Our Song
Vegas Skies Pt III: The Last Something That Meant Something
Annabelle’s POV
If looks could kill… I would be 50 fucking feet underground. The last person I wanted to see while being with the worst hangover is Brian. I pop the 2 small white pills I have in my hand in my mouth & down a cup filled with water. “Well… looks like you 2 had quite a night” He says through gritted teeth. I roll my eyes. I don’t want to deal with his bullshit right now.
“Oh, Brian… grow up” I say, adjusting the robe around me. He lets out a mocking laugh & I glare at him.
“Guess Jason didn’t find the right hole” He says & my mouth hangs open… shocked. I would never in a thousand years thought of him saying something like that to me.
“What?” Jason asks, confused. I think he fell asleep & reacted when he heard his name.
“You’re an asshole” I say to him & he laughs.
“Was that the hole you were aiming for, JB?” He asks Jason, looking at him. I scoff, feeling offended.
“Is this really necessary, Syn?” Jason asks, annoyed by Brian’s behavior.
“Oh, I’m sorry” He says in a fake apology.
“What the fuck is your problem, huh?” I say, getting fed up with his attitude.
“I don’t have a fucking problem” He says, pissed at my reaction.
“Really? Cuz it appears to me that you’re the one that didn’t find the right hole” I say, placing my hand on my hips.
“Wouldn’t you like to know” He says, making me roll my eyes again.
“Thank God, I don’t” I say, slightly hurt. Brian has never disrespected me before.
“So I guess Jason was a good fuck after all” He says, stepping closer to me.
“We didn’t fuck” Jason jumps in, standing next to me.
“Make love, have sex… whatever you want to call it, the result is always the same” He says, his eyes never leaving mine.
“Why the fuck do you care?” I say, stepping closer to him, feeling my blood boiling inside my veins. He’s really pushing it.
“Oh, I don’t care about you… I just don’t want Jason to catch something. God knows what kind of diseases you carry” He sneers & I tighten my jaw.
“Man, that’s uncalled for” Jason say, placing his hand on his arm, before Brian shrugging it.
“EXCUSE ME? I’m the one carrying diseases? Last time I checked, I wasn’t the one banging fucking groupies behind the tour bus & pissing on crack whores tits” I yelled at him.
“Oh, please, Annabelle. Everyone knows that Justin left you because you didn’t put out. Guess JB had luck” He says & I’m a bit taken back by his words. & he notices it. “Oh… did I hit a nerve?” He says with a smirk placed on his face.
“FUCK YOU, BRIAN” I yell at him.
“No, thank you. I have a fiancé that’s more than willing to that. Just like you’re willing to let Jason do it to you” He says, turning around. I hear a door open & see Gena walking out with Jimmy behind her.
“What’s with all the yelling? You’re gonna wake up the baby” He mutters, ruffling his hair. He takes a look at me & looks at Brian. “Ok, guys, this is getting ridiculous. What the fuck is going on between you 2?” He asks, not paying attention at Jason motioning for him to shut up.
“Nothing” I say through gritted teeth. I turn to walk away, to find a place where I can cry my heart out, to try & convince myself that this is just a fucking nightmare. That I’m still sleeping & this is all a bad dream. To try & make myself forget about Brian.
“Yeah, walk away, Annabelle. That’s what you always do when you’re in trouble, right? You run & hide & pretend nothing happened… like a coward” He says, making me stop in my tracks.
“Brian, I think it’s enough” Jason says & I see him pissed off. & I feel sorry for him. I’m the one that dragged him into this. I slowly turn around & stare at Brian… ready to fucking kill him. “Anna, why don’t you-”
“No” I cut Jason.
“Ann-” He tries again, but I cut him again.
“Stay out of this, Jason. I’m interested on what else does Brian think about me. He already stated that I’m whore, so let’s see what else he thinks” I say walking to Brian. “So… care to share?” I say standing close to him. Thank God I’m wearing my heels, because if not, I would be staring up at him more than I am now. I’m very short. “Oh, I’m dying to know, Brian” I say & I see him swallow hard. “Don’t back down. Be man enough to tell me what you really think of me” I say. He remains silent, & I can see the anger seeping from him. “What got your panties in a bunch, Haner? Is t the fact that for once in my life, I didn’t ask approval from anyone to do whatever the hell I want?” I say & I can feel the heat from his anger. “Or is the fact that Jason got a taste of something you’ll never get to taste? Or maybe is because you weren’t first in my life for a lot of things? TELL ME” I yell at him, not noticing that Johnny & Lacey have joined us.
