Katie’s P.O.V.
As much as I didn’t want to, I was back at Ruby’s place. Why? Because I lived there. Ruby was really down and as much as I hated seeing her like this, I knew that she would hopefully learn from her mistake, that she wasn’t the only one that was hurting.
I came inside her house and I came and set my keys down on the little table that had other sets of keys on it and hung my jacket up. I looked around her place seeing that it was a mess and the only noise that was echoing in the house was her down in the basement playing her drums. It was nice to see her so happy but to know that she didn’t care about my feelings was hurting me. She acted like there was nothing wrong and I bet anything she was going to do the same mistake again and again until I break and fall apart.
I sighed, I needed to stop thinking about this. There was just a few hours separating us and the date that we had tonight with Jimmy and with Brian. I actually can’t believe that we were going to go out with Brian and Jimmy though. Then again, I didn’t even want to go because Brian was being a total jerk to me and I didn’t even know why. I know that I fell on him and such which was embarrassing enough and now, I don’t even know what. I just hoped that I would have a good time tonight.
“Hey sissy,” I heard a voice say. I was picking up my things, putting them into an empty basket and went down to the laundry room totally ignoring Ruby. Needless to say she fallowed me and asked me what was going on.
“You! You are what’s going on,” I snapped. I glared at her and she was taken aback by the tone in my voice. I didn’t care, I could careless. She hurt me so I was going to hurt her back.
“What are you t-”
“Oh don’t give me that, Ruby,” I snarled, “You freaking laughing at me when I fell,” I told her. She chuckled which made me even more angered.
“Sis, I…It was funny,” She said in total innocence. She was holding in laughter, “The look on your face and Brian’s was funny,” She explained.
“Don’t you ever think I have feelings? Don’t you ever think that what you do hurts me too?!” I yelled at her. She looked at me with tears in her eyes and she sighed.
“I didn’t mean to hurt you sis, I meant that it was just funny. God, haven’t you ever seen someone fall and thought it was funny? Why are you being such a jerk about it?” She asked me.
“Because I am sick of you!” I yelled, just saying this felt really good. I had so much built up from her. I never talked to her about it and now that I was in a yelling rampage, I felt like it was the perfect time to just lash out on her. I was actually sick of her and what she was doing to me. I was tired of her always saying me, me, me. We had been friends for as long as I could remember and never did she once listen to me. I didn’t even feel like I could talk to her.
I moved to California hoping for a new start in life and now, it was just going down the hole again. I looked at my sister though and saw tears stinging her eyes and I felt my heart fall from my chest seeing this but the anger got the best of me over all of this.
“Why?” She asked me.
“I don’t even trust you Ruby,” I told her, “It’s always been about you, you, you, you and no one else. I can’t even talk to you, I am so sick of this bull! You always cry, your always upset and all you are doing is using me!” I told her. It felt so dang good to tell her all of this but the look of sorrow was building up inside of her.
“You don’t know me! You don’t know what I’ve been through!” She shrieked at me, the tears streaming down her face, “You don’t know and you don’t care to know!”
“Oh shut up Ruby! Why can’t you ever just listen to me!” I yelled at her. She was crying now, just how I knew that she would. I growled and brushed past her and I felt her punch my shoulder.
“I hate you! Get out of my house!” She yelled at me. There was no arguing there, I was going to leave her and leave for good. I was sick of her not being a good friend to me and I was sick of her always wanting the attention.
I went up to my bedroom and slammed the door shut and fished out the suitcase from underneath the bed and threw it on top of my bed and started to pack up my things. I was happy to be getting out of there. I think that after tonight with Brian, after a few drinks that I was going to move back to where I came from. Sweet home of Germany. The only reason why I left was because of Ruby and my other friends. I left to just be with them and see how America was, well, I wasn’t really seeing anything great about this place. I could go back home and work on the band once again. I could be with my family and everything was going to be alright. I knew that I was going to miss California a lot but, I thought that it would be one of the best things that could ever happen to me.
I started to pack everything up and by the time I was finished, it was finally time for Brian and Jimmy to come and pick us up. I just hoped that it would be worth it tonight. Although Jimmy was probably going to ask what was wrong and bug us until one of us spilled. Ruby was going to make it seem like I was the bad guy which she always did.
I groaned and got ready for tonight, hoping everything was going to be just fine.