With everything that's been going on the past couple days I had to take a breather and try and really come to terms with all of it myself. I told the boys I needed alittle time to myself until the ultrasound appointment. So Val suprised me this morning and took me on a spa day which was just what I needed. We sat in the plush chairs rambling on and on about all the craziness that's been going on while our feet were massaged and nails polished.

" So after this you wanna go check out the baby boutique that just opened? " Val asked trying to mask her excitement not only for shopping but baby shopping. She had told me how she's felt her biological clock ticking away but didn't want to push Matt because she knew he had a lot going on with his career right now. So I knew that she was secretly living vicariously through me so even though I wasn't really ready to go full on baby shopping I agreed to make her happy. I knew that no matter what in the end I was going to have a baby but It hadn't fully sunken in just yet, I was still in shock myself. But I was hopeful that once we found out who the father was everything would just piece together finally. Our in depth convo was cut mid sentence as " nothing else matters" by metallica blared from my phone signally an imcomming call as well as weird glances from the other salon patrons. I answered it quickly to silence the music.

" Hello?" I whispered, I don't know why though everyone was already staring at me causing Val to giggle beside me.

" Hey babe, I wanted to see if I could cash in that rain check for our date the other night?" Brian cheerily asked. I really didn't feel up to it but I felt bad saying no and I did have to bail on him ya know since I popped up pregnant and all out of nowhere.

" sure, just nothing crazy" I sighed, I'm sure not giving him the excitement he was looking for.

" oh ok I guess I'll have to cancel our sky diving reservation then" he chuckled. " well I'm going to pick you up tonight at nine, so be ready" he said ending the call not giving me a chance to ask what we were doing or how I should dress. Once our spa/ shopping outing was done we headed back to the house so I could get ready for my date with Brian.

" god none of my jeans fit! " I grumbled hanging my arms at my side in defeat as I started crying. These hormones were no joke and they were getting worse each day. I heard Val giggle as she walked into my room and slung her arm over my shoulder looking at our reflections in the mirror.

" Ya well babies have a way of cramping your fashion every now and then" she chuckled. " here I got you this the other day, I thought the color would look great on you" she winked presenting a flowy turquoise dress with a white strapless v neck top. Which just made me cry harder at the sentiment. I tugged off my jeans and slipped on the dress completely in awe of how great it looked on me.

" Thanks Val! I love it" I beamed throwing my arms around her neck hugging her tightly.

" anything for my baby momma" she winked lightly smacking my but making me jump. Once dressed she straightened my hair which took forever seeing that it was almost down to my waist. She gave me a natural make up look making sure to use waterproof mascara since crying at the drop of a dime was my new thing. I heard Brian pulling up in the driveway so I made my way down stairs with Val. Matt was lounging on the couch and looked up as he saw us coming down the stairs.

" Frankie you look beautiful" he smiled as he stood up to open the door for Brian. I chuckled, I felt like I was about to go to prom or something and Matt and Val were my parents.

" woah" Brian breathed out when he saw me. I felt my cheeks heat up as his eyes fully took me in. " you look absolutely gorgeous" he said just staring in awe.

" Thanks you don't look so bad yourself" I smirked walking over to take his hand.

" have her back by midnight and no funny business, or ill have to hunt you down" Matt huskily told Brian trying to sound like an authoritative father. Brian just gave him and uneasy look raising his eyebrow like he didn't know if he was being serious or not.

" Ahh I'm just fucking with you dude, have fun!" He laughed patting Brian on the back as we walked out the door and got into Brian's car.

" So I had a lot more planned for our date but I decided with all the craziness lately we could do something more low key" he smiled taking my hand intertwining our fingers and bringing it to his lips planting a quick kiss on the back of my hand. I smiled as I layed my head back on the seat watching the dark scenery fly by my window as he drove. Not too long after we pulled onto a long winding driveway that lead to a gorgeous house right on the beach.

" Is this your house?" I asked in amazement as I took it all in. Not a lot of people got to have a nice big house especially with the beach as your back yard.

" That it is" he winked getting out coming around to open my door for me. I thought I was speechless then but I when I saw the inside of his house I definitely couldn't believe my eyes. I didn't expect a single rock star to have such a clean, tastefully decorated house. He lead me into the dining room and once again like a big loser I teared up. The room was dimly lit and be had the table layed out just like you see in all the romantic movies. Flowers, candles the whole deal. It was so cute and romantic.

" oh Brian it's beautiful, you didn't have to do all this" I choked out between sobs feeling like a dweeb for being so emotional. He pulled me into his arms kissing the top of my head. " what this is nothing, you deserve much more. But I'm glad you like it. I love seeing you smile even though your crying too" he chuckled making me laugh as well. We sat and ate as we the conversation flowed effortlessly.It's like we had known each other for years, there was no awkwardness. When we finished eating Brian stood and made his way over pulling out my chair and taking my hand.

" I want to show you something" he said leading me up the stairs before I could say a word. I kept my mouth shut and followed him curious at what he was so excited about. We came to a stop in the upstairs hallway infront of a closed door.

