Fiction

I woke up the next morning with my face under the blankets, I was so cold and I really didn't want to get out of bed. I really didn't want to go to school, the only reason I didn't decide ditch again was to see my friends, I hadn't seen most of them since the party, plus I probably had a shit load of makeup work to do, all my teachers already hate me. I laid there for 10 minutes before getting up; trying the blue light coming from my window told me I had to.

I looked at my clock, it was 6 am, I was glad I woke up a little earlier than usual, more time to get ready. I got out of bed clumsily, walking over to my closet and picking out some clothes, I changed into my Pantera long sleeved shirt with some black skinny jeans, and my black chucks. I walked into my bathroom after I changed, looking at myself in the mirror, I looked like crap without makeup on, and I still had bed head. I applied my makeup generously, trying to make myself look at least kind of pretty; I had on black smoky eye shadow with bronzer and nude lipstick. My face looked okay enough to leave the house. I put on my glasses as I brushed through my hair quickly, I let my bangs fall on my face, it was actually starting to grow out a bit.

After getting ready, grabbed my bag and my phone, heading downstairs. I left the house as quickly as possible; I wasn't hungry so I didn't need to eat breakfast. I checked my phone as I started walking towards school; there were 2 texts from Jimmy, 1 from last night, 1 from this morning:
Jimmy: goodnight shortcake 11:11pm
Jimmy: Did you want me to give you a ride to hell? 6:45am
I texted him back:
Shauni: Lol no it's okay, I already started walking :3 thanks tho

I put my phone back in my pocket as I walked, I needed some time to think about things anyway. I listened to the leaves crunch under my shoes as I walked, savoring the breeze against my face, my thoughts couldn't help but drift to him. I wasn't sure if me and Jimmy were a thing or not, I liked him and I was mostly sure he liked me, but I didn't know if he wanted a relationship or not, or if I did. Every relationship I've ever witnessed has always gone wrong, what makes us so different? Maybe Vicky was right, maybe this was a bad idea, I was so confused I just decided to not think about it anymore.

I arrived at school at around 7:05am, I only had like 15 minutes to talk to my friends before 1st period started, which sucked. I went to the place we usually meet before class, it was at one of the outside tables by the vending machines, I walked up to the table looking at everyone there, Alex, Rebecca, Stefanie were the only ones at the table.
"Hey guys." I greeted, sitting next to Alex and Rebecca.
"Hey where were you yesterday?" Rebecca asked.
"Oh I had a bit of a cold." I lied.
"You say that like every time you miss school, there's no way you can get a cold every other week." Alex rolled her eyes at me.
"Weak immune system." I lied, fake coughing. "Anyway, so Alex, what's the deal with you and Zack?" I half whispered, she blushed instantly.
"Nothing, shhh." She shushed me, not wanting people to hear.
"Who's Zack?" Stefanie asked, her and Rebecca looked confused.
"He's a junior; he was at my party remember? The guy with the snake bites." I said.
"Oh yeah, he's cute, you should go for it Alex." Rebecca said casually, as Stefanie nodded in agreement.
"I don't even know if he likes me! Holy fuck." She sighed, blushing.
"Okay but, I know from an exclusive inside source that he's probably gonna ask you out soon." I said vaguely.
"You told Jimmy?!" She half shrieked. Just as she was about to get mad at me, the bell rang.
"Saved by the bell." I smirked at her as I started walking to 1st period.

Most of 1st period was stupid, math is definitely not my thing, I fell asleep half way through, my teachers never really yell at me because they're used to it. 2nd period was just as boring, it was Geography, I basically zoned out through most of the lesson, I did most of the work sheet though, or what I could get done with all the loud teenagers, I've never really talked much, people usually think I'm weird because of it.

3rd period was Gym, which was undoubtedly the most embarrassing time of the day, I changed into my gym clothes in one of the stalls, I really didn't want anyone to see me undress. I stuffed my clothes into my locker and checked how I looked in the mirror, I looked like a twelve year old in the oversized gym clothes, I cursed the stupid clothes as I joined the rest of the girls as we left the locker room. I had gym with Rebecca and Lisa, who I greeted as we left the locker room.

