Then I Will Grant You A Chance.
Alone
Vanessa's POV*
Its been a few weeks since the whole thing with Zack happened. He's tried calling me over and over again, but I just wasn't ready for what he had to say. He hurt me more than he realized. And to lie to my face... That was what hurt the most. Even the rest of the guys had called. I only answered Jimmy's phone calls though cause I knew he was the only one who won't bring up Zack. I've talked to Val because I needed to tell her I wasn't coming back to L.A. She told me she's holding my spot for me anyways. I did however, go to my studio session. They loved me, wanted me to come back again and record a demo. When they asked who taught me the guitar, I looked down and spoke Zacky's name. The manager was ecstatic to hear about it. Wanted to do a duo thing for a demo but when he asked me if I was cool with it. I had to turn it down.
I've also gone to the doctors to find out how far along I am. Today marks a month and two weeks. I started to feel more and more symptoms everyday. Every morning I'd run for the bathroom. At first my dad would constantly check up on me, but now he's busy talking to some girl he had met at the store. Don't get me wrong I was happy he was finally moving on but, I hated being lone and pregnant. So many times I wanted to just go buy some alcohol to try to numb the pain but I can't cause of my pregnancy. I still haven't even told Zacky yet. The only guy who knew was Jimmy.
"Va-Va-Vanessa is going to be a mommy?!" he shrieked.
"Yes, Ja-Ja-Jimmy! You wouldn't believe how much easier it is for me to beat you in a food contest now. That isn't anything new though." I laughed.
"Oh gosh, gorgeous and fierce and now glowing too I bet!" He laughed.
"I'm not sure if I'm really glowing right now but fierce is always going to be apart of me."
We both laughed and he asked me a whole bunch of baby questions. Kept insisting that I name him Jimmy if its a boy or Jaime if its a girl. This is why I loved talking to Jimmy. He can always make me smile.
"You know. We'll be back home tomorrow right?" He asked me.
"Don't you guys still have a few weeks left?" I asked feeling a bit confused.
"Well we did but we had to cancel the rest of the tour. Lets just say not everyone in the band is doing so well right now." He said and I can tell right away who he meant by that. Zacky. I didn't want a confirmation though so I just changed the topic.
"In that case, you and Leanna should come visit me. We can go out to lunch and what not. I do have a doctors appointment at 1 but I'm free after that." I said, hoping he would take the offer. And he did. He was way too excited to come see his Va-Va-Vanessa. "Just don't tell Zack that you're coming to see me." I added.
We talked a little longer and then said our goodbyes. Finally somebody is coming to see me.
Its like Zacky knew that I had just got off the phone cause the next thing I knew he was sending me messages.
Nessa. I really want to talk to you so I can at least say my half. I understand if you don't want to be with me, but don't I deserve a chance to redeem myself?? -Zacky V
Ya know, it doesn't help the fact that what you did will never be erased Zack. -Vee
Please Nessa? I'm coming home tomorrow. Can I at least talk to you? -Zacky V
It's too late Zack I moved back home. Back to Huntington...- Vee
He didn't reply after that. Maybe it hurt him to know that his actions forced me to leave back to my home. He deserved it though.
It began getting late so I decided to go to sleep. Besides I had an appointment tomorrow.
I woke up around 3 a.m feeling nausious again. I ran to the bathroom and chucked up all the contents of my stomach. This morning sickness needs to go already. I walked into the kitchen to look for some water and for some reason I had the feeling to check the garage. Of course it was empty. Dad must be out at his new girlfriends house. I don't blame him though. I must be a wreck to be around nowadays. I started getting used to being alone. Just as I went back to the kitchen to grab a glass of water, someone started knocking on my front door which scared me a bit.
"Who the hell would be here at 3 in the morning?" I said to myself quietly. I opened the door to find Zacky standing there.
"What are you doing here Zack?" I asked shocked to see him.
