say I liked it when he kissed me.

"Did you do that only to make them jealous or this meant something?" I asked as I put my sunglasses on.

He looked over my shoulder and laughed again as he said.

"Look."

I turned my head back on their direction, one of them was crying. Poor girl. I turned back to James and laughed and sighed in the same time.

"You just broke her heart!"

He laid down on the sand and said.

"As long as if it's not yours, I'm
okay with it.." he said as he put his sunglasses on too.

I didn't know what to say. So I just laid down next to him. Argh that sand all over my hair. I suddenly stood up and grabbed a big towel that was in my bag.

"Stand up and help me." I ordered him.

He stood up and took a piece of the towel and helped me putting it on the sand. We both laid back there when it was ready.

"Ahhhh! Better like this hein ?" I said as I crossed my arms behind my neck.

"Yeah!" He said as he sat up to remove his tank top. "Do you have some sunscreen girl? I hate sunburns and I forgot to put some on."

I laughed and said as I sat up again.

"Of course! I got everything you need in that bag!"

I smiled and showed my bag to him, I opened it and found some sunscreen for him. I handed it to him. He started to put it on his arms, leg and belly. He looked at me, with his little puppy eyes and asked.

"Could you apply some on my back, please?"

I sighed to his cutiness and nodded. He turned around with an amused smile on his face like a little kid that finally had what he wanted. He handed me the sunscreen and I sprayed some in my hand and started to rub it on his back.

"I'm done." I said gently as he turned again. I was putting the rest of the cream I had in my hands on my arms as he said.

"Do you want some on your back too?"


I hesitated a moment and then said yes. I removed my t-shirt, I had a bikini under it, obviously. I turned around and let James put some on me. I shivered from his touch. He was good with his hands. I could feel that he wasn't putting only some sunscreen on me. He was teasing me. He was done with my back and went to my neck he rubbed it slowly and then gave me little kiss on it. I shivered again. He wanted to play and the only thing i wanted on the moment was to get clear about what happened few weeks before. I turned back at him, he smirked at me. I didn't.

"What would have you do if I wouldn't have lost the baby?"

His face changed, the sparkles in his eyes were gone. He wasn't prepared to this question.

"Would just left me alone like you just did?" I said.

He looked straight into my eyes and said.

"No." He quit the eye contact and started to run a hand in the sand. He continued, not looking at me. "I ran away because I was ashamed. I'm still by the way, but the main reason is that I hated myself. I still do. I just can't believe what I've done.. and it was the first time in my whole life that I wanted to get serious with someone but then like always I had to screw everything up.. I thought you would hate me.." He stopped playing with the sand and looked back in my eyes. "I didn't want to bother you after what you said to Val in the hospital room you know.."

His eyes became teary as I started to cry. He looked down on his lap as he took my hands in his.

"I want you to know that I love you and no I wouldn't have ran away like this if I just learnt that you were pregnant. You are everything to me and.."

Before he could continue, I sat on his lap and kissed him. He broke the kiss and gave me a little smile as he wiped my tears away. I could see he was sincere, Val was right..

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