If You Incest...
Mixed Feelings
It felt like it was forever,being suspended in a tree. I had both sweaty hands wrapped around a limb that didn't look all too stable,and my feet were dangling about 20 feet above Johnny's head,yeah if there was ever a tree that a crazy person would want to be dangling from,it was this one. Great. Forever turned into eternity as I tried to keep listening to Johnny,I could only make out random words like 'Beautiful' and 'Sweet.' Oh father,please help me. What should I do,I can't hang on for very much longer,if this went on for any longer I knew I was gonna fall and at the very least break something,hopefully not my neck. I could feel my hands slipping,and I tried to put them in a better position,but without success.
I felt completely helpless,it had been forever since I had felt this way. It was 13 years ago,when I was four,my parents had gotten in terrible traffic accident,it was a drunk driver's fault. He crashed into the side of my parent's Honda Accord and my mother who was driving died instantly. My father was rushed to the hospital,more than 18 bones in his body were broken and he was losing blood quickly. Before they could get him into the ER he passed away. I couldn't remember anything before the accident,I was at a friends house and the doctor's said the trauma of the event forced my mind to forget.
The next thing I knew I woke up with my big brother Zack holding me,telling me it would be alright. I had never felt so helpless before,and now the feeling was coming back. I could feel the endless streaks of tears washing down my face. At this point I couldn't tell what was tears and what was sweat,they both ran into my eyes and down my face. It had surely been at least 4 minutes that I had been hanging here,and my arms had started to go numb. I could feel my grip slipping,and I knew it would end badly. And then,like god himself had sent an angel to rescue me,Syn opened the back door,he looked up and saw me hanging,he immediatly dashed over to the tree,yelling for Zacky. I was so relieved that I let out a tiny sigh,the tiny sigh made my hands slip even more. I started to panic,my body went limp and I didn't breathe,I knew if I did I would fall.
"Hold on Sarah!!" That's what I was flippin trying to do!!! I didn't even know who said it,but I really wanted to slap him,I was so frustrated. I was now hanging on by my fingers,trying my very best just not to fall. I knew I would though. I heard people yelling underneath me,and the only one I recognized through all of this was Zack,he was crying. I could hear the broken sobs. He was trying to tell me something,but I couldn't make it out. I could tell that I was about to pass out,at least I wouldn't feel any pain when I fell. As I fell I could hear the broken sobs and the wordless cry from my brother,and the love of my life.
I was dreaming of a better place,I was with Zack,and there wasn't any worries. No pain. Just us,just love. We were in a dimly lit meadow,that was covered with a blanket of flowers,all different colors. There was a bright blue sky,with white fluffy clouds. The kind you would think you can reach up and take a bite out of. I looked down to see that I was wearing a long white dress,yeah it was a cliche,but it fit the scenery. Zacky had no shirt on,just a pair of jeans. He slowly leaned over to kiss me,and to whisper in my ear that he loved me. Then he started to rub his hand down my arm and to my left breast,he rolled it around in his hand,making me moan softly. Then he slid down the loose sleeves of my dress so my chest was exsposed,but I wasn't embarrassed. I was extremely happy. I had dreamed of this day forever. Oh wait.
Dreamed. The magic word that always seemed to turn my dream into a nightmare.
Surprisingly,my mind ventured on with this dream,it continued with Zacky touching my bare nipple,then squeezing it gently,I moaned loudly. It was heaven. Just to have his hands on me,to feel him against my skin. I watched as he slowly bent his head down to kiss my collar bone,then the top of my left breast,licking all the way down to my peaked nipple,he put his mouth on the peak and gently bit it. I cried out in pleasure as he worked on my other one with his hand,then slowly kissing back up my neck until he reached my lips. It was a slow and passionate kiss,one that left me panting after. I raised up to whisper in my ear,'Sarah,Sarah,Wake up.'
"Wake up Sarah! I swear if you don't wake up I will tell everyone about your poetry!" That did it. I jerked awake to the sound of Kierra screaming in my ear. I focused my eyes on her and glared.
"You tell anyone and I will torture you!" I choked back,my throat was sore and my arms were aching,otherwise I would have choked her... I looked up to see that the room was full of the band members,the closest one was Zacky,he had my head on his lap,and Syn was leaning over the back of the leather couch,looking at me through worried eyes. I was laid on the leather couch,in the sitting room. It was a deep brown soft leather. I looked up and saw that Zacky's beautiful eyes were red,and his cheeks were tear stained. He looked like he was about to kill and kiss me at the same time. Like he wanted to strangle and hug me at the same time,I tried to sit up. But not getting much progress,Zacky finally noticed what I was trying to do and helped me the rest of the way up. I looked at everyone,and noticed that Johnny wasn't there,I looked at Zacky and he just shook his head. I knew not to question him at the moment.
Everyone besides Johnny,who wasn't present,was staring at me like I was some crazed suicidal lunatic who was about to pull a knife out of my boot and stab myself in the heart. Well news flash,I wasn't. I just wanted to sleep. And sleep,and sleep. I was so tired. I opened my mouth in a huge yawn and tried to stretch,I stopped when I felt just how sore my arms were. I winced and put them down on my lap. I sighed and noticed my lungs and everything else was sore too. But thankfully nothing was broken. But how?
"How did I...?" I choked out,to Zacky. He looked at me and smiled a small gentle smile and put his arms around me.
