I'm Pregnant By A Rockstar. This Is Just Great.
Decisions and Choices
"I want you to move in with me. Is that okay?" I couldn’t think, my mind was going blank. I just couldn’t believe that Matt wanted me to move in with him. I just stared at him. As my brain started working again, I looked down at my hands and closed my eyes. I needed my head to be working right so that I could make a decision. I thought about all the possibilities of living with Matt. I would have him close in case I needed him for anything. I could have a space away from my brother and mother to think about what I want to do for the baby. Then I thought about all of the bad things of living with Matt. I wouldn’t be able to see Sarah as much. Long Beach and Huntington Beach quite a ways away from each other. I would be too far away from my school when I have to go back.
"I-I need time to think." I left the kitchen and walked upstairs to my room. I closed and locked the door. I walked over to my bed and lay down. I closed my eyes and thought about what I should do.
[i]Well, what do you want to do?[/i]
I want to live with Matt. I want the dream I had to come true. But I don’t want to be away from Sarah and Jess.
[i]The dream that you had about Matt can come true still. But it also might not. The future is always changing. I liked the dream. You were really happy. I think that you should move in with Matt. I’m sure he hopes the same.[/i]
But what if he's not thinking straight and he only thinks he wants me to move in, but he really doesn’t and then he gets pissed at me and kicks me out. That would suck major ass, now wouldn’t it?
[i]Yes. Yes it would. But you need to make a choice. Whether it be to live with Matt or stay living with your and family. But whatever you choose, just remember that you're pregnant so you have the right to be a bitch to everyone. Bye bye.[/i]
I smiled to myself as my conscience said that too me. I know that I had to choose, but I didn’t want to choose the wrong place to live. I turned onto my side and hugged my pillow close to me. I stared at the wall for I don’t know how long. So for something to do, I got up and changed my clothes. I changed into some black sweatpants, a black bra with black lace roses on the top, black loose top, black lace underwear and kept on my Nightmare before Christmas slippers.
I walked back over to my bed and lay down again. I took out my phone and texted Matt to come up to my room. I was hoping that he hadn’t left. If he did then I guess it would be kind of hard for him to come up to my room immediately. A few minutes later I heard a knock on my door. I got up, unlocked the door and opened it. I saw Matt standing there, looking concerned.
"What’s wrong? Are you okay? Is the baby okay?" He asked, walking into my room. He checked my body with his hands and when he seemed content with his result that I was fine, he pulled me into his body and didn’t let go.
"Babe, I haven’t left my room. How could I be hurt?" I asked and looked up at him.
"Accidents could happen." He said and kissed my forehead.
"Well, I’m fine. But I want to talk to you." I pulled out of our embrace, but grabbed his hand and walked over to my bed. I sat down and pulled him with me. I tucked my legs underneath me and looked up at him.
"About what sweetie?"
"Matt, why do you want me to move in with you?"
"Because I want you to be close to me when the baby is born. I want you to live with me because I love you and I want to marry you."
"But what if you get really pissed at me one day or night and you kick me out? Then what would happen?"
"I won’t do that. I love you. Believe me." He cupped my face in his hands and looked into my eyes. I searched his, looking to see if he was lying, but all I found was the truth. I sighed and leaned into his touch.
"I’m sorry. I just have a hard time trusting people." I looked up at him and smiled a weak smile at him.
"It’s okay." He smiled back and pecked my lips with his. "So, does that mean that you're going to move in with me?"
"I need Jess." I got up and walked out of my room. Matt followed me and I walked into Jess's room, knowing that he would be there. He looked up at me and patted the spot next to him on his bed. I walked over and plopped up on the bed. Matt sat down on the end of the bed and looked between me and Jess.
"So, what’s the decision?" Jess wrapped his arms around my shoulders and held me close to him.
I took a deep breath and looked at the both of them. I finally said after a few minutes, "I've decided that I want to live with Matt. But I still want to see my brother and spend time with him." I looked up at my brother and saw the hurt in his eyes that I wasn’t going to be living with him anymore. But he also held happiness because I still wanted to spend time with him. I looked over to Matt and saw that he was happy too. "I also still want to see my friend Sarah and spend time with her too. Is that okay?"
"Of course it s okay. Anything to make you happy." Matt smiled a big smile and I saw those fabulous dimples that I loved and hoped that my baby had. I smiled too and hugged my brother tightly. After a few minutes, I pulled away and hugged Matt tightly.
"So when do you want me to move in?" I asked him.
"As soon as possible." Matt looked at my brother. "If that’s okay with you, Jess?" I looked over to Jess and he didn’t speak for a few minutes. Then he nodded his head.
"Yeah. It’s okay. Just take care of my baby sister. And I want your address so that I know what house to come too when I come to visit Becca." I smiled at my brother and Matt smiled too.
"Of course." Matt said.
"Well, I’m going to go get some clothes and bring the bags to the front door. I’m going to leave some stuff here for when I come to visit. So don’t let anyone stay in my room if you have one of your friends stay over."
