I Give my Heart to you on this Crimson Day
Chapter 23: Scream
Erin’s P.O.V
White.
That’s all it was; there wasn’t anything here and it was silent.
“Hello?” I called out to see if anyone was going to hear me or even realize that I was here. In the distance there was a blurry figure of a man.
“Who’s there?” I asked and when the man came closer then I saw that it was Jimmy. A huge wave of relief swept over me because it wasn’t anyone who wanted to hurt me. His smile; that is why I felt so warm and so safe; he was literally blocking out all the darkness.
“Where am I?” I asked.
“Well I took you away from hell but I didn’t want you to go to Heaven right now since we are in the process of getting you back home safely. Believe me that if I took you to Heaven, Papa Gates would just intercept you again and we do not want that… no siree bob” He said laughing with this really big smile on his face making me laugh harder than I have in a while.
“A laugh that healed the broken heart, with all that it could” I blurted out because I had only been thinking about his laugh. He smiled and was tearing up a little.
“I need to ask; did Brian write So Far Away or was it Matt?” He asked me and I just sat there for a moment trying not to cry.
“It was all Brian; that man misses you so much…. They all do” I said. He smiled again loving the fact that he was missed by everyone.
“So what are we going to do while I am trying to escape from this Afterlife?” I said laughing really hard making him bust out laughing as well. I rubbed my face and when I stopped there were some white chairs that had appeared.
“Have a seat” He said and I sat down along with him.
“Wait so you are going to stay with me?” I asked.
“I am not just going to leave you alone; I know that right now you are in need of a friend after that overwhelming experience” He said in a really laid back manner….. He was a really sweet man. I can see why he was God!
Zack’s P.O.V
We were completely running out of time. I was running out of oxygen so it seemed; I constantly felt empty on the inside. I need her back in my arms; when she comes back we need to make is so that no other man can have her. I love her. I was walking on the beach with my jeans rolled up and I just needed to be alone. I felt like I was all messed up in the head and I was even more messed up when Meaghan appeared about three feet away from me. I just stood there waiting to see what she was going to do.
“Did you love me?” She asked taking me a little off guard. I figured that I should just talk to her since I was alone and she wasn’t trying to slap me in the face.
“Of course I did Meaghan” I said. There was a slight smile on her face because she felt the sincerity in my answer. She took a few steps towards me.
“I am so sorry that I betrayed you. And that I have done what I have done. I am being foolish but if I go back on it now…. He will kill me. I am not ready to die Zack” She said.
“You have a choice Meaghan; you can walk away from this at anytime and we will keep you safe. Erin may not be very nice to you right away but that is because you have stabbed her multiple times. But you will always have a way out” I said trying to make her realize that she can make her way back to grace. There is no gray area in the situation. She came close to me and she was crying a little bit. I pulled her in and hugged her. She used to be my everything and I wasn’t going to just dis her for the rest of my life. She looked up at me and I smiled and then without even thinking about what I was doing…
I kissed her…
Erin’s P.O.V
I was having a great time with Jimmy; he was so sweet and so welcoming and just was a great person to talk to. I recounted my life and told him what I remembered of it and how everything went in Nebraska and then how I ended up with Zack and the band. He told me about when he ended up in Heaven.
“It was a very liberating experience; it was really hard to leave everything behind. I have a family ya know; I love them and so when I left the world it was painful…. But your mother made me feel better about being up there. She made me see that it was time to enter my new life as God. I watch over the guys a lot and am ecstatic with how far they have come” He said making me feel happy.
“My mom has a way of making every person feel welcome which is why she is who she is and she has made me into the girl I am today” I said smiling just thinking about her. I missed her so so much right now and I just wanted to go home. After a good hour or so I felt a little off and I had just had a really bad feeling in my stomach.
“Erin; are you okay?” Jimmy asked me. I just sat there trying to put my finger what was going on. He rushed down beside me and held my hand. And just then he let go and got up and looked like he was going to have a fit. He paced back and forth for a minute and then I screamed and was in agony.
“Oh my god I need to get you back right now so we can figure out what the hell is going on” Jimmy said and I was worried. I felt like my heart was purely breaking and being ripped out of my chest. I closed my eyes trying to breathe but all I felt was cold and heartless. And just a moment later I opened my eyes and it was dark and I put my arms out a little and felt the sides of a box….. I was alive and I was in my casket. I felt stronger and full of life… but the heartache didn’t go away. I punched the top of the casket a multitude of times making it break apart and all the dirt fell onto me. I made it to the top and pushed my hand through the soil and felt someone grab my hand and pull me up. I opened my eyes and the sun was shining and I noticed that it was Jimmy who had pulled me up.