“GET AWAY FROM ME, ANNABELLE” He yells back, making me cringe a bit at the boom of his voice. “I don’t give a fuck about you. Do you seriously think that I give a fuck who you spread your legs for? Fuck all the guys you want, be the little whore you want to be. Just don’t fuck with Jason to get back at me for not giving you my fucking support on you leaving. LEAVE ALREADY. I won’t miss you. It’ll just be another thing I won’t have to worry about” He says & I swallow back my tears. “You’ll just be another mistake in my life that I’ll forget”
“Ok, that’s enough guys. You are way to angry at each other & are not thinking this through. Stop saying things you’ll regret later” Johnny says.
“No, she wants to know what I think, so I’m telling her” He says, acknowledging him for a second before looking back at me. “You’re just pissed because I didn’t give you an excuse to back down from your little ‘moving-on’ with your life. You’re just pissed because I don’t give a rat’s ass about you leaving” He says, stepping closer to me. I gaze down. “You’re just pissed because I didn’t ask you to stay” He says through clenched teeth. “I won’t ask you to stay. I won’t be the one responsible for you to stay. I don’t want you to stay” He says & a tear falls down from my eye. “Don’t you fucking cry now. If you asked for it, at least have the dignity to take it”
“I hate you” I mutter. I mutter the 3 words I never thought I’ll tell Brian. “I hate you with all my being” I tell him, feeling my already shattered heart breaking even more. “I can’t believe I was willing to give up all my future for you. You’re a piece of shit, Brian” I say, turning around & storming towards my room.
“Why don’t you take Jason with you? I’m sure he can sex you up so you can feel better. That’s what fuck buddies do, right? I’m sure yours would be more than pleased to fuck you” He says. “I’m sure you’re not that good of a fuck but he doesn’t aim high” & that’s when I hear the sound of a fist colliding with something. I turn to see Brian on the floor & Johnny & Jimmy holding Jason back. My first instinct was to go running towards Brian & make sure he’s ok. But I stop myself from it. I stop myself because one thing is for me to love him, & another is for me to swallow my pride. & I won’t do that, I won’t crawl to him & pretend that what he said didn’t hurt me. To pretend that everything is ok only because he’s hurt. I’m hurt too, but my wounds are not visible. I’m dying on the inside.
“SHE’S YOU’RE FUCKING BEST FRIEND. HOW CAN YOU TALK TO HER LIKE THAT?” Jason yells at him, struggling to get out of Johnny’s & Jimmy’s hold. “WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM,MAN?”
“What’s going on here?” Leana asks, carrying baby Wren in her arms. Her eyes widen as she looks at the scene before her. She turns to look at me. “Anna?” She inquires but I say nothing & turn to look to where Brian is lying, & found him staring at me, while holding his jaw.
“I hope you’re happy” He mutters & I keep looking at him. “You just fucked up years of friendships” He says, getting up & walking to where I am. “We’ll be the ones that’ll have to deal with all this shit when you leave. So why don’t you leave already & make my life easier? Easier for all of us, huh? Cuz I don’t know if you have noticed… but you’re not needed here. You don’t fit in any of our lives. So go search for your own” He says, before passing by me & slamming the door on his way out. I stand there, frozen, his words sinking in. I raise my eyes to see everyone staring at me. Jason is pacing, trying to calm down while Jimmy comes to me.
“Anna…” He starts but I know he won’t find the words to make all this better.
“He’s right” I say.
“You’re shitting me, right?” Jason says, stopping his pacing.
“He is. I’m leaving & I just got you into a fight with Brian, Jason. A guy you’ve been friends forever. A guy you work with”
“Anna, Brian is just a douche” Gena says.
“Yeah, he is. But that doesn’t make him wrong. You all have your lives. I’m the odd man out here. I’m the one that’s holding you guys back, not the other way around &… I’m sorry” I say, before entering my room & locking the door. I slide down the door & pull my knees to my chest, crying my eyes out. When did everything got so fucked up?