"Never on my life." Jess said. I walked out of his room and walked to my own. I heard Matt and Jess head downstairs. I took out three suitcases and filled them up with clothes. Different kinds bras, different kinds underwear, different kinds of shirts, different kinds of pants and shorts. I packed a few pairs of shoes. I brought my pair of black converse, I brought a pair of my boots, and I brought my Nightmare before Christmas slippers and two pairs of Nike gym shoes. I took two suitcases down the stairs, but Matt grabbed them for me and took them out to his car. I walked back upstairs and grabbed the other suitcase, glanced at my room one last time before I left for a while. I smiled at my room and then closed the door.
I walked downstairs and walked out to the car, where Matt and Jess were standing talking. Matt handed Jess a piece of paper and Jess took it. Then he ripped it in half and wrote something on one half of it. He gave it to Matt and when Matt took it, they shook hands. They finally noticed that I was standing there and Matt came over and took the last suitcase. "You should've let me taken these down the stairs for you. You shouldn’t be straining yourself. It’s not good for you."
"I’m fine. Don’t worry about it." I patted him on the back.
"Not going to happen. I’m going to worry about you for as long as I live. And that baby of ours." He leaned down and kissed my lips lightly. I smiled when he pulled away and looked at my brother. I walked over to him and stood a few feet away from him.
"So I guess this is goodbye." Jess shoved his hands into his pockets.
"No. This is see you later." I hugged my brother and he hugged me back. He pulled away after a few minutes and I started walking to the car. When I was about halfway there, I stopped, turned around and ran to my brother. I hugged him super tight and he hugged me super tight back. I started to cry and I could feel his hot tears on through my shirt. I don’t know how long we stood there, but we finally pulled away and I wiped my eyes. Jess wiped his eyes and then looked back at Matt, who was patiently waiting up against the car.
"You should go."
"Okay. I'll call you later." I kissed his cheek and then walked over to Matt. He opened the passenger side door open for me and I climbed into his black Ford Tundra truck. He closed the door and then walked around to the driver's side. I buckled myself in and then waved to Jess. He waved back and waited until we were off our street to go back inside. We hit the highway and I dozed off into dreamland.
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"Rebecca, sweetie time to wake up." I felt a light shaking to my shoulder. I opened my eyes slowly and saw Matt standing with the passenger door open. I unbuckled myself and held my arms out to Matt.
"Please carry me?" I asked and he pulled me out of the car. I cuddled into his chest and he walked into the already open doorway. He set me down in the middle of the foyer. He had a big house. But it was really nice. He took my hand and closed the front door. He led me through the house. He showed me the living room, the kitchen, the upstairs, his bedroom and the guest bedroom that I'd be staying in, if I wanted too. He left me the choice of my own room or sharing a room with him.
"I think I'll share a room with you." I said and smiled.
"Good. I’m glad." He smiled back and wrapped his arms around my waist. "Now that you're officially going to be living here. You got to meet the guys again and their girls."
"Okay. Let's do it."
"I-I need time to think." I left the kitchen and walked upstairs to my room. I closed and locked the door. I walked over to my bed and lay down. I closed my eyes and thought about what I should do.
[i]Well, what do you want to do?[/i]
I want to live with Matt. I want the dream I had to come true. But I don’t want to be away from Sarah and Jess.
[i]The dream that you had about Matt can come true still. But it also might not. The future is always changing. I liked the dream. You were really happy. I think that you should move in with Matt. I’m sure he hopes the same.[/i]
But what if he's not thinking straight and he only thinks he wants me to move in, but he really doesn’t and then he gets pissed at me and kicks me out. That would suck major ass, now wouldn’t it?
[i]Yes. Yes it would. But you need to make a choice. Whether it be to live with Matt or stay living with your and family. But whatever you choose, just remember that you're pregnant so you have the right to be a bitch to everyone. Bye bye.[/i]
I smiled to myself as my conscience said that too me. I know that I had to choose, but I didn’t want to choose the wrong place to live. I turned onto my side and hugged my pillow close to me. I stared at the wall for I don’t know how long. So for something to do, I got up and changed my clothes. I changed into some black sweatpants, a black bra with black lace roses on the top, black loose top, black lace underwear and kept on my Nightmare before Christmas slippers.
I walked back over to my bed and lay down again. I took out my phone and texted Matt to come up to my room. I was hoping that he hadn’t left. If he did then I guess it would be kind of hard for him to come up to my room immediately. A few minutes later I heard a knock on my door. I got up, unlocked the door and opened it. I saw Matt standing there, looking concerned.
"What’s wrong? Are you okay? Is the baby okay?" He asked, walking into my room. He checked my body with his hands and when he seemed content with his result that I was fine, he pulled me into his body and didn’t let go.
"Babe, I haven’t left my room. How could I be hurt?" I asked and looked up at him.
"Accidents could happen." He said and kissed my forehead.
"Well, I’m fine. But I want to talk to you." I pulled out of our embrace, but grabbed his hand and walked over to my bed. I sat down and pulled him with me. I tucked my legs underneath me and looked up at him.
"About what sweetie?"
"Matt, why do you want me to move in with you?"
"Because I want you to be close to me when the baby is born. I want you to live with me because I love you and I want to marry you."