“Good you are back” He said. I didn’t smile; I just walked…. I knew that he was following me but he disappeared as I rounded the corner of my block. None of the band members were around and I didn’t see Zack in sight but I couldn’t feel him either…. Just the agony…. I went inside and took a nice hot shower and then looked in my closet and grabbed a black camisole and some black skinny jeans and then put on some black boots. I straightened my hair and adjusted to my makeup being stuck on again. I walked downstairs and I saw Hay…I mean Sarah. She dropped the coffee and the cup shattered all over the ground.
“Erin…. You’re alive” She said.
“Where is Zack” I asked. She just looked confused at how I was reacting. She didn’t answer me so I just grabbed my wallet that had a chain and shoved it in my pocket and attached it to my belt loop. I walked out and just stood outside trying to sense Zack and locate where exactly he was but I felt someone hug me. I opened my eyes and it was Matt.
“ERIN” He said happily. I just sat there. He stopped and wondered why I wasn’t returning the hug or smiling.
“What’s wrong?” He asked and then before I knew it Papa Gates was on the other side of the street.
“Seems that Mr. Baker has made a MASSIVE mistake Sanders” He said to Matt. Just what I needed is to hear Papa Gates smart ass fucking attitude.
“Well this is news to us” Matt said.
“Why do you think Erin isn’t smiling; he is her maker and they had a connection and what does
he do? He kisses Meaghan cutting off the connection and making her heart as cold as ice” He said and I was just really starting to get tired of him.
“Jesus” Matt said trying to process this. I couldn’t even think right now because Papa Gates was right; my heart was as cold as ice.
“Come on dear just come with me now; Zack has betrayed you, you are nothing to him” He said and I had my eyes closed tightly and just then there was the spark in my hand….
“SHUT UP!” I said and shot the spark right at him pushing him deep into Michelle and Brian’s lawn. I saw the two of them rush out looking at the massive hole in the ground with Papa Gates lying in it. I felt drained but exhilarated at the same time. I adjusted myself and then thought of Zack and ended up at the beach where I found him sitting in the sand. He shot up and just stared at me and I saw that he was crying.
“You’re alive…. But why can’t I feel you?” He said walking over to me but I just held my hand out making him stop in his tracks and he could tell that I was not the same.
“I know… That you kissed her” I said. He was still in shock that he couldn’t feel me.
“I-I am” He said and I stopped him.
“I think you broke me” I said softly….
Was I?
Was I really broken? And if so what would this lead to in the battle?
Is this my downfall?
White.
That’s all it was; there wasn’t anything here and it was silent.
“Hello?” I called out to see if anyone was going to hear me or even realize that I was here. In the distance there was a blurry figure of a man.
“Who’s there?” I asked and when the man came closer then I saw that it was Jimmy. A huge wave of relief swept over me because it wasn’t anyone who wanted to hurt me. His smile; that is why I felt so warm and so safe; he was literally blocking out all the darkness.
“Where am I?” I asked.
“Well I took you away from hell but I didn’t want you to go to Heaven right now since we are in the process of getting you back home safely. Believe me that if I took you to Heaven, Papa Gates would just intercept you again and we do not want that… no siree bob” He said laughing with this really big smile on his face making me laugh harder than I have in a while.
“A laugh that healed the broken heart, with all that it could” I blurted out because I had only been thinking about his laugh. He smiled and was tearing up a little.
“I need to ask; did Brian write So Far Away or was it Matt?” He asked me and I just sat there for a moment trying not to cry.
“It was all Brian; that man misses you so much…. They all do” I said. He smiled again loving the fact that he was missed by everyone.
“So what are we going to do while I am trying to escape from this Afterlife?” I said laughing really hard making him bust out laughing as well. I rubbed my face and when I stopped there were some white chairs that had appeared.
“Have a seat” He said and I sat down along with him.
“Wait so you are going to stay with me?” I asked.
“I am not just going to leave you alone; I know that right now you are in need of a friend after that overwhelming experience” He said in a really laid back manner….. He was a really sweet man. I can see why he was God!
Zack’s P.O.V
We were completely running out of time. I was running out of oxygen so it seemed; I constantly felt empty on the inside. I need her back in my arms; when she comes back we need to make is so that no other man can have her. I love her. I was walking on the beach with my jeans rolled up and I just needed to be alone. I felt like I was all messed up in the head and I was even more messed up when Meaghan appeared about three feet away from me. I just stood there waiting to see what she was going to do.
“Did you love me?” She asked taking me a little off guard. I figured that I should just talk to her since I was alone and she wasn’t trying to slap me in the face.
“Of course I did Meaghan” I said. There was a slight smile on her face because she felt the sincerity in my answer. She took a few steps towards me.
“I am so sorry that I betrayed you. And that I have done what I have done. I am being foolish but if I go back on it now…. He will kill me. I am not ready to die Zack” She said.
