It’s been almost two months since we got back from tour, Christmas, New Years Eve, and Zacky’s Birthday happened in that time.

I spent Christmas with Jimmy’s family, he told them about what happened in tour, mentioning how I kicked that fucker. Oh, geez. Hilarious. The thing is the next day after the incident, Pete came down to the bus and apologized, he said he was sorry and apologized for the possible trauma he could have caused me, not that he did.

In christmas, Jimmy got me a camera, a professional one, he noticed how I was starting to take an interest into photography. When I was on tour, when I wasn’t doing merch sales, I was taking photos, earning a few bucks from Alternative Press among other magazines. My photos were pretty good, so I got a pretty good pay. I was taking a liking into it, it was mostly what I had done in the last weeks.

Today was February 6th, we were finally meeting the people from Warner Bros, Mary got the boys an appointment to talk about the CD and the people in WB were interested in sign them into a contract.

“Well, guys we heard the material and we play it over and over again, and I personally couldn’t be more thrilled about it” the guy that went by the name of Larry spoke “This is some serious material, we like it very much” he smiled and I could feel Jimmy’s hand tightening his hold on mine, making me giggle, Jimmy nervous was really something.

“We wanna offer you guys a contract for 2 CD’s and then will see how it goes from there” he spoke “We are talking about tours, recording, sponsors, merch, websites and of course my personal management”

Wait…

“Gaby’s our manager” Jimmy spoke rather quickly

“Yes, I’m well aware of that, but this talking about something bigger, you’re dealing with big sharks and you need someone from inside the Warner’s family” he spoke “Nothing against you, Gaby. You did an amazing job taking the boys till they are now” he smiled and I nodded

“I’m—It’s okay, I don’t mind” I answered

“Gaby—”

“No, Jimmy” I said “Guys, this your dream, take it, I’ve had help enough and now it’s time for let you guys go, I’m sure you’ll be fine in the real world” I scowled

They laughed “Yes, they’re in good hands” Larry spoke

“So, getting into subject have you guys thought of new material?”

***

“Are you sure, you are okay, with Larry being our manager?”

“I’m fine. He’s great, actually I might leave you for him” I smirked and he snorted

“Fuck it! I’m the drummer, you have a t-shirt that says ‘I prefer the drummer’” he smirked, pecking my lips and I laced our finger together

“Yes, I do” I smiled

“For you guys and your new adventure!” I said

“Oh, now you remembered we are here” Brian rolled his eyes and I pinched his cheek

“Oh, are you jealous cause Mary was busy?”

Holy shit! Brian blushed! “I’m not”

“Dude, you’re so whipped” Matt added

“No, I’m not!”

“Yes, you’re!” I fought back

“Oh, god! Brian whipped” I pretended tears “Never thought this day could ever arrive”

Brian flipped me and we all bursted in laughs

I have to admit, I wasn’t entirely happy with no longer being their manager, but I wasn’t totally bummed, I kind of have something else in mind and I haven’t mentioned to Jimmy…. I fear for his reaction

“Hey” Jimmy called me “Penny for your thoughts?”

“Nothing” I smiled “I’m fine, just thinking”

“Are you sure, you’re okay with the whole management thing?” he said and I nodded

“I’m fine, baby” I kissed him “Forget about it, already”

He smiled at me, kissing my temple and continued his conversation with the rest of the gang

***

“Kayla, I’m not wearing this!!” I shouted from the changing room and I heard her chuckle

“Oh c’mon you big baby. Get out! I wanna see that sexy body!” she replied

“I can’t be sexy, I’m like a koala bear, I just can’t!”

“GET OUT! NOW!” she yelled “OR I AM DRAGGING YOU OUT MYSELF!”

“Fine!” I grumbled

I opened the door and let Kayla look the outfit I was wearing. I looked how her hand clamped her mouth in shock. I knew I couldn’t pull this off, I’m a koala from crying out loud!