"But what if you get really pissed at me one day or night and you kick me out? Then what would happen?"
"I won’t do that. I love you. Believe me." He cupped my face in his hands and looked into my eyes. I searched his, looking to see if he was lying, but all I found was the truth. I sighed and leaned into his touch.
"I’m sorry. I just have a hard time trusting people." I looked up at him and smiled a weak smile at him.
"It’s okay." He smiled back and pecked my lips with his. "So, does that mean that you're going to move in with me?"
"I need Jess." I got up and walked out of my room. Matt followed me and I walked into Jess's room, knowing that he would be there. He looked up at me and patted the spot next to him on his bed. I walked over and plopped up on the bed. Matt sat down on the end of the bed and looked between me and Jess.
"So, what’s the decision?" Jess wrapped his arms around my shoulders and held me close to him.
I took a deep breath and looked at the both of them. I finally said after a few minutes, "I've decided that I want to live with Matt. But I still want to see my brother and spend time with him." I looked up at my brother and saw the hurt in his eyes that I wasn’t going to be living with him anymore. But he also held happiness because I still wanted to spend time with him. I looked over to Matt and saw that he was happy too. "I also still want to see my friend Sarah and spend time with her too. Is that okay?"
"Of course it s okay. Anything to make you happy." Matt smiled a big smile and I saw those fabulous dimples that I loved and hoped that my baby had. I smiled too and hugged my brother tightly. After a few minutes, I pulled away and hugged Matt tightly.
"So when do you want me to move in?" I asked him.
"As soon as possible." Matt looked at my brother. "If that’s okay with you, Jess?" I looked over to Jess and he didn’t speak for a few minutes. Then he nodded his head.
"Yeah. It’s okay. Just take care of my baby sister. And I want your address so that I know what house to come too when I come to visit Becca." I smiled at my brother and Matt smiled too.
"Of course." Matt said.
"Well, I’m going to go get some clothes and bring the bags to the front door. I’m going to leave some stuff here for when I come to visit. So don’t let anyone stay in my room if you have one of your friends stay over."
"Never on my life." Jess said. I walked out of his room and walked to my own. I heard Matt and Jess head downstairs. I took out three suitcases and filled them up with clothes. Different kinds bras, different kinds underwear, different kinds of shirts, different kinds of pants and shorts. I packed a few pairs of shoes. I brought my pair of black converse, I brought a pair of my boots, and I brought my Nightmare before Christmas slippers and two pairs of Nike gym shoes. I took two suitcases down the stairs, but Matt grabbed them for me and took them out to his car. I walked back upstairs and grabbed the other suitcase, glanced at my room one last time before I left for a while. I smiled at my room and then closed the door.
I walked downstairs and walked out to the car, where Matt and Jess were standing talking. Matt handed Jess a piece of paper and Jess took it. Then he ripped it in half and wrote something on one half of it. He gave it to Matt and when Matt took it, they shook hands. They finally noticed that I was standing there and Matt came over and took the last suitcase. "You should've let me taken these down the stairs for you. You shouldn’t be straining yourself. It’s not good for you."
"I’m fine. Don’t worry about it." I patted him on the back.
"Not going to happen. I’m going to worry about you for as long as I live. And that baby of ours." He leaned down and kissed my lips lightly. I smiled when he pulled away and looked at my brother. I walked over to him and stood a few feet away from him.
"So I guess this is goodbye." Jess shoved his hands into his pockets.
"No. This is see you later." I hugged my brother and he hugged me back. He pulled away after a few minutes and I started walking to the car. When I was about halfway there, I stopped, turned around and ran to my brother. I hugged him super tight and he hugged me super tight back. I started to cry and I could feel his hot tears on through my shirt. I don’t know how long we stood there, but we finally pulled away and I wiped my eyes. Jess wiped his eyes and then looked back at Matt, who was patiently waiting up against the car.
"You should go."
"Okay. I'll call you later." I kissed his cheek and then walked over to Matt. He opened the passenger side door open for me and I climbed into his black Ford Tundra truck. He closed the door and then walked around to the driver's side. I buckled myself in and then waved to Jess. He waved back and waited until we were off our street to go back inside. We hit the highway and I dozed off into dreamland.
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"Rebecca, sweetie time to wake up." I felt a light shaking to my shoulder. I opened my eyes slowly and saw Matt standing with the passenger door open. I unbuckled myself and held my arms out to Matt.
"Please carry me?" I asked and he pulled me out of the car. I cuddled into his chest and he walked into the already open doorway. He set me down in the middle of the foyer. He had a big house. But it was really nice. He took my hand and closed the front door. He led me through the house. He showed me the living room, the kitchen, the upstairs, his bedroom and the guest bedroom that I'd be staying in, if I wanted too. He left me the choice of my own room or sharing a room with him.
"I think I'll share a room with you." I said and smiled.
"Good. I’m glad." He smiled back and wrapped his arms around my waist. "Now that you're officially going to be living here. You got to meet the guys again and their girls."
"Okay. Let's do it."
Notes
Another chapter.Sorry it took so long to get out.
I just got my laptop back.
So Im gonna be updating more.
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