Fate Exposed

After Matt had fallen asleep, I got out of bed and sat back in the chair next to it. I came to the conclusion that I would not be getting any sleep tonight.

Hours passed by; slowly yet quickly.

By 9 AM, I had been staring at a wall for over several hours and listening to the monotonous beeping of machines and Matt was still asleep.
I decided to go for a walk, partially for the sake of keeping myself sane.

I left the room and went out into the lobby to find the rest of the guys sitting there.

"How is he?" Zacky asked.

"Good, I guess. He's still sleeping," I answered, "I'm going to go wander around the hospital, if any of you want to join. if I sit for any longer I might go insane,"

"I'll join you," Brian offered.

I smiled in response.

Once we were farther down the hallway Brian asked me, "So we know how Matt is today but how are you?"

"I'm fine I guess. Considering I got about 30 minutes of sleep last night, I'm tired." I explained.

"Well, if you ever need anything, I'm not going anywhere." He told me.

"Thank you, but for now, as long as Matt's alright, I'm alright." I smiled. And I would be alright until Christmas came closer. It was December 7th which is 17 days before Christmas Eve; the anniversary, "how are you?"

"I'm okay, I guess I'm the same as you." He sighed as he scratched the back of his neck, "So where are you going to spend Christmas this year?" He changed the subject.

"Home, I haven't given it much thought to be honest," I shrugged.

"Alone?"

"Most likely."

"Is that how you usually spend Christmas?"

We continued to walk until we came to a cafe within the hospital that had a few chairs. I thought about how I was going to answer this question, "Yeah, usually I go to church on Christmas Eve then Christmas Day is whatever."

A sullen look came over Brian, "Christmas isn't whatever, Christmas is a holiday to rejoice and be joyful!"

"The joy of the holiday left when my parents left 3 years ago."

"No it didn't." Brian protested, "I'm sure they would want you to be happy. You should come here for Christmas" he suggested.

"I would but-" I started.

"But what?" He interrupted.

"I have to be home for Christmas Eve."

"You do?"

I nodded my head, "I always visit their grave and I don't know when my classes get out for Christmas break anyhow"

"Oh" He sighed. He sunk back into his chair.

"I could fly out on Christmas Day I guess, it would be an early flight but I don't mind." I forced a smile, "that is if Matt invites me to spend Christmas with him."

"I don't even think that is a question, Morgan. One of us will be there to pick you up at the airport and you will spend Christmas here. End of story." He decided.

"Okay" I chuckled, "looks like I will be looking up flights to Huntington tonight"

Brian laughed in response.

I liked the fact that I would be doing something for Christmas instead of sitting at home alone. Last Christmas was okay, in a sense. I decided upon staying at our house on the beach and I spent Christmas Day on the beach. Despite the cold it was peaceful. I've always enjoyed going to the beach in the winter. There was never any one there and going to the beach always helped me to clear my mind.

Brian and I went back to the ICU and waited with the rest of the guys.

Matt was eventually released from the hospital a couple of days later. Sadly, he was not released before I had to fly back to Boston. It was unfortunate but so was missing my classes and having to catch up. Matt understood. I hated saying good bye to him, not surprisingly.

By the time I got back to Boston I had thankfully only missed a day of courses. In the beginning of the year I decided not to have any classes on Monday and I am going to be forever grateful for that decision. I was also grateful that all of my professors understood why I had to miss class.

My plane landed on Tuesday December 8th at 5 in the evening. Once I got back to the campus I went to my professors offices and collected the work and notes that I had missed. I stayed up late and into the early morning catching up on my Math and English assignments.

The next day I was overtired, to say the least.

I rolled out of bed around 6 am because of course on Wednesday I had my earliest class which started at 7. I grabbed a pair of black leggings and an old sweatshirt. My appearance reached an all time low today. I felt as though it was acceptable.

The day ended as fast as I got out of bed, which was slow. Slow as hell.

When I arrived back at my dorm room I flopped down onto my bed. Traveling takes everything out of you. It wasn't long before my phone began ringing; it wa Matt.

"Hey," I answered.

"Hey, how are you?"

"Tired. How about yourself?" I asked as I positioned myself so that I was sitting against the wall.

"I've had a headache for most of the day, but it's whatever. What are you doing?"

"Sitting. It was a long day and I'm exhausted, I actually just got out of my last class for the day"

"That's good,"

"What are you doing?"

"Attempting to edit songs and such. I'm not getting a lot accomplished," He laughed slightly.

"I know that feeling. Well I should let you get back to writing, I have some writing to do as well"

"Okay, well I just wanted to call and check up on you. I miss you." He told me

"I should be the one checking up on you" I laughed, "I wasn't the one in a car accident."

He laughed.

"I miss you too, Matt. I suppose I'll be seeing you at Christmas?"

"You will be?" He said in a surprised tone.

"Oh my god, I forgot to tell you, I'm flying out Christmas Day!" I said excitedly.

"That's awesome, Morgan! I can't wait to spend Christmas with you." He said sweetly.

"I love you" I said softly.

"I love you more, talk to you later" Matt replied and hung up the phone.

My plan when I hung up the phone was to start writing an essay for my English class but instead I passed out and didn't wake up until the next morning. Exhaustion is a bitch and when it hits you, it hits you like a train.

Notes

Sorry it's been so long since the last update. I actually have excuses; i was on vacation and my cousin went missing and i have writers block so it's been very hectic lately. :/ and my cousin is still missing so my family is kind of in crisis right now so i do not know when my next update will be. but thank you for reading! Feedback is wanted :)