A week later

It had been a week since Brian had kissed me and well, tricked me into believing he was drunk. I hadn’t spoken with him nor did I intend too because I wanted him to come up to me, explaining why he had done such a thing. I wasn’t going to be the one chasing his scrawny ass to get some answers because if that kiss had been important to him I’m pretty sure he would have talked to me by now.

All though one thing about the kiss has been bothering me, well… sort of. I haven’t told Chris about it and I knew I shouldn’t but it was still pretty innocent somehow…right? Sure I had gotten furious at Brian that night then made the horrible decision of getting my ass drunk. I could barely walk and Matt insisted on calling Chris to get me but I really didn’t want to face him that night, though I had no clue to why. I didn’t even feel guilty about the kiss, sure I hadn’t been the one initiating it but shouldn’t I feel guilty for not feeling guilty about not telling Chris?

I decided to push those thoughts in the back of my head since me and Chris had been invited to a barbeque at Matt’s. As long as I had known him, he always had a barbeque once a month depending if they were touring or not. There was something he apparently loved about gathering all of his friends and family, so he insisted people to come even if they had other plans. Like this one time, I had to buy a new car since the engine had broken completely and it was going to save me more money in the long run if I just bought a new car instead of buying different parts and trying to fix my old car. Well, he insisted on me buying it the next day since it was no problem, he could always drive me to buy the new car. Foolishly I went along with it and the next day what do you know, Matt and the rest of the guys had an important meeting. I wanted to kill him because I had to walk for two hours since no one else I knew had the time nor were unoccupied to take me to the car dealer.

Anyhow, right now I was walking down the stairs clad in a pair of shorts, a Guns n Roses t-shirt along with a pair of black leather sneakers, my cap and Ray Ban aviators. I decided to just wear a bit of make up today, that being mascara and some strawberry chap stick, my hair was in a loose sideways ponytail. Underneath it all I had my simple black bikini since Matt had a pool and I was sure that all of us were going to get in it.

There was one thing I was worried about and that was how my reaction would be to see Brian again. Sure before I always wondered what would happen if we ever met again because of our past but now, it was more of a ‘oh my god what will happen after the kiss” also in the back of my mind I kept wondering if Michelle knew or not. I felt as if I was spending too much time thinking about this, I mean I didn’t do anything wrong, Brian did.

My thoughts had been so caught up in last week events that I barely noticed that we had arrived outside of Matt’s.

“Babe?” a voice that belonged to Chris snapped me out of my thoughts. I smiled at him as we got out of the car an walked up to Matt’s house. It was a pretty big house, two-story house and from the looks of it a huge front and backyard. It was impressive.

We had been here for about ten minutes when we heard people welcoming Brian and Michelle, but they all appeared to have slight distaste in their voice as they spoke to her. Guess they were still pissed about what she had done and that she hadn’t apologized, not that she could or that I would accept it. It was too late for an apology and also it wouldn’t cut it.

I found my beer very interesting all of the sudden as I traced circles with it in the air as I leaned against the wall. Now the nerves started kicking in, I don’t know why I was suddenly feeling so nervous and almost frightened to face Brian. Not that I really spoken to him a lot or even spared him a glance but now the curiosity to wanting to see how he was acting was going to make it a lot harder ignoring him.

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The barbeque had passed pretty nicely so far and people were having fun, I was still ignoring Brian like he was the plague. It was like I couldn’t even turn my eyes on him for a second because I already felt him burning holes in my back.

My bladder was calling me for a release so I asked Val for some quick directions to where their bathroom was. The house was beautifully decorated, Val had done an amazing job with the house and I would make sure to ask her for some advice later on.

I walked into the bathroom and locked the door. I didn’t even have the time to turn on the lights before I was turned around and quickly pushed against the wall. Someone’s lips were on mine, pressing roughly. My mind was all over the place. The cologne was familiar though I couldn’t place it. I would always recognize Chris cologne but maybe now I couldn’t since we had been pretty busy with everything as well as we had been on the beach every day.

My lips automatically started working against Chris until I reached to cup his face. I felt some scruffiness on his chin. Chris didn’t have any beard or stubble on his chin. My mind went blank and I stopped with everything as my breathing hitched in my throat.
The guy gave my ass a squeeze before quickly walking out.

I was in a daze as I splashed some water on my face to clear my mind and to just not be all blank in my mind. It usually helped to get the gears in my head running so that I just wouldn’t space out.

It couldn’t have been him again. What was he doing? Why was he doing this to me?

As I joined the crowd in the backyard again I decided to get a new beer right out of the cooler. When I grabbed the ice cold beer out of the cooler I lifted my head up only to be meant with a pair of chocolate brown eyes from a distance, staring at me.

He had a slight smirk on his face and I could tell that he was happy with his actions. I shook my head and walked over to Chris, leaning against his side as he kept going on with his conversation with Zacky. His smirk only grew wider as I gave him a quick look, making me even more confused.

What are you doing, Brian?