"Brian! Holy shit, way to give someone a heart attack" I yelled in a whisper, being careful not to wake the others.

"Sorry... I didn't expect anyone to be up..." He yelled in a whisper back, "So why are you down here?" He asked as I pulled up a chair across from him.

"Can't sleep" I rolled my eyes.

"Join the party" he laughed.

"Damn awesome party" I said sarcastically.

"Damn fucking right" he laughed.

We both sat there in silence looking around the room not sure of what to say.

"You got any drinks?" Brian suddenly asked.

"Follow me" I said as I got up to go into the basement; our second wine cellar which I had always thought was better than the one at our house.

"Another wine cellar" Brian laughed.

"Yeah, except this one is easily 10 times better" I said as I flipped on the light revealing the rows of bottles stacked on shelves.

Brian walked through one of the rows gazing in awe at all of the different brands and flavore until he picked up the bottle of his choice; Whiskey.

"How's this?" He asked.

"My favorite" I smiled, as he oppened the bottle and poured us both a drink.

"Wanna hear a funny story?" I suggested.

"Why not" He shrugged his shoulder, as he sipped his drink.

"So, I never knew we had a wine cellar until I was 8, and when I found it I never thought much of it... But when I was 12 I someone how became obsessed with alcoholic beverages. I hadn't drinken a drop of it besides on special occasions but I loved it" I laughed, as I took a sip of my drink. "And so one day when my parents were out I came down here and tried almost every drink."

"Did you get drunk" Brian snickered.

"No.. But I passed out and my dad found me down here, right over there actually" I said as I pointed over to the corner. "And I had to go to the hospital... Cause I was so sick" I laughed.

"That's great" Brian laughed.

"I always laugh thinking about it... Besides the fact that my parents were scared outta their minds"

Brian laughed and we both stood there sipping down our drinks. As we finished we walked back up stairs and sat down at the kitchen table in the same seats as before.

"So..." He said.

"Sooo...." I replied back.

"So do you have any friends?" He asked.

Ew... Friends.

"Uhm kind of..." My voice trailed off, "why?"

"Eh I'm lonely, I need a girlfriend... Or someone to hook up with." He smirked.

"That's the whiskey talking" I rolled my eyes.

"Look, I like you... a lot but as long as you're with Matt nothing can happen between us, so I need someone else to daydream about" He blurted out truthfully.

I was screaming on the inside. Not because I couldn't believe he was telling me this and I was dating Matt but because Brian was the one who I had always had a crush on, not Matt... Ever since I started listening to Avenged Sevenfold Brian was the one who I fangirled over the most and.. 'Loved the most'... Well as much as you love someone who you don't know.

"W-what... Wait... You... You like me?" I said taken back a little.

"Yes I do." He said blatantly.

"Wow" I mouthed.

"What? Can't a guy like a girl?" He snapped.

"Brian it's not that" I pleaded.

"Then what is it?"

"I-I like you too..." I regretted that immediatley after I said it.

"Oh shit" Brian blurted out.

"What did we get ourselves into..." I shook my head in dismay as my placed my hand over my face as if I could escape this ever so complicated world.

"You like me?" Brian asked.

"Yes... You see... Before I knew you guys... You were my favorite member of Avenged Sevenfold. I loved you... Well kind of... I mean I didn't really know you" I said shyly, biting my lip at the end.

"Shit shit shit shit shit" Brian said disappointedly, "you like me?"

"Well love... But yes."

"But you're dating Matt"

"I love Matt too"

"Who do you love more?" Brian questioned.

"I... I wanna say Matt but I don't know" I sighed.

"This is bad" Brian huffed.

"So what are we gonna do..." I asked, not expecting to get an answer.

"Nothing. Matt really loves you and I'm not going to be the one to mess that up. Forget we ever had this conversation"

I nodded my head, and added on, "and as far as everything goes... This night never happened"

Brian smiled, "Deal"

"But before we do that... Brian Haner Jr better known as Synyster Gates likes me... Why?" I asked.

He sat there for a moment staring at the ceiling, "because ever since I saw you at our first concert, I fell in love with you... I dreamt about you and you would randomly enter my thoughts." He paused looking at me, I had my eyebrows furrowed because I was concentrating and listening closely. "So anyways when you walked on our tour bus with Matt, I was happy but I was jealous... And I was a little drunk"

I laughed, "I remember... You wern't exactly polite"

"I know" he rolled his eyes, "and I regret that, I could have been the one who found you... I could have been in Matt's place"

I sighed, Brian was very attractive and really nice to talk to. I was torn and it was awful.
"But why do you like me" I emphasized the why.

"Because..." He thought carefully for a second, "because your beautiful, inside and out... You're different in a refreshing way... When I'm around you it makes me realize I want to spend every possibly moment with you. You're perfect, your voice, your eyes, your body, your smile, everything about you"

I listened in awe, Matt had said some nice things to me, but this made my heart melt and then melt again.

"And I also love how you can play guitar and sing" He added quickly

"Brian" I said in shock.

"I know" he sighed looking down at his feet, "I'm regretting this night too."

"You really think those things about me?" I asked, thinking that none of the things he said about me were true. I was far from perfect, perhaps the farthest a human being could be. My body wasnt perfect I saw myself as over weight although I was under weight
and I had self harm scars from attempting suicide scattered all over. My smile was crooked.
My eyes... We blue that's it. My voice was nonetheless a voice. I wasn't perfect.

"Of course" He smiled. He was perfect.

"But I'm not any of those things" I said, noticing a scar on my finger, "I'm not perfect in any way"

"To me you are, but perhaps it's your imperfections that I love the most" He said in a sweet voice. A voice that would make any girl weak at the knees.

"Oh Brian" I said weakly.

The conversation ended there as I excuse myself from the table and walked up to my room. I couldn't hear anymore of what Brian had to say about me. I was in love with him, and I was in love with Matt. I just didn't know who I loved more, or who was better. That sounds shallow but sooner or later I was bound to find out. Deep down part of me hoped it was Brian but I did love Matt, a lot.

As I crawled into bed trying not to wake him, he wrapped his arms around me and whispered groggily in my ear, "where were you"

"Getting a drink of water" I lied. It felt like a stab in the heart lying to him. He buried his face in my neck before placing a row of kissed on my jaw, soon moving to my neck. He kissed my neck and bit it slightly which made me let out a moan. I turned towards him and kissed his lips deeply. I loved Matt. If only you could erase time. I thought to myself as I kissed Matt passionately, sliding my tongue along his bottom lip which made me very satisfied. After a couple minutes the kissing session ended and I fell asleep with my head resting on Matt's strong chest to the sound of his muffled heartbeat