The day faded away, we all stayed down at the beach for a while. It was nice just spending time with them, they were all so funny and fun to be around. Considering, I had no one before this I would probably grateful for anyone who talked to me.

Eventually we all went to bed. I slept with Matt as usual. He held me close to him and I fell asleep to the sound of his heartbeat.

I woke up before him, quickly changed before going downstairs. I was debating about whether or not I was going to sit inside or outside today, but then I realized I have to go back to my house in Andover. It's probably a mess. I have to bite the bullet and go back as much as I don't want to because I've never stayed at the beach house in the winter and honestly I miss my own bed.

"Well look who's up!" Matt announced as he walked down the staircase.

"Hey" I half smiled.

"So.." His voice trailed off.

"Soho?" I joked.

"Ruby?" I laughed.

"Ruby soho?" He repeated.

"Destination Unknown: Ruby Soho" I laughed, quoting the lyrics by Rancid.

"Oh you" he shook his head, "so seriously what are we doing today?"

"Going back to my house" I stated quickly.

"What...why?" Matt asked sounding confused.

"I have to go back there sooner or later and besides I want to see how the police and stuff left it" I sighed.

"You don't have to do this" Matt said as he grabbed both of my hands.

"Yes, I do so I might as well get it done now" I said unenthusiasticly, "besides I want to see... If Andrew did anything"

"Okay" Matt whispered.

"W-will you go there with me?" I stuttered. I wanted to go but I couldn't go alone. I was scared just thinking about it.

"I'll be with you every step of the way" Matt reassured me.

"Thanks.." I said shyly as I looked down at my hands.

Matt quickly wrappe his arms around me before placing a loving kiss on my lips.

"I love you" He whispered sweetly.

I sat there while he made himself breakfast. None of the guys had even come down yet, I guess it was still too early.

"So when should we go?" Matt asked as he shoved the last bite of ceral into his mouth.

"When your done, I guess" I bit my bottom lip, something I had always done when I was nervous.

"Well then lets go, who's driving?"

"I will"

We hopped into my car and I drove off towards Andover. My hands were tense on the steering wheel it was making my knuckles turn white. I'm so anxious. Matt must of noticed as he placed a hand on my thigh and gently rubbed it. He didn't say anything, his touch was more comforting than any words could ever be.

I pulled into my long drive way and in front of the unfortunately familiar house. Matt got out first and opened my side of the car for me. I cautiously hopped out, he wrapped his arm around my waste and held me close to him.

I walked up the stairs when suddenly my legs wouldn't let me go any farther. I was telling my self to move but I physically couldn't. I didn't realize how traumatized I was.

"M-Matt, I don't know if I can go any farther" I whispered, concern all over my voice.

"It's okay" he cooed.

I stayed there for a moment, before finally letting myself move forward. I opened the door and stepped inside. Matt stayed close behind me, I could practically feel his warm breath on my neck. The table I had knocked over was still on the ground.

"No" My knees met the floor as I picked up a pieces of the shattered glass. My moms favorite vase was smashed and my dads 30th anniversary of his company plaque was in pieces.

"It's okay" Matt whispered. He bent down next to me and helped me back onto my feet. I grimaced slightly, I didn't realize how much my side still hurt.

I made my way towards the kitchen, everything had been cleaned up. I didn't spend alot of time in there, I could still recall the feeling of the blade slicing into my stomach.

I went down to the basement, slowly walking down the narrow wooden staircase that I fell down countless times. Matt stayed close to me. The box with the various items was emptied all over the floor, the rope and chair that I was tied to was left in the corner, my dads phone was smashed on the floor as well as my moms.

"Looks like the cops didn't make it down here" I sighed.

Matt just stood there, silent.

I walked over to the rope and picked it up and then looked at my wrist. I dropped it quickly as my hand started shaking.

"He didn't…" Matt started to say.

"Yup, he tied me up, numerous times, the last time was to that chair."

"Oh Morgan" He ran over to me and pulled me into his embrace. I sobbed into his shoulder, soaking his shirt. I pulled away and looked into his eyes. He looked utterly heart broken.

I led him upstairs, I wanted to check my room to make sure nothing had happened to it. I raced up the flights of stairs, ignoring the pain coming from all over my body.

I slowly opened the door to my room, which was never closed. Andrew had been in here. Surprsingly nothing was out of place, and nothing was broken. All my drawers were open, the pervert.

I stood there not knowing what to think when Matt snapped me out of my daze, "Is everything okay?"

He placed his hands on my shoulders, and pulled me close to his body.

"What.. yeah.. it's weird, he didn't do anything… I mean besides go through my clothes"

Matt rolled his eyes in disgust at the last detail.

I left the room and quickly ran into my parents room.

"That fucking asshole" I yelled. Matt quickly ran into the room. His mouth formed a perfect 'O' as he stopped in the door way.

The french doors were smashed, pictures were thrown off the wall, curtains were torn, windows were shattered. I just didn't understand why. Why my parents room and not mine. What the fuck was wrong with that boy.

"I'm sorry" Matt whispered.

My body was frozen once again. I'm bewildered.

"I just… I don't get it."

I sat down on the edge of the chair, and rested my face in my hands. I sobbed. Matt quickly knelt down in front of me.

"I know sweetheart, I know"

His arms wrapped around me, he picked me up so that I was now sitting on his lap, crying hysterically into his shoulder.

"I don't think I can do this anymore" I confessed to him.

"Shh, everything will work out."

"How do you know"

"I don't, but I do know i'm not going to let you go through this alone. I'll be with you every step of the way"

"I don't want to go on Matt"

His eyes filled with water.

"What?" He breathed.

I looked deeply into his eyes before pouring out my feelings to him, "I don't want to be here."

"Morgan don't talk like that"

I could see the tears streaming Matt's face. I was trembling, as tears streamed down my face.

"Matt, my life is a mess. What's the point"

He was speechless.

"I'm sorry, i'm sorry you're a part of this, i'm sorry I dragged you into this. You shouldn't have to be going through this." I sobbed.

He looked shocked, his grip tightened around me. His hand cradeled my head and he wrapped his arm tightly around my waste. I buried my face into his chest just wanting to escape it all.

"Shh" Matt said in attempts to console my hysterical crying, "I'm the one who should be sorry, I'm sorry your life is like this. I'm sorry you have a cousin like Andrew. I'm sorry your parents aren't here. I'm more than sorry. I'm sorry I can't do anything more for you. But the one thing I will always do is stay with you. That's a promise. A promise that i'm not going to break. I will always be here for you no matter what. If you can't trust anyone else in the world you can trust me. I love you more than words could ever describe Morgan Jayde"

"So you're not going to walk away from all the drama?" I asked him. It was a question that was eating me up inside. I was afraid that eventually Matt would get so fed up with Andrew that he would leave. I know I would if I could.

"You're like a blessing to me Morgan, you're perfect in every way. I would never walk away from that.. never" He whispered.

I wasn't sure what to say, so I just looked up at him and smiled slightly.

"You really love me that much?" I sighed.

"I love you more than that much… Morgan, if I had one wish do you know what it would be?"

"What?" I mumbled.

"It would be to bring your parents back. I can see how much you miss them, I can see how it tears you apart inside and I would do anything to stop that. Heck, I would give my life to bring them back for you"

"Oh, Matt" I cried harder. That was the sweetest thing anyone had ever said to me. We both sat there in each others arms. I was still crying pretty hard. Matt had a few tears flowing down his face. I was shaking like crazy. I was thankful that all this drama with Andrew was happening while Matt was here to console me, because without him I would surly have been gone by now, either from Andrew killing me… or from me killing myself.