Felicity stopped the truck when we got into town and I hopped out of the back as everyone parked beside us. Felicity stepped out of the truck and I leaned my back on it.

"I'm sorry but we if hadn't have left...we would have been over-run Serenity."

"I know...You did the right thing in getting us all out of there while we had the chance too." I said hanging my head.

"Don't worry sis. We'll find somewhere else to go."

"What if we don't? Where are we going to go? Some abandoned warehouse?" I asked a little aggitated than I should be. She hung her head at my comment and I ran my hand through my hair.

"I'm sorry. How much food do we have?" I asked looking up at her.

"We have enough for 2 weeks."

"Alright. Have everyone gather as much stuff as they cane handle and meet back at the cars in 30 minutes." I said and she nodded. I felt her hand go to my shoulder and she smiled at me before leaving to join the others. I sighed to myself and grabbed my machine gun from the bed of the truck along with my rifle. I joined everyone else as we went into different shops all around town. I grabbed a basket and went through the store looking for things that I think we might need. I went behind the counter and found a double barrelled Shotgun and I popped it open. It was loaded and there was 4 boxes of shells where the gun was propped. I grabbed the ammo and set it into my basket and continued around the store.

30 minutes passed and it was getting to be nightfall so we decided to just stay in town for the night and get an early start in the morning. I grabbed several blankets from Jimmy's SUV and laid them down on the cold floor along with the pillows. We had everything looking like a regular camping site but indoors. So I guess an indoor camp...anyways, Dante, Brian, Matt, and I were the ones to stand guard for most of the night and then the others would take over. I gripped the shotgun in my hands and I sat against the door. Dante and Matt were in the back of the store keeping an eye on the back door. Brian was looking over everyone and occasionally soothing one of the children or his own son Damien. He was such a great father to him and a wonderful uncle to the others. He's a wonderful person in general and it makes me wonder about his life before all this shit happened to the world.

I know he's a famous guitarist along with Zacky in Avenged but I wonder what his home life was like. I know his girl Michelle died when they were trying to escape their home and he's left raising a child without the mother. I bet that's hard on Damien but he doesn't show it. It was hard as hell on Felicity when we had to leave our mother and father in the house when it was being over-run...it was hard for me too but...she'll never know the things I know. She'll never know how I had to kill the one person I loved in my whole life.

I was dating my best friend, who just happens to have the same name as a member or our group, and I had to kill him because he had been turned into the dead. We had a secret relationship because I was afraid that if our parents found out, they wouldn't like me dating him. Dakota had the purest blue eyes I've ever seen and he was such a loving friend and man to me. If I had a problem that I couldn't come to my parents with, he was always there. I still remember that day like it was only moment ago.

We had just finished building on our new home and Zombie-Proofing it and I decided to go out and hunt for us. We had been working hard today and it would be a good treat for us to have some steaks. I grabbed my sniper rifle and headed into the woods in search of my pray. After walking for an hour, I seen the buck standing there just eating the grass like it was unaffected by the horribleness that has come upon this world. I took aim with the help of the scope and fired my gun hitting the unsuspecting buck right between the eyes. It fell to the ground dead before it could fully register what was happening to it.

I went to retrieve the buck when a Stray walked into my view and slowly trudged towards me. I couldn't believe who I was looking at. Dakota...

"Dakota...please don't make me have to kill you." I said fighting back the tears that threatend my eyes. Dakota still came towards me with his hungry and dead eyes and I pointed my weapon at him. When he got too close I pulled the trigger and a bullet went through his skull and he dropped to the ground. I fell to my knees an cried over his corpse knowing I had to do it but it wasn't fully registering in my mind. I can't believe I did that...

That day had to be hardest day I've ever had in my life. I just hope and pray to God that I never have to go through something like that ever again.

"Something on your mind Serenity?" I looked upa t the voice and seen Brian hovering over me.

"Just memories of the past." I said simply. I really don't feel like getting into my past.

"You want to talk about it?" I shook my head no.

"Sometimes it helps."

"I know but right now isn't a good time. I have to be focused." I said running my hand over the barrel of the gun.

