Just Because You're Dead, Doesn't Mean I Can't Love You

When I saw that he was gone I went and got the box and took it back to my room. I opened the box and started moving the pictures when I heard the doorbell. I closed the box and dropped down stairs and started walking to the door. “What are you doing?“ I turned to see Brian right behind me. “Going to.” That’s when I remembered. “Oh yea my bad you can get it.” I told him as I turned around and walked to the kitchen to see one pancake left. “Wow you boys really can eat.” “And you know this.” Matt said taking another bite of bacon.


“Look, just get out of my house!”


“No you still love me!”


“Oh god, not Michel.” Johnny mumbled. “How did she even find out where he lives?” Zacky asked “Simple. “Jimmy said. “She’s a crazy bitch.” I rolled my eyes and said, “You say crazy bitch like it’s a bad thing.” Jimmy turned and looked at me then said “When it comes to her it is.”


I laughed then noticed that I didn’t hear talking and the door never closed. So I walked over to see what happened and I saw Brian and Michel making out. I was stunned and felt tears well up in my eyes. “You shouldn’t suck face like that your lips might fall off.” All three of us turned around to see Johnny standing behind me. “JOHNNY!” Michel screamed as she ran past Brian, through me and hugged Johnny. He awkwardly patted her on the back. Michel turned back walking through me and wrapped one arm around Brains hips.


“So are you going to show me around?” he looked at her like she was crazy and removed her arm. ”No now leave.” He said pointing out the door.

“But baby *kiss* you know *kiss* you want to.” She keeps kissing his cheek slowly marking her way over to his lips. When he didn’t push her away I rolled my eyes and said “Fuck this shit.” And floated up stairs and walked to my room. I went straight to the farthest wall and punched it leaving a large dent.


“Asking if you’re ok would be stooped wooden it?” I heard Johnny asked “Yea it would.“ I said as I closed my eyes and sat down on the bed. I felt tears began to fall and the weight shifted and he put his hand on my back. I looked at him right when he said “You like Br- HOLY SHIT!” he screamed as he jumped off the bed and fell on the floor.


I leaned over the edge and looked at him “What happened?” “Your http://rivellis.deviantart.com/art/Look-Into-My-Eyes-105146320 eyes are red and your tears are black. And not the ‘I have been crying red and make up is black’ there like blood red and the tears are too dark for it to be makeup.” I ran to the bath room and looked in the mirrors and sure enough they were crimson red and my tears were midnight black.


“How do you do that?” Johnny asked standing in the door way.


“I’m not doing anything I have no clue how this happened.”


“You have no clue how what happened?” both me and Johnny screamed at the sudden comment.


“Crap Syn you scared the shit out of me.” Johnny said as he turned around to look at him. I looked down at the sink so that he couldn’t see my eyes.


“What are you guys talking about?” Brian asked.


“Nothing.” Johnny told him.


“She said that she had no clue how something happened so what were you guys talking about?”


“It’s none of your fucking business.” I mumbled before dropping through the floor and walking to the living room where the guys were sitting. I sat down next to Jimmy and put my head on his shoulder. “What’s wrong?” he asked. I looked up at him and his eyes got wide. I put my head back on his shoulder just as Johnny and dick face I mean Brian…..nope I mean dick face walked in the room. I closed my eyes and nuzzled my head in to Jimmy’s neck.


I felt some one sit next to me and put their hand on my shoulder. I hope that it’s Johnny . “Are you ok?” great it’s Brian. I shook his hand off my shoulder and nuzzled closer to Jimmy.


“Are you alright?” Jimmy asks low enough for only me to hear.


“I want to leave.” I told him.


“You want to come with me?” he asked.


“Can Johnny come?” I asked.


“Sure.”


“Ok, let’s go.” He pulled out his phone and started texting. A couple of seconds later Johnny pulled out his phone and looked at it for a couple of seconds then nodded.


“Hey guy’s I’m going home see you later.” He said as he stood up. ”Yea I’m going to get out of here too.” Johnny said. The guys mumbled see you later dudes. Jimmy looked down at me and I stood up and started walking to the door with them. When we got to the door I floated up stairs grabbed my box and floated back down.


Jimmy asked “Are you going to tell Brian that you’re leaving?” I shook my head and handed him the box and grabbed the boys hands then walked through the door.


When we got to the cars Johnny walked over to his and said “I’ll be right behind you.” Jimmy nodded and we got in. Jimmy then turned asked “What’s really wrong?” “I just wanted to get out of there.” He nodded and started the car. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

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