He scratched his neck with his and kept his gaze on the floor, stuttering inaudibly trying to form a sentence.

“Jacoobbyyyy, why are you freaking out? It’s freaking me out! Just tell me!” I pleaded and tapped my foot nervously against the concrete floor.

“Fine” he groaned prolonging the ‘I’.

He sighed heavily like he was preparing himself for the worst, this honestly terrified. Was it something bad? Was he moving? Oh god no please, please don’t say he’s in love with me! He can't be in love with me, no no no no. NO.

“I, uh… I’ve been in a band for 3 years now and I uh… I am the singer in it. We’re called Papa Roach and I guess we finally got a gig at the ‘Sting Rock’. It’s a really big opportunity Ames… I feel terrible that I didn’t tell ya, I’m sorry” he explained with a pout on his lips. His eyes seemed like they were studying mine for a reaction.

Truth be told, I didn’t know how to react. There was a part of me that wanted to laugh considering how silly it was that he had been so nervous but another part of me was wondering why the hell he had been hiding that from me for so long?

“That’s why you were so nervous?” I exclaimed before I burst out laughing making Jacob look at me dumbfounded.

I tried to calm down so I could explain my reaction to him, hoping he wasn’t offended or anything close to that. So I took a deep breath, lightly clutching my stomach as it surprisingly ached from the laughing. Then I began talking.

“Sorry for laughing but, I mean I would never be mad at you for that! It’s great that you’ve found something you have a passion for and that you are getting bigger, showing people who you are!” I stated with a wide smile that radiated my happiness which in turn made Jacob smile wider than me as he engulfed me in a hug.

I was happy for him, to be honest but I still couldn’t help wondering why he kept it from me. Didn’t he trust me? Was he ashamed or something? I guess I felt a pang of hurt hit me and I needed to know why. I was going to ask him and the best part is that with Jacob I can always ask him anything, so I’m taking the opportunity to do so.

We pulled away from the hug and he looked at me, raised an eyebrow when he saw that my smile had faltered.

“Is something wrong?” He wondered looking in my eyes, trying to find an answer.

“I just… urgh, yes and no J! I mean there’s just one small thing that’s bugging me”

He shook his head vigorously, motioning me to continue speaking.

“Why didn’t you tell me before? I mean you’ve kept this a secret for like 3 years… I gotta say I make me wonder if you-“

Jacob cut me of immediately, realizing where I was going.

“I love you, you are my best friend and the reason why I didn’t tell you was because I thought you were going to try and join then they would chose you over me. I thought you were going to steal that away from me…” he told me, his got quieter as he spoke the last words and my eyes widened. Did he really just say that?

“What?” I managed to croak out, still not being able to grasp that I thought I was going to do something like that to him. Did he really have that little faith in me?
He just shrugged in guilt and looked anywhere but at me.

“So what you’re basically saying is that you thought I was going to ruin shit for you?! That I was going to be selfish and do something like that? Jacob, I seriously thought you had more trust me in me. First of all, considering that I love you to death I would never do something like that to you and second of all, you know I can barely sing in front of you so what made you think I would do something like that! I really thought we were friends Jacob!” I practically started shouting, not caring that we attracted some attention around the store.

“We are friends!” Jacob hissed, scrunching his eyebrows together with a consufed look on his face.

“Really? Because friends are supposed to have trust in each other which you clearly don’t have in me” I snapped harshly and quickly turned my heel, almost running through the store.

When I eagerly rushed out of the store I of course managed to bump in to somebody.

“Hey are you alright?” a pair of friendly blue eyes asked me and offered me a hand.