“Please don't touch me.” I whispered, shying away from Zacky's touch.

“Alexia, just tell me what's wrong.” Zacky stepped closer to me, cornering me against the dresser in our bedroom. “You only ever act this way when something is seriously wrong.”

How could I tell him? How could I tell him that I felt like the world was raining down on me? My best friend just found out that she had cancer a week ago, my dog died just a few days before that, my family never talks to me, I'm a total fuck up, and now I found out something about him.

I had to take a deep shuttering breath. I blamed myself for everything that happened between us. Every fight seemed to be my fault. Every moment that we pushed away from each other felt like my fault as well. And now, as I thought about all of this, I knew that I was pushing Zacky away by barely speaking to him and not letting him even touch me.

“Alexia,” Zacky was becoming exasperated and desperate as he spoke to me once again, “please, I'm begging you. Tell me why you are avoiding me. Usually, you attack me when I come home from tour or even from the grocery store.”

I felt clingy too...

I still avoided Zacky's piercing, hazel green eyes. “I'm sorry for seeming so clingy.” I whispered.

“Is this what it's all about?!” He sounded relieved.

Zacky gently slid his fingers under my chin and raised my head so I was forced to look at him. His gorgeous, baby face was full of humor. “Babe, you're like heaven to me. Every time I'm away from you, I feel like I'm being denied the biggest part of my heart. Don't lock me out.”

I felt like crying. That wasn't why I was so upset.

Zacky's face fell as he scrutinized the emotions I was having trouble hiding. “That wasn't why you were upset, was it?”

I slowly shook my head and pulled away from his grasp. The tears began to fall freely now. I tried to hide my face by my hair but Zacky pulled it gently away from my face.

“Baby, tell me.” There was that desperation again that nearly made me crack.

A loud sob escaped me involuntarily. “I failed you.” I choked out.

Zacky circled his tattooed arms around me. I nearly pushed him away. But I didn't.

“Alexia,” He mumbled into my hair, “What are you talking about?”

“I wasn't a good enough girlfriend. I let you slip away. I let you- you-” I couldn't breath.

The sobs began to rack my body and my knees gave out. Zacky slid to the floor with me and just held me.

“Alexia, calm down. I'm not understanding what you're talking about.”

My head snapped up to look at him. “Are you kidding me?!” I scrambled away from him. “You were cheating on me!” Tears still streamed down my face. “Cynthia has cancer and won't talk to me. My dog fucking dies. I suck at everything else in life and then I found out you were cheating on me. Fucking, really?!”

Zacky stared at me, shocked. “I'm not cheating on you.”

“The fuck you are.” I replied bitterly; quieter now.

“Alexia Danielle Henderson. I am not cheating on you. Who told you that I was?!” Zacky looked angry now. “Is this why you haven't been eating? I can tell that you've lost weight. Is it because some fucking prick or bitch told you that I was with another woman? ”

My blaze of emotions started to burn out. The tears stopped streaming form my eyes and I just watched him cautiously. I didn't want to tell him that it was one of the groupies that told me.

“Alexia, I don't want anyone else. I just want you; all of you. You are my-my,” Zacky sighed heavily, “I don't want to say anything wrong.” He ran a hand through his hair. “You are my heaven. Like I said earlier. My heart is set on you. My mind, my everything, is set only on you.”

I started to cry again. Zacky's words were sincere and there was this pleading in his eyes that tugged at my heart. I wanted to believe him but I wasn't sure.

“Are... are [i]you[/i] cheating on me?” The agony in his voice broke my heart.

I shook my head rapidly. “No,” I sobbed, “I love you too much to do that.”

“And I love you too much to even consider anyone else.”

I crawled over to Zacky and wrapped my arms around his neck. I held him to my chest as I rested my head on top of his. His arms circled around my waist and held me tightly. “I wish that you wouldn't lock me out like that.”

“I'll try. I hate doing it to you.” I whispered, pulling away from him, and kissing his lips.

The snakebits felt familiar against my lips and I knew. I knew that kissing another man would feel to foreign to me. Zacky's hands began pulling up my shirt; his knuckles barely brushing my skin. I shivered in delight before helping him undress me. My torso was completely naked when I attacked his mouth again.

I tugged at his shirt, and painstakingly slow, took it off him. My hands ran down his chest to his belt buckle.

Our greedy hands were all over each other once our naked forms were touching on the wooden floor of our bedroom. I straddled Zacky, feeling his stiff member slide against the sensitive skin of my heat. I moaned loudly against his lips, begging for him to be inside of me. But every time I tried to engage in that aspect of passion, Zacky would murmur 'no' and I would be denied of what I wanted most.

He flipped us over so that was was hovering over my naked body. Zacky kissed me along my collarbone down to my breasts. My fingers knotted in his soft hair as his hands roamed roughly over my skin; causing sweet pleasure to make my skin tingle.

“I want you inside me.” I begged.

“Delayed gratification, baby.” He murmured against my stomach.

I began to get frustrated, but lust and love quickly overfilled me. My heart swelled for this man as he touched me. I knew that I would never be able to let him go. I loved him.

“I love you.” I mumbled through a moan as his fingers pressed against my heat.

His lips met mine to capture another moan. “I love you, too.” He mumbled against my mouth.

I nearly caved into bliss but Zacky refused me that as well. I began to protest when he suddenly slammed into me. I screamed out his name as he pounded in and out of me. My nails scraped against his back as I pulled him closer to me.

My back stuck painfully to the floor as we began a tangle of legs and passion, but it only added to my pleasure.

I could feel myself climbing higher and higher.

“Come to me, baby.” Zacky growled against my lips.

Him saying that finally pushed me to the edge. I was soaring; trembling.

Only seconds after I tightened around Zacky, he captured my lips as he released inside of me.

We lay there, holding each other, as our breathing calmed.

“I feel like I just stormed the gates of Heaven.” Zacky whispered.

I laughed breathlessly. “That's not usually what people say.”

“I don't care.” I could practically feel him smile from where I rested my head on his tattooed. “I really do love you and I never want you to forget that...” He whispered.

I began to tear up again. “I love you too.

Notes

http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=63168995 <-- Alexia's outfit :)

I'm tempted to make this into a story...