“Told you, I’m a koala bear!” I groaned and I was about to get in to change when she stopped me

“Dude, I think I’ve got a lady boner”

“WHAT!” I gasped to then burst in laughs

“You look hot! If you’re a koala bear, you’re a damn sexy one” she wriggled her eyebrows and I scowled at her

“Do you think Jimmy would like this?” I asked, biting my lip. Jimmy’s birthday was tomorrow and I had already all planned out and I was looking for something ‘sexy’ to wear. I wanted all to be perfect, it has been two days since Jimmy and the boys had signed their contract with Warner and I was so happy for them. It was awesome. They truly deserve it. Anyways… I was with Kayla looking for an outfit for Jimmy’s birthday and I found this a black babydoll with some blue ribbons it looked pretty nice, but according to Kayla, nice wasn’t covering it all. I looked and I quote ‘HOT’

“So, this is it?” I asked and she nodded in excitement, making me roll my eyes

“Now, a dress” she stated

“What? You plan on going out in that? Pretty sure, you won’t make it the bottom of the stairs when Jimmy covers you in a sheat” she laughed and I rolled my eyes

“I meant to say, a dress? Can I just wear some jeans and a shirt?” I asked and she shook her head “One, we burned that dress remember?”

Oh, yeah among with all the Dibenedetto related stuff. Whores.

“Fine,” I said “Let’s go shopping for a dress”

After an hour of looking for a dress of my liking and that according to Kayla would provoke Jimmy to rip it off my body we found a black short dress with full sleeves. I was officially ready for tomorrow night.

***

“How do I look?” I asked Matt, I decided to surprise Jimmy, I told Brian to take him down to have some drinks and have fun while I changed. I had all planned out. We used Matt’s house to do the party and we were already ready

“You wow, you look amazing” he said and I smiled, my phone began to buzz and I took it out. A message from Brian

We r on our way there, r u guys ready?

Yes, we r, bring him down

“He’s coming” I told Matt and the rest of the boys. Jimmy’s family was here, among with Papa Gates, Suzy, McKenna, Kayla, and a few friends of us, from Warped.

“Shhhh!” I heard Kay say, “He’s here!”

I was so fucking excited, I couldn’t wait to see what Jimmy would say.

“Man, I’m tired, I wanna go home to cuddle with my girlfriend”

“Dude, c’mon, I’ll just show you the riffs and then you can go to have birthday sex” Brian chuckled

“Fine!” Jimmy replied like a fucking 5-year-old

The door opened and when Brian flicked the switch

“SURPRISE!” Everybody yelled, Jimmy’s face. Priceless.

“Wha-What’s going on?” he slurred, with a grin in his face and I made my way down to where he was

“Happy Birthday, baby” I smirked and he picked me up and my legs wrapped around his waist, while our lips collided

“You are amazing. You know that, right?” he asked and I nodded with a huge smile in my face “You look hot, btw. My present is underneath that, huh?” his smile was so fucking huge, it kinda looked like the joker.

“Maybe, but that you’ll figure it out later” I smiled “Now, you have friends and family to say hello to”

***

I took his hand and he laced our fingers together while I drove him through the party, everyone congratulating him, and well after a while he couldn’t wait any longer, so he took me upstairs while everyone was distracted and he undressed me faster than the light

“A little excited are we?” I asked, when I was left in nothing but the lingerie I had bought a yesterday

“Oh, my fucking god. This is officially the best birthday ever!!” he clapped his hands like a little kid

“You like it?”

He pushed himself to me, so I could feel his erection “What do you think, huh?”

“I think that’s—that’s a yes” I breathed

“You wanna have me inside you?”

“Yes”

“Great, cause I wanna be inside you as well”

He strip down from his clothes, until he was wearing nothing but his boxers. He started to undo my corse, kissing my shoulders until the cloth finally left my body with a small thud in the floor. He took off my lacy panties and I was finally naked under his gaze. He took off his boxers and didn’t wasted any time to get on top of me and penetrate me.

“Oh, fuck!” he gasped, my nails racking his back, his mouth on my collarbone

“Yes, Jimmy! Oh, fuck! Faster!” I shouted “Oh, god!”

“You like that baby? You like my big cock inside you, huh?”

“Y-yes, oh fuck yes!” I yelled “Jimmy!”

“Fuck!” he pounded faster into me, lifting my right leg, over his shoulder, while my left leg wrapped around his waist. “Oh fucking hell, baby you’re fucking tight!”