Its been a few weeks since the whole thing with Zack happened. He's tried calling me over and over again, but I just wasn't ready for what he had to say. He hurt me more than he realized. And to lie to my face... That was what hurt the most. Even the rest of the guys had called. I only answered Jimmy's phone calls though cause I knew he was the only one who won't bring up Zack. I've talked to Val because I needed to tell her I wasn't coming back to L.A. She told me she's holding my spot for me anyways. I did however, go to my studio session. They loved me, wanted me to come back again and record a demo. When they asked who taught me the guitar, I looked down and spoke Zacky's name. The manager was ecstatic to hear about it. Wanted to do a duo thing for a demo but when he asked me if I was cool with it. I had to turn it down.
I've also gone to the doctors to find out how far along I am. Today marks a month and two weeks. I started to feel more and more symptoms everyday. Every morning I'd run for the bathroom. At first my dad would constantly check up on me, but now he's busy talking to some girl he had met at the store. Don't get me wrong I was happy he was finally moving on but, I hated being lone and pregnant. So many times I wanted to just go buy some alcohol to try to numb the pain but I can't cause of my pregnancy. I still haven't even told Zacky yet. The only guy who knew was Jimmy.
"Va-Va-Vanessa is going to be a mommy?!" he shrieked.
"Yes, Ja-Ja-Jimmy! You wouldn't believe how much easier it is for me to beat you in a food contest now. That isn't anything new though." I laughed.
"Oh gosh, gorgeous and fierce and now glowing too I bet!" He laughed.
"I'm not sure if I'm really glowing right now but fierce is always going to be apart of me."
We both laughed and he asked me a whole bunch of baby questions. Kept insisting that I name him Jimmy if its a boy or Jaime if its a girl. This is why I loved talking to Jimmy. He can always make me smile.
"You know. We'll be back home tomorrow right?" He asked me.
"Don't you guys still have a few weeks left?" I asked feeling a bit confused.
"Well we did but we had to cancel the rest of the tour. Lets just say not everyone in the band is doing so well right now." He said and I can tell right away who he meant by that. Zacky. I didn't want a confirmation though so I just changed the topic.
"In that case, you and Leanna should come visit me. We can go out to lunch and what not. I do have a doctors appointment at 1 but I'm free after that." I said, hoping he would take the offer. And he did. He was way too excited to come see his Va-Va-Vanessa. "Just don't tell Zack that you're coming to see me." I added.
We talked a little longer and then said our goodbyes. Finally somebody is coming to see me.
Its like Zacky knew that I had just got off the phone cause the next thing I knew he was sending me messages.
Nessa. I really want to talk to you so I can at least say my half. I understand if you don't want to be with me, but don't I deserve a chance to redeem myself?? -Zacky V
Ya know, it doesn't help the fact that what you did will never be erased Zack. -Vee
Please Nessa? I'm coming home tomorrow. Can I at least talk to you? -Zacky V
It's too late Zack I moved back home. Back to Huntington...- Vee
He didn't reply after that. Maybe it hurt him to know that his actions forced me to leave back to my home. He deserved it though.
It began getting late so I decided to go to sleep. Besides I had an appointment tomorrow.
I woke up around 3 a.m feeling nausious again. I ran to the bathroom and chucked up all the contents of my stomach. This morning sickness needs to go already. I walked into the kitchen to look for some water and for some reason I had the feeling to check the garage. Of course it was empty. Dad must be out at his new girlfriends house. I don't blame him though. I must be a wreck to be around nowadays. I started getting used to being alone. Just as I went back to the kitchen to grab a glass of water, someone started knocking on my front door which scared me a bit.
"Who the hell would be here at 3 in the morning?" I said to myself quietly. I opened the door to find Zacky standing there.
"What are you doing here Zack?" I asked shocked to see him.
Notes
Just a filler.. Adding another chapter in about an hour or two :)
stay tuned and please comment your thoughts!
i would love to say a special thank you to xAtomic_Venomx!
This was great! I so cannot wait to read the sequel!
3/16/14