"If you ever want to talk...you know where to find me." I nodded and he went back over to the children and kept a close eye on them. I quietly cleared my throat and peaked out the window to see a couple of strays coming down the street. I snapped my fingers and looked over at Brian.

"What is it?"

"2 strays. Hand me the rifle." I asked keeping an eye on them. Brian nudged my arm and I grabbed the rifle from him and only took my eyes off the dead so I could attach the silencer. I got to my feet and cracked open the door and putting the barrel out the door and taking aim for the one in the back. I pulled the trigger and the Stray's head exploded and the body fell to the ground. I took aim at the other one and did the same to it. I closed the door and locked it back.

"Go and see if Dante or Matt have seen anything out their way." I said keeping my gave out the door. I heard his retreating footsteps and I looked at the dead laying there in the middle of the street. Killing people does get to me but those people were already dead and it's necessary to survive.

"Dante and Matt seen you take out those 2 Strays but there's nothing else they've seen." Brian said and I nodded before sitting back down on the floor clutching my gun in my hand. Brian sat down beside me with his in his lap.

"You looked upset when you pulled the trigger."

"I just get that way sometimes. It gets to me but I know I have to so we can survive." I said putting the gun on safety.

"I was upset for a long time after I had to kill my wife...She was turned into one of those things when we were trying to escape. All of the guys had to kill their loved ones." I looked over at Felicity and she was still sound asleep.

"I killed someone I loved...about 6 months after we moved into that house." I said staring at my gun.

"Your mother?"

"My boyfriend. Dakota and I were in a secret relationship. I didn't want anyone knowing about it because I didn't want to have an arguement like all the other times. He understood why and he respected it but I could tell sometimes when we were out with my parents and Felicity...that he wanted to show em some kind of affection but he couldn't." I explained. I have no idea why I'm telling Brian something that I haven't even told my sister.

"I'm guessing your parents wanted you to marry some good looking guy that could provide for you. He goes to work and she stays home with the kids."

"How did you know?" I asked raising a brow.

"I talked to Felicity a while back. We got to talking about our lives as children and she told me about the horrible fights you and your parents would get into over your boyfriends."

"She has a really big mouth...but it's all true. My mother's mom found a man who went to work and provided for the family while she stayed home with my mother and her other brothers and sisters. I guess my grandmother's influence on my mom, gave her the intentions of doing it to both me and my sister. I was always the rebel and Felicity was the one that wanted to make mom and dad proud. Don't get me wrong, I wanted my parents to be as proud as they were with Felicity but...I guess they weren't. All I care about is that they love me." I explained fighting off tears. I'm supposed to be the strong one and I can't be crying in front of anyone.

"That had to be rough as shit. My parents liked my girlfriends before Michelle but didn't love them like they did her."

"I wish mine were like yours but we can't change who we want someone to be." I said honestly.

"So...what are you planning on doing? I mean are we going to leave here and go somewhere else or stay here and fight it out with any other pack that might just come by?"

"That's what I'm trying to figure out. I mean when we left my parents home...it was huge. I mean it had enough room in it to make enough rooms to put everyone in a bed but I don't know what kind of condition it's in." I said remembering the huge home I've lived in all my life.

"It just might be our best chance. Where is the house?"

"Right outside Huntington Beach actually. I used to walk to the beach every now and then." I said smiling.

"You mean you and your sister lived in that huge mansion?"

"Yeah...my dad was a bank president in Huntington so he made a lot of money...but the money didn't mean shit to me. I mean money is good to buy things with but what can money buy when love comes into play? It can't buy a person's happiness." I said nodding.

"Michelle felt the same way with my money. I mean we make a lot in the music industry and our clothing lines...but she loves to budget. She even helped me quit picking up anything I wanted when we would go out to the mall."

"She sounds like a good woman." I said smiling.

"Oh she was. She helped me quit my heavy drinking habit. She was a wonderful woman and an amazing human being." I smiled again and started remembering Dakota again. In a lot of ways, Dakota and Michelle were exactly alike and I knew if both Dakota and Michelle were here today, they would be the cut ups in this little gang of ours. I really miss him and I think it would be a great idea to go back to our original home and I know if it became over-run again, Felicity wouldn't leave once she got settled back in. I think I'll approach her with the idea in the morning.

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