I walked into the freezing gymnasium, standing next to Rebecca as the coach took roll.
"So did you start dating that guy yet?" She asked me.
"What guy?" I played dumb.
"That guy you're always with, Jimmy right?" Rebecca asked, she didn't know him that well.
"Oh, well I don't know, we like each other, but I don't know if he wants to date me." I sighed. We walked with Lisa over the bleachers when roll was finished, we didn't have to run today for some reason. I looked around the gym as I sat down, the jock guys were playing basketball, and the preppy girls were sitting around talking, as some braided each other’s hair. I glanced over to Johnny; I never really noticed that I had this class with him, probably because he never showed up. I brought my attention back to our group, Rebecca and Lisa were talking about some guy.
"Okay so he is so cute but he has a girlfriend which sucks, but he is such a good singer." Rebecca spoke, I had just started listening.
"Who are you talking about?" I asked quietly.
"Matt." She stated.
"Matt Sanders?" I asked.
"Yeah, his band is so awesome." She answered.
"Oh Jimmy's in that band, he plays the drums." I chimed.
"Really?" Lisa asked in disbelief.
"Yeah, him and Johnny." I pointed in his direction.
"Oh, the only guy I know is Matt." Rebecca said. "I used to have such a huge crush on him." She laughed
"I think everyone did." Lisa giggled.
"Well except Shauni," Rebecca said to Lisa. "She’s got a thing for drummers." She nudged me with her shoulder, smirking as I giggled, I couldn't help but blush.

4th period was English. I sat at my desk listening to the lesson, trying to look as interested as possible when Ms. Rodriguez looked at me, which I was kind of interested, but I just look tired and uninterested all the time. She handed some vocabulary definitions for us to memorize, most of the class worked in groups but I decided not to because I didn't really know anybody in that class. I was working quietly for 10 minutes until I felt a tap on my shoulder. It was the girl who sat behind me, her name was Alyssa, we were on good terms, she was really nice even though we weren't exactly friends. I turned around and met her gaze with a questioning look.
"Aren't dating that junior who drums for that band?" She asked me.
"Um who told you that?" I asked, she just shrugged at me.
"So are you?" She smiled.
"Um I don't even know yet..." I trailed off.
"You guys should make it official." She chimed.
"Why do you care?" I questioned, she's never really shown interest in me before.
"It's just weird ya know, he's so loud and popular and no offense but you don't really talk much." She admitted.
"It's okay, I get it, I do kinda keep to myself." I sighed.
"But you guys are really cute together." She grinned as she turned her head back to her group. I turned back around, my gaze shifting back to my work.
"That was weird." I thought as I zoned back into mindless working.

I walked out of fourth period, thinking about what Alyssa had said, and who could've told people me and Jimmy were dating. It was probably one of the guys, after Jimmy had kissed me in front of them; they probably told their girlfriends who told half of the school. I got lunch before sitting down, it was some kind of inedible meat slop with mashed potatoes. I made a disgusted face at my food as I left the lunch line, walking towards my lunch table. I decided to sit with Alex today, I figured Jimmy wouldn't mind. I walked over and noticed that Zacky was sitting next to her, I had to keep myself from squealing when I saw them laughing together, I'm definitely shipping them. Stefanie and our friend Kelly were sitting there too, but they were in their own conversation.
"Oh hey Zacky." I greeted, smiling as I sat down next to Kelly.
"Hey Shauni, what's up?" He asked casually.
"Nothing just trying to figure out if this slop is edible." I eyed my food as he chuckled.
"Oh, Shauni I think Jimmy was looking for you." Zack told me, glancing over at Jimmy's table. I looked over to him, he was talking to Matt until he met my gaze, he grinned at me and I just looked at the ground, smiling shyly as I felt a blush creep up my face.
"Who's Jimmy?" Kelly asked me, pushing her blonde hair away from her face. I wasn't that close friends with Kelly but I was one of the only people that didn't annoy her.
"My best friend." I stated, a smile creeping up my face.
"I thought I was your best friend." Alex frowned.
"You can have more than one best friend." I pointed out; she just stuck her tongue out at me. I got up and threw my food away, the cafeteria food was way too disgusting to even try to eat, I sat back down and noticed Alex scooting closer to Zack.
"So what did Jimmy want?" I asked Zack, who was fidgeting with his septum piercing.
"I don't know, he was just asking about you." He said.
“I’ll talk to him after 7th.” I stated. I glanced over to one of the tables by ours, one of the girls at the table was glaring at me, and she looked absolutely pissed. Her expression didn’t fit her face, she had soft features, and she was really pretty, with brown hair and light brown eyes.
“Dude this girl is giving me a death stare.” I stammered.
“Who?” Alex asked, trying to see where I who I was looking at.
“Her.” I stated, nodding in the girl’s direction when I saw that she looked away from me. Zacky and Alex both looked in her direction.
“Lilly? The girl with the brown hair?” Zacky asked.
“Yeah, why?” I asked him.
“She’s Jimmy’s ex-girlfriend.” He responded. I felt my heart sink; the possibility of Jimmy having an ex that probably hates me hadn’t crossed my mind.
“Oh.” I murmured. “She’s beautiful” I said under my breath.
“She has the right to hate me, she’s like a 10 and I’m like a 4, she’s probably wondering what the fuck Jimmy saw in me.” I thought to myself. The bell rang, bringing me away from my thoughts and signaling that lunch was over. I glanced over at Lilly before getting up from my lunch table, I tried to walk away before anyone could stop me and realize I was upset. But to no avail, shortly after I left the table I felt someone’s arms around me, hugging me from behind. I turned around to see Jimmy’s smiling face, I couldn’t help but grin at him.
“Hey, Zack said you wanted to talk to me?” I inquired as people walked by, going to their 5th period classes.
“Yeah, meet me after last bell.” He smirked, I blushed as he kissed me on the cheek. “Bye, I gotta get to class or I’ll get fucking detention.” He ranted.
“Bye.” I chirped as we walked in different directions and I made my way to 5th period.

