What was I doing? I’m kissing the guy I should hate- I do hate him. What is wrong with me?! I quickly pulled away and stood up, seeing Matt looking at me confused.

“What are you doing?”

“I shouldn’t be kissing you, oh my god. I don’t like you and here I am kissing you back not even thinking about things.. What is wrong with me?” I kept rambling on in panic until I guessed that
Matt finally had enough and made me shut up by putting his lips on mine. He pulled away and cupped my cheeks, looking me deeply in the eyes.

“Now, tell me what’s wrong, cause I didn’t get anything of what you just said”

“Look, I… I shouldn’t be kissing you back, I don’t even like you… I think… Urgh, I don’t know. I’m so confused by everything, Jacob, Tim and you.”

“Me?” he asked surprised.

“Yes, you! For a year and a half you’ve treated me like shit then all of the sudden you start acting like Mr. Nice-guy. Then you start acting all jealous at the mention of Tim or the time in the garage when I was with Jacob, I mean come on! How can you be so freaking bipolar… You confuse the hell out of me and I have no clue what to do, I’ve seen you as an asshole my entire time here and now you show that you are a nice guy but I can’t trust you cause as always everything will crash and burn just like with Jacob… What th-“

“Take it easy and breathe.” Matt interrupted me with a chuckle.

I took a deep breath and looked down at my feet.

“I get that this is really confusing, trust me it is for me too. I have no clue why I acted like a piece of shit towards you and I feel real fucking bad for it. I guess I’m trying to make things up to you…. I still have no clue why I like you but maybe it’s because you are a genuinely nice person, you seem to have a really happy and great personality. The fact that you aren’t even aware of how beautiful you are makes me even more appealed to you.”

“What?” I asked dumfounded.

He was about to speak but he took his thumb and index finger, lifting my chin up so I was facing him. The look in his eyes was soft, he had a light smile on his lips and his lip-ring twinkled a bit in the sun.

“As I said before, I do like you… a lot and I would love for you to go out on a date with me but I get if it might take some time for you or if you don’t want to ok? So I’m just going to ask you and you don’t have to answer right away but do you… want to go out on a date with me?”

Ok, that made me nervous. I had to hold back my nervous giggling and think about it. Was Matt
Sanders really asking me out on a date? Should I even go with him… Before that kiss I think I would have said no but after kissing his soft lips and seeing this side of him I’m not so sure anymore. He’s showing me a new side to him that I haven’t seen before and I like it to be honest.

“uh… Can I think about it?” I wondered and immediately his face fell.

“Look I’m not saying that I won’t go out with you I’m just confused as I said earlier…”

“Fine…”

“I’m just going to head home now” I said fiddling with the hem of my shirt and turned around ready to walk home.

Suddenly his lips were on mine once again for a rough kiss and then after a while he pulled away with a twinkle in his eyes.

“Just something for the road and maybe to help you with you decision.”



Next day in school

The morning in school I was faced by Tim and his group of friends waiting for me next to my locker. I smiled and greeted them with a hello as I opened my locker.

“So uh, you wanna come with us to band practice today?” Will questioned with a smile on his face making it impossible to say no.

“Yeah sure, I end at one though” I replied as I grabbed my English book and shoved it in my backpack.

“When does your class start?” Terry asked and looked up towards the wall where a big clock was nailed.

“I have 20 minutes left”

“Good come with us!” Tim exclaimed and hooked our arms together dragging me outside in front of the school. We sat down next to a tree and started talking.

We had talked, joked with each other for about 10 minutes when I saw that Matt had arrived. He was shooting daggers at the guys and they didn’t fail to notice.

“What’s got his panties twisted in a bunch?” Tim questioned as he glared back at Matt.

I simply shrugged and got lost in my thoughts. That kiss yesterday was perfect in a weird way, he had really soft lips and he knew how to kiss, I liked how his cold metal ring felt against my lips. The look he had in his eyes showed me that he actually was sincere about everything he said but what about Serena?

She really likes him and what I heard from the guys, she’s been after him for quiet sometime now. Hell, she even told me to stay away from him which I gladly would have if it wasn’t for that damn, wonderful kiss. Well, kisses.

I shook my head and came back to reality when a hand was waved in front of me.

“Sorry guys…. I spaced out” I explained and they all laughed a bit.

“Well.. uh we got to get to class so we’ll see you after school okay?”

“Uh sure”

I got up and walked back in, I located the classroom and walked in just in the right time. My seat was in the back, next to the windows so I sat down there as I always do.

“Ok, let’s see who’s here shall we?” Our teacher exclaimed and looked down at his attendance list.

Suddenly the door was ripped open, Matt and Zacky barged in and of course sat down next to me. During class I felt someone burning holes in me as I doodle around in my notebook, finally I couldn’t take it anymore and lifted my gaze.

“Can you stop staring at me?” I whispered and glanced over at the teacher.

“Nope can’t do… Why the hell where you with Tim?” he asked with venom dripping from each
word.

“Well, because they asked and I had nothing better to do”

“I don’t want you hanging around with them”

“Matt, I can do whatever I want to do, so don’t expect me to listen okay? They are really cool guys
and whatever problems you have with them shouldn’t involve me.”

“But I told you yesterday an-“

“Yes you did but hanging out with them won’t afflict with the decision I make.” I retorted slightly annoyed at him.

“Fine, sorry” he mumbled and went back to his.

I sighed loudly since I was starting to get really annoyed with Matt and still really damn confused about everything.

After class was over I walked down to the next classroom and saw that Jacob was sitting outside of it. Sometimes the younger students had lessons with the middle-class students. Same goes with the ones that were seniors. So we got to hang out with everyone.

He looked up at me and our eyes locked, his were filed with sadness and he looked so guilty. Even though it only had gone like one or two days since the argument I missed him like crazy. Who am I supposed to talk to about Matt and Tim, everything evolving this crap?

I need him back but I won’t forgive him straight away. I slid down the wall, next to him and he turned his head to look at me.

“I’m really sorry A… Trust me I and I don’t know what I was thinking, I know you would never do something like that to me” he said quietly and I frowned.

“Uh… I’m still hurt by what you said and thought but I need my best friend… So much has happened these days and I have to talk to somebody, somebody who knows me. “ I whispered and Jacob hugged me tightly.

“Good.. I know it’s going to take some time for you to get over this and trust me but I promise that I’m here for you. I always will be.”

I smiled and hugged him even tighter, he was my best friend and I could never stay mad at him for long. He means the world to me, he’s the brother I never had and I don’t know what I would do without him.

“Oh, by the way… Will you come to the ‘Sting Rock’ on Friday?” we pulled away from each other and he looked at me with hopeful eyes.

“Uh yes! I was planning on it even if we hadn’t talked this out” I laughed and we quickly hugged again before our teacher called us in the classroom.

We sat down at our usual place, in the back; no surprise there right? Ha.

“Uh this is going to sound gay but your shirt is so cute!” Jacob whispered and I snorted trying to keep in my laughter.

Amy’s outfit

The lesson went on , Jacob and I almost died from boredom. There was one upside though and it was trying to throw paper at the guy in front of us, we competed about how many papers we could make sure stuck in his curly hair. I and Jacob snickered the entire lesson and when we all walked out; the guy was in front of us with 20 pieces of crumbled paper in his hair.