" close your eyes" he whispered from behind me. I turned and gave him a confused look but I decided to play along and closed my eyes as I heard him turn the knob placing his hand on the small of my back leading me inside.

" okay you can open them now" he said. I stood there my heart pounding so loudly I'm sure the whole neighborhood could hear it. My eyes slowly took in everything of course until my vision was blurred out as my eyes welled up with tears. It was a nursery, he made a nursery. I was absolutely at a loss for words.

" It's just the basics right now, ya know until we find out the sex and all that" he smiled knowing that my tears were of happiness. Atleast they were at first until reality reared its ugly head and I thought about zacky and what if he was the father and not Brian.

" What if....." I mumbled not needing to finish he already knew where I was going with that.

" Even if the baby is not mine I still want you Frankie, I'm not letting you go again. Zacky will just have to deal with it if that's the case" he softly spoke I could hear the slight pain in his voice of the thought of the baby not being his.

" you are too good to me Brian, I don't deserve you" I cried turning to look into his eyes softly placing my hands on his cheeks.

" no Frankie it's the other way around. I'm not half the man you deserve but I will do everything in my power to make up for it" he said bringing his lips to mine kissing me deeply. We spent the rest of our date cuddling on the couch watching crappy B rated horror movies but I loved every second of it, because I was in Brian's arms. The next few days I felt like I was floating on cloud nine. That's until this morning, the morning of my ultrasound and paternity test. Even though I was wide awake I layed in bed until I had no choice but to get up and get ready. After I showered I headed down to the kitchen. Even though the last thing on earth I wanted to do right now was eat I knew I had to do it for my baby. So with that I for forced myself to eat a bagel and drink a glass of orange juice as I heard Brian's car pull up. I could feel the food I just ate dance around in my stomach threatening to come back up but I took a deep breath trying to fight off the urge to barf.

" Are you sure you don't need me to go with you?" Val asked, appearing In the kitchen doorway.

" no Val it's okay, I'll see when you I get back" I said walking over to her and hugging her before grabbing my purse and walking out to meet Brian and zacky. I got into Brian's car turning to say hi to zacky sitting in the back and then leaning over to give Brian a quick kiss catching zacky out of the corner of my eye make a discustd face. The rest of the ride was in silence, we were all too anxiety riden to make small talk right now. The trend continued while we sat in the waiting room waiting to be called back. Which for me couldn't come soon enough. I was receiving unwanted glares from everyone else there due to the fact I was in a prenatal office with two men. They did the math and I'm sure it equalled to them that I was a big ol' hussy.

" Frankie Perez" I heard a nurse call out as I breathed a sigh of relief that we could finally get away from all the spectators. She led us to the room to wait for the doctor. And of course other than the bed there was only one chair In the room. I guess they didn't get a lot of baby daddy mysteries in this clinic. Zacky sat in the chair and Brian leaned against the wall when the doctor walked in. I layed back on the bed and exposed my belly as he squirted the clear jelly on it.

" okay, let's see what we got here" the doctor said clapping his hands together. He placed the wand on my stomach and began slowly gliding it side to side. We all remained silent staring at the screen like any of us had the slightest clue what we were looking at besides a big black shadow.

" You see that little flutter right there?" The doctor said pointing to the screen. " that's your baby" I just stared in awe I mean I knew I was pregnant but it was still surreal to actually see the life growing inside me.

" Oh, what do we have here?" Said the doctor slightly chuckling. " and there's baby number two. Congratulations your having twins!" he exclaimed making me choke on my spit mid swallow. I quickly turned my head to look at the boys who both looked like their eyes were going to pop out of their sockets. You could have heard a pin drop it was so quiet in the room until I began laughing hysterically once the doctor left making zacky and Brian look at me in bewilderment. It just kept getting better and better I thought sarcastically. Whenever I thought stuff was starting to get back to some kind of normalcy it never failed something would come out of left field. The doctor came back in and took the sample of amniotic fluid from my belly while the boys got their mouths swabbed for the paternity tests. After we all did out part we were ushered to wait in the doctors actual office for the results. Still no one said a word since earlier well except for my hysterical laughing breakdown I had in the other room We all slightly jumped in our seats as we heard the doctor walk in with the results in his hot little hand. I just stared at the folder. That folder had all the answers, it held the answer to the biggest mystery in my life right now. I wanted to know more than anything but at the same time I was equally as terrified.

" we'll ladies and gentleman lets solve this little mystery. Shall we?" The doctor smirked as he sat behind his desk opening the folder painfully slow stopping mid way.

" drum roll please" he said as he began making the actual noise with his mouth. God of course I would get a doctor/ comedian.........I grumbled in my head. he resumed opening the folder as I clutched the arms of my chair draining all the color from my knuckles. I saw the doctors mouth part as he read over the paper before him and I knew my life was about to change forever.

Notes

I know you all probably hate me for stopping right there, but I couldn't help it ;). I will try and update tomorrow!