If looks could kill… I would be 50 fucking feet underground. The last person I wanted to see while being with the worst hangover is Brian. I pop the 2 small white pills I have in my hand in my mouth & down a cup filled with water. “Well… looks like you 2 had quite a night” He says through gritted teeth. I roll my eyes. I don’t want to deal with his bullshit right now.
“Oh, Brian… grow up” I say, adjusting the robe around me. He lets out a mocking laugh & I glare at him.
“Guess Jason didn’t find the right hole” He says & my mouth hangs open… shocked. I would never in a thousand years thought of him saying something like that to me.
“What?” Jason asks, confused. I think he fell asleep & reacted when he heard his name.
“You’re an asshole” I say to him & he laughs.
“Was that the hole you were aiming for, JB?” He asks Jason, looking at him. I scoff, feeling offended.
“Is this really necessary, Syn?” Jason asks, annoyed by Brian’s behavior.
“Oh, I’m sorry” He says in a fake apology.
“What the fuck is your problem, huh?” I say, getting fed up with his attitude.
“I don’t have a fucking problem” He says, pissed at my reaction.
“Really? Cuz it appears to me that you’re the one that didn’t find the right hole” I say, placing my hand on my hips.
“Wouldn’t you like to know” He says, making me roll my eyes again.
“Thank God, I don’t” I say, slightly hurt. Brian has never disrespected me before.
“So I guess Jason was a good fuck after all” He says, stepping closer to me.
“We didn’t fuck” Jason jumps in, standing next to me.
“Make love, have sex… whatever you want to call it, the result is always the same” He says, his eyes never leaving mine.
“Why the fuck do you care?” I say, stepping closer to him, feeling my blood boiling inside my veins. He’s really pushing it.
“Oh, I don’t care about you… I just don’t want Jason to catch something. God knows what kind of diseases you carry” He sneers & I tighten my jaw.
“Man, that’s uncalled for” Jason say, placing his hand on his arm, before Brian shrugging it.
“EXCUSE ME? I’m the one carrying diseases? Last time I checked, I wasn’t the one banging fucking groupies behind the tour bus & pissing on crack whores tits” I yelled at him.
“Oh, please, Annabelle. Everyone knows that Justin left you because you didn’t put out. Guess JB had luck” He says & I’m a bit taken back by his words. & he notices it. “Oh… did I hit a nerve?” He says with a smirk placed on his face.
“FUCK YOU, BRIAN” I yell at him.
“No, thank you. I have a fiancé that’s more than willing to that. Just like you’re willing to let Jason do it to you” He says, turning around. I hear a door open & see Gena walking out with Jimmy behind her.
“What’s with all the yelling? You’re gonna wake up the baby” He mutters, ruffling his hair. He takes a look at me & looks at Brian. “Ok, guys, this is getting ridiculous. What the fuck is going on between you 2?” He asks, not paying attention at Jason motioning for him to shut up.
“Nothing” I say through gritted teeth. I turn to walk away, to find a place where I can cry my heart out, to try & convince myself that this is just a fucking nightmare. That I’m still sleeping & this is all a bad dream. To try & make myself forget about Brian.
“Yeah, walk away, Annabelle. That’s what you always do when you’re in trouble, right? You run & hide & pretend nothing happened… like a coward” He says, making me stop in my tracks.
“Brian, I think it’s enough” Jason says & I see him pissed off. & I feel sorry for him. I’m the one that dragged him into this. I slowly turn around & stare at Brian… ready to fucking kill him. “Anna, why don’t you-”
“No” I cut Jason.
“Ann-” He tries again, but I cut him again.
“Stay out of this, Jason. I’m interested on what else does Brian think about me. He already stated that I’m whore, so let’s see what else he thinks” I say walking to Brian. “So… care to share?” I say standing close to him. Thank God I’m wearing my heels, because if not, I would be staring up at him more than I am now. I’m very short. “Oh, I’m dying to know, Brian” I say & I see him swallow hard. “Don’t back down. Be man enough to tell me what you really think of me” I say. He remains silent, & I can see the anger seeping from him. “What got your panties in a bunch, Haner? Is t the fact that for once in my life, I didn’t ask approval from anyone to do whatever the hell I want?” I say & I can feel the heat from his anger. “Or is the fact that Jason got a taste of something you’ll never get to taste? Or maybe is because you weren’t first in my life for a lot of things? TELL ME” I yell at him, not noticing that Johnny & Lacey have joined us.
