[Jimmy’s POV]

“I’m gonna leave you guys to talk” Kayla said and left the room, closing the door behind her

“Jimmy, it’s not what you—”

“Then what is it?” I asked, my voice calm

“I’ve got a scholarship to study photography”

“WHAT! Gaby that’s amazi—”

“Is in London” she cut me off

“Oh…” excitement left my voice

“But it’s okay” she sighed, with a fake smile “Cause I’m not taking it”

“What?” I asked and she closed her eyes, walking down to where I was

“I’m not going, I’m not taking the scholarship” she wrapped her arms around my neck

“What? Why?” I asked, my hands resting in her hips

“My life’s here with you. I don’t need it”

“Gaby—”

“Don’t. Let’s not talk about this, please” she pleaded with me “I already made a decision” She didn’t let me reply when she was already out of the room.

I stood there without moving a muscle, the girl I love got an offer to do what she loves the most, besides me. I knew Gaby wanted to study photography; she was always talking about it. She mentioned she wanted to work as that, as a photographer and I was happy with whatever made her happy, and if this was then…

“Yo, Jimmy!” Brian called me entering the room, where I was currently standing like a statue “What’s up? Are you okay?”

“I don’t know Brian” I sighed “I need to ask you something”

“Sure, man” he said “Anything”

“Gaby earned a scholarship to study in London”

“What! That’s fucking amazing, she loves photography”

“Yes, that she does” I sighed

“But, wait… London?” he asked and I nodded

“Oh, shit…”

“Exactly” I said “But she is turning it down for me, to stay with me. She can’t break up with me”

“Jimmy—”

“Brian, do you think I should let her go?”

“Jimmy, I—I don’t know, man”

“This is what she loves, she already gave up so much for us, I think that if I hold her down even more, I’m never gonna forgive myself, I don’t think she will be happy just being the girlfriend next to me in the shows” he sighed and I continued “You know that I love this girl. I do. And that’s why I wanna do the right thing… Tell me, if what am I thinking is the right thing?”

“Look, Jimbo” he said “You know what to do, you are just afraid to do it. I can’t tell you what to do. But I know you already know what to do” he sighed and stood up, holding a hand out to me and I took it

“I can’t let her go, man” I said “I love her too much”

“I know, that’s why doing the right thing hurts too much”

Brian left the room and I was left alone with my thoughts. Yes, he was right. I knew what to do. The thing is I don’t know where I’m going to get the balls to do it

[End Jimmy’s POV]

It’s been a month since the whole London thing happened, I started to look for job’s here. But it was so damn hard, especially since I didn’t have experience or degrees or anything. So I decided to stop trying, I could always become a stripper although Jimmy wouldn’t like that.

“Hey, what are you doing?” he asked, kissing my hair while I flicked through the channels

“Nothing, just leaving my body shape into the couch” I chuckled

“I wanna take you down to somewhere” he said out of the blue

“What?” I dropped the remote and I sat down, Indian style

“Yes, c’mon” he said “Hurry up! Pick up your sack and move your ass… hey that rimmed!” he smirked and I laughed “Everything will be okay” he kissed my temple, his voice cracking a bit and I turned around to face him, his expression looked so broken

“Baby, are you okay?” I asked and he nodded

“I’m fine, Gaby” he kissed me and his tongue trespassed my lips, fighting for dominance with mine. “I love you, okay? I always will” he said and I got worried

“Jimmy, what’s wrong?”

“C’mon” he said “I wanna take you out to somewhere” he said and I looked at him, with an odd look

“I’m not going anywhere until you talk, Sullivan”

“Gaby… please” he said “It’s nothing wrong, I’m not gonna murderer you in the woods or anything like that, I wanna take you out, okay?”

I nodded and picked my bag and we made our way down to his car and I took my place in the passenger seat while he sat behind the steering wheel and took us out of the driveway. He drove for a while until; I started to look the city more and more in sight. We were on our way to Los Angeles.

“Jimmy, why are we going to L.A?” I asked, but he didn’t replied “JIMMY!” I called him and he shook his head

“You’ll see”

He drove us down for another 10 minutes, until we made our way to the parking lots and killed the engine

What are we doing here?

He took his cellphone and had a brief conversation with someone in the other line, and I was in the car when suddenly Matt appeared and opened the door

“What are you doing here, Mattie boy?” I asked and he smiled apologetically

All smile from my face disappeared “What? Was wrong? Jimmy… what are you hiding from me!?” I asked, and when I was about to scream bloody murder, he pulled out a suitcase out from the trunk and I knew what was going on. I just knew it

“NO! NO! I’M NOT GOING! PUT ME THE FUCK DOWN, MATT!” he did as I yelled and put me down, and I ran my way back to the car and tried to open the door but it was locked

“Gaby…” Jimmy tried to reason with me and I shook my head

“NO!, NO! JIMMY” I shouted “I TALKED ABOUT THIS WITH YOU! I’M NOT GOING!” I yelled and he sighed

“Can you find a job here?” No “You can do what you love and it’s not fair!” he was frustrated

“I’m not going, James!” I stated, my voice cracking and kept trying to open the door “No, Jimmy, please don’t do this”

“This is the correct thing, Gaby. You have to live your dreams—”

“My dreams are you! You’re my life! My best friend! My piece of heaven!” tears were streaming down my face and I was so frustrated. I felt lost, I couldn’t believe this was happening

“And you’re mines” he said “But I can’t just live with myself, knowing you wouldn’t be happy if you don’t do what you want” he said, caressing my cheek, cleaning the tears away “I want you to be happy, baby and you can’t do this here. You have to take the scholarship and study and be a photographer. You have to let the world know you’re great” he smiled, but his eyes, his gorgeous blue eyes were shredding tears

“Jimmy” I croaked

“Come” he said “There’s people you have to say goodbye to, us… not yet” he said and I nodded, walking down by him, my steps were so small, I didn’t wanted to leave him, I couldn’t believe he was making me go, I couldn’t believe I was never going to see them again. I couldn’t believe I— everyone was there. All the boys, Kayla, all the families… and the tears weren’t stopping. Everyone hugged me, I didn’t wanted to let go of Jimmy’s hand, but he let go of mine and I said my goodbyes with every one of the boy’s families. Jimmy’s mom was crying uncontrollably, she thought she was losing a daughter and for me, it was my mom. I turned to see Zacky, Brian, Matt, Johnny and him, my baby, my boyfriend, Jimmy.

