"This one's for the outcast, for those about to fall... This is for the lowlife, this one's for us all
La la la la la la..." I sang along to one of Hardcore Superstar's songs as I curled my hair in front of the big bathroom mirror, surrounded by small light bulbs. I made sure that the curls were loose since I was going to were a cap on it.

Right now I was dressed in a pair of studded, ripped and high waisted shorts from Lee that I loved more than life itself. I had matched it with a gold, studded lace bustier and some simple black heels. When I went shopping a couple of days ago I saw a really cool bracelet that resembled a hand, that would almost lock on to the top of your hand and look like a golden skeleton, I took the opportunity and used that one since it went so well with the outfit.

My eyes were decorated with a really cool smoky eye make up in blue and green that really brought out my eye colour. In New York I had taken a couple of make-up courses since I wanted to be able to do my own make up so that it looked good that way I wouldn't feel restricted as I did when a make up artist did it. My lipstick was in a neutral and subtle nude colour, since I didn't want to much attention on my make up and face.

When I finished putting on my lipstick I smacked my lips loudly to make sure that there wasn't any parts missing it. I took a step back to get a full view of myself in the mirror and I was really happy with the way I looked. All that was missing now was my studded black clutch, the ADIDAS cap in black and gold along with one of my new red leather jackets from Jofama that were designed by a Swedish blogger called Kenza. I really loved all the zippers that were on it, it really gave it a more of a bad ass look and the belt at the waist when it hung loose it looked freaking incredible!

Chris had left an hour ago to meet up with his buddies so that they could shoot pool and drink beer, basically relax. Unfortunately he had taken the car and as of right now we only had my BMW, so Leana was going to pick me up in a couple of minutes.

I almost jumped in surprise as I heard the doorbell go off, I tried walking down the stairs fast but in heels that wasn't an option as I almost slipped but luckily I held on to the railing practically hanging on it.

"Woah"

As I managed to get down the stairs safely I locked the door before I hugged Leana and we headed out to the White Audi a5 in front of the driveway. There was another person in the driver’s seat, tall and lanky which only meant that Jimmy was driving. I opened the door behind Jimmy’s and jumped in, greeting him with a smile and a cheery mood. I was really excited about tonight, one thing I loved doing when I lived here in Huntington was to have nights out with the girls. We always ended up betting on something or just doing somewhat plain stupid things; which we in the end regretted might I add.

“So, where are we heading?” I asked as Jimmy started up the car and drove out on the main road. Jimmy looked at me through the rearview mouthing ‘I don’t know’ and shrugged his shoulders.

“It’s to a new club that opened like a week ago… I can’t remember what it was called.” She seemed to think about it for a while before she almost jumped out of the chair announcing its name “Velvet Lounge”.

I nodded. “So, Jimmy what are you and the guys going to do tonight?”

“Play some poker or pool, then get shitfaced or crash your night and then get shitfaced”.

I giggled as Leana slapped him on the arm, warning him about not ruining our night out. They were really cute together, I had always thought so. They had the same personality of course something’s were different but it was like a match made in heaven when it came to the two of them. I smiled as Leana leaned over and pecked Jimmy, before jumping out of the car, me repeating the same action besides kissing Jimmy. That would be weird.

As we stood in line to enter the club I got a closer view of Leana’s choice of clothes today, it consisted of a really cute ruffled turquoise short dress with black lace over the chest. It was strapless and ended at the middle of her thighs, her shoes were in the same matching turquoise so it looked really cute! Then a simple white, diamond embodied clutch. Her hair was curled to perfection and her make-up was flawless, since it made her eyes pop out.

“Ladies, you can enter now” the guard informed up as he removed the red rope and let us through. The club was really cool and modern; everything was white so it was simple. The lighting and the logo ‘VL’ was in a light purple color. I liked this club already and now I just wanted to know if the drinks were as good as the looks but we had to find the rest of the girls first.
Leana grabbed me by the hand and pulled me through the thick mass of people and into a corner booth where all the girls sat in.

“Hi!” we both shouted at the same time to Lacey, Val and Gena. It was necessary to be really loud because you could literally feel the pass in the ground and air as the music played, it was pretty hardcore.

They all stood up one at a time to give us a hug and hello.

Gena came up first in a really pretty draped black dress; the top of the dress was covered in silver, glittery pearls: the rest of the outfit was topped off with heels and a cross body purse, in the most amazing blue color ever. Her blonde bob hair was a bit curled at the ends but otherwise it was straight. She had her usual blood red lipstick on her lips and her cat eyeliner. Classy as always.

Val wore a pretty lace champagne/black tutu dress, along with some pink studded platform heels. Her platinum blonde hair was pulled back in a really nice looking, loose bun and her make-up was really nice. Her lipstick shade was almost the same color as a dead pink rose, which I found really beautiful and her eyes were covered in eyeliner.

Lacey wore a pair of black platform heels that made her legs look really good along with the dress that was black at the top then nude pink at the skirt of it, the different colors of the dress was separated by a pearled belt at her waist. It was really cute and innocent somehow, but that fit Lacey. She was such a nice character, sweet on the inside and on the outside but she still knew how to hold her grounds.

After inspecting the girls dress choices I felt a bit underdress since I had chosen shorts and a bustier but the girls told me not to worry since I looked really ‘badass’ and tough which I simply laughed at.

“Let’s get some drinks!” Leana hollered as she grabbed Val’s and Gena’s hands pulling them towards the bar.

