What You See Is What You Get
Are We Moving Too Fast, Going Too Slow?
“Mom isn’t it great! Summer! Summer! Sum-“ I threw my hand over his mouth and laughed.
“Listen monkey brains I want to talk to you about something.” I said trying to calm him down.
“Is it about the gang?” I blinked in surprise at my 10 year-old son.
“The... never mind. Listen, I was able to get some time off work and your Uncle Brian invited us to go on a tour with them, you want to go on the road for a few weeks?” Val and Colleen (with aid from this new Beth girl who was SERIOUSLY growing on me) convinced me that the boys would be SUPER tamed while we were on tour if we came that was. No “party” drinking or smoking around Jake and there was an understanding that no one told Jake about the Zacky situation.
“REALLY!” He yelled pouncing on me and tackling my neck.
“I take that as a yes. Okay well since you’re out of school... let’s start packing cause we leave tomorrow morning!” I shouted as he started jumping. I snuck out in the hall and grabbed the cordless phone from my room.
”Hello? I bit my lip... I had called Brian’s phone but Zacky had picked up.
“Oh hey Zacky... um, is Brian there?” I asked a little nervous and hoping he wouldn’t bring up the kiss I had been avoiding.
“Yeah he’s in the shower though... um Savanna we should get together and talk.” I think God hates me...
“Sure Zacky, just tell Brian that Jake and I are coming on tour with you guys for a while.” I finished waiting for him to start the incredibly awkward conversation...
“Really? That’s great Sav! I love Jake...” His voice faded and I knew we had hit a cord. I mean it was a great thing he loved Jake... Jake was half him!
“Yeah... well um what did you want to talk about Zacky.” Yeah I was going to make him say it since he brought it up.
“You’re going to make me say it aren’t you Savanna?” I sat on the floor smirking smugly at my socks.
“Say what exactly Zacky?” I stood and began walking downstairs.
”Fine, for once in all the time we’ve known each other I’ll be the mature one. Savanna Parker I really liked kissing you that night.” I was preparing for a victory dance when I heard a click,
“Zacky?” I said automatically.
”Zacky? You kissed my Mom! GROSS!” My eyes widened and I ran into the kitchen and saw Jake on the phone.
“JAKE!” I yelled. His eyes went big and he dropped the phone running.
“Zacky I’ll call you right back!” I said before throwing the phone on the couch and began chasing my son.
“AH!” He screamed as I chased him.
“GET BACK HERE JAKE!” I yelled finally catching him by slinging my arms around his tiny waist right before he ran into his room.
“Mom! Let go!” He grumbled pulling at my hands.
“Why did you do that?” I asked panting.
“Why not?” He asked smugly.
“Because Jacob. You know not to listen in on other’s conversations!” I hissed.
“But you looked so happy... I wanted to know why.” He said lowering his voice and head and sighed.
“Oh... oh Jake don’t get upset I’m sorry buddy.” I pulled him close in a hug and we sat on his bed.
“Mom?” He said after a few minutes of silence.
“Yeah Bud?” I asked yawning.
“Do I have a Dad? Everything other person in my class did... why don’t I?” I smiling and ran my fingers through his hair.
“Yeah Jake, you do have a Dad. He’s just busy... you have a big family who loves you though.” I promised him.
“Who is he?” He asked bluntly.
“Uh, Jake-“ I heard my cell phone start ringing loudly and made a ‘wait’ motion.
“Hello?” I asked reaching over Jake’s head.
”Savanna it’s been like twenty minutes.” Zacky laughed.
“Right. Um, well I was bonding I guess, with Jake... we’re talking about family members.” I stressed into the phone.
”Really? That’s cool, tell him I say hi.” I leaned away from the phone.
“Zacky says hi.” I told Jake who frowned.
“Tell him to not kiss you.” I let out a giggle.
“Well Zacky-“
”I heard him... look we still need to talk so-“
“How about we continue that conversation tomorrow on the bus okay?”
After an agreement for Zacky and I to talk it out tomorrow I got Jake packed and in bed. After getting myself packed I flopped on my bed silently dozing into sleep around 3:00 AM.