“Come here” Brian called, trying to hold the tears, and I ran into their arms and they hugged me tightly, not wanting to let go of me “We love you, okay? You’re our baby sister and you will always be” Matt said

“You’re our best friend” Johnny said “The only girl who is shorter than me” he laughed and I laughed with him, between tears

“You’re the most amazing girl we ever met” Zacky spoke “You’re reckless, London has nothing against you” he chuckled and I hugged him

“I’m gonna miss my Baby Baker” I said

“Honestly, I’m gonna miss that nickname” he smiled, tears flooding from his eyes and I saw how all of them were crying. This was my family; this was everything I always wanted. My boys, they were for me between all my crappy life, I own them so much.

“You’re the girl I love” Jimmy spoke from behind me, wrapping his arm around my middle and kissing my ear “I’m sorry, and I know you’re gonna be mad with me for a while for this, but I love you and I know, one day you’ll see this is what you needed, you really wanted”

“I don’t hate you, I’m not mad… It’s just overwhelming, I just don’t wanna go… but it’s just an scholarship and we will be okay, right?” Jimmy remained quieted

“Right?… Jimmy we’re gonna be okay?”

“You told Kayla, you didn’t have the courage to break up with me, because you knew distance would kill us, you knew we weren’t going to be able to make it….” he sobbed “And you—As always, baby. You are right”

“NO…” I cried “No… no, no no”

“Gaby…”

“NO! DON’T GABY ME!” I sobbed, holding a hand to my mouth “You’re breaking up with me!?”

“Gaby…”

“YOU’RE BREAKING UP WITH ME!?”

He sighed and said the words I been dreading to hear “Yes”

“Jimmy, you don’t mean it. You don’t—”

“We’re done, Gaby” he looked away, adverting my eyes and I grasped his chin and make him look at me “You never loved me did you? You only wanted to get into my pants? I never—I never meant anything to you” my voice barely a whisper

“Gaby, I love you more than my fucking life!” he exclaimed “You think this isn’t hard for me!? You think my heart isn’t shattered in two, because the girl I love, I FUCKING LOVE, is going away!?”

“Jimmy…”

“I’m doing this for you! Because I can’t keep you tied to me here! You’re gonna meet a guy there and—”

“And I’m not gonna love him, like I love you, okay?” I said “Don’t do this, we can make it… we can” I said and he shook his head

“I love you, baby”

Passengers with destiny to London, please aboard through Gate 432 the voice said through the speakers, making me panic. I didn’t wanted to go. I couldn’t just go and leave everything behind

“No, Jimmy” I said “No, please! I love you!”

“I love you too, Gaby” he croaked and he closed his eyes “I love you and I will always will”

“Jimmy…”

“We were in our own piece of heaven…” he trailed “And it’s time to let it go. Are you ready?”

I shook my head and he kissed my temple, grabbed my hand and guide me through the doors, and he stopped in a side of the line and kissed me long and hard. He knew we weren’t going to see each other again, he knew what I was denying to.

I started to walk, my body limp, my eyes bloodshot red and I gave the lady my plane ticket she verified and told me to have a nice trip. I looked back and I saw Jimmy standing there, his face looking down and I dropped my bag and tackle him to the ground, kissing him hard and with need. I was gonna miss him, I knew he was right, I knew that if I didn’t go, I would always blame him for this, and I know I’m always gonna love him for this.

“I love you, Jimmy”

“I love you, too. Gaby” he said and hugged me, wrapping his jacket around my shoulders and I stood up from the ground, picking my bag again and walked through the corridor hall

Once I was settled down, I was thinking on how many things went wrong and how many things went right. I loved him more than anything and he just let me go. But he loves me, he did this because he loved me

I shoved my hands in the pocket of his jacket and I found a piece of paper with my name on it. I opened really fast and I started to read it. It was from him… from Jimmy.

Dear Gaby,
By the time you’re reading this letter, you must be already or on the plane or already in London. I know you’re mad at me for doing this behind your back, I know you’re mad at me for breaking up with you, I know it… Because I’m mad at myself . I hate myself for doing it, I hate myself for letting you, but it was the only way you could go without nothing tying you down here. I know you love me, and I love you too. Way more you would ever think of. You once told me I should pursue my dreams no matter how big they were and I did it, I am now the person I am thanks to you, and now, I want you to take your own advice and follow it, I want you to be huge and staying here wouldn’t make that happen. I couldn’t live with myself knowing you’re not happy doing what you like knowing you’re just here because I am here. I couldn’t… I love you too much to do that. I love you so much that doing this it hurts me, it’s killing me, but I know it’s the correct thing to do… I love you, Gabrielle and I always will….

Goodbye— Jimmy.

I didn’t knew I was crying until I saw the little teardrops soak the paper, I folded it and I put it down on the jacket, cleaning my tears off my face and I looked out of the window…

“I love you too, Jimmy” I whispered more to myself than anyone else “Goodbye”

And with that I said goodbye to my best friend, my savior, my boyfriend, my own piece of heaven.