Lacey draped her arm over my shoulder and I wrapped my arm around her waist since I was a bit shorter even though I was in heels. We walked over to the bar and stood behind the rest of the girls, waiting for them to order their drinks and get them. As it was our turn we walked forward and were met by a busy looking but cute bartender.

“What do you want, ladies?”

“Sex on the beach” Lacey replied and I asked for a bottle of beer, I preferred drinking beer out of bottles than cans or out of a glass. As we got our drinks we slipped the bills on the counter making sure that he got the money and then we walked back to the booth.

“So, no Michelle tonight?” I asked as I slid into the booth next to Gena. It felt nice as I brought the bottle to my lips taking a big gulp of the cold, refreshing beverage.

Val sighed, “Uh no” she shook her head and continued. “We thought it’d be best to not have her with us after what you told us during dinner. I talked to ‘Chelle after the dinner, we sort of got into it and things escalated.”

I frowned, as much as I disliked Michelle I didn’t like that this was getting between two sisters. It felt really horrible even though that this was something Michelle brought on herself I still didn’t like seeing Val torn up about that. Somehow it didn’t feel fair for Val to suffer because of the drama between me, Michelle and Brian.

“I’m so sorry about all of this” I apologized sincerely to Val as I gave her a small smile.

She sighed as she grabbed her margarita, “its okay. It really sucks that it’s come between us but I think both of us need time to cool off. She knows I love her and I’ll have her back on anything but that doesn’t mean that what she did was okay. I explained to her that I was really disappointed in her and Brian. Mostly Brian, he actually let it happen and he took it too far when he told you that we were his friends and not yours. You were a part of the family and always were, that’ll never change.”

“Who wants to dance?” Lacey wondered. She looked a lot more perky and excited then she did ten minutes ago. Her glass was empty and next to it was another glass, I wondered when she had gotten the second one but one thing was obvious Lacey was a bit tipsy also she couldn’t handle a lot of alcohol.

“I’m up for it!”

Gena piped in as well. “Me too!”

We walked off towards the heavily crowded dance floor and started swinging our hips from left to right, bending up and down. At first the dancing was pretty innocent until we started grinding against each other almost looked like an oreo cracker without the right colors.

My hair flung back and forth as I tossed and turned to the beat of the music, the heat was there and you could definitely feel it. We got some looks from guys as we danced hotly, grinding and feeling each other up. Also a lot of girls sent us nasty glares but we just shot them off, not giving a simple fuck about it. This was usual behavior from us when we were having our girl’s night out because we were here to enjoy ourselves.

It was getting hot, really hot and I felt like I needed to cool off so I excused myself from the girls so that I could go and grab myself another beer. After I got my beer I decided that the best way to cool off would be to get out in the night air and just relax for a while. That was something I always did when I partied. I would disappear for 10 minutes then come back, ready to start the night.

I walked over to the booth and grabbed my red leather jacket, telling the girls I would be back soon. I managed to put on the jacket as I pushed myself through all the people balancing one beer in my hand.

My tiny body collided with a solid chest the one second I decided to look at my shoes quickly to see if they had any foot prints on them.

“Already hitting on me I see?” I heard a deep, raspy and familiar voice chuckled.

I hugged him. “Hey Matt”

“Where are you going?”
“Just out for a couple of minutes. I’ll be back soon.” I smiled. “Are the rest of the guys with you?”

He nodded.

“Cool, well I be back soon” I exclaimed and walked outside, meeting Jimmy and Johnny on the way. Those two were already pretty wasted as they jumped up and down, shouting profanities at random people.

I walked over to Zacky and Brian when I saw them leaning against the brick wall and smoking their cancer sticks.

“Hey” I greeted Zee and hugged him. The intoxicating smell of cigarettes made me feel the need for one. I had made it a habit to smoke almost every time I was out dancing and drinking which was a pretty bad habit but at least it wasn’t an everyday habit.

“Can I have one?”

I felt Brian’s eyes on me and I started shifting uncomfortably on one foot to another. Zacky patted his pockets for his packet then he found it but unfortunately for me it was empty. He told me he was sorry.

“Here” Brian offered me one as he extended his hand with Marlboro’s.

I raised an eyebrow at him. “No thanks”.

“Just take it”

“No. I’m fine”

He narrowed his eyes at me. “Just fucking take one” he almost growled.

“I’m gonna leave you two alone” Zacky informed us quietly and slipped back into the club through the big white doors.

“Fine. Thanks” I replied shortly as I ripped a stick out of the carton. He sighed loudly as he ran his fingers through his spiked hair. I lit the cigarette and inhaled the toxic fumes, feeling myself relax a little.

“Can we talk?”

“No.”

“Please, can’t w—“

“No.” I Interrupted him.

He grabbed me by the arm and spun me around so that we were looking at each other dead in the eye.

“Just hear me out” He close into growled.

I sighed as I crossed my arms over my chest and tapped my right foot impatiently against the pavement. This time he was going to talk without interruptions so that I could get this over with.

“I’m sorry for the way shit’s been going down, okay? I never meant to hurt you but you know I’ve wanted a family for so long and it was my opportunity to.”

“You aren’t even married yet” It feel necessary to point that out.
“No I am not” he hissed. “But we are getting married soon, hopefully I’ll get the future I’ve always wanted. Trust me, if I could I would never have let this happen because I’ve missed having you around these past three years. Can’t we at least try to be friends since you are going to hang out with the us a lot now?”

I wanted to laugh in his face. Fucking stupid prick.

“No we can’t. Remember, you’re precious little fiancée made you chose and you made your decision three years ago.” I dropped my cigarette and stomped at it, walking away feeling mad as hell.