Buss picks us up at 7:20 AM...
“Listen monkey brains I want to talk to you about something.” I said trying to calm him down.
“Is it about the gang?” I blinked in surprise at my 10 year-old son.
“The... never mind. Listen, I was able to get some time off work and your Uncle Brian invited us to go on a tour with them, you want to go on the road for a few weeks?” Val and Colleen (with aid from this new Beth girl who was SERIOUSLY growing on me) convinced me that the boys would be SUPER tamed while we were on tour if we came that was. No “party” drinking or smoking around Jake and there was an understanding that no one told Jake about the Zacky situation.
“REALLY!” He yelled pouncing on me and tackling my neck.
“I take that as a yes. Okay well since you’re out of school... let’s start packing cause we leave tomorrow morning!” I shouted as he started jumping. I snuck out in the hall and grabbed the cordless phone from my room.
”Hello? I bit my lip... I had called Brian’s phone but Zacky had picked up.
“Oh hey Zacky... um, is Brian there?” I asked a little nervous and hoping he wouldn’t bring up the kiss I had been avoiding.
“Yeah he’s in the shower though... um Savanna we should get together and talk.” I think God hates me...
“Sure Zacky, just tell Brian that Jake and I are coming on tour with you guys for a while.” I finished waiting for him to start the incredibly awkward conversation...
“Really? That’s great Sav! I love Jake...” His voice faded and I knew we had hit a cord. I mean it was a great thing he loved Jake... Jake was half him!
“Yeah... well um what did you want to talk about Zacky.” Yeah I was going to make him say it since he brought it up.
“You’re going to make me say it aren’t you Savanna?” I sat on the floor smirking smugly at my socks.
“Say what exactly Zacky?” I stood and began walking downstairs.
”Fine, for once in all the time we’ve known each other I’ll be the mature one. Savanna Parker I really liked kissing you that night.” I was preparing for a victory dance when I heard a click,
“Zacky?” I said automatically.
”Zacky? You kissed my Mom! GROSS!” My eyes widened and I ran into the kitchen and saw Jake on the phone.
“JAKE!” I yelled. His eyes went big and he dropped the phone running.
“Zacky I’ll call you right back!” I said before throwing the phone on the couch and began chasing my son.
“AH!” He screamed as I chased him.
“GET BACK HERE JAKE!” I yelled finally catching him by slinging my arms around his tiny waist right before he ran into his room.
“Mom! Let go!” He grumbled pulling at my hands.
“Why did you do that?” I asked panting.
“Why not?” He asked smugly.
“Because Jacob. You know not to listen in on other’s conversations!” I hissed.
“But you looked so happy... I wanted to know why.” He said lowering his voice and head and sighed.
“Oh... oh Jake don’t get upset I’m sorry buddy.” I pulled him close in a hug and we sat on his bed.
“Mom?” He said after a few minutes of silence.
“Yeah Bud?” I asked yawning.
“Do I have a Dad? Everything other person in my class did... why don’t I?” I smiling and ran my fingers through his hair.
“Yeah Jake, you do have a Dad. He’s just busy... you have a big family who loves you though.” I promised him.
“Who is he?” He asked bluntly.
“Uh, Jake-“ I heard my cell phone start ringing loudly and made a ‘wait’ motion.
“Hello?” I asked reaching over Jake’s head.
”Savanna it’s been like twenty minutes.” Zacky laughed.
“Right. Um, well I was bonding I guess, with Jake... we’re talking about family members.” I stressed into the phone.
”Really? That’s cool, tell him I say hi.” I leaned away from the phone.
“Zacky says hi.” I told Jake who frowned.
“Tell him to not kiss you.” I let out a giggle.
“Well Zacky-“
”I heard him... look we still need to talk so-“
“How about we continue that conversation tomorrow on the bus okay?”
After an agreement for Zacky and I to talk it out tomorrow I got Jake packed and in bed. After getting myself packed I flopped on my bed silently dozing into sleep around 3:00 AM.
Buss picks us up at 7:20 AM...
3/17/13