My mouth hang open, while he continued to fuck me, sweat covering our bodies, “Harder, Jimmy, fuck me harder”

He followed my commands, and he leaned down to peck my lips and took one of my nipples and took it in his mouth, sucking, biting and teasing it. His other hand lowered down until it found my clit and he started to rub faster and faster

“OH, FUCK!!” I yelled when I started to feel my orgasm consume my body

Thank god for loud music

“Fuck!” he cursed right after me, I felt how his load filled my walls.

He stayed inside me for a while, until he finally rolled off me and laid there next to me

“I’m tired” I yawned “Why you always leave me so tired?” I grinned

“Cause I’m amazing. I love you baby”

“Happy Birthday, babe. I love you too”

***

After we got dress, Zacky bursted through the door, saying we need to go down cause we we’re about to have dinner and everyone was ready and hungry

“Why does it smells of sex here—You filthy dogs!” he chuckled “Couldn’t hold any longer, huh, Sullivan?” Zacky teased and Jimmy ignored him, flipping him off

“Go, Zack” I said “We’ll go right now”

We finished getting our clothes ready and we started to descend the stairs down to the dinning room, where effectively everyone was sitting and waiting for us.

We started to eat, laugh, telling joke, anecdotes, talking about some future work and I couldn’t help but to wonder what was I going to do… I had something to do, but I haven’t discussed it with Jimmy, it was one of the reasons why I wasn’t sad because I wasn’t their manager anymore. I knew Larry would do an amazing job, and I had an amazing opportunity, but I don’t think I could take it… Could I?

“I’ll be back, okay?” I whispered in Jimmy’s ear and he nodded and went back to talk to Brian

I walked upstairs into my room and I took a deep breath, why couldn’t I just tell him? Maybe he could understand it? Oh, yes because he is going to understand you want to go across the world to study photography in London. Maybe the reason I haven’t mentioned to him, was because I haven’t even accepted it. Was I going to go?

Shit! But now, that they were with Warner and I was no longer their manager I had a free way, but I was being selfish. I had my life here, my life with Jimmy, our own piece of heaven and I can’t just give that up, can I?

I felt someone, put her hand on my shoulder and when I turned around it was Kayla

“Gabs, what up?” she asked me and I sighed “Did you told him?”

“No, Kay, I didn’t” I said “I don’t think I’m gonna do it”

“What! Gaby, you told me this was something you feel passionate about” she said, and she was right. I’ve grown so close to this, I’ve never thought of what I was going to do when I left school, I never thought of college, cause really nothing was appealing but what happened in Warped, I mean people were paying me for taking photos and when Bert from The Used told me I was really good and that I should go for a scholarship, it was such an awesome compliment, I talked about it with Kayla and she told me that I should send the application, I mean I wasn’t going to lose anything with it, so I sent it… two weeks later, Kayla got in her mail, my letter. My acceptance letter. From London.

I had applied to a photography scholarship and I had sent in here in California, but Cali wasn’t the only place the other one was London. And it turns out London liked my work, funny between the photos I sent was one from Jimmy when he was asleep.

“I know, Kay, but we are talking about the guys, Jimmy here. I can’t just leave him, he just signed with Warner and I can’t make him choose”

“So what are you doing?”

“I’m not going” I sighed sadly “I’m going to turn down the scholarship in London. I’m gonna stay with Jimmy”

“Gaby…”

“I can’t tell him! I can’t even ask him about the matter… I can’t do it, Kay”

“But why!” she whined

“Because it would mean to break up with him and I can’t do it”

“You’re losing one hell of a chance, you know here in the states getting job as a photographer is easy, per say, but they look for trained people and college’s are expensive as shit!” she said

She had a point. This was a full scholarship! But it was for 4 years.

“Gaby” she continued “You’re 18 years, almost 19, you can’t base your decisions into what your relationships. I know, as of matter of fact, that you and Jimmy are perfect for each other. But I also know that if you hold your dream back for him and he never knows, is going to destroy you both”

She was right!

God, I hate when she is right!

“Then you’re saying…”

“Tell him, at least do that. You have to tell him about London”
“I’m not gonna say to him I’m going to London for a schoolarship!” I shouted

“You’re going… to-to Lon-london?”

Oh, shit