"Well,Syn and Matt snatched you out of the air,it was great. I was so worried though! Don't you ever do that to me again! I love you and don't want anything like that to ever happen to you!" The look in his eyes almost made me tear up again,but I think my eyes would have burst into flames at any moment if I did. So instead I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly.
"Well I've got some mixed feelings bout you dear brother...." I said sarcastically and we all started laughing,mine more of a cough,but laughing.
I felt completely helpless,it had been forever since I had felt this way. It was 13 years ago,when I was four,my parents had gotten in terrible traffic accident,it was a drunk driver's fault. He crashed into the side of my parent's Honda Accord and my mother who was driving died instantly. My father was rushed to the hospital,more than 18 bones in his body were broken and he was losing blood quickly. Before they could get him into the ER he passed away. I couldn't remember anything before the accident,I was at a friends house and the doctor's said the trauma of the event forced my mind to forget.
The next thing I knew I woke up with my big brother Zack holding me,telling me it would be alright. I had never felt so helpless before,and now the feeling was coming back. I could feel the endless streaks of tears washing down my face. At this point I couldn't tell what was tears and what was sweat,they both ran into my eyes and down my face. It had surely been at least 4 minutes that I had been hanging here,and my arms had started to go numb. I could feel my grip slipping,and I knew it would end badly. And then,like god himself had sent an angel to rescue me,Syn opened the back door,he looked up and saw me hanging,he immediatly dashed over to the tree,yelling for Zacky. I was so relieved that I let out a tiny sigh,the tiny sigh made my hands slip even more. I started to panic,my body went limp and I didn't breathe,I knew if I did I would fall.
"Hold on Sarah!!" That's what I was flippin trying to do!!! I didn't even know who said it,but I really wanted to slap him,I was so frustrated. I was now hanging on by my fingers,trying my very best just not to fall. I knew I would though. I heard people yelling underneath me,and the only one I recognized through all of this was Zack,he was crying. I could hear the broken sobs. He was trying to tell me something,but I couldn't make it out. I could tell that I was about to pass out,at least I wouldn't feel any pain when I fell. As I fell I could hear the broken sobs and the wordless cry from my brother,and the love of my life.
I was dreaming of a better place,I was with Zack,and there wasn't any worries. No pain. Just us,just love. We were in a dimly lit meadow,that was covered with a blanket of flowers,all different colors. There was a bright blue sky,with white fluffy clouds. The kind you would think you can reach up and take a bite out of. I looked down to see that I was wearing a long white dress,yeah it was a cliche,but it fit the scenery. Zacky had no shirt on,just a pair of jeans. He slowly leaned over to kiss me,and to whisper in my ear that he loved me. Then he started to rub his hand down my arm and to my left breast,he rolled it around in his hand,making me moan softly. Then he slid down the loose sleeves of my dress so my chest was exsposed,but I wasn't embarrassed. I was extremely happy. I had dreamed of this day forever. Oh wait.
Dreamed. The magic word that always seemed to turn my dream into a nightmare.
Surprisingly,my mind ventured on with this dream,it continued with Zacky touching my bare nipple,then squeezing it gently,I moaned loudly. It was heaven. Just to have his hands on me,to feel him against my skin. I watched as he slowly bent his head down to kiss my collar bone,then the top of my left breast,licking all the way down to my peaked nipple,he put his mouth on the peak and gently bit it. I cried out in pleasure as he worked on my other one with his hand,then slowly kissing back up my neck until he reached my lips. It was a slow and passionate kiss,one that left me panting after. I raised up to whisper in my ear,'Sarah,Sarah,Wake up.'
"Wake up Sarah! I swear if you don't wake up I will tell everyone about your poetry!" That did it. I jerked awake to the sound of Kierra screaming in my ear. I focused my eyes on her and glared.
"You tell anyone and I will torture you!" I choked back,my throat was sore and my arms were aching,otherwise I would have choked her... I looked up to see that the room was full of the band members,the closest one was Zacky,he had my head on his lap,and Syn was leaning over the back of the leather couch,looking at me through worried eyes. I was laid on the leather couch,in the sitting room. It was a deep brown soft leather. I looked up and saw that Zacky's beautiful eyes were red,and his cheeks were tear stained. He looked like he was about to kill and kiss me at the same time. Like he wanted to strangle and hug me at the same time,I tried to sit up. But not getting much progress,Zacky finally noticed what I was trying to do and helped me the rest of the way up. I looked at everyone,and noticed that Johnny wasn't there,I looked at Zacky and he just shook his head. I knew not to question him at the moment.
Everyone besides Johnny,who wasn't present,was staring at me like I was some crazed suicidal lunatic who was about to pull a knife out of my boot and stab myself in the heart. Well news flash,I wasn't. I just wanted to sleep. And sleep,and sleep. I was so tired. I opened my mouth in a huge yawn and tried to stretch,I stopped when I felt just how sore my arms were. I winced and put them down on my lap. I sighed and noticed my lungs and everything else was sore too. But thankfully nothing was broken. But how?
"How did I...?" I choked out,to Zacky. He looked at me and smiled a small gentle smile and put his arms around me.
"Well,Syn and Matt snatched you out of the air,it was great. I was so worried though! Don't you ever do that to me again! I love you and don't want anything like that to ever happen to you!" The look in his eyes almost made me tear up again,but I think my eyes would have burst into flames at any moment if I did. So instead I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly.
"Well I've got some mixed feelings bout you dear brother...." I said sarcastically and we all started laughing,mine more of a cough,but laughing.
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