“GET AWAY FROM ME, ANNABELLE” He yells back, making me cringe a bit at the boom of his voice. “I don’t give a fuck about you. Do you seriously think that I give a fuck who you spread your legs for? Fuck all the guys you want, be the little whore you want to be. Just don’t fuck with Jason to get back at me for not giving you my fucking support on you leaving. LEAVE ALREADY. I won’t miss you. It’ll just be another thing I won’t have to worry about” He says & I swallow back my tears. “You’ll just be another mistake in my life that I’ll forget”
“Ok, that’s enough guys. You are way to angry at each other & are not thinking this through. Stop saying things you’ll regret later” Johnny says.
“No, she wants to know what I think, so I’m telling her” He says, acknowledging him for a second before looking back at me. “You’re just pissed because I didn’t give you an excuse to back down from your little ‘moving-on’ with your life. You’re just pissed because I don’t give a rat’s ass about you leaving” He says, stepping closer to me. I gaze down. “You’re just pissed because I didn’t ask you to stay” He says through clenched teeth. “I won’t ask you to stay. I won’t be the one responsible for you to stay. I don’t want you to stay” He says & a tear falls down from my eye. “Don’t you fucking cry now. If you asked for it, at least have the dignity to take it”
“I hate you” I mutter. I mutter the 3 words I never thought I’ll tell Brian. “I hate you with all my being” I tell him, feeling my already shattered heart breaking even more. “I can’t believe I was willing to give up all my future for you. You’re a piece of shit, Brian” I say, turning around & storming towards my room.
“Why don’t you take Jason with you? I’m sure he can sex you up so you can feel better. That’s what fuck buddies do, right? I’m sure yours would be more than pleased to fuck you” He says. “I’m sure you’re not that good of a fuck but he doesn’t aim high” & that’s when I hear the sound of a fist colliding with something. I turn to see Brian on the floor & Johnny & Jimmy holding Jason back. My first instinct was to go running towards Brian & make sure he’s ok. But I stop myself from it. I stop myself because one thing is for me to love him, & another is for me to swallow my pride. & I won’t do that, I won’t crawl to him & pretend that what he said didn’t hurt me. To pretend that everything is ok only because he’s hurt. I’m hurt too, but my wounds are not visible. I’m dying on the inside.
“SHE’S YOU’RE FUCKING BEST FRIEND. HOW CAN YOU TALK TO HER LIKE THAT?” Jason yells at him, struggling to get out of Johnny’s & Jimmy’s hold. “WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM,MAN?”
“What’s going on here?” Leana asks, carrying baby Wren in her arms. Her eyes widen as she looks at the scene before her. She turns to look at me. “Anna?” She inquires but I say nothing & turn to look to where Brian is lying, & found him staring at me, while holding his jaw.
“I hope you’re happy” He mutters & I keep looking at him. “You just fucked up years of friendships” He says, getting up & walking to where I am. “We’ll be the ones that’ll have to deal with all this shit when you leave. So why don’t you leave already & make my life easier? Easier for all of us, huh? Cuz I don’t know if you have noticed… but you’re not needed here. You don’t fit in any of our lives. So go search for your own” He says, before passing by me & slamming the door on his way out. I stand there, frozen, his words sinking in. I raise my eyes to see everyone staring at me. Jason is pacing, trying to calm down while Jimmy comes to me.
“Anna…” He starts but I know he won’t find the words to make all this better.
“He’s right” I say.
“You’re shitting me, right?” Jason says, stopping his pacing.
“He is. I’m leaving & I just got you into a fight with Brian, Jason. A guy you’ve been friends forever. A guy you work with”
“Anna, Brian is just a douche” Gena says.
“Yeah, he is. But that doesn’t make him wrong. You all have your lives. I’m the odd man out here. I’m the one that’s holding you guys back, not the other way around &… I’m sorry” I say, before entering my room & locking the door. I slide down the door & pull my knees to my chest, crying my eyes out. When did everything got so fucked up?
The sequel is up. I don't know why it doesn't show up here. Go to my profile & you'll see it. It's called Second Chance. Hope you enjoy it!
3/28/13