I barely paid attention to 5th and 6th period, it didn’t really matter though, it was just science and Latin, which are lame. It was just I couldn’t stop thinking about Lilly trying to burn me with her eyes, and whether or not she hated me. She was really beautiful, I could understand why Jimmy dated her, she seemed so much more bubbly and alive than me. But Jimmy liked me now not her, I knew that, well I mostly did.

I was actually looking forward to 7th period because that was art, which I actually enjoyed even if all I created was mediocre paintings. I sat down at my seat, we were studying famous works of art from the 16th century. Everyone seemed bored out of their minds, but I actually found it quite interesting, all these people seeing things or experiencing things that made them feel so much they had to paint it, keeping the memory forever. I wished I could draw realistically, but people are hard to draw, it’s easier to just draw things that don’t exist.

I walked out of 7th period feeling so relieved I made it through the day without committing either suicide or homicide. I walked through the hallway filled with teenagers rushing out of their classes, trying not to punch everyone that bumped into me. I always stared at everyone I walked by, half trying to see if they noticed, and half to study their faces, wondering what they could be thinking about.

I walked over to the parking lot, spotting Jimmy leaning on the hood of his truck, I couldn’t help but slightly smile upon seeing him. I stopped in my tracks, feeling my stomach knot up as I saw that he was talking to someone, she was only a bit taller than me, she had light brown hair and big brown eyes.
“Shit.” I whispered as I realized it was Lilly. Jimmy looked slightly upset at her, I couldn’t hear what he they were talking about but she looked quite solemn. I could see that Jimmy was getting furious, I looked like he was yelling at her, she gave him a pleading look as she walked away. I immediately looked down at my iPod that was in my hands, pretending I hadn’t seen what just happened as I put one of my headphones in my ear. I mindlessly scrolled through songs as I walked towards Jimmy, pausing the song upon reaching him.
“Hey” Jimmy mumbled, his eyes softened as they met mine. He was squinting due to how bright the afternoon sun was, his eyeliner was slightly smudged on his right eye, and had a sad expression on his face.
“You okay?” I asked him, putting my ipod in my bag.
“Yeah.” He smirked.
“What did you want to talk to me about?” I asked him.
“Oh um, I was just gonna ask if you wanted to hang out at matt’s, it’s just gonna be the guys and maybe Val.” He smiled.
“Yeah, that sounds good.” I grinned as I walked over to the passenger side, opening the door and getting into his truck. I put my bag on my lap, glancing over at Jimmy, who was already looking at me.
“What?” I questioned.
“Nothing.” He smirked, pulling out of the school parking lot.

Notes

so sorry I didn't update for so long, hope you liked it! p.s. Lilly isn't supposed to be based off of Leana, just look like her. comment please :3