“Now I think I understand, how this world can overcome a man
Like a friend we saw it through, In the end I gave my life for you
Gave you all I had to give, found a place for me to rest my head
While I may be hard to find, heard there's peace just on the other side
Not that I could or that I would… Let it burn, under my skin
Let it burn…
Left this life to set me free, took a piece of you inside of me
All this hurt can finally fade, promise me you'll never feel afraid
Not that I could or that I would… Let it burn, under my skin
Let it burn…
I hope it’s worth it, out on the highway
I know you’ll find your own way when I’m not with you…
So tell everybody, the ones who walk beside me
I hope you’ll find your own way, when I'm not with you tonight…
I hope it’s worth it what’s left behind me
I know you’ll find your own way when I’m not with you…
So tell everybody, the ones who walk beside me
I know you’ll find your own way, when I’m not with you, tonight.”

I cried, shrugging the letter between my hands, the whole thing seemed like a goodbye letter, even though it was just a song, a song called ‘Death’

I was mad at him, for leaving me. Mad at me, for let him leave me.

I stood up, holding the letter in my hands, cleaning my tears with my forearm and I looked down into the rocks that were waiting for me down.

“Don’t do it, Natalie” Jimmy said “Please…don’t”

I stumbled backwards from the shock.

Did I just hear Jimmy’s voice!?

I looked again at the cliff and I quickly shook my head ‘no’, before I broke down to my knees crying.

What was I doing?

I have been so blinded by my sadness, that I was actually thinking on taking my own life.

How could I have been so selfish, How could I think on leaving my family and my friends?

Jimmy didn’t leave me, he didn’t choose to have an illness, he didn’t choose it, but here I was treating my life, like if it was worthless, like if I didn’t have anything to live for and though my heart felt like that, like I didn’t have anything to live for… I did. I had my family, I had my brother.

I didn’t realize that someone had opened the roof door until I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to find those brown eyes, which were always there for me…

[Brian’s POV]

I was running as fast as I could, I needed to save her, I could never forgive myself if I lose her too. I could not lose my sister and my best friend in less than 2 months. I wasn’t going to.

When I opened the door there she was, on her knees, holding a piece of paper and… crying?
I walked towards her closely and I carefully put my hand on her shoulder, letting her know I was here

“Brian…” she whispered clueless on about how I find her “How—”

“Birds” I cut her off “You told me you wanted to reincarnate into a bird, and when you told me that we were here and besides your metaphors have always been very…well like this” I shrugged.

I leaned down to picked her up, she was really light and once I started to walk with her on my arms she leaned her head against my chest.

“I was thinking on—” she muttered.

“I know” I cut her “You don’t need to say it”

“I want to go home, Brian” she whispered “Can I?”

“That’s where we are going” I nodded.

She needed to know Jimmy was watching over her.

“He sent me to you” I spoke.

“Wha—” she said.

“Jimmy, he sent me to you” I said.

Her tears flowed from her eyes; I thought I had done wrong by bringing him into the conversation. But she didn’t cried, at least not at loud, tears were flowing but she wasn’t saying a word so I carried her downstairs, and while we were descending through the elevator she broke the silence, although I had been thinking she had fallen asleep.

“I wasn’t going to” she said.

“Huh?” I asked

“Jump off the roof” she replied into my chest.

“Then why—” she cut me off

“I was thinking to” she admitted “Jimmy stopped me”

I looked down at her, shocked.

Did she just say Jimmy stopped her...!?

“I heard his voice, he was there Bri. I know” she muttered and I simply nodded.

I wasn’t going to tell her she was wrong, after all, Jimmy came to me in dreams and warned me about this.

When we reached the lobby, I called a nurse and told her that I was taking her home. I thank her for the help and she gave me all her belongings. I called the guys and told them she was going home with me.

“Natalie?” I called her when we were outside the house

She groaned, shifting in the seat. I knew she was tired, and I wasn’t going to wake her, I carried her in arms into the house and into my room so she could sleep. It was a mistake putting her there and I knew it was wrong and now I was going to make it right…

[End Brian’s POV]

I was sitting on the examination table waiting for the doctor with some results, Brian was lying in the couch with some magazine in hand, he had brought me here after I told him and I quote…
“I just vomited, for the third time this week”

After that he didn’t think it twice. He was all big brother on me and wanted to take care of me. Since the roof thing two weeks ago, everything was slowly getting back to normal and I was beginning to act like a normal person again…
“Hello Mrs.…” he trailed off, looking at, what I supposed was my file.

“Haner” Brian said standing up from the couch and taking a seat next to me.

I rolled my eyes at him.

“Well we have the results of your tests” the doctor, a white haired man, spoke “And everything’s seems fine”

“But what about her morning sickness, doc?” Brian asked.

“That’s normal in the first trimester” he said.

“WHAT!?” Brian and I yelled

“You didn’t know you are pregnant?” he asked clueless.

My face, eyes wide open, mouth in a straight line, I had a poker face.

“Does my face and yelling looks like I knew?” I asked sarcastically.

“Well yeah, you have a few weeks, maybe a month” he said “I’ll get you an OB, so they can do you an ultrasound”

I didn’t spoke. I was petrified, I was pregnant!? With Jimmy’s baby!?

“Thank you, doctor” Brian said

“Congratulations, Messrs.’ Haner” he said

“EW” I said “He is my brother”

“Oh, I’m sorry, my mistake” he said and took off

Brian chuckled after he was gone

“Bri…” I said getting his attention “I’m… I’m pregnant” I smiled as much as I could

“Another Jimmy” he chuckled “Heaven help us”

“Hey!” I protested

…………………………………………………………… ……………………………………………………………

I got off the car and walked towards the spot I used to come every now and then. My little baby in arms as I walked towards his father’s grave.

“Jimmy” I greeted “I miss you so freaking much baby, and even though I’m in pain in places I never been before” I closed my eyes, taking a deep breath “Your baby boy wanted to meet you”

“He is just like you” Brian spoke resting his arm around my shoulders “Crazy as hell, I can tell he will be just as his dad” his voice broke at the end

“Are you crying?” I asked with a raised eyebrow at him

“No, I’m not!” he said retrieving his arm and looking another way, sobbing.

Yeah, he wasn’t crying…

You see, since we find out I was pregnant, Brian was acting all tough, cause my hormons were fucking with me, I missed Jimmy and I was really, really BIPOLAR. But I knew Brian missed Jimmy, so much, just as I did. They were best friend's just as long as we were. But he didn't wanted to show, so watching him, vulnerable as this, was really touching.

I looked towards the grave and with my baby boy with blue eyes and almost black hair, in arms I said smiling

“Jimmy, say hello to Owen Tholomew Sullivan”