“You have a choice Meaghan; you can walk away from this at anytime and we will keep you safe. Erin may not be very nice to you right away but that is because you have stabbed her multiple times. But you will always have a way out” I said trying to make her realize that she can make her way back to grace. There is no gray area in the situation. She came close to me and she was crying a little bit. I pulled her in and hugged her. She used to be my everything and I wasn’t going to just dis her for the rest of my life. She looked up at me and I smiled and then without even thinking about what I was doing…
I kissed her…
Erin’s P.O.V
I was having a great time with Jimmy; he was so sweet and so welcoming and just was a great person to talk to. I recounted my life and told him what I remembered of it and how everything went in Nebraska and then how I ended up with Zack and the band. He told me about when he ended up in Heaven.
“It was a very liberating experience; it was really hard to leave everything behind. I have a family ya know; I love them and so when I left the world it was painful…. But your mother made me feel better about being up there. She made me see that it was time to enter my new life as God. I watch over the guys a lot and am ecstatic with how far they have come” He said making me feel happy.
“My mom has a way of making every person feel welcome which is why she is who she is and she has made me into the girl I am today” I said smiling just thinking about her. I missed her so so much right now and I just wanted to go home. After a good hour or so I felt a little off and I had just had a really bad feeling in my stomach.
“Erin; are you okay?” Jimmy asked me. I just sat there trying to put my finger what was going on. He rushed down beside me and held my hand. And just then he let go and got up and looked like he was going to have a fit. He paced back and forth for a minute and then I screamed and was in agony.
“Oh my god I need to get you back right now so we can figure out what the hell is going on” Jimmy said and I was worried. I felt like my heart was purely breaking and being ripped out of my chest. I closed my eyes trying to breathe but all I felt was cold and heartless. And just a moment later I opened my eyes and it was dark and I put my arms out a little and felt the sides of a box….. I was alive and I was in my casket. I felt stronger and full of life… but the heartache didn’t go away. I punched the top of the casket a multitude of times making it break apart and all the dirt fell onto me. I made it to the top and pushed my hand through the soil and felt someone grab my hand and pull me up. I opened my eyes and the sun was shining and I noticed that it was Jimmy who had pulled me up.
“Good you are back” He said. I didn’t smile; I just walked…. I knew that he was following me but he disappeared as I rounded the corner of my block. None of the band members were around and I didn’t see Zack in sight but I couldn’t feel him either…. Just the agony…. I went inside and took a nice hot shower and then looked in my closet and grabbed a black camisole and some black skinny jeans and then put on some black boots. I straightened my hair and adjusted to my makeup being stuck on again. I walked downstairs and I saw Hay…I mean Sarah. She dropped the coffee and the cup shattered all over the ground.
“Erin…. You’re alive” She said.
“Where is Zack” I asked. She just looked confused at how I was reacting. She didn’t answer me so I just grabbed my wallet that had a chain and shoved it in my pocket and attached it to my belt loop. I walked out and just stood outside trying to sense Zack and locate where exactly he was but I felt someone hug me. I opened my eyes and it was Matt.
“ERIN” He said happily. I just sat there. He stopped and wondered why I wasn’t returning the hug or smiling.
“What’s wrong?” He asked and then before I knew it Papa Gates was on the other side of the street.
“Seems that Mr. Baker has made a MASSIVE mistake Sanders” He said to Matt. Just what I needed is to hear Papa Gates smart ass fucking attitude.
“Well this is news to us” Matt said.
“Why do you think Erin isn’t smiling; he is her maker and they had a connection and what does
he do? He kisses Meaghan cutting off the connection and making her heart as cold as ice” He said and I was just really starting to get tired of him.
“Jesus” Matt said trying to process this. I couldn’t even think right now because Papa Gates was right; my heart was as cold as ice.
“Come on dear just come with me now; Zack has betrayed you, you are nothing to him” He said and I had my eyes closed tightly and just then there was the spark in my hand….
“SHUT UP!” I said and shot the spark right at him pushing him deep into Michelle and Brian’s lawn. I saw the two of them rush out looking at the massive hole in the ground with Papa Gates lying in it. I felt drained but exhilarated at the same time. I adjusted myself and then thought of Zack and ended up at the beach where I found him sitting in the sand. He shot up and just stared at me and I saw that he was crying.
“You’re alive…. But why can’t I feel you?” He said walking over to me but I just held my hand out making him stop in his tracks and he could tell that I was not the same.
“I know… That you kissed her” I said. He was still in shock that he couldn’t feel me.
“I-I am” He said and I stopped him.
“I think you broke me” I said softly….
Was I?
Was I really broken? And if so what would this lead to in the battle?
Is this my downfall?
JIMMY!!!
3/28/18