Angels Cry When Planets Collide
How Can I go On like This
As I lead Dani over to my guitar room away from all shouting and music i could already tell she was annoyed.
" What the hell Brian you told me it was just two friends hanging out not a full scale party!"
" I'm sorry, half an hour before you turned up Matt came in and said we are having a party even when i told him i had a lady friend coming round he just said great i'm sure she will love it"
"Oh well ok then, i'm sorry i got pissed at you I thought this was some elaborate scheme to get in my pants"
"Oh hahah no i don't do that, not the getting into people's pants part yeah i have done that i meant the 'elaborate scheme' part"
" Oh good well we better get back out there before they start to assume that we are making sweet love"
" hahah yeah we better"
As men and Dani walked back into the party i noticed there was more people here then before, i started to get a bit worried that my house will get trashed but then i started to recognize the people and they were all Val's friends and sure enough i was broken out of my thoughts by the woman herself.
" Hey Brian long time no see, how have you been?"
" Umm yeah I've been ok how about you?"
" Yeah I've been good thanks, Brian you have to get over Michelle i know what she did to you was completely bitchy and i am so pissed at her, but you need to move on it's killing you."
" Thank's Val i never thought about that i have just been depressed and sad for no reason when i could be 'Getting over her' thanks for the advice Val" (Yeah i know that was a little harsh but she has done this to me every time i see her)
" Fuck you Brian, she doesn't love you get over it!"
Now usually if it was one of the guy's who said that i would have punched them in the face but it being Val instead i just walked of and headed to my kitchen fridge to get out a bottle of Jack, Fuck doing shots i'm just going to drink it from the bottle!
1 hour later (and 3 bottles of jack later)
By now i knew i was at the point of being so drunk that i will defiantly not remember tonight, all i did was keep replaying what Val said to me in my mind, i can't believe she would say that i mean she knows how i'm feeling and she said something like that. By now there was at least 50 people in my house thanks to Val's unlimited number of friends. I walked down my stairs to my main room where people had set up a make shift dance floor and speaker set, I didn't even notice most of the people dancing at least i'm sure i didn't but as i said i'm 3 bottles of jack deep so right now i could have thought johnny was actually a garden gnome. While i looked around the group dancing i'm sure i recognized one of the guy's dancing there at first i wasn't sure who it was then it hit me like a bullet to the brain, it was Kevin the bastard who stole my wife was grinding his junk on some sluts ass. By now i was blind with rage so i did the first thing that came to my head, i grabbed his arms and pushed him out into the back garden.
" WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOOUU DOING HERREEE"
" Oh hey Brian how are you, i see your a bit drunk"
" Fuck you, you cocky English bastard"
I blindly lunged my fist at his face but i must have been to drunk because next thing i knew i was on the ground with Kevin kicking me in the stomach.
" Hah you really are a pathetic piece of shit, no wonder Michelle left you for me, Brian look at me, You are nothing, nobody would care if you shot yourself upstairs right now your just a shit Guitarist from a shit band that no one listens to. And too think you have spent the last month wondering why she didn't love you. well i'll tell you why she didn't because you are a worthless drunk nobody piece of shit."
Kevin started to walk over to the gate to the front garden, i was in a so much pain physical and emotional, what he'd had broken me i felt worthless and numb, how could i go on like this, i wasn't thinking straight when i got up and limped back into my house and went straight upstairs to my bedroom, I wasn't thinking straight when i went to the bottom of my draw to retrieve my Colt M1911 from it's box, I wasn't thinking straight when i started to load the gun, I wasn't thinking straight when i slid the magazine in and put the gun in my mouth......
"Hey Brain you up he... oh god no!"
" What the hell Brian you told me it was just two friends hanging out not a full scale party!"
" I'm sorry, half an hour before you turned up Matt came in and said we are having a party even when i told him i had a lady friend coming round he just said great i'm sure she will love it"
"Oh well ok then, i'm sorry i got pissed at you I thought this was some elaborate scheme to get in my pants"
"Oh hahah no i don't do that, not the getting into people's pants part yeah i have done that i meant the 'elaborate scheme' part"
" Oh good well we better get back out there before they start to assume that we are making sweet love"
" hahah yeah we better"
As men and Dani walked back into the party i noticed there was more people here then before, i started to get a bit worried that my house will get trashed but then i started to recognize the people and they were all Val's friends and sure enough i was broken out of my thoughts by the woman herself.
" Hey Brian long time no see, how have you been?"
" Umm yeah I've been ok how about you?"
" Yeah I've been good thanks, Brian you have to get over Michelle i know what she did to you was completely bitchy and i am so pissed at her, but you need to move on it's killing you."
" Thank's Val i never thought about that i have just been depressed and sad for no reason when i could be 'Getting over her' thanks for the advice Val" (Yeah i know that was a little harsh but she has done this to me every time i see her)
" Fuck you Brian, she doesn't love you get over it!"
Now usually if it was one of the guy's who said that i would have punched them in the face but it being Val instead i just walked of and headed to my kitchen fridge to get out a bottle of Jack, Fuck doing shots i'm just going to drink it from the bottle!
1 hour later (and 3 bottles of jack later)
By now i knew i was at the point of being so drunk that i will defiantly not remember tonight, all i did was keep replaying what Val said to me in my mind, i can't believe she would say that i mean she knows how i'm feeling and she said something like that. By now there was at least 50 people in my house thanks to Val's unlimited number of friends. I walked down my stairs to my main room where people had set up a make shift dance floor and speaker set, I didn't even notice most of the people dancing at least i'm sure i didn't but as i said i'm 3 bottles of jack deep so right now i could have thought johnny was actually a garden gnome. While i looked around the group dancing i'm sure i recognized one of the guy's dancing there at first i wasn't sure who it was then it hit me like a bullet to the brain, it was Kevin the bastard who stole my wife was grinding his junk on some sluts ass. By now i was blind with rage so i did the first thing that came to my head, i grabbed his arms and pushed him out into the back garden.
" WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOOUU DOING HERREEE"
" Oh hey Brian how are you, i see your a bit drunk"
" Fuck you, you cocky English bastard"
I blindly lunged my fist at his face but i must have been to drunk because next thing i knew i was on the ground with Kevin kicking me in the stomach.
" Hah you really are a pathetic piece of shit, no wonder Michelle left you for me, Brian look at me, You are nothing, nobody would care if you shot yourself upstairs right now your just a shit Guitarist from a shit band that no one listens to. And too think you have spent the last month wondering why she didn't love you. well i'll tell you why she didn't because you are a worthless drunk nobody piece of shit."
Kevin started to walk over to the gate to the front garden, i was in a so much pain physical and emotional, what he'd had broken me i felt worthless and numb, how could i go on like this, i wasn't thinking straight when i got up and limped back into my house and went straight upstairs to my bedroom, I wasn't thinking straight when i went to the bottom of my draw to retrieve my Colt M1911 from it's box, I wasn't thinking straight when i started to load the gun, I wasn't thinking straight when i slid the magazine in and put the gun in my mouth......
"Hey Brain you up he... oh god no!"
10/11/13